Dear Elena,

I'm sorry. I needed time to think...to sleep on it. Yesterday, Kai kissed me.

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First, it's his hands on either side of her face. Then, his peppermint breath assaulting her sense of smell. She takes in his physical appearance; there is the tiniest beauty mark under his left eye and he looks as if he hasn't slept in days. He is beautiful. There is a rushing sound in her ears, and she can't focus on anything but his strangled voice saying her name.

Her eyes flutter closed as she feels him drawing near. And then, suddenly, as if he can't hold back any longer -

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He's a damn good kisser, too.

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Bonnie's entire body freezes when their lips lock together. Kai's are chapped and warm, creating friction as they sync with hers. His head immediately tilts to the right, unintentionally deepening the kiss. His hand slowly slides into her hair.

But they are both only human.

Her lungs constrict and she breaks away first. She stumbles without his arms to support her. Her breathing is ragged, and she doesn't need to see him to know that he is in the same state. She delays the moment that she has to look into his eyes, staying in the same position for a minute. Slowly, she pushes off from the wall and quietly walks to him. His head is hung low, one finger running over his bottom lip. She can't quite see his expression and so she settles for reaching over to him and murmuring, "Kai?"

He flinches when her fingers touch his arm and she immediately pulls back. "I - I'm sorry."

"It's fine, I just - " He clears his throat and turns to her. His eyes are darker than usual. "You're so - " He cuts himself off and before she can say anything, moves towards her again, slotting his lips with hers. She subconsciously backs up until she hits the wall, and the sound causes them to jump apart. Kai's hands leave her waist and move up above her head, effectively trapping her in between him and the wall.

"Tell me to stop," Kai murmurs, but then he is brushing his lips against her shoulder, and anything Bonnie could have said right then fades away. Why does he want to stop when his actions say anything but? His movements are slow, languid - he kisses from her shoulder to the crook of her neck. "Tell me to stop," he repeats, lips ghosting over the tip of her ear, before he grazes her earlobe with his teeth. A shiver runs down Bonnie's back, but she brushes it off when he trails his mouth along her jawline. She subconsciously tilts her head up, craving more of his touch.

"Bonnie," he groans, frustration colouring his tone, "tell me to stop."

"No," she finally says, and their lips fuse together again.

There's something in the way he does it, like he wants to tell her something. Like he wants her to understand something. A small voice in the back of her head is telling her to stop, to slow down, to think. But he isn't stopping and his hand brushes against her thigh and the thought is diminished. She walks backwards, pulling him with her, and they fall over on her bed. Kai rolls her over so that he is on top.

"I'm not going to do anything you don't want me to," he says.

"I know," Bonnie whispers just as the door swings open.

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I don't know what would have happened if Caroline hadn't walked in. Remember that time Caroline and I caught you and Damon in the dorm last year? It was like that...just way less nudity and twice the humiliation. Note to self: don't ever again initiate a make-out session where anyone can walk in on you. Namely, Caroline Forbes, queen of boys, gossip, and drama, etc.

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"Oh, my god!" Caroline's voice rings out from the hallway and Bonnie flushes, pushing Kai off of her. They both shoot up, adjusting their clothing, and in the process, knocking over the picture frame on her bedside table.

"Are you naked?" the unwelcome guest exclaims, covering her eyes and turning around.

"No! God! Would you please knock next time?"

"Need I remind you that this is our dorm? So next time, can you please tell me if you're having someone over?"

"Okay, I'm going to go now," Kai, who has been awkwardly standing there, scratching his ear, cuts in.

"That would probably be best," Bonnie agrees, looking over at him. "But...I'll text you."

"Yeah?" he asks, momentarily distracted, but Caroline crosses her arms and clears her throat, whilst giving him a glare that could rival a tiger's, and so he leaves.

The blonde immediately turns to her best friend, raising an eyebrow. "Okay, so?"

"So what?" Bonnie fiddles with the sleeve of her shirt, looking down.

"Don't do that to me, Bon," Caroline groans. "Spill."

"We didn't do anything, I swear!"

"Really?" Caroline is clearly unconvinced. "Because I'm pretty sure he was on your bed, on top of you, when I walked in."

"We just kissed, okay?"

"And how was it?"

"Pretty damn good," Bonnie admits and smiles to herself.

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Anyway, I can't stop thinking about it. I kissed a guy! I mean, not even just a guy. He's the epitome of tall, dark, and handsome. And super cute and romantic. God. It's not even just that. I haven't kissed anyone in forever. Almost 2 years. Since high school? Wow. That's sad.

I kissed Kai. This is officially ridiculous. I'm laughing at how guy and Kai rhyme. Dear God, please help me.

Caroline's telling me to stop writing and get some fresh air. Hypocrite. She's been inside all weekend binge-watching Agents Of SHIELD. (I can't blame her, Chloe Bennet is gorgeous. And we almost share the same name, holy shit.)

Okay. Miss you always. Will update soon.

Love,

Bonnie

A/N: Oh god, it's been a while. Since, what, November? I have many excuses - finals week, writer's block, etc. but they all don't matter. Sorry sorry sorry!

I apologize for this chapter being short as well, ugh, but here's the good news: Chapter 5 is already in the works and it's going to be so much fun. Bonnie and Kai are finally a thing and it's Halloween in the THS-universe. And there is quite a bit of alcohol involved ;)

Thank you to all the people who have followed, favorited, and reviewed this fic. Until next time.

-Nina