My Konstantine
Summary: Bella abandoned Jacob years ago to marry Edward. Now divorced and a bestselling author of the Midnight series she thinks back on the boy she left behind. Jacob Black, has finally hit the big time, with his hit record My Never. He's put all his pain in his music and his love for Bella Swan has left him bitter. When he performs a concert in Forks, at the same time Bella's doing her book signing, their reunion doesn't go as planned.
Chapter Two: And The Places That You Go, When The Lights Are Turned Down Low
"People can become addicted to fame, money, and attention as deeply as they become addicted to drugs."
― Dennis Prager, Think a Second Time
Jacob had finished performing his new song "I don't care," and watched as his fans scream his name and beg for an encore.
"WE LOVE YOU, JACOB!"
It felt good to be wanted for once.
He was smirked at the audience, who were wearing his band items. He winked at a woman in a red T-shirt with black and gold lettering "I love Jacob", with his face on it and paw prints. He waved at a little girl holding what appeared to be a hand-sewn doll of himself, hugging it to her chest. He even saw a dude wearing a hoodie with a shirtless picture of himself on it.
He smirked at the crowd and winked at a few groupies. A few swooned, others screamed, and one really hot one lick her lips at him.
Oh yeah, he was definitely getting laid tonight.
"Do you want more?" Jacob shouted and the audience went crazy.
"Well, tell me what you want you want to hear!"
There was a loud roar as people shouted out his songs.
"Sing My Never!" someone in the crowd yelled and Jacob flinched, as the majority of the audience agreed.
My Never.
He had written it at the spur of the moment during one of his lower moment. Back when he was young and heartbroken.
Now his music was bitter, containing a not so hidden rage, that he bared for the audience to see.
"My Never, My Never," The crowd began to chant.
He was about to suggest another song, when his bandmates started playing the music for the song. Jacob shot them a glare over his shoulder and Leah returned his glare with a smirk.
"Will you think of me in time," he began, his voice strong and loud over the music – without shouting. "it's never my luck so never mind. I want to say your name but the pain starts again,"
A hush fell as he sang. He fought the pang he felt as he sang the words he memorized by heart. It was this song that made his career, and it was this song that he wanted to bury at the bottom of the ocean.
Because it was about her.
When he first started, a lot of his music had been about her, but this song. This one song had been written especially for her. A moment of weakness, a manager to nosy for his own good, and friends who had no shame had brought him to this moment.
If he had burned the sheet music when he had a chance, then this wouldn't have happened. But he also wouldn't be famous so…
"I can only dream of you and sleep that I never see the sunlight again. I can try to be with you but I'll end up losing a friend and I can only reach for you. relate to you, I'm losing my friend where did she go. Where…" Jacob put his heart into the music and watched the audience sway from side to side.
He wanted this. No, that wasn't right. He needed this. The sound of the crowd screaming his name, the look of adoration in their eyes.
"I've never been here before, but I saw forever in my never and I stood outside her heaven,"
When he finished his song, the crowd went wild and Jacob basked in their praise, letting it balm the wound in his chest. They loved him. His fans loved him. A few would probably die for him, which was a little over the top, but they cared and that's what mattered.
As the band was packing up to go, Jacob took the time to sign autographs and take pictures with his fans. He snuck one of his groupies back stage for an encore after the encore. He got her number afterwards and promised to call…but he probably wouldn't.
"That was awesome, Man!" Quil said, giving him a high-five when he got on the tour bus.
"I know," Jacob said, smugly.
Leah rolled her eyes at him, from her seat by the window and Jacob dropped into the seat next to her.
"What's the matter, Lee? Mad that we didn't do your song?" Jacob teased and Leah shoved him.
"Shut up, you know I'm right. The crowd doesn't just want to listen to your songs about hate and sex. They want more than that." Leah growled and Jacob laughed.
"It's my songs about sex and hate that are putting us on top," Jacob replied.
"No, it's your song about pain and longing that put us on top. The other crap is just a bonus to keep us in the top 40," Leah stated and Jacob frowned.
"So, your saying I write crappy music?" Jacob questioned and Leah shook her head.
"No, the music is good," Leah admitted, "but it could be great! We could be great!"
Jacob sighed.
"Fine, we'll put a few of your songs into our next set list." Jacob gave in, reluctantly.
"Thank you," Leah said, "But you could write something deep yourself, instead of making me do it."
Jacob shrugged.
"Maybe I like being shallow," he said and Leah made a noise of disgust.
"You were deep once. It's how you wrote your first hit,"
"Yeah, well that was a long time ago. You can only write what you know," Jacob said, "And right now, hate and sex are what I'm best at,"
"Whatever," Leah scoffed, "Now get me a glass of wine, Mr. superstar,"
"Whatever, Diva," Jacob stuck out his tongue at her, as he got to his feet, "You're drinking a beer just like the rest of the guys,"
"I'm not a guy," Leah protested and Jacob smirked.
