Thanks for the appreciation, first of all. Special thanks to Revolving Dragunov for their extensive advice on how to improve both my writing and storytelling. I really appreciate that. I usually add the reviews I mention, but in this case that might be a bit much, so I would rather not. I may not be able to evaporate all my mistakes from my writing straight away, but I will try my best to heed the advice given. I will most likely continue making some mistakes and I am always glad for constructive criticism. That said, on with the story.
Blinking, Rei woke up. It took her a few moments to realize she could not move her left arm and another to see that it was pinned under a very naked Usagi. What frightened her most, however, was that her first thought looking at Usagi was neither "Shit", nor "How on earth did I end up here" or "What happened" but "Sexy". Then that her memories came rushing back. A low tingling had made itself known in her nether regions in before already, and remembering everything that had happened last night certainly did not lessen it. She groaned. Her head felt like it was about to explode every minute now, her left arm had lost every bit of feeling, but most of all she had slept with her friend who happened to be the moon princess, who currently had a boyfriend, who had been devastated which she had taken advantage of, and all she could think about was repeating last night.
Usagi woke slowly, and it took her a few moments to take in her surroundings. When she did, she realized that what went through her mind had not been a disturbing dream but was, in fact, quite real. Rei lay across from her, hair disheveled, gazing at her with what could only be described as a hungry look. Usagi quickly averted her eyes, then darted out of the bed as fast as possible, immediately pulling her clothes back on. Looking at the wall, she said: "This shouldn't have happened. I'm with Mamoru. I'm supposed to be. Just forget everything that happened." Still looking at the wall, she added: "I'll show myself out."
"Fine", Rei answered. She should have been happy that Usagi was willing to just forget what had happened, but somehow she was not. She tried to write it off to her horniness, but that did not cut it. She could not deny she was sad (disappointed?) that Usagi was able to just ignore what had happened between them. She could not. And somehow it did not seem so very ridiculous to her anymore to think she could be attracted to her. The thought hurt, as it seemed Usagi had not been incredibly happy to wake up next to her, so she most likely would not want anything from her. Right now, she refused to think of it as anything else than a physical attraction. That was something she could hardly deny, given the growing ache between her legs.
As she walked into the kitchen she realized she had really woken up late. Whereas usually she would prepare breakfast for her grandfather and herself, today it was already on the table. Her grandfather beckoned her over. He smiled cheerfully, but seemed to notice she was not in the best mood, so he left it at that and stopped trying to talk to her. Rei simply sighed, defeated.
"Remind me to never drink alcohol again. Ever!" Her granddad looked at her confused.
"You don't look like you're having too much of a headache. What happened? Alcohol loosened your tongue?"
Rei laughed darkly. "Something along those lines." Though really it was rather her libido that was loosened than her tongue.
"Don't worry. Whatever happened, it could only have been something you wanted to anyways, but were too shy to actually do." At this, Rei nearly choked on her bread.
"You got to be kidding me", she spluttered. She most likely had not wanted to sleep with her best friend. They were bickering, they had fun together, they met with the other Senshi, they fought together. Never before had she felt the need to… Rei felt her cheeks starting to burn a bright red at the thought. The worst thing was that now she just could not seem to get her mind off the previous evening. She would give a lot now to just forget what had happened, but she knew for a fact she would never be able to look at Usagi again without imagining her naked. And she had wanted this? Certainly not!
"I never wanted to sleep with my friend", she mumbled under her breath, thinking she was silent enough so her grandfather could not hear her. She was wrong.
"I always knew you and Yuuichirou would get together someday", he said, smiling at her.
"What?", Rei asked, dumbfounded. "No!" She never thought about that in before either, he was only a friend to her. But then, so was Usagi, the difference only being that right now she had absolutely no problems imagining Usagi and herself doing naughty… things. "No, I just…" why on earth had she felt the need to voice her thoughts? Now it was only a matter of time until her grandfather would connect the dots. Suddenly she felt headache approaching that had absolutely nothing to do with the wine she drank yesterday, but rather with the fact that she had no idea what to do.
"I'm going to the shrine to ask the fire for advice", she said over the shoulder to her granddad, then left the room in a hurry. She knew she should not use the fire to solve her personal problems, but right now she needed some advice rather desperately, and after all everything concerning Usagi concerned the rest of the world, too. So she sat down to meditate. It took her a while to clear her mind from any distracting thoughts, mainly about the previous night, but with all the experience she had gained over time she somehow still managed to. A moment later, she fell into a trance.
She stood on a high building overlooking Crystal Tokyo.
She stood in the dark.
She stood in front of Usagi and Mamoru, now king and queen.
She stood in front of two figures, herself and Usagi, embracing in the dark.
She looked at Usagi holding Chibiusa in her arms.
