Clary POV
I run away crying my eyes out. Jace and everyone else has proven to me that I'm worthless and not worth loving. I thought someone finally loved me. I collapse in the janitor's closet and bawl and then it turns into full on ugliness. (A/N Who can guess where that's from? First name starts with B and last name ends in ior) Suddenly the door bursts open and Simon and Aline come in. Simon looks at me with empathy but Aline with pity. I start crying harder.
"I don't want your pity Aline! If that's all you can give then just leave! Just leave!" I sniff and curl up into a fetal position. I can feel my mascara running down my face. Isabelle must've put on a ton because it should have all washed off at the back of the school. Ugh I can't even think of that right now.
"I'm sorry Clary. I should have protected you better. I'm so sorry." She whispers then leaves. What? I feel like there is a deeper meaning to that statement. The door shuts softly and Simon, who hasn't said anything yet, sits next to me. He puts his arm around me.
"Hey." I look up my hair falling around my face.
"Hey." He smiles at me and squeezes me a little tighter. I hug him back and snuggle up to him.
"Simon why would someone do this? Why would someone tell me those things. Why am I worthless? Why am I even alive? I don't. I can't." He throws down the buckets and brooms and yells in frustration. I look up at him and my eyes widen.
"What the hell is your problem?! YOU ARE NOT WORTHLESS. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL AND SMART AND TALENTED AND YOU ARE THE MOST LOVABLE PERSON ON THIS EARTH! Stop thinking you are worthless. Stop thinking you don't have a right to be here. I love you Clary! I do! And I know for a fact that Aline does too. So just stop thinking that way about yourself. Jace just lost the most amazing person on this earth. He threw you away like trash but guess what?! You are not trash and he's an idiot for ever doing that! Don't think for a second you don't belong here! STOP!" He sighs and sits down putting his head in his hands.
"Simon... You know that's not true." His head snaps up burning with anger and hate.
"YES IT IS AND YOU KNOW IT IS!" He looks as if he is about to cry.
"Simon you can't make me believe it because it's not true. You know it." I start crying again.
"Clary-"
"YOU KNOW IT!"
"You know it," I sink even lower into a hole of despair.
After School
Jace POV
God what have I done? I miss her so much. I need to find a way to get her back. I walk out of the building. All day people have been giving me dirty looks. God I'm such an idiot. I walk into the parking lot and get to my car. I'm about to open the door but someone's hand slams it shut. I look up and see Aline.
"Hey. Are you gonna yell at me too?" I look at her, bored. She roll her eyes and says, "Take me somewhere where we can talk privately."
"Excuse me?" She glares at me and walks to the passenger side.
"I said open the door and take me somewhere where we can talk privately!" I oblige and open the door for us. We climb in and I drive her to the park. I take her to a secluded area I love to go when I need to clear my head. We sit on the grass and stare at each other for a couple seconds. Then "So I'm not really 17 years old. I'm a 26 year old worker of Jocelyn Fairchild. She's Clary's mom and I've been watching over Clary for her because she had to go away for a really long mission. I've been reporting to her over the past years and I'm supposed to protect her."
"Well you haven't been doing a very good job of it", I snap while narrowing my eyes at her. She looks taken aback.
"What do you mean? I've made sure she's been safe all these years. Don't tell me how to do my job young man."
"First of all you're not even that much older than me. I've screwed girls your age before." She crosses her arms over her chest and tucks in her legs and raises her left eyebrow.(A/N Btw I can do that I've practiced for years and finally mastered it in sixth grade!:) ) "Second of all I am not telling you how to do your job. It's just your not doing the best. Clary's been abused by her father since she was ten and she was raped in an alley when she was fourteen. She got pregnant and she has a three year old daughter named Sophia. Also guess what? Instead of coming to you or Simon she went to a girl who FOUND HER IN THE ALLEY shivering and naked and passed out. The girl's name is Chelsea and she's been taking care of Sophia ever since." I stop and lean back on my elbows.
"Oh god." She puts her head in her hands. "I can't believe this. She never told me this. I thought something was going on but I never thought of this. I should've kept my eye closer on her. DAMMIT!"
"Yeah so Jocelyn didn't know that Valentine was an abusive bastard that didn't care about anyone but himself?"
"Well I'm one of her closest associates. She said he was selfish and an asshole and everything but she never mentioned him being abusive."
"Maybe he was waiting for her to leave so he could start on the job." She looks at me and rolls her eyes.
"Wow. Anyway it was an important mission and she was telling the truth when she said she would come back. I hope Clary doesn't hate her. Although she's never said anything about her mom. So... I don't know."
"Alright. Well you need to contact Jocelyn and let her know what's going on. Okay?" She nods.
"Definitely I'll inform her right away and we gotta get her outta that house."
"Yeah. About that she said Valentine has a bunch of men working for him that would eventually find her." Her eyebrows scrunch up in confusion.
"I'll have to do a background check on him. I don't think that's true. Jocelyn would know if that was happening. I'll work on that later but right now you need to get back together with her. That's one of the reasons I came here. She looks angry and like she wants revenge but she's heartbroken. I know she is. Jace what you did... and you KNEW what her father was doing but you still made that decision. How could you? I am so terrible at my job."
I nod in agreement. "You really are. But um... Clary hates me I don't think she wants to get together."
"I think her life has driven her to get revenge on anyone who has hurt her. Valentine's ruined her and now she wants her revenge. I honestly believe you're the only one who can bring her to her senses. " My eyebrows scrunch up and I look down. God. What now?
Suddenly we hear a rustling in the bushes and I see a flash of clothing.
Oy! Who's there?
~crazygirlxx