Snow White and the Walking Dead (Part IV)

by jennifbl

Life at the prison is almost everything Gwen wanted. She just needs to make it perfect but when Illness strikes and the prison is attacked Gwen works even harder to keep the prison on its feet. How will she handle it when she realises it's another dead dream?

26. Widower

Daryl's P.O.V

Why did I start drinking? Now I'm arguing with an 18 year old after going crazy by shooting a walker with bolts over and over until Beth ended it, now we're here, arguing.

"What do you want from me, girl, huh?" I yell at Beth

"I want to you stop acting like you don't give a crap about anything. Like nothing we went through matters. Like none of the people we lost meant anything to you. It's bullshit!"

Who the hell does this kid think she is? "Is that what you think?" I yell at her

"That's what I know." She replies

"You don't know nothing!" I snap at het angrily

"I know you look at me and you just see another dead girl. I'm not Michonne. I'm not Carol. I'm not Maggie. I'm not Gwen. I've survived and you don't get it 'cause I'm not like you or them. But I made it and you don't get to treat me like crap just because you're afraid." She yells at me through tears

"I ain't afraid of nothing." I grow at her

"I remember. When that little girl came out of the barn after my mom. You were like me. And now God forbid you ever let anybody get too close!" Beth snaps at me

"Too close, huh? I was married! But you, you lost two boyfriends, you can't even shed a tear. Your whole family's gone, all you can do is just go out looking for hooch like some dumb college bitch." I can feel a lump growing in my throat

"Screw you. You haven't shed a tear either! I thought you loved Gwen!" Beth yells

Anger boils in my blood "Don' you ever tell me that I don' love her! She's dead! There's nothin' I can do about it! Everyone we know is dead!" I scream at her

"You don't know that!" She shouts back

"Might as well be, 'cause you ain't never gonna see 'em again. Gwen. You ain't never gonna see Maggie again." I lose control.

Beth tries to grab my arm "Daryl, just stop."

I pull away from her and turn my back to hide my tears "No! The Governor rolled right up to our gates. Maybe if I wouldn't have stopped looking. Maybe 'cause I gave up. That's on me. He killed my wife and I could've prevented that!" The Governor took my brother, then he takes my wife.

Beth hugs me from behind tightly "Daryl."

"No- And your dad. Maybe- maybe I could have done something." I sob. She's gone, I'll never see her again.