Thank you Dr. Archangel for helping me edit this story. I made some edit to keep it originally since I noticed your writing style is quite different from mine. but yeah... i suck at actions so you were a big help.
i know i've been on a long hiatus so I made two chapters continuously, chapter 17, and now chapter 18.
i'm waiting for the manga this month for more inspiration. and I have a little free time next week, so i may update.
"Hey...I think I know why Mikasa is angry." Christa broke the long silence in the room.
All Eren responded with is just a, "Huh?"
"She hates it." - Christa leaned closer and looked at Eren.
"Hate what?" Eren was completely baffled, and very blind to the obvious.
"That you're always risking your life. She's worried. She talked to me the other day. She really cares about you. She used to look so tough but when it comes to you, she smiles, and talks so happily."
"I..." Eren had no idea.
"Think about her feelings, won't you?" Christa knocked Eren off from his mindset on everything he had ever believed.
Mikasa was kneeling on the rooftop, next to Levi.
"Your wound...is it ok?" - She asked him.
"Yeah yeah. Just focus." Levi brought Mikasa back to the topic that was currently underway.
"They left! Let's come inside!" - Sasha shouted.
Mikasa went inside and saw Armin, along with Jean, tied to chairs.
"Armin...are you...ok?" - She asked him.
"That kidnapper was a creep." - Jean spat in disgust.
Mikasa turned her attention to Jean for a moment to respond to him properly, "I...see..." She then turned her concerns towards Armin, who was feeling so violated right now, "sorry Armin. Just...bear with it for a little bit longer." - Mikasa said while getting herself in the small alley between two huge packages.
Levi found himself a place to hide as well. As for Sasha, she got to the top of a package, about 3-meters high. Connie stayed as an alert on the roof.
They could hear a few footsteps until the door was opened. A business man came in with the kidnappers.
"They really are Eren and Historia?" - The man asked, before reaching for the door.
"Yes. They match the description." Said the other kidnapper who was much skinnier than the main man.
"Did you check if they're in disguise or not?" Concern rose through his forehead, with a flare of anger covering his face.
"Not yet sir."
Pissed by his lackey's incompetence, he just shouted, "You losers! I'll check myself."
The man walked towards Armin, but then suddenly, a shadow jumped out and grabbed one kidnapper's head and twisted it. Snapping him cold on the ground.
The boss turned back only to find the other kidnapper got attacked by another shadow.
It was Mikasa and Levi.
Mikasa took no time to pin the boss down on the ground. He was a big guy, but that wasn't the problem.
"Levi! What now?" - Mikasa turned around to look at Levi.
When she had lost her focus, the boss managed to take out his gun.
"Mikasa! Watch out!" - Jean screamed.
Mikasa turned her gaze back to the man, seeing his gun now perfectly aimed at her.
Right then, an arrow was shot from above. Piercing his grip away from his flintlock. It hit the man's arm and he let go of the gun in pain.
"Focus!" - Sasha, the archer, said.
"What if it hits Mikasa?!" - Jean snapped at Sasha.
"It's her fault then, she couldn't lose her focus." - Sasha answered loudly.
"Jean I'm fine." - Mikasa calmed him down.
"Now, let's talk." - Levi spoke up.
"I'm just a mere person who was hired. Please!" - The old man said.
"...He is the rich guy who blocked the gate of Trost." - Mikasa recalled the man "He was in Eren's court as well."
"Bitch." - The guy murmured at Mikasa's words.
"This place may not be suitable for a talk. Let's head outside." - Levi ordered his team.
Mikasa returned to the small house. Levi told her to explain the situation to Eren and Christa.
"Hey." - Mikasa entered, waving a hand at Christa, ignoring Eren.
"So...how was the mission?" - Eren though, obviously noticed Mikasa's attitude, and tried to make up first.
"We managed to make a deal with him. He will provide Scouting Legion goods, black tea for example."
"Levi's favorite?" - Eren chuckled.
"Yeah." - Mikasa continued "But we have to give them you two."
"WHAT?"
"He'll have the Military Police to pick you up."
"No way!"
"Listen. We have a plan."
"You will capture the ones that are going to pick us up, correct?" - Christa finally spoke up.
"Glad you understand, not like a certain somebody." - Mikasa glanced at Eren "We'll find information from them."
Eren then thought back to what Christa was saying from before. That one comment made Eren officially seal the deal. Christa was right all along, about Mikasa.
"I see... You'll torture them." - Christa mumbled "Can I leave this room now?"
