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Carlisle P.O.V
Esme I love you
Those are the words that have been playing in my head since last night. I have all these scenarios in my head , will she say she loves me back? Will she be mad? Is it too soon? What if it ruin everything? How am I going to say that to her? When?
I looked at the clock in my office, 7:45 . I sigh. I got in earlier this morning since I left earlier yesterday. Esme should be around 8:30. I shook my head and went back to my paper work trying to erase Esme from my mind.
like that's possible.
I tried to focus on the work when I heard the paramedic go in and screaming. I got up and walked to the door . As I open the door , I saw the paramedics passing by with someone laying down on the stiviere.
- Women, 23 , found inconcious in her car. I heard the men say.
I saw 2 doctors coming down so I was about to go back in my office , they seem to have it undercontrol, when I heard it.
- Esme. Oh my god. What happened to you?! I heard Sarah's voice.
Esme? my Esme?
I turned around and run toward the medic .
My heart broke when I reach them. My poor Esme was laying there with her eyes close and her lips close in a straight line, and yet I saw her , perfectely fine 10 hours ago.
- Wh.. What happen to her? I said as my voice broke,
- Not sure, we found her in her car, yet no other cars were there. We're still waiting the call from the detectives.
I nodded absently , still following them .
- You ok Dr. Cullen? Do you know her? The same guy asked me as we enter a empty room.
- Yes.. I mean... um.. she works here actually.
- Oh, I knew I had seen her somewhere. He chuckling.
It took everything I had to not pushed them all of the way .
I wanted to go there and help her but I couldn't. I was still in schock . I couldn't move . I just stood there and watch them taking care of her and giving her her needs. I couldn't help but to feel sad and angry at myself. I broke my promise to her . I saw Sarah approching me with a worry look on her face.
- Is she going to be ok?
I sigh before answering her. Not even sure myself.
- I don't know. I hope so. It doesn't seems like she seriously injure , but still.
- She's strong. She will be fine. I'm sure you'll do everything you can . She said teasingly but still worried.
I look at her smiling sadly.
One of the doctors , followed by some nurses, got out of the room. It seems like she's stabilize.
I felt... in pain, disappointed , angry, sad. I wanted to help her,but it hurted to much.
I finally had the courage to go at her side.
- Is she ok? I said at the only doctor left in the room, the taking my eyes off Esme.
- Yes. Their is not too much damage. She broke her arm and she will have a bruises but it will she fine. She's still unconcious throught. That's what worries us the most.
I winced.
Why her? Why?
I was relieved but still worry. I would do anything to be at her place right now. Just to take her pain away. That broken arm and the whole accident.. how ? why?
- What happened exactly? I asked in a whisper but he still heard me.
He sigh
- All we know is that she got hit by a truck, 1 hour from here.
1 hour from here? what was she doing there?
I wanted to cry. I should have told her what I feel. Maybe none of this would have happened. Now I might never be able to tell her what I feel. I felt broken.
- We will know more when or if she wakes up.
They were a moment of silence before he added.
- My shift is over. You mind taking over.?
I nodded and thank him before he left.
Now it was just Esme and I in the room.
I sat beside her , holding her hand tracing circles with my thumb , running my finger throught her soft caramel hair.
I gave her , her medecine every hours, making sure she stay stable. I felt better because now I was actually doing something to help her. I stayed beside all day. I knew I had other patients to see but I couldn't leave her. I asked an other doctor to cover for me and I sat on the chair beside her and hold her hand . I stayed there all night . I must of have fallen asleep because I got woken up by an alarm. My eyes got wide open and I looked over at Esme. Her heartbeat was dropping. The nurses came rushing in as I got up .
- Come on Esme . Don't do this , Stay strong. I whisper as I kiss her forehead.
We started the resuscitation and I never been so scared in entire life.
- Clear ! The nurse screaming.
Come on Esme. Please. I prayed silently.
Nothing
- Again. Clear! The nurse tried again.
Beep... Beep... Beep..
Oh thank god.
Her heart started beating normal again.
Everyone got out of the room after making sure she was stabilize. I went beside her and took her small hand in mine. I plent small kisses around her face, her temple, nose, forehead, cheek,eyes.
- Esme... Please open your eyes for me.. I need you... I... I love you Esme. I whisper.
I couldn't help but think of all the scenarios I thought about all day.
that's definitely not how I was planning to tell her
Then I heard the voice I never thought I would hear again. My angel.
- Carlisle?