Sorry. Hiatus. Tests

and other school projects. Chemistry... urghh I hate it thanks god it's half over.

Anyway. New update.

I was suggested to have a Beta Reader. I don't know how to find one so... anyone of you are one?

For a review said Mikasa had a pouty mouth ( cursed and swore too much ). well I read many eremika fanfics. many rated T as the author stated clearly the reason was Mikasa had a pouty mouth. I think it's kinda the character. we all see her as frustrated character. she had so much to think about, to organize that sometimes the stress is released through cursing, swearing. I do it all the time. I didn't mean anything bad, it's just a way to release stress for me. My friends do that a lot to.

Anyway. Back to story.

Enjoy.

After the huge plan, Eren was sleeping in the clinic. His energy must have ran out.

Mikasa sat next to the bed, Armin and Jean stood nearby.

"Things got out of hand..." - Armin mumbled.

"At least we got her..." - Mikasa said.

"The city was badly destroyed." - Jean spoke "How is that good?"

"Sacrificing is needed." - Mikasa looked at Jean "Only the outskirt was badly destroyed. It is less terrible than it supposed to be, thanks to the poison. So don't complain."

"I know.. BUT -"

"Jean, quiet." - Mikasa placed a finger on her lips "Eren needs some rest."

"Uhm...sorry..." - Jean apologized.

The door opened.

"The meeting is being held right now. You guys are called." - Nanaba said.

"Ok." - Armin and Jean started to move.

"Mikasa, you're called too." - Nanaba looked at Mikasa, who was still sitting next to Eren.

"I think I should stay here. I already know the content of the meeting anyway." - Mikasa answered.

"OK then." - Nanaba keft, she already knew Mikasa was different from other soldiers so he didn't ask anymore questions.

Jean followed. Armin paused to wave Mikasa goodbye.

He smiled, because he saw Mikasa trying to hide her red cheeks. He knew damn well the real reason she stayed.

The door shut.

The room was silence. Soft wind blew from the window as Mikasa leaned closer to Eren.

She looked at his sleeping face. She remembered the day they were trapped in the forest, and she slept in his arms.

That was when her icy heart melted, because of his warmth.

By the time she realized, her face was just few centimeters away from his. She blushed.

She touched his hair, didn't know why she did it but she just did. His soft brown hair brushed her fingers.

His eyes slowly opened.

When he caught sight of her, he gasped and tried to sit up instinctively.

She was numb at his sudden waking up that she couldn't move away in a short time.

As a result, her face was still so close to him when he rose up.

And his lips touched hers.

It was soft, barely touched but it was enough.

Her eyes were wide open, so were his.

Mikasa quickly reminded herself that she should pull out. No, she must pull out.

But before she could, she noticed Eren closed his eyes and his hand cupped her cheek.

Mikasa was surprised. She didn't know how to react. She shook her head to part her lips away from his.

Despite her resistance, and to completely have her, he placed both hands on her face and pulled her closer, landed a kiss on her again.

It was an intense kiss, so intense that Mikasa's mind went blank.

And she finally gave up. She closed her eyes and moved her lips against his.

This was wrong, both of them knew that.

But none of them cared at that moment.

That kiss had drawn out all of their feelings they tried to hide.

He hugged her waist tightly as she wrapped her arms around his neck.

Just this time...just this time...they wanted to forget everything.

Forget they were soldiers.

Forget they were humanity hopes.

For now, they were just two teenagers in love.

The curtain flew softly in the air.

The peaceful quiet atmosphere in the clinic was the perfect setting for the couple.

They didn't know how long had they been kissing. They just continued doing it as long as possible.

Eren pulled out and breathed heavily. Mikasa took this chance to get herself back to reality.

"No! This is wrong!" - She squeaked, escaped from Eren's arms, stood up and aimed for the door.

"Wait!" - Eren grabbed Mikasa's arm.

"No, Eren,...I can't...I really can't..." - Mikasa pulled her arm out and ran to the door.

In one swift movement, she opened and closed the door.

As soon as the door shut, her knees felt weak as she kneeled down on the floor, her back against the door.

She covered her mouth with her hand, recalled what just happened.

Shit, she cursed herself why she even gave in to his kiss. She knew she couldn't. Why?

She was not that weak, she used to have so much self-control.

Eren was inside the room.

"Why...why she ran away?" - He thought, attempted to get off his bed.

