Chapter 20 Rogue And Sting's True Feelings
Ohayo Minna! YAY! ALMOST 70 REVIEWS! 0u0! So anyway, I decided to upload this chapter too because I was pretty bored and could have done something useful to help with tests but I didn't and here I am now! Enjoy! This'll explain why exactly Rogue and Sting are acting the way they are.
Rogue's P.O.V
After we gave up rapping at the window we went to our rented apartment and went to bed. And we should have been asleep. I should have. But I'm not, my thoughts are completely filled with her...with SilverFang...a small smile made its way onto the shadow-dragon-slayer's face.
She was the only one who understood him.
She knew how painful and difficult it was to stay indifferent and emotionless when inside you could be screaming, crying and dying of pain...slowly shattering away into unrecognisable pieces.
She knew that.
She was living it.
Somehow he knew...he knew she was not who she said she was...she was Lucy...the blonde celestial mage...that used to be o-so bubbly and happy...
He saw her suffrage...
He saw her happiness...
He saw all those emotions swirling around inside of her...
All of those heart-breaking emotions causing chaos inside her already broken and scared spirit...
And all because of one person...
All because of the pink-haired-pyro...
Natsu Dragneel.
She took on all that pain.
All of it by-herself.
Hiding behind fake emotions...never truly letting her feelings show...
He closed his eyes and sighed before opening them back up and looked out of the window, outside rain pouring down hard with occasional lightning and thunder.
She understood him so well.
She made him feel loved.
She made him feel safe.
She made him feel at home.
So, even if he couldn't become her special someone...even she couldn't be his...he could always be that adoring brother or son...
And she could always be...his favorite big sister...or mom...
Sting's P.O.V
I lay on my side, staring out the window at the lightning as it flashed and disappeared.
Mist.
SilverFang.
Mist SilverFang.
Lucy.
Heartfillia.
Lucy Heartfillia.
I never would have guessed it was you.
I never would've thought you turning to us.
Never would have thought you would have told us...even though...you had plenty of others to tell...
But I am impressed...
You're standing there...
Next to him...
Going through so much pain...and heartbreak...
But you're still smiling...still acting happy so he'll smile...
Still doing what he wants because even after what he put you through...
You still love him...
You still want to love him...
You still need to love him...
But you can't...because you're scared...
Because you don't want it to happen again...
For him to reject you...
For him to leave you...
You must have guts...and unbelievable strength to still stand there...
To still sit there...in the same room as him...
And to have him hold you...like he used to...when you thought he loved you...and now have to suffer with your mixed feelings...that are still there...
Sting sighed quietly to himself and shook his head
He wanted her to love him...
To care for him...
To get over the 'Salamander'...so she could maybe...just maybe unlock a place in her heart...with him...
He wanted it...He craved her attention...and her affection...
He was selfish...
He knew that...
But still...he could dream..that if maybe...just maybe 'Salamander' hadn't been keen on keeping her...that he...
Sting Eucliffe...
Could've had a chance...
The chance where all worries would go away...where she would love him back...
But life can't always let you have what you want...so he'll stay in his place...
As her favorite little son or brother...
And her...His loving and adoring Big-sister...or mom...
So yeah, this is what Sting and Rogue feel about her. Sorry RoLu and StiCy fans! I actually like the pairings RoLu, ZerLu, MiLu (midnightxLucy), and ZanLu (ZancrowxLucy) as well as NaLu! I also like GaLu (gajeelxlucy) too even though I love the GaLe pairing! Right, anyway, since this is really short, I'll try updating the next chapter today too, or at least get started writing on it! Don't forget! 3-5 reviews for the next chapter! Bye-bye minna! *hands out apple-tarts* :3 ~Cherrila ^-^o