After Blaine drops Kurt of at the Hummel's house he drives home. He wishes he could have stayed with Kurt, but he knows that Kurt need to be alone and Blaine gives him space even though he wants to be around Kurt 24/7.
His mother's car is in the driveway when he get to his house. Blaine doesn't know how to feel about that. He hasn't seen or spoken to his parents for a couple of days, and his mother never answered him when he texted her on Sunday when he was at Kurt's house.
Blaine enters the house and takes of his jacket and puts his bag down before he goes into the kitchen. He is surprised to find his mother there, sitting at the table with a cup of coffee in her hands, staring in front of her. Normally she would be working with something and she never has the time to sit down and do nothing. At the sound of Blaine steps she looks up with a strange look.
«Where have you been?» She asks like she actually need to know and Blaine is surprised to hear that she is worried.
«I just got home from school…» Blaine eyes his mother tentatively.
«But you haven't been home for days, Blaine.» She answers accusingly
«I sent you a message on Sunday, about my friend that needed help, which you never answered. And if you actually have been worried, you should have called like any other normal parent!» Blaine was getting angry at this point. «What different does it make if I'm home, you are never around anyway! You don't care what I do, as long as I don't talk about the dead or who I am and just pretend that everything is fine. You just want me to be a fucking robot that doesn't make any trouble for you, just act «normal» and don't have feelings!» His mother flinches at his angry words. «But you know what?» Blaine is screaming now and letting everything out.»I'm a human being and I do have feelings and I do need my parents to love me and accept me for who I am!» Blaine is shaking of anger and he breathes fast. He continues to scream accusations at his mother and, shouts about Kevin and Kurt and in the end is all mixing together and makes no sense for anyone that hears it. When he is done, Blaine slides down on the kitchen floor while he is still shaking and his tears of anger are running down his face. All that can be heard in the room is Blaine's heartbreaking sobs.
Blaine doesn't know how long he sits on the kitchen floor, it could be seconds or minutes, but suddenly he feel the embrace of his mother. She is holding him hard against her own body, head on top of his and she whispers comforting words at him.
«I'm sorry, baby, I do love you. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry»
Half an hour later mother and son is seated at the kitchen table with one cup of coffee and on cup of hot chocolate, just like the one Blaine remembers from he was little, when everything was different in his family. He holds the cup of chocolate like it is some kind of anchor that keeps him grounded. No one is talking for a long time, but eventually his mother breaks the silence.
«I never told you about my sister, did I?» She starts. Blaine looks surprised up at her, still holding the cup in a tight grip.
«She was so beautiful, and everybody liked her. Sometimes I was even jealous at her, because she got all the attention. She never let it go to her head though, and she was my best friend. When she was 16 and I was 15, she died. Car accident. I was so broken after that. I let myself be buried in grief for so long, and I didn't know how to get out of it. My life was ruined for several years after the accident.» Blaine looks at his mother, trying to understand what she is saying. «I saw how close you where. You and Kevin. And when he got sick, I could see how the lights from your eyes were slowly disappearing, how it in a way died with him. And I couldn't let you slip away from life like I did. I didn't want you to experience that. When my sister died I was so consumed by her and her death, and I tried to not let that happen to you. That was why I acted like I did. I tried to protect you, by keeping the memories at a minimum.» Blaine stares at the woman in front of him and slowly he is catching up on what she is saying. «But I can see now that I was wrong, by not letting you grieve and remember your best friend. I'm sorry….Can you please forgive me…?» The last words came out as a whisper. Blaine is confused and don't know how to respond. He can't seem to find the right words, so the tears take over once again. Not angry tears this time, but tears of sadness, and relief maybe.
«I have so many things I got to apologize for, Blaine. To you, and to your brother. I haven't been a real mother to you for years. But I never stopped loving you. Please remember that.» The cup of chocolate in Blaine's hand is getting cold by now, his hands are still clasped around it.
«Your father left this weekend. And I don't think he will be coming back.»
«Oh…» Was all Blaine was able to let out. He didn't see that one coming either.
«He has been having an affair for a while, and when I found out, I started to think about my life. And the things that I found important isn't that important anymore. It hit me that I didn't have the slightest idea how my boys are actually doing. All I did was work. We never talk, or spend time together. I don't want to lose you too! So I left my job, the money I inherited from your grandparents will be enough for a long time. I've decided that I will do everything for you and Cooper so that you will forgive me and let me be you mother again.» Blaine can see that his mother is telling the truth and that she is determined to follow this through. He gets up and walks toward his mother, still tears in his eyes. He hugs her, and she does the same.
«I missed you, mum…»
«I missed you too, honey. But now, will you tell me about you friend? The one you spent the last couple of days with.»She looks at Blaine with a small smile «And the one that makes you blush all of a sudden.»
«O-ok.» Blaine starts. It is strange suddenly to be able to talk to his mother again, but it feel good. «His name is K-Kurt….»
A/N: I believe this story is getting closer to the end, but I'm still not sure how many chapters there are left. Please tell me how what you think so far. :) -J