Jace POV
After Isabelle leaves I think about what I just did. Oh no. Clary's probably running away sobbing uncontrollably because of what I said. It has started raining before and now it's pouring. She's getting soaked! Dammit! I am such an idiot! I jump out of bed and run down stairs i put on my shoes and then run outside I plan to go after then realize that I don't know where she lives. Then I see a small figure leaning against a tree. Clary. Her body is trembling either from the cold or from sobs.
"Clary?" I sound surprised because she is sitting on the sidewalk in the mud crying. Why didn't she go home?
"What do you want? Go away. You made it pretty clear that you don't care about me," her voice makes my heart break.
"Clary don't be like that I-" She interrupts me.
"Don't be like what! You said you didn't give a shit about me! I always thought that when you ditched a bar and offered to take a girl home and then fell asleep with her in your arms you cared about her. But I guess I was wrong." She gets up and starts walking. I notice she doesn't even look at me. She has her back to me the entire time she was speaking.
"Clary!" I run to catch up to her and then stop in front of her. "I am so sorry. I panicked and I didn't know what I was saying. They just burst into the room and it was an awkward situation! Please forgive me. Clary I care about you and I don't want you to get hurt you-I-" I sigh trying to collect my thoughts. I'm about to say something big. She looks up finally as if she can sense something big about to happen too.
"What Jace? What is it?"
I think I'm falling in love with you. As a matter of fact I am falling in love with you!" She is quiet for a while and we just stand there getting soaked.
"Gonna say something or what?"
"You actually expect me to believe that?" That was not what I was expecting.
"You actually expect me to believe you care about me? You use girls Jace? That's all you do. You use them and then throw them away like- like," she stutters. She has a hard time coming up with a simile.
"Cheap flip flops?" I say to lighten the mood.
"Yes! Wait! Stop that! I mean I can't do this. I don't know if I can trust you. I love you. I am in love with you. I don't even know your favorite color and it feels like I already know everything about you. But I don't think I can have my heart broken. I already have enough going on. I just don't know." She starts walking away but I put a hand on her shoulder and drag her back.
"Believe me." My voice is firm but calm. "I love you. I am in love with you too. Please." She turns around. Her eyes are red and her hair is sticking to her face. Her dress is clinging to her body in all the right places. She looks beautiful. She looks real. She smiles at me then throws herself onto my chest wrapping her arms around my waist. She starts crying again soaking my shirt even more.
"God I love you! I love you so so much!" A tear rolls down my face as I hug her back. I pull her face out of my chest. Then I kiss her.
I kiss her with all I have in me. My tongue slips into her mouth and we stand there kissing. In the rain. It's the best kiss I've ever had and I love it.
Clary POV
After our amazing make out session Jace takes me back inside. My father will probably beat the rest if the crap out of me when I get home. But I really don't care. I love Jace and I don't care what happens to me. I would anything for him.
He brings me up to his room and gets a towel from the bathroom and then goes back in to change his clothes. My towel isn't really helping though. His carpet is getting soaked. So I take off my shoes and walk to his dresser. If we kissed that means we're dating right? That means I can wear his clothes. Right? Right. Whatever.
I open one of his drawers and it's full of shirts. I takes out a white one and change. It's comfy. Mmm. I sit down on the bed and look around waiting for Jace to come out. He enters the room again and stops when he sees me in his shirt.
"Sorry do you want me to take it off? I was cold so..." He just smiled at me.
"No you look better in it than I do. And that's saying something." I slap him on the arm.
"Shut up."
"you want something to drink? Coffee or hot chocolate?" I nod.
"Some coffee would be nice. And a burger." He laughs and shakes his head.
"Alright one burger coming up."
"I'm joking you know."
"No you're not and I'm going to make it for you so don't worry." I giggle. He's so sweet. I've never seen this side of him before and I love it.
"Thank you Jace. You're the best." He puts an arm around my waist and kisses my cheek.
