*A.N. – Okay so I think the complete structure and subject of this chapter will be a total shock to you all, but nonetheless, I still like it, but, yet again, it will leave you dying for another update I'm sure, if I do say so myself ;)*

Bella (day after car accident, everyone still unaware of it)

I thrashed while I did lengths, I wasn't my normal graceful self but I didn't feel normal. The water around me felt too cool, I just didn't seem to be warming to it. Maybe it was the fact that I was still half asleep. Doing lengths at half six in the morning wasn't really what I was used to. For some reason I couldn't sleep in this place. It was even odder that Edward wasn't here. I had text him once out of curiosity to see where he had disappeared off to but had received no answer; I was too proud to text him again after that.

I always thought through my problems while I swam. One of my big ones at this particular moment was that Rosalie wanted me with her when she told Emmett she was pregnant. Boy would that be an awkward conversation: "Oh yes Emmett, that's correct, I knew your girlfriend was pregnant before you did and I've known her for all of a few months." Nope, maybe not the best way to put it to him. Also, there was the fact that I was actually helping Rosalie, of all people on earth for me to lend a hand to she wasn't top on my list, I'm not gonna lie. Revenge was being put aside now that I was seeing my terrorisers as people rather than monsters. It looked like today I would have to stand beside a tearful and scared young girl while she told her boyfriend that she was pregnant and that their lives would never be the same again, no more would they be able to have a carefree attitude because they'd have someone else to look after. I'd always felt sorry for girls this happened to, especially when it was just a mistake, something they had tried to prevent but happened anyway. I was partly seeing Rosalie just as a petrified young girl. That was all. It made it so much easier to sympathise with her situation.

The whole thing was surreal. How I had ended up in such a trusted position in the family surpasses me.

The next big problem was Edward, well really Edward is the first problem but the most pressing problem is Rosalie. I wonder why he just took off like that. He was so mysterious, so hard to read, to understand. I would never know what was going on his mind and I couldn't stand the reality that it would all change, all his thoughts about me would change if he knew who I really was. Realistically speaking, how could I have a relationship with someone who I could never truthfully share my past with, someone I had to lie to on a daily basis? It just wouldn't work pretending him and young Edward were different people, or pretending that Bella and Isabella were different people with different personalities. It was an impossible situation which didn't look to be figuring itself out soon. My heart was literally begging me to stay where I was and to be with Edward for just a little longer, then longer yet. Just for an experience, but I knew I was attaching myself too tightly to him. I couldn't stop myself. I had fallen in love.

Once I finished some swimming I went into the sitting area and promptly fell asleep, towel and all in the hair, on the sofa. I was woken by Alice who practically shoved an omelette under my nose.

"Breakfast Bella!" she smiled at me and I pulled myself up on the couch, it was nine o'clock according to the clock in the corner. I had slept for a good hour and a half. Maybe just exhausted from all the thinking I had been doing about things lately.

Alice was already back in the kitchen by the time I had opened my eyes properly and yawned. I walked in with the plate she had left on the coffee table for me, sat down at the counter and tucked in while she hummed and cooked. "Alice?"

"Yes?" she chirped.

"How are you, I feel like we've hardly spoken since we got here?"

"Oh," she turned to me then, her face filled with guilt, "Uhm, I guess it was a little sneaky but I just felt that if we never talked as much then you might use that time to speak to my brother some more, I could tell you felt for him too, I have a knack for these things you know," she smiled ruefully at me and tapped the side of her head in a mischievous fashion, "I wish he hadn't left to sort out the problems he has, he could have done that after the time at the lake house was over, you two were getting on so well," she looked wistfully at me and the giggled at the look on my face.

"Yes Alice, you are quite sneaky," all I could do was laugh at her pretence of innocence. "But I understand why you did it." Part of me wished she had disapproved of me being with her wayward brother – maybe everything wouldn't be so confusing if she had.