He still felt so much pain, but he didn't give a fuck about that now.

"Mikasa..." - He landed a heavy step on the floor, struggled to the door.

He felt down half way.

"Fuck!"

Heard the noise, Mikasa turned back and opened the door right away.

"Eren!"

She quickly helped Eren to stand up.

"You idiot! You can't move properly yet!" - She complained "Let's get you back to bed."

She lifted his arms up, but he took them down right away.

"I won't. Unless we have a talk." - Eren refused.

"Eren! You need to rest!"

"Mikasa! Stop!"

He grabbed her hand again and pulled her down onto the floor.

She felt into his arms, her face buried in his chest.

He used all of his remaining strength to hug her.

"Eren..."

"Why are you running away?"

"I'm not."

"That's the worst lie ever. That kiss..."

"It means nothing! Nothing!"

"You didn't act like that."

"I..."

"Listen Mikasa."

He loosened his hug a little bit just enough so that she could move. She looked up only to find his lips on hers once again.

"Mikasa, I love you." - Eren whispered.

"No...no... Eren, I'm sorry, I don't love you." - She cried "I can't love you. I musn't love you."

"Why?"

"I'll get distracted. Like that time in the forest..." - She sobbed "Even Annie could read my mind. For once I really thought about dropping the mission and just get you out. I have never been like that. That is not acceptable!"

"Mikasa, we captured her after all, right?"

"In the future, there will be more missions. If I keep letting these feelings get into me and fail..."

"Then I'll be there to keep you on track." - He wiped away her tears with his thumb "You won't have to carry such weight alone. So...be selfish, for once, please."

"Eren..."

"We're in this together, Mikasa." - He hugged her tightly again.

"What if these feelings, one day, made me become reckless...I won't be able to protect the ones I love...that even hurts more..."

"Like I say, be selfish for once...for now."

He loved her. He didn't know when did he start feeling this way.

Was it when she smiled after kicking his ass in training, and he swore her smile was the most beautiful thing he had ever seen.

Was it when she cried telling him about her past as her tears like daggers in his heart.

Was it when he wrapped the scarf around her and she walked with him in a silent road.

Was it when he heard he almost killed her and yet she still protected him.

He didn't know. He just knew he loved her so much right now.

She also didn't know why or when she loved him.

She thought her emotions were already dead.

Until he appeared in her life, with his warmth and kindness.

How he cared for her although she was a stranger.

How he blamed himself for not being able to save her that day.

How he never gave up on her.

Before she realized her feelings, she already knew she would risk her life, her mission, her everything for him.

"I love you." - She said it eventually.

He smiled and kissed her again.

Nothing in the world mattered at that moment anymore.

I don't know when I started loving you. But I know I loved you yesterday, I love you today, and I'll continue to love you tomorrow.

At the mean time, Levi was at Petra's room.

"How is your wound?" - Levi asked.

"I'll be back to duty soon." - Petra answered.

"I asked how is your wound." - He emphasized the last word.

"That's...uhm...not important."

"Don't force yourself if you're still in pain."

"I'm fine. More important, how is you injury?"

"I'll be off duty for a while."

"I see." - Petra looked down before continued "About Mikasa..."

"Huh?"

"She and Eren seemed to, you know,..."

"Yeah. That's troublesome."

"She said she would give up her own happiness to not affect the mission with her feelings."

"She said that?"

"Yeah. She said she didn't want to disappoint you."

"That stupid girl."

"Saying like that... Levi, you...supported her feelings?" - Petra faced Levi in confusion.

"She's...well...I raised her... I would like her to be happy as well. She deserved to."

"You're a great brother, aren't you?" - Petra giggled.

"We don't know when we'll die. I don't want her to regret her decision, and I don't want to be the reason she'll end up unhappy either."

"She'll be glad to know that."

"Well...let's stop talking about her. I think you should rest. I had stayed for too long." - Levi stood up from the chair next to Petra's bed.

"Wait!" - Petra reached out her hand.

"Anything needed?"

"Uhm...Mikasa also told me to...take care of you."

"So troublesome." - Levi sighed.

"I...didn't refuse..." - Petra blushed.

"I'll be in your care in the future then." - Levi said, gave a small pat on her head and left the room.

Petra's eyes wide opened.

She could feel the water in her eyes. She was happy.

She had never expected to be able to feel happy in this cruel world.

But miracles happened.

my OTPs :cry: I want them to be happy.