Looking back on my chapters I realized there was lot of stuff that didnt match up. Such as the fact the Axel and Roxas had sex at a party two months ago but he's only five weeks along. Or the fact that at firast Roxas said he was going to get rid of his baby then next chapter made it very clear he was not going to. So to clear some things up; the party was 5 weeks ago and Roxas is not getting an abortion. And in chapter 5 when Roxas and Sora mention Roxas's prayer candles, I promise that has not been completely forgotten i just havent found the right moment to add that in yet.

After leaving the hospital and calling Sora to come pick us up, Axel and I didnt really talk much. When we climbed in the car, I asked my brother to take us to the bookstore and that was it. Not a single word from then on out. I looked back at Axel from the front mirror, watching as he smiled down at the ultrasound pictures and gently ran his thumb over the footage.

Getting tired of the ongoing silence, Sora finally spoke up. "So," he started, dragging out the word. "Did you find out the gender yet?"

I sighed and looked down at my fingernails. "It's way too early to tell, Sor."

"Oh," i knew without even looking that the brunette was biting his cheek nervously. "Well what do you want it to be?"

"Non-existent," it was entirely a lie but it also wasn't completely truthful either. Sora stopped asking questions after that.

The trip to the bookstore went practically the same as the car ride. Not a lot of talking unless it was about a certain book, Sora asked a couple questions about the parasite which I quickly shot down was half-assed answers. All in all, the entire thing was very uneventful. As we pulled up to our estate, i reached down to pick up my bag of expectation books, only to have my brother rip it out of my hands. He insisted on carrying it for me, saying "you shouldn't be lifting things, Rox!" Before running into the house.

I slammed to car door behind me and headed for the door as well when Axel's hand closed around my wrist. "What is it?" I asked, my tone harsher than I meant for it to be.

"I got you something at the bookstore," the redhead let go of my hand and reached into his bag, pulling out what looked like a large scrapbook.

I stared at it for a couple seconds, confused as to why he get me something this.

"It's a baby book," his voice was soft and my eyes widened, looking back at the item in my hands. "The pages are already pre labeled, starting with the eighth week of pregnancy."

I held the book to my chest, not meeting Axel's stare. "Thank you," I whispered. I felt a large hand ruffle the top of my head and when i did finally look up I was met with a genuine smile. Nothing else was said before he walked off to his motorcycle and drove away.

Walking back into the house, I immedietly went to my room and sat cross legged on my bed. Sora had already brought in my bag books and set them on desk but i decided to ignore them for now. I laid down the scrabook on my comforter and opened up to the first page. It was a fill Iin the blank information page where parents would write in the name of the mother, father, their due date, where they lived at the time, things like that. Skipping that for now, I went to the next page. At the very top it said "Week Eight" and on the left page there were a bunch of lines where you could write out a journal or something, while the right page was designated to pictures and decorations. I smiled a bit, felling a little excited for my eighth week so I could filling in the pages.

I laid back on my bed after setting the book aside, my fingers woven together over my belly. Unwinding one hand, i felt around the bottom of my stomach where Dad had moved the probe around during the ultrasound. I gently pressed my fingertips to different spots, noticing the new stiffness of my middle. It was still soft and squishy, like all skin, but threr was a bit of rigidness to it. It felt odd to touch but i couldnt stop running my fingers back and fourth.

A sudden knock at my door broke me out of my trance and I sat up. "Come in."

My mom opened my door at my voice and smiled at me as he entered. "How did the appointment go?"

"Fine. Everything is normal so far. Oh!" I got up off the bed and dug out the ultrasound picture from my my pocket, handing them to mom. "Dad printed these out for you."

I watched as my mother smiled in awe at the little black dot that was my baby. My baby. The thought terrified me but I quickly pushed it down and continued to look at the photos with mom.

I heard mom sigh, his eyes glued to the tiny pieces of paper. I bit my lip nervously as I watched him. Flashes of happiness and upset flashed back and forth in his eyes.

"Axel and I got some books, too," I mentioned quickly, walking to my desk where I sat everything down. I dug around in the plastic shopping bag, pulling out one of the novels and handing it to mom.

He chuckled as he read the title. "'What To Expect When You're Expecting'," he smiled.

"I heard it was really helpful and didn't they make a movie from it or something?" I shrugged.

Mom didn't answer right away. He scanned the book's cover for a few more seconds before setting it and the pictures back on my desk. He nodded his head towards my bed, motioning for me to sit with him. It was silent for a brief moment, mom holding my left hand in both of his. His thumbs traced over my knuckles, feeling the ridges in each of my fingers, then moving to do the same to my palm.

"I remember when I first found out I was pregnant with you and Sora," he started, sounding as if he was holding back tears. Mom didn't cry a whole lot, even when he wanted to. "I wasn't ready at all. I was only seventeen, your father eighteen. We were absolutely terrified."

I looked down, suddenly feeling ashamed.

"My parents were not nearly as accepting and we are of you. Your granddad even hit your father, he was furious!" A sad chuckle left his lips at the memory. "Your grandma cried for weeks. He never let anyone see him that way, though. Whenever he wanted to cry, he would lock himself in his room and sob into my dad's pillow."

I opened my mouth to say something but quickly decided against it when I saw a single tear run down his face.

"I hate that you're going through this," he spoke in almost a whisper. "When you were born, I prayed so hard that what happened to us would not happen to either you or Sora," I couldn't meet his eyes. My heart clenched at the realization that I had brought so much disappointment to my parents. "But with that prayer I made a promise to both myself and you. I promised that, even if you did have a child at such a young age, I would never, ever turn my back on you."

I looked up at him with wet eyes to see a genuine smile. "Momma..."

"I intend to keep that promise, no matter what."

I gave a sad smile in return, flinging my arms around him. He did the same to me, using one hand to hold my head directly over his heart like he did when I was little. I listened to the steady drum of it beating, letting it calm down my nerves and relax my muscles.

I felt mom place a soft kiss at the top of my head. "I love you so much, blue, never forget that," I nuzzled into his chest at the sound of my childhood nickname, given to me after the colour of my eyes.

"I love you too, momma. So much."