Minako smiled as Usagi entered the room last and sat down next to Mamoru, taking his hand into hers. Being the princess of Venus she liked to see a loving relationship, and the way Mamoru looked at his girlfriend right now confirmed it was just what it seemed to be: they were totally devoted to each other. He lent over to Usagi and kissed her lightly. It was then that Minako sensed the mood of someone else in the room change. Rei sat at the far end of the room and watched the kissing pair with a strange look. Minako could easily determine anger. It was an emotion she knew Rei often used to conceal her real emotions, and thus she paid it no heed. More interesting were the underlying emotions. There was envy in her eyes, something Minako guessed was born from the fact Rei herself was not in a relationship at the moment. What surprised her most, however, was the look of longing in her eyes. It was the kind of stare you would give someone you wanted to ravish rather now than later. It was not only that, but something that went far beyond sexual needs and she could find no other explanation than the one Rei had fallen in love. Though she knew the brief period of dating Mamoru had left no significant feelings behind, something had obviously changed that.
Rei's thoughts meanwhile raced a mile a minute.
'Damn', she thought, 'why do I suddenly want to be in Usagi's arms like Mamoru is now? So there was last night, and I can hardly say I did not like it, but really it was born out of my drinking, and it is not like I want anything other than sex from her. Which is bad enough already. But wanting her to simply hold and kiss me? I am not falling for her!' Unbidden, another thought wormed its way into her mind. 'If I do not want anything but friendship from her, then why do I feel like shooting Mamoru into space?' Rei groaned at those thoughts. She tried in vain to shove the disturbing picture of Usagi naked in bed with Mamoru out of her mind. She suddenly felt possessive. Nobody but her should touch her princess in that way. Just that this was impossible. Even though she herself approached the point where she was willing to admit she wanted to be more to Usagi than just her best friend, the chance that Usagi felt the same was next to inexistent. Looking over at Mamoru and her, she could easily see Usagi pulling him in closer, kissing him with everything she had. It seemed like they were adamant to make out right here, in front of everyone. 'God please no', Rei thought, but could not stop herself from watching Usagi. Suddenly she felt sick.
"I don't feel good", she said to Makoto who sat next to her, "I'm gonna go home." That said, she hastened to the door and outside.
Usagi was rudely awakened from her thoughts by the sound of the door going. She had been kissing Mamoru, but her thoughts had been elsewhere. Somehow, it just did not feel right kissing him. She had acted like she usually did for only half an hour and already knew that staying with Mamoru was not what she wanted.
"Where did Rei go?", she asked Ami, who shrugged.
"She said she didn't feel good. I think she's bluffing, but don't ask."
Usagi could not shake the thought that she should know why, that it had something to do with last night. Was she uncomfortable around her? It was not unlikely, after all you do usually not sleep with your friends. She still had to apologize for taking advantage of Rei's drunken state. She did not understand yet what had driven her to sleep with Rei. She could hardly deny that she radiated a wild, fiery beauty, but she had never before felt the urge to sleep with her, or any other girl for that matter.
Out of the blue images of the last night floated to the surface of her consciousness. Rei naked, face flushed. Her soft hands. Heated kisses. The feeling of her skin.
Unconsciously she crossed her legs, feeling very aroused. It was true that she never had felt this urge before, but she most certainly felt it now. She could hardly contain her excitement at the thought of cupping Rei's hot, wet pussy with her hand and slowly sinking... She had to stop thinking about this. …and listening to her moans as she came closer and closer to reaching...
"Everything alright, Usa?", Mamoru asked, rising her out of her naughty thoughts.
"Yes, yes I'm okay", she said. Her voice sounded too high-pitched, too jittery even to her own ears. "I just need to use the toilet real bad", she said, rushing off, hoping that nobody saw how she ran with her legs slightly further apart as to not brush her most sensitive area. Quickly she closed the bathroom door and went to the sink, splashing cold water into her face repeatedly to cool her raging hormones down.
"Look, someone's horny", Minako whispered to Makoto, grinning slightly, "You've seen the way she moves? She is totally hot and bothered", she grinned. Makoto just groaned.
"You're sure you're the Sailor of love and not the Sailor of sex? Now I only get disturbing pictures of Usagi and Mamoru getting all down and dirty."
Ignoring Makoto's reluctance to talk about Usagi's love life, Minako continued: "You think they already did it? They seem to be so close."
Makoto sighed exasperated. "Honestly, Minako, there are things I don't wanna know. What Usagi and Mamoru may or may not do at night is one of those things."
"I'll just ask Mamoru", Minako said cheerfully and strolled over to Mamoru, leaving Makoto to contemplate whether the girl felt any shame whatsoever.