"Yes but stay nearby. Inform the others."
"Thanks. You two talk." - Christa left the room.
Christa carefully closed the door, leaving the room silence till Eren started the conversation.
"I'm sorry." - He said "Please talk to me." It was almost as if Eren was begging, for once.
"The other day...I left because I had a ... mission. It was urgent so when you held me back, I lost my cool. It's not your fault."
"But what you said was true. I was reckless. I've made you worried."
"I...don't want to see you jump into dead and be helpless." Mikasa spoke her mind, at last.
"I'm not gonna be a jerk and leave you like that." - Eren gently held Mikasa hand up and kissed her fingers "But...what was the mission?"
"Huh?"
"The one you did the other day."
"Oh...that...you...shouldn't know."
"Why?"
"I..." Mikasa began to stutter in her words.
"Mikasa we don't keep secrets from each other."
"I...took care of the Military Police that found out our location."
"Took care? You meant..." Eren knew where this conversation was going, but he just wanted to be thorough.
"Kill them? Yes." -She answered calmly as if it was nothing.
"How...how many..." - He asked hesitantly.
"Four or five, I didn't count."
"Where are they now...I mean their corpses?"
"Buried."
"I see. How did you kill them?"
"Why do you ask so many questions? Understand simply that I've killed them, that's all."
"Why can you be so calm?"
"Why can't I? If I didn't you all are killed by now."
"But you can just capture them."
"They had no information to spill, what's the point? It's a waste of food supply."
By then, he remembered. Mikasa was, and had been, cold-blooded. She killed. She fought. She showed no mercy.
When she was with him, she didn't act like her normal self, because she loved him.
But she was still Mikasa Ackerman. She had told him before, he just didn't remember.
She said she wouldn't change. She would protect him in her own way. A merciless way.
"...I...don't want to do it, you know? I just...had to." - Mikasa read Eren like an old book, she understood his thoughts just by looking at his face.
"I know...I just..."
"We're gonna torture the man that will come to pick you up. It's gonna be...inhuman. Hanji and Levi had all the equipment prepared."
"It's all for me and Christa's sake. I'm sorry...I'm reckless am I? I can never understand the big aim."
"That's who you are. That's why we're here, that's why I'm here. To help you."
"Thank you."
He pulled her close and planted a kiss on her forehead. She looked up and kissed him back on the lips.
"I may kill...even more in the future. Are you -?"
"Fine with it? Yes I am. I...I need to believe that everything you do is for the future of humanity. Sacrifice is needed."
"You've grown up, I'm glad." - She kissed him again but deeper, sweeter. It was more relieved, a kiss of love, not sorry, not guilty.
At this point they had opened up more and more about themselves. That was what love needed, sharing and understanding.
There was blood stained on her hands, lives ended by her, families that might never see their beloved sons, and fathers again because of her. The wrong things she did, and he was her ally.
If they had to sink in the bowls of hell to atone their sins, they would go together. If it was for the great purpose, for humanity, they would happily pay the price.
"You should understand no matter for what purpose, killing is still...wrong." - She murmured.
"I know."
"Don't...come to the basement tomorrow."
"The torturing?"
"Yeah...it may...cause big noises. Calm the others down, ok?"
"It will be hard."
"Oh Armin might be in an...emotional state right now. One of the kidnappers was a creep, when he thought Armin was Christa, he..."
"...I'll comfort him."
Mikasa buried her face in Eren's firm chest. Everytime she did this, she felt like crying.
"Cry if you want, Mikasa. It's only us here."
"I'm… I'm not a good person anymore, am I?" - She sobbed.
"Maybe." - He wrapped his arms around her "Just...maybe."
"My mom used to say..." Mikasa never thought she would go back to thinking of her mother "bad people will go to hell when they die."
"Don't worry." Eren brought Mikasa some assurance, by squeezing his grip around her shoulders. Proving to her that he was still here.
"Huh?"
"If you go to hell, you know I'll follow."
"Eren! That's not..."
"I'm also not a good person anymore." - He smiled at her " Let's go to hell together."
Dr. Archangel, I know you changed the last sentence but I want to put it there. It was inspired by a manga I had read. The sentence you fit was kinda... sweet. I want something that's obviously bitter but they both accept it. Like they know they're doing many bad things so far, and will do even more, no matter for what reason, they are still bad things. So they don't mind going to hell, and if it's together, they would be perfectly fine with it.
ok that's all. hope you like it. killer!Mikasa will be mentioned more.