Authors note: Sorry it's been a while guys but Here's the new chapter sorry it took so long but I hope you enjoy it and please don't be mad at me for this chapter. Songs Hide and Seek by Imogene Heap. Enjoy guys.
Where are we? What the hell is going on? The dust has only just begun to form crop circles in the carpet, sinking feelings.
"Sam, Sam please, say something."
Spin me 'round again and rub my eyes this cant be happening.
"We are gathered here today to say goodbye to are beloved daughter,
When busy streets a mess with people who stop to hold their heads heavy.
"To are cherished sister,
Hide and seek, trains and sewing machines
"and to are dear friend
All those years, they were here first.
"Samantha McCall."
He stood outside not daring to go inside, not able to see the faces of the people who loved her, the people he let down. He promised to protect her, he fought for her told people she was safe with him. He lied. The last good memory of him and her together was lost in the sea of bad memories. "I will kill you." How could utter those words to her, the woman he promised to keep safe, the woman who was laying in that church, in that coffin, dead because he lied to her, because he had broken his promise. He threatened her life, told her he would kill her, and now where was she? She was dead, and he was lost and empty inside.
Oily marks appear on walls, where pleasure moments hung before.
The takeover, the sweeping insensitivity of this still life.
"What are you doing here?" Jason turned to face the person who had asked him that question. He was flooded with memories of that night.
"she's dead." Johnny announced to the room. Sam laying lifeless in his arms blood oozing out of her fresh bullet wound. Jason stood there in shock, he couldn't believe it, he just wouldn't. His beautiful Sam could not be gone she was not dead, Johnny was wrong. He wanted to run to her, he wanted to hold her to tell her he was sorry and that he loved her still with everything he had in him.
"I just… I wanted to…" Jason started looking at Johnny, but nothing came out of his mouth.
"I know what you just wanted to do. She's dead ok, you were there, you saw her dead body on the floor, you heard the news from the doctor like everyone else did. You don't have to come and make sure she's really dead and out of your life for good. Don't worry Jason she cant hurt you or your son, or your precious Elizabeth anymore." Johnny snapped at Jason. Jason was taken aback, first that Johnny knew about Elizabeth and Jake, but also that he would think that Jason came to make sure Sam was dead. Was that really what people where going to think of him now. They heard the door open and turned to see that the church was letting out.
Hide and seek
Trains and sewing machines (oh you wont catch me around here.)
Blood and tears.
They were here first.
Alexis was first out of the church comforting her two daughters as she herself cried. She stopped when she saw Jason standing there. Without thinking she walked up to Jason and slapped him hard across his face.
"You Son of a Bitch, how dare you show your face here after what you did to my daughter." Nikolas grabbed Alexis and tried to pull her back to the group but she protested. " You did this to her, Sam is dead because of you and your lifestyle. I asked you, I pleaded with you, I begged you to stay away from my daughter, but you couldn't listen. And now, now my baby's dead because of you. Why don't you do us all a favor and get the hell out of here. GO!" Alexis yelled and Jason gave her one last look before turning and leaving.
Mm, what you say,
mm that you only meant well, of course you did
He was at the pier, watching the water rippling he thought of causing his eyes to water.
"God you looked beautiful when you slept, I never expected to see you permanently sleeping. I'm so sorry Sam, I should have protected you better I should have loved you harder and longer I should have never kept that secret from you, or lied to you. I should have… I should have noticed that all the problems we were having was because of me."
Mm, what you say,
Mm, that its all for the best, of course it is,
"If I had of told you the truth, been honest with you from the beginning you would be alive, you would be here with me now. I just… I wanted to protect you but I realize that I was only hurting you more. "I'm sorry Sam I wish I could have told you that when it meant something and when I could beg you for forgiveness." Jason was sitting in the bench, he closed his eyes and felt the wind blow. "Now it's to late."
Mm, what you say,
Mm, that its just what we need, you decide it
Mm, what you say,
"It's never to late to ask for forgiveness whether the person your asking it from is alive or gone. You didn't go in that church not because of the thoughts and looks from the other people, you didn't go in there because you blame yourself so much that you think you don't deserve to ask for forgiveness, that you don't deserve to be forgiven. You couldn't stand there and look in that coffin and say what was in your heart just because you saw no point in speaking to someone who wasn't really there, you couldn't say what was in your heart to a still lifeless body of the woman who you once claimed to love. I know you Jason, I know you want to say what's in your heart, I'm here now you can tell me.'
Mm, what you say,
"I love you so much Sam, I never wanted to hurt you. I missed you everyday you were gone and I wanted nothing more then to go to you and tell you that I was sorry for everything and to ask you to come back to me. I never meant to threaten you, I would have never gone threw with it because I could not picture you not here on this earth. Living without you in my life was hard, but living with you not here at all, not seeing you at the coffee house, or at Kelly's or on this pier, that's going to be the worse pain I've ever experienced. I'm sorry for not saying this sooner, but I want you back, I miss you, I love you, Sam please forgive me.