She hugged me then and I remembered what it was like to have a real friend, my heart twanged for a friend like Alice to be with me and to know all my secrets and advise me on what to do – it was too dangerous to get Alice involved, clearly, but that never stopped me for feeling bad because I was lying to her.

The weight on my shoulders felt heavier as ever as I ate my breakfast chatting to Alice. Everyone else joined us and I envied them how simple their relationships were with their other halves, maybe not quite Rosalie and Emmett but I did envy the simplicity of how they had been together before Rosalie was pregnant. Emmett looked to be at a loss of what to do when Rosalie arrived at the kitchen counter, her face turned down into an upset frown. I smiled at her and she smiled a little back but otherwise she didn't look happy at all. She never ate breakfast, which I knew from her explanations to me was a sign of her feeling really ill or nervous. In this case I'm sure it was nerves. I watched Alice, Jasper and Emmett eye her nervously, awkwardly, unsure of how to act to her character.

After breakfast was over and Alice called the day of fun she had planned off due to Edward's untimely departure and I think because of Rosalie's demeanour. Rosalie took me aside and asked me if we could do it now, she didn't want to be in nervous suspense any longer, she just wanted to get it over with and apologise to Emmett for lying for so long. I agreed and Rosalie asked him to come and talk to her and me upstairs in their room; Alice winked at me, obviously meaning that she would want to know what the conversation involved later and I wondered if I would be telling her soon, if the secret would not only be out to Emmett but be out to Rosalie as well. Just as I got to the top of the stairs Rosalie looked at me, and then looked towards the sound of Emmett's heavy footsteps advancing up the stairs, she took a deep breath.

Suddenly she turned to me and placed her hand on my arm, she bit her lip, and she reminded me of me for a second.

"I'm wrong to do this to you Bella, I wanted your support because I'm scared but I don't need it, I could at least do Emmett the favour of making the situation feel a little more private – you don't need to be here Bella, but thank you." I looked at her a felt a welling of pride inside me, she had pulled out her confidence and strength and was going to do this on her own – the right thing to do.

BELLA

I was sitting in my room when I got the phone call. I had left Rosalie about half an hour before and I was reading a book, working through some issues. Charlie called me. It was like a dream, a nightmare.

"Hello?"

"Bella, Jesus Christ Bells, I'm so glad you're okay,"

"What dad, what's going on?"

"I was scared that you were missing, that you went with Edward."

"What do you mean?" Fear gripped me, what the hell was going on here?

"Bella, you obviously don't know, where are you?"

"At the lake house. Dad where is Edward-"

"Where do you think he is?"

"Uh – Forks?"

"No Bella," he paused, his voice was soft when he spoke again, "I'm sorry, he's in St. Benedict's hospital, he didn't have any I.D. with him and he's been in a coma ever since he got to the hospital..."

"No, oh God no..." My breathing hitched in my throat.

"He crashed into a tree and they sent his photograph out to all the police forces within a certain radius, I knew who he was straight away."

"Oh God, Oh God..."

"Bella, calm down, put one of his brother or sister on, then I need to call his parents, you are only half an hour away from the hospital from the lake house, do it Bella, put his family on the line." I heard the authority in his voice and in a robotic state ran to Emmett and Rosalie's room to hand them the phone.

"I'm so sorry" I said as I entered the room. They had been lying in each other's arms. I ran to Emmett, "I'm so sorry." I repeated unintentionally, it just fell out of my mouth.

Emmett took the phone from me as I stood frozen in front of him.

"Uh, hello?"

I watched his face change from a look of confusion to pain then I knew he knew. I burst into a fresh set of tears and sunk to the floor while he listened on the phone to my dad.

I closed my eyes but found this was one reality I couldn't block from my mind, I couldn't ignore for one second. It was such raw emotion; it felt like I was tearing apart with all the what if's in my mind.

I needed him to be okay.

*A.N. – So the next chapter is set in the hospital I promise you, I have part of it written and your preview that will be given to reviewers is pretty awesome... just saying ;) if I were you, I'd REVIEW haha!*