Hey guys! Sorry this took so long. Uni's been kicking my ass. Promise next update will be in the next couple of days :) Hope you enjoy! Lexa lives with us guys!
Clarke slept surprisingly well that night; for the first time in a long time. She woke up feeling calm and happy and this made her feel guilty. But she tried to push it to the back of her mind. She had been feeling guilty for too long; she knew that, her friends kept telling her that, she was going to try and believe it.
After showering and eating cereal Clarke went to her only class that day. When she was leaving she ran into Bellamy Blake, Octavia's older brother. He was doing a master's degree in Classical history at the university.
"Princess!" his mouth fell into a wide grin. "I haven't seen you in forever!" his arms instinctively wrapped around Clarke engulfing her in a fierce hug.
Clarke wrapped her arms around him, "Its good to see you Bell"
He pulled away to look into her eyes, "How have you been?" he looked seriously at her.
"fine"
"You don't get out enough. We never see you anymore. All the guys we…"
Clarke pulled away from the grasp he held on her shoulders. "Look I miss you too ok. Its just easier sometimes to be alone."
"I know you miss Finn." Clarke's eyes rose to meet his shocked he had said the name. "We all miss him. But he'd want you to live your life."
Clarke looked down and slowly back to Bellamy's eyes, "I'm trying." She gave him a weak smile.
"Hey!" A loud voice cried from behind Bellamy as Clarke's eyes moved to see Raven Reyes running up to Bellamy and wrapping her arms around his mid-section. Raven was studying mechanical engineering and had been dating Bellamy for the better part of four months. "Griffin! Long time no see."
"Hey Raven" Clarke smiled warmly glad to see her old friend.
"You've got to start coming out with us again. I need a drinking buddy. No one can keep up with me!"
Bellamy feigned offence, "Come on now. I can totally drink you under the table."
Raven peeked over his shoulder and kissed his cheek lightly, "Keep dreaming babe." Turning back to Clarke she said, "How about tonight Clarke? We're all going to The Hundred."
Feeling guilty for her lack of contact with her friends, Clarke decided she would go and attempt to be sociable. "I'll be there"
"Great!" Bellamy and Raven said in unison.
Clarke smirked "I gotta go but I'll see you guys later alright?" she began to turn away from them.
"Got a hot date Grif?" Raven called.
Clarke simply shook her head smirking ignoring her old friend. Not quite a date she thought but maybe someone she could date.
On her walk toward Trikru she took out her phone and texted Lexa,
I'm just grabbing some stuff from my apartment and I'll be there in about ten if its still cool?
A response came almost immediately.
See ya soon ;)
Always mis-calculating time Clarke actually arrived twenty minutes later. She stood outside the building wondering if she should knock but immediately realizing that did not make sense this was a building open to the public. This was not a house. She felt her heart rate rise she paused before she opened the door. She found herself walking into a very busy studio. Young children scurrying around, taking off their shoes and heading into the room on the left side of the building. One boy who looked about twelve ran in after Clarke bumping her slightly on the way in, "Sorry!" he yelled as he continued his pace over to the classroom. Clarke smiled at the young boy. She walked by the class to see all the children readily waiting for Anya. The late boy ran in last; Clarke watched him hurriedly take his place amongst his peers.
Anya looked at him, "Aden you're late."
"Sorry Anya!" he said standing up straight looking slightly ashamed of himself.
"Remember Aden, a well-practiced mind stays on task and on time."
The boy nodded solemnly and Anya left it at the beginning her lesson. Clarke stood at the door watching intently. Completely enthralled with the children's sense of concentration.
Losing track of how long she had been standing there she felt a hand on her shoulder causing her to almost jump out of her own skin. She suppressed the desire to yell out and only let out a small gasp. She turned to find green eyes sparkling at her.
"I was wondering where you were Clarke."
Clarke smiled at her, "I got lost watching the kids."
"They are quite entertaining." Lexa agreed looking toward them.