She looked at Usagi holding what seemed like a big question mark.
She saw Usagi and Mamoru walking among flowers, holding hands, Chibiusa tagging along.
She saw herself and Usagi walking in a slight embrace.
She saw all of the Senshi together sitting around Usagi and Mamoru, joking together.
She saw herself and Usagi surrounded by the Senshi, but at the same time she was uncertain whether they really were there.
She saw the moon merge with the calm blue and green of the earth, making them shine a low blue.
She saw the moon merge with the fiery red of the mars, both shining in a reddish light.
Slowly, she reawakened from her daze. Now what on earth was that? She had seen the future that Crystal Tokyo promised, and the other? Was a future that revolved around her and Usagi that she knew nothing about. There were so many uncertainties to it that the only thing she really knew was that it was a possibility of a future that might happen should she try to pursue Usagi and Usagi would go along with it.
It was a warning. Was she willing to sacrifice the save and happy future of Crystal Tokyo for an uncertain come out? And was it really her decision?
She knew for a fact that if Usagi decided that she did not want Crystal Tokyo, she would support her. But did she herself even want something more than friendship? Her body was quite certain of that, but in her mind, she was not so sure. Usagi had been her friend for quite some time now, and she had never felt the need to be something more.
Groaning, Rei stood up and walked over to her room. Confused or not, she would prefer to change her bedcovers rather than having someone else see them.
Usagi stumbled down the stairs that led to the shrine, her mind racing a mile a minute. What on earth could she do? She needed someone to talk to, desperately so, but who? Normally she would have talked to Rei, but seeing that she was part of the problem she would rather not. The same applied for Mamoru. She would rather not talk to any of the other Senshi, as she was unsure on how they would react concerning destiny and such. She most certainly would not tell her parents, that went way beyond embarrassing and she also knew for a fact that her mother would throw a fit if she found out that Usagi had given her virginity away for a little bit of comfort. Her brother would tell everyone. She even briefly considered telling Motoki, but he would not be able to keep quiet in front of Mamoru. That left her with one last option. They had grown apart a bit since she had become Sailor Moon, but they were still good friends, and it was not far away.
Quickly, she typed a short message into her handy: "Hey, Naru, can I come by? Urgent emergency! Usagi" That had to be enough info.
Sure enough, a few moments later she got an answer: "Hey Usagi! I'm home, and my parents said it's okay you drop by. Later, Naru" Breathing out a sigh of relief, Usagi walked over to Naru's house.
Naru opened the front door before Usagi could even knock. "Hey", Naru smiled at her crookedly, "Come up." Without waiting for any further responses, Naru walked up the stairs to her room leaving Usagi to trail behind. Once they had closed the door and settled down on the couch, Naru asked:
"So, girl, what's up? You have a reason to drop at ten in the morning, I presume?"
Usagi simply nodded. "I…", she stopped, took at deep breath and started a new approach. "You know… things between me and Mamoru aren't always best and yesterday he asked me if I…" Why on earth was it still a big deal to say that when compared to everything that had happened afterwards it was absolutely nothing? "If I wanted to take our relationship further, and I didn't want to, and then I ran away, and I needed support, so I went to Rei, and I told her everything, and she was drunk but she still listened to me and…" Usagi broke off. The words had simply started to flow out of her, but now that the worst part came her mind was blank.
"You had a fight?", Naru asked, trying to help her along. Usagi simply wished that was all she had to worry about was a fight.
"No, I… I took advantage of how wasted she was… I needed comfort and I… I slept with her." Finally, thankfully, that was out. Naru seemed to be less shocked that Usagi had imagined.
"That can be awkward, sure, but, she's your friend, right? It ain't such a big deal." Usagi thought she had heard wrong.
"Not a big deal?"
"So you two slept in one bed, so what?", Naru asked, clearly startled. It was then that Usagi understood. Naru was simply too innocent for her own good. The already huge blush on her cheeks intensifying, Usagi mumbled:
"We did not only sleep that night."
Naru looked at her, the gears inside her head turning. Then the meaning of what Usagi had said hit her. "Oh god!", was all she could say before she went silent. She needed some time to stomach the information that her longtime friend had slept with a girl and friend because she was in a loss for comfort. After a few moments, she looked up at Usagi's face that looked at her insecurely. Then, Usagi's bubbly personality kicked in and the girl screamed, panicked:
"What on earth do I do now?"
Meanwhile, Naru's mind had settled enough to respond.
"Did you want this? Her?", she clarified.
"I… I had never thought about it before. I don't know. I'm still not sure whether I want to be with Mamoru. It was… nice, with Rei", she admitted shyly, "but it could be merely physical. I… I just don't know."
As she walked to the Senshi meeting, those words were still on her mind. "I just don't know." And she did not. And until she did, she would act the same as always.