Previously... Lorelai and Luke kissed, Christopher showed up, Lorelai didn't reject him. Luke and Lorelai stopped talking to each other after Luke's meltdown. Jess found his father Jimmy and secretly went to New York by himself. Luke panicked, tried finding Jess. Jess called Luke and told him he's in New York and Luke got into a car accident.

Chapter 12: Let Him Go

Jess heard the loud crashing sound crystal clear, he didn't know what to do, the phone call went off and he was all alone in this world. There's no one to go to. Out of all the people, he suddenly remembered Lorelai, the woman who treated him better than his own mother.

'Hello Lorelai?' Jess was sobbing.

'Oh my god! Jess! Where are you? Luke was so worried about you, he flipped the whole town to find you!'

'Lorelai, I think…I think…Uncle Luke might be in some kind of car crash.'

Lorelai stood there, almost dropped her phone, 'what do you mean Luke might be in a car crash? Where is he?'

'I don't know where Luke is…' Jess can't stop crying, 'he was coming to New York to pick me up and then I heard…I heard a loud crashing sound and the phone went off. Lorelai I'm scared…can you please help? Please…'

'I'm coming right now okay Jess! Where are you in New York?' Lorelai's eyes were wailing in tears when she heard Jess's very fragile and weak voice and the news that Luke might be in a car accident.

Lorelai called Sookie to look after Rory and she quickly got on her jeep and drove off to New York. Millions things were popping into her mind. I gotta pick up Jess and then figure out where Luke is and then he will probably be in hospital..No! Lorelai! May be it's just a minor injury, you can't jump to conclusions like that! Be positive! Yes girl, be positive, you got this!

November 6th 8:00pm

Lorelai parked the car on the street once she saw little Jess was standing next to a phone booth staring at the floor and recovering from the hiccups and sobbings.

'Jess!' Lorelai ran to the boy and immediately gave him a hug. Jess hugged the woman tight, this was the only time he had felt secure and warmth the whole day since he arrived in New York. Lorelai smoothed the boy's back, 'it's okay, it'll be okay.'

Lorelai's phone rang~

Jess helped Lorelai pick up the phone while she was driving cluelessly in the middle of New York City. Jess put the phone on speaker mode.

'Hi this is Presbyterian Hospital Emergency Centre calling for a Miss Lorelai Gilmore?' the lady on the phone asked.

Jess and Lorelai both face's went pale, their worst nightmare has just started. 'Yes you are speaking to her.'

'We are calling on behalf of Mr. Luke Danes. Mr Danes had just been in a car accident and is now in the emergency room at the hospital. We tried contacting his only close relative listed, Elizabeth Danes, but we couldn't get a hold of her. We found your contact list inside of Mr. Danes's wallet, would you please come down to the hospital as soon as possible?'

'Yes, we are coming right now! Can you tell me the exact address of the hospital?' Lorelai asked, 'and please, please tell me how is Mr. Danes now?'

'The address is 170 William Street. I'm sorry but we cannot tell you the details about the patient right now, all we can tell you right now is that he is in critical condition and is in the surgery room.'

Jess hung up the phone and quickly turned on the radio to see if there's any news about the car accident. Tears were definitely rolling down on both Lorelai and Jess's face but they were trying to keep calm.

'Current update on road traffic. A serious vehicle collision had happened on highway 95 from Connecticut heading to New York just less than an hour ago. A loading truck ran over a speeding vehicle. Both vehicles were rolled over, both drivers are now in severe critical situation. Avoid all cost on highway 95 as police officers has blocked the entire lane. Back to the centre of the city, traffic is moving slow on Queens Boulevard...'

November 6th 8:30pm Presbyterian Hospital

'Hi, I am looking for a Mr. Luke Danes?' Lorelai and Jess ran to the emergency counter as soon as they arrived at the hospital. 'Please take a seat Ma'am, the patient is still in the surgery room.' Lorelai broke down, 'No! I don't want to take a seat! Tell me if he's okay, how serious was it? Is he going to live?'

'Ma'am you have to calm down, we won't know anything until the doctors come out of the surgery room. So would you please take a seat there, we will inform you as soon as the surgery light is off.'

Jess knew there's nothing for him and Lorelai to do but wait, so he pulled her hand and led her to the seats.

Lorelai stroke Jess's curly dark hair, 'Jess are you hungry? Do you wanna eat or drink anything?' Jess looked at Lorelai and shook his head with a half smile, 'I'm okay.' 'You know Jess, your uncle Luke is the toughest man I've ever met, I know he will pull it through this time just like any other time. Don't you worry okay?' Lorelai comforted the boy and gave him a kiss on top of his head. Jess nodded, he was also confident that Luke would be fine. He was so tired from the day, he laid his head on Lorelai's lap and closed his eyes, and hoped for the best.

