Kurt is exhausted at the end of the school day, and he is very quiet in the car when Blaine drives him home. He spent the rest of the day, when Blaine was in Glee, in the library doing his homework. Kurt can feel that Blaine is worried again.
«Before you ask, I'm ok. Just tired, but in a good way. Your friends were nice and very welcoming, but being around so much people all day exhaust me.»
«Oh…I wasn't…»
«Yes you were…»
«Yes I was…I just want you to feel ok»
«I do. But I think I need some time alone to charge my batteries. To relax, and get all the impressions of the last couple of days sorted out of my head. Does that make sense?»
«Kind of…So what you are saying is that you want me to go home?»
«Actually I don't want that, but I think my brain need that. I want to be with you all the time, but I can't explain it….I'm sorry.» Blaine parks the car in the Hummel's driveway and turn toward Kurt. He sighs.
«Haven't I told you not to apologize for being you. You don't have to explain, just say you need some time. I'll be waiting.»
«What have I done to deserve you?» Blaine chuckles and Kurt takes his hand.
«I have to pick up my dad from the hospital today, and I think I got some explaining to do when he gets home…
«But can I call you later?» Blaine asks hopefully.
«Of course you can.»
«And can I get a kiss, before you go?» Kurt doesn't answer, he just grabs Blaine and pulls him towards himself and kiss him. It gets heated and soon they have to break apart for air.
«God, I wanted to do that all day!» Blaine pants.
«I know…» Kurt gives him on more kiss on the lips before he goes
«Bye, Blaine, talk to you later.» He closes the door and walk up the driveway and unlocks the front door of his home.
Kurt can feel a comfortable silence surround him when he enters his house. He got an hour before he has to drive to the hospital and pick up his father. And he is going to use that for all it is worth. No sound, no one that want to talk, no on that expects something of him. Just silence, and peace and just Kurt.
He feels a little bit guilty for telling Blaine to go home, but he just need this time all by himself. There has been so much happening in Kurt's life the last couple of days and he needs to sort out his thoughts and all the impressions. Some of the things that happened has been bad, but most of it has actually been very good. But still Kurt knows that he needs to let it sink in and let his brain process what has happened.
Still, Kurt is not happy about it. Finally he has got a wonderful boyfriend, that he doesn't deserve, and after only 24 hours he is asking for space. Blaine is too kind and patient, and Kurt wonders if that will last.
Just like always it is too much. Even the good things gets too much. And Kurt needs the world to pause for a while.
An hour later Kurt is driving to the hospital. He is glad that his dad is ok and that he is coming home. But he knows that Burt probably has some questions for him about Blaine when he gets home. And Kurt can't help but to feel a bit anxious about that. What if his dad doesn't like Blaine, even though it seemed so at the hospital? What if he thinks Kurt is to young to have a boyfriend? What if he don't actually approve of him being gay now that he has a boyfriend? What if…Kurt is right back to overthinking and worrying about everything.
Kurt parks the car and mentally slaps himself. No wonder he is exhausted all the time. His dad loves him and he supports him, Kurt knows that, but his brain wander off by it self all the time. Maybe there is something wrong with it? Maybe he is the one who should be in a hospital?
«Arrgh» Kurt groans and hit the steering wheel hard. He let out his breath and walk out of the car and towards the hospital.
«Blaine,» he thinks, «I need Blaine to keep me grounded»
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