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Oliver opened the passenger door and gently lifted Felicity out of the car. He didn't want to wake her, so he had already taken her room key out of her handbag. Deftly he opened the door to her room, his IT girl held safely in his arms.

When he entered the room, he was shocked. Clothes and empty vodka bottles were strewn everywhere. Gently he placed Felicity on the bed, taking off her coat and shoes. Felicity mumbled something in her sleep that he couldn't understand, then she turned over and let out a deep breath.

Oliver took a good long look at her. She seemed even smaller than before, much more vulnerable – and all of it was his fault. For just a moment Oliver thought about returning to his own room, but he decided against it. Too great was his fear that in the morning she might be on the run again. No, he had to explain everything to her and lay his cards on the table. He picked up the discarded vodka bottles, threw the empty ones into the trash and took the others into the bathroom, pouring their contents down the drain. It couldn't go on like this; he remembered that Felicity had told him how much she had hated her mother for drinking all the time.

When the room was cleaned up again, Oliver went over to his room to pick up a pillow and blanket, returned to her room and lay down on her couch. Sleep refused to come, he couldn't get the image of Felicity on the stage in her short red dress out of his mind. She had never mentioned that she had an incredible singing voice. If he didn't love her already, he would have fallen in love with her at that moment.

Just as he was about to finally drift off, he heard Felicity whimper. Immediately he jumped up, went over to the bed and sat down beside her. Her hair was damp and there was a sheen of sweat on her face. Suddenly she started flailing her arms. "No, no, don't…please…. mooooooooom!" she cried out.

"Hey, hey, Felicity, it's okay, wake up, it's just a bad dream," Oliver said soothingly. At first, Felicity didn't react, then she suddenly shot up and clutched him tightly, as if her life depended on him. Oliver wrapped his arms around her and closed his eyes. He had been waiting for just such a moment for so long, but under very different circumstances.

"I'm here, I've got you, nothing can happen to you, okay?" His soft voice was like a soothing balm for her soul. Even if he had broken her heart, Oliver Queen was like a drug; he might hurt her, but she needed him to survive. On the one hand she hated this dependency, because she had always been her own woman, but on the other hand she was grateful for the fact that there was someone in her life who was there for her and worried about her.

Oliver loosened his hold to look at her, and her said and fear-filled eyes hit him right in the heart. "Felicity, I'm sorry, I didn't want to hurt you. That thing with Sara shouldn't have happened, there's no excuse for that, I know. But I was so confused in that moment, after all that had happened with Thea and my mother, I just wanted to feel something other than grief and desperation, I wanted to feel safe."

Felicity couldn't hold his gaze, so she closed her eyes, a few tears trickling down her face. "Why her?"

Oliver let out a long, heavy breath. "Because in that moment she didn't expect anything from me, no love, no feelings… we know each other. We both knew that it was nothing more than sex to stop our thoughts and our loneliness. Sara loves Nyssa and she's on her way to her to disappear together."

"Why didn't you come to me? I would have been there for you, too."

"It would have been wrong, Felicity. I love you. I want a relationship with you, not just a one night stand; you're far too good for that."

The words were meant to sound reassuring, but all they did was hurt her. He loved her but slept with another woman? The alcohol, her nightmares about the past, his words…it was all too much. She wanted to be strong, but she just couldn't, too many emotions were warring in her head and in her heart.

"I trusted you, Oliver. I completely changed my life for you. I told you about my past, I would give my life for you and all you have is a feeble excuse that I'm too good for a night with you? You love me, but you sleep with a woman you don't love? I don't understand. I though love means respecting and cherishing each other and only wanting to be with each other. Am I just too old fashioned and that's why I'm alone? Or was my mother right and I'm nothing more than a stupid mistake, who doesn't deserve to live and be happy?" Her voice became more and more brittle and the trickle of tears had turned into a veritable flood. Oliver tried to take her into his arms again, but she resisted. "You'd better go now, Oliver."

His jaw clenched. He couldn't just go, not like this.

"I won't go, Felicity. I'm not giving you up without a fight. What you described, that's exactly what love is, and I was a damn idiot for not telling you sooner. I stayed away from you because I was afraid to hurt you." He tried to touch her again, and when he took her hand she didn't pull back. "Felicity, I thought you deserve someone better than me. What am I? A broken billionaire, who has made an awful lot of mistakes in his life. My body and mind are covered with scars that will never heal. Felicity, you always seemed so perfect to me. You were so far removed from the darkness that surrounds me. The closer we worked together, the more I felt how good you are for me, that your rambling and your support make my life worth living. You believe in me and bring me back down to earth when my emotions and my rage get the better of me. I love you more than anyone or anything else in my life and I don't want just one meaningless night, I want to spend my life, my future with you. Not just the job, but everything. Felicity, give me a chance and I swear to God I won't disappoint you again. I need you…I love you and I'm complete only with you."

Slowly his lips came closer to hers and Felicity's heart began to beat fast and erratically. "Oliver," she whispered, but before she could get any farther, his lips touched hers and she could feel the swarm of butterflies in her belly spread throughout the rest of her body.