"I know."
We get up and walk downstairs to make my burger. I sit on one of the stools my the island. It is granite and has a golden angel centerpiece. It looks like the Angel Raziel. I pick it up and examine it. It looks beautiful. I wonder what it would be like to meet an angel. What would it be like to live in Heaven?
"So what do you want on the burger?" Jace asks snapping me out of my thoughts. I jump and blink.
"Um... cheese lettuce tomatoes and pickles." He smiles and walks to the fridge. It's the Samsung one I heard abotub one day in school. I know I know. Why the hell would a clue if high school students be talking about refrigerators? I don't know.
"Alright. No prob." He takes out the buns and the ground meat. After he molds the meat-which looks really good by the way- he puts it in the grill and sits down next to me. He just stares though. He doesn't speak. At all. It creeps me out.
"What?" I giggle nervously.
"Nothing. You're just really beautiful. GorgeouS really."
"Well aren't you just a charmer." I smile and tilt my head. He smiles and then pulls me toward him onto his lap.
"I'm not kidding. You're really pretty. Some of the guys just stare at you sometimes when their friends aren't looking. I catch them sometimes and glare. It's prettY funny." I laugh. He's so great.
"Really? Well that's really sweet." He shrugs.
"What can I say I'm a sweet guy." After that we sit there in each other's arms waiting for my burgers to me done. When it's done he sets it down in front of me and kisses his fingers.
"Voila"
"Thank you." I devour the burger in abiut five minutes. When I'm done Jace is staring at me like Im an alien life form.
"What? It was a really good burger."
"When's the last time you ate something?" Three days, I think. I chuckle nervously. I don't really want to answer that question. So I get up and put the plate in the sink.
"Hey can I get some water?" That was my lame attempt to change the subject although I know he's going to want to talk about it later. But I don't want to talk about it now. He's just gonna have to deal with that. Jace raises an eyebrow at me but didn't say anything.
"Alright." So he gets up and pours me a glass of water.
~time skip~
So you wanna tell me what that was about down there in the kitchen?" Jace asks me. We are cuddled up in his bed and I was just about to fall asleep. I sigh.
"Three days." Jace is quiet. He sits up and so do I. We are facing each other. The moonlight lights up the room. I can see the anger in his eyes.
"Excuse me?" I look down.
"I said it's been three days since i last ate something." Valentine never feeds me. I have to go out and buy my own food. Somehow this week I forgot.
"Clary. Why havent you been eating?" He sounds almost like my father when he's about to beat me. I back up trembling. But Jace would never hurt me right? I honestly don't know.
"I forgot," I whisper. It's quiet again for a few minutes. Jace is probably staring at me as of I'm a loon. Who forgets to eat something? Somehow I did. Ugh. I am a freak. I look up and he's looking at me angrily. Not what I expected.
"This is no time for jokes. I wan to know the truth."
"That is the truth. I don't know how. But I forgot." I laugh.
"You probably think I'm crazy right?"
"No I'm trying to figure out how you could possibly forget to eat." He takes my chin and brushes my cheek with his thumb. I del like telling him everything. But I can't. Valentine has people everywhere. If Jace decides to call the police then Valentine could go to jail and his people would kill him. I can't let him get urt like that.
"Clary...Is something happening at home? Are you being punished or something? Did you do something and your father is punishing you like this?" I've been getting punished for 10 years. But instead of saying that I shake my head.
"I'm telling the truth. Really. I forgot. I've just been busy with...some stuff and... I just forgot. Please. Drop it." He hesitates. i know he does but he doesn't say anything else.
"Come here baby." I crawl into his arms and he lays back down covering us with that comforter.
"Don't call me that like ever again." I say. His melodious laugh is the last thing I hear before I fall asleep.
How was that? I didn't really like it but I hope you did. Clary will tell Jace about her father in the next chapter. I know you're not getting a lot of action from Valentine. But don't worry. You will.
~crazygirlxx~