I'm filming a trailer and there are tests. god you don't know how hard Chemistry and Biology are. I stayed up to 2am like everyday to do presentations as well.

I'm having three tests tomorrow but fuck them. Chapter 17 is here.

Mikasa found Christa sitting in a corner of the house after the meeting.

She didn't want to talk to anyone, Mikasa knew that. After all, telling everyone about a mask you put up to hide a tragic past was not easy.

But she couldn't leave Christa alone like that. She somehow remembered when she told Eren about her past.

"Hey." - Mikasa called out "May I?"

"...yes." - Christa mumbled.

Mikasa sat down next to the blond girl, watching the window in front of them.

"Christa...I know it has been hard for you..."

"It's Historia."

"I prefer Christa. It sounds more...casual."

"But I'm not...casual."

"Yes you are. You've been through the same training as us, same expedition, same fear, same loss. What makes you different?"

"I'm pretty sure none of you got abandoned by your parents." - Christa said coldly.

"Well. We may not, but there are many other demons living inside us."

Christa turned to look at Mikasa, eyes questioning.

"I killed people. I used Eren like a tool before. I used to think you guys are just strangers that I do not need to care about." - Mikasa said slowly, eyes avoiding the sunlight beaming through the window.

"Kill?"

"Yeah. The ones who kidnapped me, killed my parents, who sold me and who bought me. They are rats to the society, but well, they are human, don't they?"

"I see..."

"Levi saved me back then. Gosh he was so annoying. He made me clean, made me train, taught me not to have unnecessary feelings. But then I met you guys, I met Eren. I can't help feeling secure, warm and happy. So...I think if you give us a chance, we could be by your side, through hard times."

"Thank...thank you. I didn't expect you to be like this."

"Blame Eren." - She chuckled "I don't even recognize myself. So, my point is, if I can change, you can. We both deserve to feel happy."

"I'll try. Thank you."

"Well good. Now let's join dinner. Eren, Jean and Connie are cooking today." - Mikasa stood up and pulled Christa's arm "Come on you have to eat."

" 'kay."

"So Eren, be careful, okay?"

"Mikasa you told me ten times already. I'm fine."

"EREN!" - A shout called out

"Hanji is losing patience. I had to go. Talk later."

Eren ran down to the center of an empty land and transformed.

"15-meter." - Hanji wrote down "We should try if it had intelligence."

They gave him woods and logs, and some ropes.

Somehow Eren, in his titan form, manage to build a house-shape from them.

The next test was writing.

"My father...by me..." - Mikasa tried to read the words but the rest was unreadable.

After a few tests, it seemed like his energy had ran out. He tried to crystalize but it didn't succeed.

It was easy to drag him out of his titan form.

But the second and third time, he couldn't do anymore intelligence tests. He even went wild and destroyed the house he built.

"Hanji we need to get him out! The titan form is burning!" - Mikasa shouted.

In front of them was a 10-meter titan lying on the ground, steaming with smoke.

"Hanji!" - Mikasa shouted. She needed orders, if she acted reckless Levi would scold her.

"Okay. Get him out." - Hanji said.

Mikasa jumped down to his side in no time. She cut the nape of the titan's neck and saw him.

His arms and legs were all merged to the titan.

"Just cut them all!" - Hanji pulled Eren's head up "Gosh he's burning!"

"But-"

"Cut them now or we're all gonna be roasted."

Eren woke up.

"Fewwh, your arms and legs are all healed. I won't get killed by Mikasa then." - Hanji sighed.

"Huh?" - Eren questioned.

"Ok. The report is here. First time, you transformed to a 15-meter, can build, can write, can move by our orders. Second time, 12 to 13-meter, can't do anything, even tried to smash the previous house you built. Third time, 10-meter, went wild. Your body almost merged to the titan form, burning." - Hanji read her notes out loud.

"In short, can't crystalize?" - Levi asked.

"I'm afraid so."

"Sorry..." - Eren mumbled.

"You don't need to sorry. But our previous plan is screw." - Levi said.

"You also wrote something like "my father", "I",.. " - Mikasa said "Did you remember anything?"

"No..." - Eren rubbed his head.

"So what do we do now? The smoke from the previous tests may have attract the Military Police." - Hanji asked.

"Umm... We inform Erwin about the situation first. Let's go." - Levi stood up and left with Hanji.

Mikasa, who was standing against the wall, moved to Eren's bed and sat next to him.

"So, I saw your face changed few seconds ago. Anything?" - She asked.

"Yeah..."

"Why didn't you tell us?"

"It was a flash image. I don't understand, so..."

"Image?"

"Yeah. A woman brushing her hair, looking at me...no, I think she was looking at a mirror."

"Wow who's that girl?" - Mikasa raised her eyebrows.

"...you're jealous?"

"Shut up." - Mikasa punched Eren in the stomach but obviously she was trying to hide her blush face.

"Hey! I don't know who she is!"

"...You'd better not... I'm leaving." - She stood up, attempted to leave but he grabbed her hand "What?"

"I heard what Hanji said. Don't worry much about me."

"...then don't act reckless." - She left without listening to any of his next words.

They watched their house from a nearby hill. Military police had got there, torches in their hands.

Thanked God the squad had already predicted this and left already, leaving the house empty.

"Let's get moving."

"Eren, Christa, you two stayed here."

It was a small room in the city, guarded by Levi and Hanji's trusted soldiers.

"Kirschten, Alert, ready?" - Levi asked.

"Still hate this wig but...yeah." - Jean frowned.

"Armin...take care." - Mikasa whispered enough to be heard only by Armin.

"Yeah." - The blond boy said.

"The carriage's ready?" - Hanji asked her subordinate.

"Yes."

"Then let's get moving."

Levi left with Hanji, Jean and Armin. Sasha and Connie were waiting outside.

"Hey Mikasa, wait." - Eren grabbed her wrist "We need to talk."

"Now is not a good time."

"Then when? Seriously what are you angry about?"

"You."

"Huh?"

"Stop...acting reckless..."

"I'm not!"

"Yes you are! Stop making me worry. I already said to myself I won't let this feeling get in between my missions. So for god's sake, for once, work with me! Now stay here and do nothing please."

She stormed off the room leaving Eren, again, in daze.

He sat on the bed and sighed.

Then he noticed it wasn't just him and Mikasa in the room.

Christa was looking at the window but he was sure she heard.

"Christa...I mean, Historia, you don't seem to talk much lately."

"...I don't feel like it."

"um...I'm sorry..."

"What are you sorry for?"

"I can't crystalize."

"So?"

"We can't proceed the plan and ... It will take longer to find Ymir and the others."

"It's...alright. Ymir knew how to take care of herself. But it's not my business anyway."

Eren moved to sit down, facing Christa.

"You hate me?" - She murmured.

"Why should I?"

"I'm not...the Christa Renz you know, sweet and cheerful, care about the others. Instead, I'm a gloomy Historia Reiss, who is selfish and ..."

"Well somehow I like Historia better than Christa."

"How?" - She widened her eyes.

"You seem more...normal. You forced yourself too hard as Christa that it felt fake. Now you're just a normal human like all of us, who is stupid and reckless."

"I...I see."

ok I'll try my best to write in free times.

I wrote a fanfiction about Ninja AU. I didn't plan to publish it since well... it may suck but since I may be on hiatus, I will post few chapters of it so you can read it until Breathless is updated.