The boy who was late say Lexa at the door and wave toward her enthusiastically. Lexa smiled and gave him a small wave before she made an eye gesture to pay attention to Anya.
"You know him?" Clarke asked raising an eyebrow.
"I know all the clients at Trikru." She answered diplomatically, "But yes Aden is my younger brother."
"He lives with your parents?"
"He actually lives down the street with our Uncle Gustus." She looked down, "We lost our parents a while ago. Aden never really got the chance to know them."
Clarke placed her hand on Lexa shoulder, "I'm sorry."
Lexa gave her a weak smile, staring into her shining blue eyes. They both stayed like that, just enjoying the gaze until they both realized that all the children in the class and stopped and were gazing at the door opening where they were standing.
Both women blushed and quickly walked away leaving a smirking Anya to continue instructing the class.
When they reached the roof Clarke set up a canvas in the middle looking out onto the city's scape. The sun was in a perfect position for her to paint. Clarke was very excited and began almost immediately forgetting the other woman's presence. Lexa did not mind. She smiled as she watched Clarke in her element, taking a seat near the back of the roof. She pulled out a book and began to read.
After a couple hours Clarke finished painting the cityscape and smiled taking a step back from the painting. Drawing her focus away allowed her to hear a faint sound coming from behind her. She turned to see Lexa asleep on the reclining chair her book open and lying squarely on her stomach, hands resting just below it. Clarke smiled and turned her canvas to face the other direction beginning another painting.
Clarke spent another hour painting before Lexa woke up. She did so rather violently, thrashing from one side than the other, sitting up quickly and gasping for air. Clarke immediately dropped her brush and rushed over to the brunette's side. Kneeling beside her she put one hand on her arm and the other on her back, "Hey you're ok, it's alright." She slowly ran her hand up and down the other girl's back as Lexa's breathing returned to its normal pace.
Lexa looked down at Clarke feeling somewhat embarrassed. Clarke continued to rub her back anyway. "I'm sorry." Lexa mumbled.
Clarke shook her head, "What were you dreaming about?"
Lexa looked away from Clarke, "The car accident my parents died in."
Clarke reached for Lexa face and turned it back toward her own. "I'm here" she said quietly and pulled the other girl toward her reaching her arms around her and grasping her close. Lexa was temporarily surprised by the sudden hug but soon reciprocated appreciating the blonde's concern.
"Thank you" she whispered into the blonde's hair slowly pulling away from Clarke. She stood up leaving Clarke kneeling next to the chair. Lexa's eye immediately caught Clarke's unfinished painting. She walked closer completely mesmerized by the painting in front of her.
"Clarke…"
Clarke quickly got up and rushed toward the painting where Lexa was now standing. "It's um it's not finished."
"It's amazing" Lexa said her eyes not leaving the painting. Clarke had painted Lexa asleep on the chair but instead of painting the roof she had painted a forest around her with Lexa asleep on a tree branch. She had black paint around her eyes.
"She um I wanted to paint you in nature." Clarke paused, "It just seemed to suit you. I dunno…"
Finally Lexa turned away from the painting staring into Clarke's eyes feeling utterly overwhelmed by how well the blonde whom she barely knew had captured her. She couldn't find any words to express this sudden feeling that was swelling up inside her. So instead she stepped closer to Clarke, put a hand on the back of her neck and crashed her lips onto the blondes. Clarke was taken by surprise but almost immediately reciprocated the kiss, raising her right arm up behind Lexa's back to pull her closer. The kiss was tender and soft both were hesitant to deepen it.
Lexa pulled away slightly before going in to kiss her again but this time Clarke's eyes opened and she pulled back. Lexa dropped her hand from Clarke's neck and looked at her waiting for her to say something.
Clarke was shaking her head a feeling a panic was welling up within her. Looking down while moving back more, "I'm sorry.. I'm not ready.. I'm sorry." She took a moment to look up at Lexa who looked very confused and she turned and ran toward the roof door.