Chapter One

I felt even more uncomfortable at school than I did messaging Light. For some odd reason I felt that everyone knew what happened. Well, if they didn't they'd find out sooner or later.

"Hey L!" Light greeted me while putting one arm over my shoulder. "What ya` been up to?"

Everyone seemed to be looking at us strangely. I whispered to Light to remove him arm, but when I did he asked what was wrong. "I'm, uh… not used to this attention. Now please, remove your arm. I also don't like to be touched."

He did proceed to keep his hands to himself, however kept on with his obnoxious talking. I thanked God for letting me have first period to myself. But then the silence ended once second period started. Light chose the seat right next to mine, which I predicted to be not a very good idea. Ms. Dwindle started the class up with some math equations.

My concentration was being thrown off by, of course, Light. Who seemed to never cease his talking. "Hey bro, did you see the rack on Isabel today? Damn, what a sweet pair she has, huh?"

I was disgusted by the comment he just made. Just totally revolting. Makes me want to gouge my tongue out and fling it at his face just to make him shut the hell up. If this is normal talk of the modern man then I want nothing to do with humanity.

"Whoa, by ur expression I can tell you're not into that." He leaned in closer to my ear. "But then what are you into?"

His body shot up straight by the yell of Ms. Dwindle, "Light Yagami! What are you talking about back there?! Would you care to share that with the rest of us?!"

Light slouched in his chair, "no, I don't particularly want to. But if you insist then I'll fill you in. I asked L what he was into because he made a disgusted looking face when I asked if he saw Isabel's rack yet today."

While in the Dean's waiting room Light told me, "hey, sorry about earlier. I sometimes get fired up but then just explode. It's been worse than that a couple times before."

I stared at my feet, "sorry? Sorry?! Now the whole school thinks I'm gay and all I get is a sorry?! What the hell man?! Is that what 'friends' do now 'a days? Tell the whole class that your friend is gay?!"

Light tilted his head, "so you ARE gay?"

"What? No. I just don't look for that stuff, you know? I'm not interested in anything or anyone."

"Oh." The Dean then stepped out of her office and called us in. I was terrified of what was to come. I had never been in the Dean's office before. I had never gotten in trouble at school before. This was all so new, and all so frightening.

The Dean, Mrs. Henten, looked at us both angrily. "Light, I can kind of suspect this from you. But L, I am very disappointed in you, your file was clean until this happened. What did you have to say for yourselves?"

I ended up getting detention for a week. I wonder if my mother will finally talk to me now that this happened. Probably not, she probably won't even know how to handle the situation since she hasn't spoken to me in a long time. While walking out the school doors to go home, Light caught up to me.

"Hey L, I was wondering if you wanted to hang sometime? You know, to make our friendship stronger and stuff?" He managed to show a slight smile.

"Um, I don't know Light. I'll text you." I continued to walk towards the side walk that leads to home. I heard Light say goodbye from behind me, so I waved my hand in the air to acknowledge him. While on my walk home, I pictured my pathetic mother just sitting on the living room couch, not doing anything about today.

I walked up my driveway, and I actually got excited at the thought of being punished. Well, at least I got her attention. At least I got her to look at me. That's all I need to be satisfied. I walked up to the front door and slowly turned the door knob. The door creaked open, and I peeked my head inside. No one was to be seen. Not a soul.

I searched the house, but nothing. Then I thought of to check the driveway for any cars. Mom's was missing, mine was there though. You might be wondering why I have a car but ride the bus. I have my license; I just don't like to drive. Period.

I became disappointed at the fact that I had not gained her attention. I was still just a shadow that walks around the house, eats food, and occasionally watches television.

I waited for her. But she didn't come home until midnight, and I had already lost my interest in this whole ordeal. But wait, if I lost interest then why am I still thinking about it? The whole scene plays endlessly in my mind as I lie on my bed staring at the ceiling. How can I get her attention? I almost got it today. Maybe I just need to push a little harder. Try for a little longer. And then I WILL get my victory.

I calculated all of the possible endings this road would lead me. None of them are horrible, but not delightful either. And I also needed an aid during all my wrong doings. And who knows, this might actually be a lot of fun.

I know now how I'm going to get her attention. I will do wrong until she just explodes. And I will be right there when it happens. Laughing. Enjoying her misery and disappointment.

And I knew exactly who my aid was going to be. So I messaged Light: "Hey, you're right, we should hang one of these days."