November 6th 9:30pm

Surgery Light was off. Lorelai immediately woke Jess up and rushed to the door.

'How is he doctor? How is he!' Both Lorelai and Jess asked the doctor who just came out of the surgery room, with such hope in their eyes. They know Luke would not give up the fight, because the Luke they know never quit on the people he loves.

The doctor removed his mask and sighed, 'sorry for your lost.'

Jess burst into tears and was running into the surgery room despite the nurses were stopping him. Lorelai fell on her knees and broke down crying. Jess was carried out of the room, he was kicking and yelling, he didn't understand why the doctors and nurses were stopping him from going in to see his Uncle for one last time.

'Let go of me! Let go of me!' Jess shouted and as soon as they put him back on the ground, he ran and fell into a crying Lorelai's embrace. 'It was me, Lorelai. It was me. I killed Uncle Luke!' Jess cried. 'Jess it wasn't your fault, don't say that okay?' Lorelai cried and hugged Jess even tighter. 'It was me! If I...I didn't go to New York and find my stupid father, Luke would still be here! He would still be here!' Jess shouted angrily, punching the wall as hard as he can, he hated himself to the gut right now, he would rather be dead to exchange his uncle's life back.

After the two calmed down a little bit, the doctor led them into a room where they placed Luke's body. The doctor told Lorelai beforehand that it might be best not to flip the white cover off of the body as Jess was too young to handle the awful tragedy, let alone looking at a severely gruesome injured face and body of his Uncle. Lorelai agreed and carried Jess with her arms so that he won't run and flip the cover up when they enter.

The room was colder than usual, they entered and saw a covered body laid on the bed, the sight made the two started crying again. Lorelai sat down on a chair next to the body while still carrying Jess tightly. After a minute or two, Lorelai finally decided to speak up softly, 'Jess...it's okay if you want to leave the room, we can sit outside if you want to.'

Jess replied quietly with his sobbings, 'no. I wanna stay here, I don't...I don't want Uncle Luke to be..*sniff.. in this cold room all by..*sniff *sniff himself. I want to be..be here with him as long as I can.'

Lorelai patted the boy's back, 'Okay.'

Jess stared at the body while he quietly weep, 'Uncle Luke, I'm sorry, this is all my fault!' Jess cried harder when he thought about the fact that his Uncle might not have to die if it wasn't for him. ' I thought you would make it through! I really did! Remember? You told me you are here, you're always..*sob..always here. If I need you, I can call you..*sniff..you anytime and you'll be there...I need you now Uncle Luke! Can you be here now? Please! *sob.. I promise I'll never roll my eyes, I promise I won't tell anyone to shut up disrespectfully, I will..I will.. remember to say my please and thank you!' Jess sob harder and harder as he speak, ' I will never..never complain about *sniff *sniff what you cook for me, I will never steal money and run away like that, but please...?Please...wake up *sob...wake up!'

Jess broke down and tried to get out of Lorelai's embrace to touch his uncle, but Lorelai hugged him tighter, buried his head on to her shoulder and walked out of the room crying. Jess wasn't the only person who hated himself because of Luke's death. Lorelai hated herself too, she hurt Luke's feelings with her stupid decision of being with Christopher, when she knew she truly loved Luke only. Now it's too late for her to mend back anything. A big part of her had died.

A/N okay...I know this is categorized in 'family' but I can't help but put a little 'hurt' in the chapter, really sorry. readers please don't kill me, I know it's a short chapter but the next chapter will be up very soon. Reviews will be greatly appreciated! Thank you!

junienmomo: Thank you for your review! I laughed at making it a dream idea, I would love to do that, that will be soooo gilmore girl style! about oct 25th lol...sorry about that, I completely forgot about the previous chapter... let's just say Luke had to open up his diner way early in the morning so he left Lorelai's at like 4am. So sorry about that and thank you for telling me! Sounds mean but I'm glad you had to use tissues while reading the previous chapter (that was my evil intention :P ) thanks again! and let me know what you think about this chapter!

Anon1: Thank you for the review! Yes it was realllly long and this chapter is reallly short. The length of next chapter should be in between :) and hmmm probably watch from the start will be better, well the character Jess comes in, in the early episodes in season 2, but if you want to get to know the characters better, watching from the start will be a better option. Hope that helps! Thank you again! Let me know what you think about this chapter!

RhizOneill: Thank you for your review! Your reaction is exactly what I wanted haha, don't hate me for this chapter though :p let me know what you think of this one!

Droolia: Thank you for your review! Completely agree with you, that was very harsh for an 8 year old, I can't imagine myself going through it even now. It's terrible, and now that Jess's only true caretaker passed away, it's gonna be awfully difficult.