A/N: I didn't expect so many reviews. Thanks for all of them though I'm so happy to see all the Jasam fans sticking together. While I thought that the brain tumor would be a good way to get Sam back in Jason's good graces I thought of something equally as good. You know that expression "It's like I don't even know who you are anymore" Well keep that in mind as you read.
Sam shut the door to her home, she threw the keys down on the table and looked around. This was hers not permanently she hoped one day to own her own house with a husband, a dog, and some kids, but she could no longer see that, she couldn't have kids, she knew no one could ever love her after all the horrible things she did and what she was currently doing. She knew she had to tell Lucky about what she did to Liz in the Park both times but with what just happened with Nicolas she didn't know if she could break his heart anymore. Nicolas had just told Sam, Lucky, Alexis, and Lulu that he had a brain tumor. She knew it was something bad but he didn't expect that. Worst of all it was hereditary her first reaction was thinking about Kristina and Molly, Kristina was sick once before, and yeah Sam didn't know her at that point in her life but she knew it must have been hard on Alexis and her. She went to the cabinet and grabbed the bottle of tequila and a cup. She poured a little in the cup and gulped it down. She never considered the fact that she could have tumor, would it matter, if she died no one would miss her except for her family but they'd eventually get over it other then that no one would, grieve or mourn her death and on the plus side she'd be with her daughter and Danny. She made her way to the couch kicked her shoes of and sat down. She thought about all the bad stuff in her life most of it being her fault. She got up to poor herself another drink when the pain in head started again. She grabbed the arm of the couch to keep her balance and it started again the flashes came flooding back.
She was in the metro court and got a note from Jason she walked out to the terrace and ran in to her arms he spun her around and she remembered the searing pain in her back and then she blacked out.
Now she was on the terrace again and Jason was standing there he told her to run to him and she did and she felt safe and then he let her go.
Now she was back to the day she sat and watched as the men she hired held guns to Elizabeth and her children she saw the fear in Liz's eyes.
She came to panting hard and she could barely breath. The pain in her head stopped she sat on the couch and put her head in her hands. "What's happening to me." She was interrupted when she head a knock at the door. She wiped her face and got up to answer it. "what do you want?" It was the last person she wanted to see but he was there anyway.
"Now now sweet Sam is that anyway to treat an old friend." He walked in and sat down, Sam closed the door and walked into the kitchen and poured a drink.
"Jerry you're anything but an old friend, now once again what do you want." She gulped it down and stood by the desk careful not to get to close to Jerry.
"I came because we have business to discuss. The Zachara's are becoming well known in the mob industry and well I don't to much like that." She knew about how well know the Zachara's were becoming because she heard and had seen what Anthony Zachara had done.
"What does any of this have to do with me?" He laughed and got up and walked to the kitchen and poured himself a drink.
"Good stuff, this has everything to do with you. As you see there is a new mob boss in town that Trevor and Johnny are looking for they expect to scare him into falling into there plan and it just isn't going to happen. They need to be taken care of but I can't just go in there and start killing people I need to know what they want." He walked over to Sam and filled her glass and grabbed her by the arm forcing her to sit on the couch.
"Why do you want to infiltrate there plan what does Johnny and Trevor and this new mob boss have to do with you. She was a little afraid of Jerry but knew he wouldn't hurt her if he needed her and right now he seemed to need her.
"Well normally I wouldn't bother to tell you any of my plans but seeing how from now on you're a big part of them I guess I will. I'm the new mob boss, I go by Monroe and I will not have Trevor or anyone coming in and trying to take over Port Charles. But you play a very big part because you are now my new found partner." She gulped her drink down and needed another one fast. There was something seriously wrong, why did Jerry need her as a business partner Trevor would never buy into it he knew her connection to Jason.
"This will never work Trevor knows who I am and plus why are you trying so hard, Jason and Sonny are already taking care of them." He laughed again and looked out the window as if checking to see if they were being watched.
"You're asking a lot of questions. Jason and Sonny aren't taking care of Shit. I'm the one that interfered with there shipment, I'm making it look like Johnny is coming after them, If they are worried about each other they won't be worried about me. I don't plan on just getting rid of Zachara I plan on taking over his business, but I need information, I need there contacts I need to know everything and that's where you fit in, and the fact that you were with Jason adds to the mix. You're going to be introduced to Trevor and Johnny as your true self the conniving bitch you really are. I do mean that in a good way, you were once a con artist and that's what they'll know" She was starting to get it, what he wanted her to do but it still didn't make sense to her. Her head started hurting soon she was in the room but trapped. She stood watching Jerry and herself speak and she saw herself smiling and agreeing but had know idea what was going on, it was like she wasn't in her body she heard everything saw everything but couldn't stop what she was doing. She was agreeing to go along with Jerry's dumb plan but she couldn't do anything.
"And that's all I have to do and after this you'll leave me alone." Jerry nodded but she stood to the side screaming no but nothing changed she couldn't be heard.
"This is how it's going to work. There's a meeting tomorrow that's were you come in. Someone will be there with you he will be working with you and I on this he will let them know that you have been my associate for 6 years. You con men out of there money and information, you never loved Jason, you stayed with him because it was safe and you needed information that only he could give you. Now you must tell them a little bit about Jason and there business not to much I don't need Jason trying to kill you while I still need you. He will get a phone call and step out the room you will then betray me. You will tell Trevor and Johnny that you are scared to death of me and that you want out, you will then explain that I plan on killing them and that if you need there help and protection." Sam sat there and listened and agreed they planned everything out and set it up.
10 minutes later Jerry left and Sam sat on the couch with her drink and a smile on her face she got up and walked to the mirror "This should be fun now shouldn't it Sammy." Sam saw herself but the woman in the mirror wasn't her. It was her body and everything but not Sam, and then she realized it what's been right in front of her face why she would have outer body experiences. Her head started hurting again and she came to. She was herself again she could control her actions she went to her desk and started riffling threw papers until she found something. It was a piece of paper dated three days ago but she didn't remember it. It had her name and her signature but she didn't remember it. It was a doctor release paper. It wasn't her doctor or even a doctor a PCH. "Dr Cross?" There was a number attached to it so she called. "Hello this is Sam McCall I was in your office three days ago."
"Aw yes the dissociative identity disorder patient." Sam was a little taken back by what he just said.
"I'm sorry what?" She asked in disbelief he began to explain what it was and why she probably wouldn't remember any of this from there visit . It all seemed so unreal how could this be well she knew from what he explained but still she felt herself get sick. She hung up the phone and walked over to the couch. She looked around the room and started to cry.