"I know, I've seen you naked before, remember?"
Leah's face turned red, with anger or embarrassment Jacob didn't know. Then it faded and she sent a haughty look.
"Bet it was the highlight of your life," she purred and then Jacob was the one turning red.
"It was a very eye opening moment," he admitted then ran off to go get her drink.
Leah 6, Jacob 4
He grabbed a beer from the mini fridge and jumped when someone poked him in the back. He turned around and found Seth smiling at him.
"What do you want?" he asked, tired.
Seth was great….in moderation.
Kid was too happy and optimistic for Jacob's liking.
"We're in Seattle." Seth said and Jacob raised an eyebrow. "That means we'll be passing by Forks,"
"Thank you, Map." Jacob said, "This has been a really educational episode of Dora the explorer. Now, adios. I have to get this beer to your sister before she kills me,"
Seth smile just grew wider.
"Can we stop in Forks for a few days?" Seth asked and Jacob glared at him.
"No,"
"Please, Jake! I want to see my mom!" he begged, giving Jacob his best puppy-eyes.
"No, it'll put us behind schedule," Jacob said, coldly and turned to walk away but Seth grabbed the back of his shirt.
"Come on, Jacob! A few days won't make a difference!"
"I said No!" Jacob snapped and Seth looked hurt.
Jacob sighed and handed Seth one of the beers in his hand.
"Don't tell your sister I yelled at you," he ordered, and patted Seth on the back.
Seth looked at the beer in his hands then smirked, eyes glinting dangerously.
"I won't tell her if you let me visit my mom," Seth bargained.
"No," Jacob stated firmly.
"Then I'll tell her you yelled at me and gave me beer," Seth announced.
"You're 23 years old," Jacob said and Seth shrugged.
"You think Leah will care. You'll still be the guy who gave her baby brother alcohol."
Jacob's eyes widened.
"You wouldn't dare," Jacob growled, voice low and threatening.
"Try me," Seth shot back and the two stared each other down for a few seconds.
Jacob wasn't scared of Leah. He had no trouble picking on her or pissing her off…but messing with her baby brother brought out another side of Leah.
Pissed Leah he could deal with.
Pissed off-you-just-messed-with-my-Brother-So-I'm-going-to-ripoff-your-face-and-feed-it-to-the Wolves-Leah was another story.
"Fine," Jacob growled and Seth smiled. "Give me back my beer, brat,"
Seth handed over the beer without argument and Jacob walked away wishing that he'd never let the Clearwater's join his band.
Though without them it probably wouldn't be considered a band. More like a solo artist.
Seth was the first to join, Leah came next, following after her wayward brother. Then, after he made it to the big time, Quil and Embry asked to be a part of the magic.
"What took you so long?" Leah complained, as he handed her the drink.
"Tell Embry that we're making a stop." Jacob said through fritted teeth. "We're going to Forks,"
Leah raised an eyebrow but, thankfully, didn't ask the reason for the sudden change in plans.
Jacob let out a frustrated breath and laid his head in his hands.
Forks, Washington
He hadn't been back there in almost 8 years. He left the second he was finished with high school and he hadn't looked back. His dad had finally admitted to the fact that he had an affair with Tiffany Call, making Embry his half-brother, and the two were living together.
Jacob shook his head and got up to go to his room. There were a lot of bad memories in Forks. Things that were better off forgotten…things that had been aired for the world to see when she wrote her book.
Jacob pulled out the copy of her last book. He turned to the dedication page and chuckled bitterly.
For Jacob, I'm sorry.
An apology seven years too late.
He pulled out his notebook and grabbed a pen.
You can only write what you know, right?
Well, Jacob Black was all hatred on the inside and sex on the outside.
Hate is a strong word, but I really, really, really don't like you. Now that it's over, I don't even know what I liked about you
He just needed to add some music, and he had a new song for their next concert. He looked over at the purple notebook that contained Leah's songs.
Leah was going to be pissed if he didn't at least consider a few of her songs.
He sighed, and flipped through the pages until he found one that he liked.
She wasn't going to be happy with just one, not after he promised her a few.
Jacob groaned.
Sometimes, being the bandleader sucked.
Author's note: This chapter was just a little glimpse to let you know who Jacob is now. Next chapter will be Jacob and Bella big meeting.
Songs:
I don't care -Three days Grace
My never -Blue October
Hate (I Really Don't Like You) - Plain White T's
YouTube vid that inspired Jacob's song that made him famous: watch?v=QfDY3i3QVCY