Usagi meanwhile had finally managed to calm down. This was a onetime thing. All she wanted from Rei was friendship. Seeing as he was not the one for her, she would bid Mamoru a civil goodbye and find a some nice guy. A least, that was the plan.
But then she overheard Minako's conversation with Mamoru. She had not heard everything, but enough to know that he would only think she had changed her mind, and if she told him that she had not, he would want to know whom she had thought about instead. She could not break up with him now. Sighing, she decided to put that second and to apologize to Rei first.
Having made up her mind, she left the Senshi meeting too and made her way to the shrine.
Rei walked down the streets without any destination in mind. She simply walked for the purpose of walking. She had to sort out her thoughts, find out how she felt about this whole incident. Her body wanted her desperately to repeat what had happened the night before, she knew that much from the low tingling that made itself known between her legs even now. But in her mind, she was more reluctant. She wanted to keep Usagi as her friend, not as a fuck buddy, so she would not attempt anything in that direction. But then there was the burning jealousy that she had felt when Usagi had been kissing Mamoru. She wanted her body, but it seemed like that was not the only thing, which only left two options: either she was obsessing and wanted Usagi all to herself, which was kind of a creepy thought, but maybe better that the second option, that she had fallen in love with her princess. She would much rather be a creeper than hopelessly in love.
She needed something to take her mind of Usagi, so when a few streets away that she came across a little diner, where a rather handsome young man sat alone at a desk and seemed like he was not waiting for anybody she just thought talking to him might be a good idea. While she usually was not one to just sit down next to some guy she did not even know, today it seemed like just the right thing to do to take her mind of everything else.
"May I sit here?", she asked him, knowing full well that, as he was not waiting for anybody, he would say yes.
"Sure", he said, smiling at her. She talked to him for quite some time and quickly discovered he was quite a nice guy. He was funny, smart and witty, still she, frustratingly, discovered she felt absolutely no pull towards him despite the fact that she realized he was going to make a nice friend. She had no intention of dating him, even though it seemed she had managed to reel him in quite nicely as the poor guy was totally smitten with her. But every time she felt like being closer to him, Usagi's face popped up inside her mind, effectively crushing every romantic feelings towards him. What was even worse was that every once in a while she would wish it was Usagi sitting across her, looking at her with this look of complete adoration. When they said goodbye he even asked for her number and though she had no heart to deny him that, she neither had any intention of meeting him again other than as a friend.
She felt like she was more and more denying herself thinking that what she held for Usagi was only a temporary obsession. It had been easy to say so as long as it had only been about physical attraction, but the jealousy she had felt previously and the longing for Usagi's love and affection were a totally different matter. She had no idea how she had managed to fall for Usagi in less than a day's time, she assumed that those feelings had lain dormant within her for quite some time, only to be awakened by the close proximity the previous night, but frankly she did not care about the why. All she knew and cared about was how impossible it seemed her feelings were requited. But she knew she would take her chances and all she was going to get and cling to the bit of hope she still held.
"You got any idea why your grandfather just congratulated me to getting laid with you?", Yuuichirou asked Rei as she came up the stairs. She nearly feel flat on her face at that. The real reason was embarrassing and for a moment she contemplated telling him a white lie, but then she realized she needed someone to confide in, desperately so, so she told him what had happened, how she felt.
"And now I don't know what to do", she said, repressing her tears. She did not cry. She rarely ever did. She would not start now. But regardless of her intentions she cried anyways, while he held her and soothed her. When the tears subsided he finally told her:
"Usagi is waiting for you in your room. She said she wanted to talk to you. Better go to the bathroom and wash your face first. You don't want her to see you've been crying." With that, he ushered her inside.
When she finally walked into her room, she saw a very nervous looking Usagi sitting on the bed. She seemed highly uncomfortable, and in the end Rei took pity in her and asked: "What brought you here?"
"I… I just wanted to say I'm sorry for taking advantage of your drunken state", Usagi said, looking to the floor.
"Hey, Usagi, look at me", Rei said gently. Finally she looked up. "I am just as guilty as you are for taking advantage of your need for comfort. It is okay." And with that, she gave Usagi a soft hug to reassure her she was still her friend, still there for her.
Usagi looked up into Rei's eyes. She had come here to tell her that she still wanted to be her friend, and to just forget the previous night's actions, but seeing the look of loving adoration in Rei's eyes, she instead pulled her closer and kissed her ever so softly, her hands trailing across Usagi's back. They both knew where this was heading, and they both felt powerless to stop it. It was happening again, and neither knew whether to cry out in joy or frustration.