Chapter Three

Spending the night at Light's house was not at all bad. I loved it. I had dinner with his family, played video games, watched movies, and occasionally kissed Light. In the morning his mother made breakfast.

Before she called us to breakfast though, Light and I were already awake. I asked Light, "Light, what does this all mean? Are we dating now? Because I don't think our school buddies know that you, or I, are gay."

Light looked at me, and then pulled me in to cuddle. His arms were around my waist, and he placed his head above mine. I loved this feeling inside of me. Light then softly spoke, "I don't know what we are going to do yet L. My parents don't know I'm gay, and they don't know you are either. I haven't told anyone, so why don't we just keep it a secret for now?"

"Oh, ok Light. Oh…and Light…"

"What is it L?" Light looked at me confused.

"Light… what do you see in me? Why me? I'm so pale and scrawny. So quiet and nerdy. I don't understand, you had your choice of so many fine men but you instead chose me. Why?"

Light was obviously blow away by my complicated question. After a few minutes passed he spoke from the heart, "you're not scrawny L, you're cute. And quiet and nerdy are so attractive, why would I choose anything else. You're so soft and smooth, just as I predicted. Your skin is like silk, and your black hair is so soft as well. You're just perfect L, and don't ever think differently."

Light was so charming, he made me feel so loved. And I loved him for that. I loved being in his arms with my head against his chest so I could hear his steady heartbeat. I felt safe with him, so secure and untouchable.

But the moment had to be ruined by the loud shout of his mother calling us in for breakfast. Damn. Breakfast was delicious though. Waffles, bacon, and orange juice. Yummy. That's better than anything that I would've had at my house.

Before leaving for school, I thanked for a wonderful night and breakfast and hoped that we could do this again sometime. When Light and I arrived at school, nothing had changed. Everything was the same as last time we were here. Well, everything except for us.

School went by slower than normal. The lunch lady wasn't here. But I didn't trip her because, of course, at that time I was ditching. Maybe they just think it was me because of all my terrible actions lately. Rather than doing some high-pay job I'd want a life of crime with Light. That would be so much more… interesting.

After about four months, Light and I decided to do something fun. So we went to a gay bar. Light was friends with the bar tender, so he didn't ask for ID. We both were only 18 and under the drinking age after all.

Light has introduced me to many things, but this was the most extreme out of all of them. A bar? I would have never done this if I hadn't met Light. But this isn't just a bar, this is a gay bar. Filled with sexy-sweaty men just dying to sleep with each other. Marvelous.

When Light and I walked into the bar, I was practically hiding behind him. I saw men making their Oo's and aw's at Light, but I knew that he was mine. Light kept on trying to comfort me while we headed to the bar to get a couple drinks, but it wasn't working. I was still as nervous and afraid as I was when we walked in. We got to the bar and Light ordered us some beers. I wonder if Light has gotten wasted before? I wonder if he's even still a virgin? And if not, who did he have sex with? Too many difficult questions at once, I need to get a buzz going now so I'll loosen up.

The man behind the bar handed us our drinks and Light, like the gentlemen he is, opened mine up for me. I held the glass bottle in my hands. It was cold. Light had already taken a few swallows. I needed to catch up. I took a small sip. The first taste was suttle and bitter. It didn't taste good at all. I made a small cough and Light laughed. "Ha-ha! I take it this is your first drink! Ah, you'll get used to it."

A man came over and gave me what they call 'the look.' "What's this guy doing here? I haven't seen him before."

Light openly told him, "Oh, this is his first bar."

The man chuckled then suggested I drink a little more then come and dance on the dance floor. So I did, and I began to float on clouds. Light lead me out and we danced for what felt like hours. My head got dizzy, but I was, partially aware of what was going on.

After the bar, Light took me to a place that I had not seen before. It was next to a large pond, and I could see the city on the other side of the water. It was so beautiful. And I remember everything so clearly.

Light carried me onto the soft grass, and we held hands. I remember whispering in Light's ear, "Make love to me…"

I remember him asking if I was sure, if I was ready for such a large step. If I was ready to give him my virginity, the most important thing to a person before they choose to give it away. I took minutes to think about his question, and I answered with a… no, I just wanted him to know how I felt.

Light held me tighter; he brushed his face in my hair, and assured me that that was alright. That he could wait for me to be ready, and that there was no rush.

That he'd wait until the end of time.