Maybe I Deserve
Chapter 2
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"Hey Honey, how about you go with Barbra Jean and I to the doctors appointment?" Brock Hart asked, wanting to include Reba in every thing.
"Umm that's okay. I wouldn't feel comfortable and I don't belong there." Reba said.
"Reba, I want you to be apart of this child's life just as much as I am. Yes, Barbra Jean is the mother but you're my wife and I want you to take part in raising this child."
Reba was flattered by Brock's offer to include her but, she still felt uncomfortable about every thing. She wasn't sure how she would feel about this child once it got here, so she wanted to keep her distance but the baby would be apart of her life whether she liked it or not. Knowing this she agreed to accompany Brock and Barbra Jean.
Barbra Jean arrived at the house ready to go to the appointment with Brock. As they were leaving he signaled for Reba to come along, leaving Barbra Jean confused.
"Barbra Jean, Reba will be coming with us to the appointments. She's my wife and I think it's important to include her in every thing pertaining to this child." Brock said firmly.
Barbra Jean was a bit upset but didn't let it show. Instead of arguing she went along with it and held her comments to herself. The car ride to the doctor's appointment was driven in silence. Finally they made it to the appointment. As Barbra Jean and Brock went into the room, Reba sat in the lobby. Brock gently grabbed her hand and lead her into the doctor's office.
"No Brock, I don't think I should go in with you two. I'll just stay out here and wait." Reba said pulling away.
"Nonsense sweetheart, I want you here every step of the way come on" he said while kissing her.
Hesitantly Reba followed his lead. As the appointment proceeded she stood in the background watching the two cooing and smiling at the picture on the ultra sound. Reba couldn't help feeling jealous and envy in her heart. She wanted more than anything to leave but she didn't want to cause a scene so she stood silent.
"Oh Brock, look at our baby. It's so beautiful." Barbra Jean said.
"I know honey, he's perfect" he said while kissing her hand without thinking about it.
Reba's heart about exploded. She let out a louder than intended sigh that wasn't suppose to be heard by anyone else. Everyone including the doctor looked her way.
"Reba come look at the baby." Brock insisted. Reba slowly walked closer towards them and looked at the baby on the screen. She couldn't help feeling indifferent towards the unborn child. Unable to control herself, Reba walked out of the doctor's office and sat in the car.
He was about to run after her when Barbra Jean grabbed his hand.
"Brock we're almost done. Just stay, please."
Brock went over in his mind what he should do, finally deciding to stay with Barbra Jean. Reba sat in the car, surprised that Brock hadn't come running after her. She wanted to cry but she wouldn't let herself. After a while Brock and Barbra Jean were in the car ready to go. Every so often Brock would look in the rearview mirror and look at Reba. She was silently looking out the window, purposely avoiding his stare. Once they were home, Barbra Jean wanted to stay and talk about the baby some more but Brock insisted she go home and get rest, knowing that Reba had all she could take about the whole baby thing for today.
Once she was gone, Brock slowly made his way to the kitchen where Reba was absent mindedly preparing dinner.
"Reba I know today was uncomfortable for you, I'm sorry. I just don't want you to feel left out." Brock said feeling he needed to defend himself.
Reba said nothing so Brock continued.
"Honey talk to me, lets discuss this."
"Discuss what Brock, how she's throwing this pregnancy in my face, or how she's coming on to you at every turn."
"Oh be fair she is not. Barbra Jean's just happy about having a baby. What do you want me to do Reba, I can't abandon her."
"I'm not asking you to. But stop trying to suck me into this sick world that you two live in. I don't want anything to do with her or this child. Sorry Brock but I can't just get over it like you want me too."
"I'm not asking you to get over it, I'm asking you to try to embrace the reality that is me having a baby with Barbra Jean."
"Brock how would you feel if the shoe was on the other foot? How would you like it if I went out and cheated on you and got pregnant? Would you be forgiving and willing to embrace it?"
With that said Reba walked out of the kitchen, leaving Brock stunned and pondering his thoughts. What if things were different and Reba had cheated and gotten pregnant? Would he have been understanding and forgiving? The thought of Reba being with another man killed Brock and if the situation were different he knew that he wouldn't be as cooperative like Reba had.