Mm, what did she say?
"I have missed you so much Jason, and I love you." She leaned in close to Jason kissed his cheek, "And I forgive you." It felt so real, Jason opened his eyes and looked around to see if she was there but all he saw was the same scene from before he closed his eyes. Sam was gone and all he had left now were the memories of the best years of his life.
Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth,
Mid-sweet talk, newspaper words cut-out,
Speaking no feeling, no I don't believe you
You don't care a bit, you don't care a bit
"You ok? Johnny asked wrapping his arms around Sam's shoulder as they walked away from the pier.
"Yea, I'm ok its just hard telling someone you once loved goodbye, but I needed to do that, I needed him to be at peace with me being gone. For some weird reason I think it'll help. Sam said now walking hand in hand with Johnny to the limo.
"I know you still love him and that it's going to be hard to say goodbye to him and the rest of your family, but its only for a little while Sam, at least till we get this whole Rayne situation taken care of and we get rid of Trevor and the threat to the organization." Johnny said as the driver opened the door to the car for her.
"I know but it just doesn't feel right Johnny, something's going to go wrong, I can feel it." She pleaded with him, trying one last time to go back on there plan but he wasn't breaking.
"No Sam, Jerry wanted you dead and me to now at least I know your safe, this is the best thing for everyone for now, please let me protect you Sam, just do this for me, I care a lot about you and I don't want to see you hurt ok?" Sam nodded her head Johnny smiled and gave her a hug. "I'm going to miss you." She chuckled a little bit they parted from there hug and he looked at her one last time before she got in the car but before she could close the door he stopped her. "Oh what did you leave for Jason, the driver said you had him drop you off at Jason's while everyone was at the funeral." Johnny asked, Sam smiled a little "It was nothing, just wanted to see my first real home one last time." Sam said she smiled and closed the door and the car drove off.
Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
mid-sweet talk, newspaper words cut-out
Speak no feeling, no I don't believe you,
You don't care a bit, you don't care a bit
Jason got home and threw his keys on the desk and hung his cut up he pressed play on his answering machine and went into the kitchen to grab a beer. When he came out he noticed and envelope on the desk he looked around the room before going to it. There was DVD inside with play me written on it. He slipped the DVD into the player and watched. His heart broke a little as Sam's face came on the screen.
"Jason just please it's a new camcorder I want to record you, come on please". Sam pleaded chasing Jason around the living room with the camcorder.
"Sam no I will not be on camera, stop, stop chasing me. What did you buy that thing for anyway?" Jason was shielding his face with his hand trying to run from 's for our baby, I want to record everything about him or her growing up, and I want to start buy recording us together it'll be memorable. Just Jason please 3 minutes worth of footage." Sam begged.
"Sam, fine three minutes." Sam jumped up into Jason's arms causing the camera to blur
"And I want you to know, just because I'm not there it doesn't mean I didn't love you any less or that I never cared about you, because I did and I still do. You were me and your daddy's miracle baby that we made out of amazing and great love." Sam was crying as she spoke to the camera."What are you doing? Are you crying? Sam what's going on?" Jason asked as he barreled down the stairs.
"I just, I wanted to make a video for a baby, just in case… Just in case I don't make it Jason. I want a baby so bad, but I know my odds of getting pregnant or carrying full term. And if I do get pregnant and I have a baby, If something happens to me I want our child to know that I loved him or her so much and that I wished I could be apart of there life." Sam cried on Jason's shoulder as he ran his hand down her arm."Sam listen to me, nothing is ever going to happen to you, when we do get pregnant your going to deliver a beautiful healthy baby that we are going to raise together ok. Nothing bad is ever going to happen to you, I will never let that happen, I promise, I will protect you and our child with my whole life, I love you." Jason kissed Sam's forehead then her mouth and it started getting heavy right before the video shut off.
"awe what a pity that you didn't keep your promise isn't it Mr. Morgan, Sam's dead and it's all because of you. But then again she was dead to you all those months ago when you decided to lie to her, but what do I care she's dead and now, now I'm alive. But I must say you were a horrible boyfriend, how could you not tell the difference between you precious Sam and me, but I guess that's what happens when you stop paying attention to little things in your life, when you stop caring about the woman you love. But I guess I cant be to hard on you, poor John Zacharra has fallen head over heels in love with Sam and cant tell the difference between us, and he's known about me for a while. Oh well doesn't matter now, when that bullet hit Sam that was the last for her, she just couldn't handle it anymore and she lost all control, but you see I'm so much smarter then her and… wait I cant tell you my plan that would ruin my surprise, oh well I must be off now you have fun with your confusion." With that the video shut off and Jason was there alone lost trying to figure out what the hell just happened. He reached in his pocket for his phone when he noticed a piece of paper in his pocket, he unfolded it and there in Sam's writing were two words Help me.
You don't care a bit
You don't care a bit
You don't care a bit
You don't care a bit.