(AN: So I figured out what I'm going to do about the whole chromosome, incorrect biology, blah blah blah. I will not be changing it all. The inaccuracy is now a key part of the story. Prepare for drama, suspense, and far more angst than I originally intended. Enjoy!)

"No."

I took in a steady breath. My chest burned but not from my injury. This was pure rage. "Then I have another question for you," I seethed, looking into acid green eyes. They looked scared. "Did you get me pregnant on purpose?"

Axel opened and closed his mouth, trying to piece together his words. "I didn't try not to. I was completely sober, I knew what I was doing, and I thought," he paused to swallow. "I thought that whatever happens, happens."

I looked away, my eyes tearing up at the amount of fury that radiated through me. "Did you ever once think about me in any of that?" I spat out the words, unable to hold back pouring my emotion into my voice. "Did you think that I wouldn't eventually find out? Or were you really that stupid, Axel?" my voice was rising.

"Roxas, I'm so sorry," he whispered. "I missed being your best friend, too. And with the feelings I have for you, I thought it was an awesome idea. I didn't think about anything but myself and I am so fucking sorry," I could tell that at this point he was crying.

I licked my lips, my entire mouth suddenly feeling very dry. "Two steps forward, one step back."

Axel looked up at me. "What?"

"Two steps forward, one step back, Axel. One huge step back. God, I actually thought I was falling for you!" I ignored the pain in my side as I shouted at the father of my baby. "He started kicking, you know?"

Green eyes widened and it looked like he was going to smile, too.

"He started kicking and then I started hearing the voices," my voice started to crack, my heart wanting to cry but my mind pushing the feeling down with crushing force. "They were saying that I needed to tell you as soon as possible. It was terrifying. I wanted to call you, wanted to hear your voice, wanted to invite you over for dinner just so mom could say it had gotten late and you had to stay the night. That way I could fall asleep with you because my heart ached to touch you."

Axel was quiet. The only sound in the room was my heavy breathing and Axel's small sniffling.

"Please leave."

He opened his mouth to speak again but I cut him off, yelling at him to get out. For once he actually listened to me.

(Break)

I was in the hospital another week after the whole ordeal with Axel before Sora and I were both discharged. I was now on several different medications for all sorts of things including the schizophrenia. The amount of pain meds my brother and I were on were enough to knock out a horse but it sure as hell worked.

I hadn't seen nor heard of Axel at all in the last week. Part of me regretted yelling at him, but the more logical side of me said he deserved it. Of course I told Sora everything. He even said my outburst was justified. But I still couldn't help think I might have overdone it.

"Rox," Sora called out from his seat next to me in the back of he car. "I can practically hear you thinking. What's up?"

I shook my head and looked out the window, not wanting to talk about it.

Talk.

I quickly shook off the voice. While harmless most of them, they tended to get violent if I listened to them. The medicine helped a lot, though. It didn't get rid of them, but did seem to keep them calm, not as aggressive.

I looked up at the rear view mirror just in time to meet my mother's stare. He had pretty dark circles under his eyes. I instantly felt bad for being the cause of so much stress.

"Let me guess," I sighed when Sora started talking again. "You were thinking of Mr. Baby Daddy, right?"

I didn't glorify him with a response which, in retrospect, was probably a bad idea since it just confirmed his thoughts.

"Seriously, he's not even worth the effort. I know he's peanut's dad and everything but, if it me in your situation, I'd drop him, asap."

I looked over at him this time, my eyes narrowed and deadly. "What if you were in my situation, Sora, but with Riku? Would you be able to just forget everything about him and your past together?"

Sora went quiet. I turned my head back towards the window, watching the scenery pass in a blur. My hand itched to reach down to my phone and text Axel. I had been wanting to since he walked out of the hospital room.

Pulling my phone out of my back pocket with some difficulty, I opened up my text conversation with the redhead. There weren't very many messages. I tended to call him more often then text. My thumb was raised over the screen, still debating on what I should do. What would I even say? Shutting my eyes tight for a few seconds, I decided to just follow my heart.

To: Hot Head

From: Roxas

hey

I didn't even have time to slid the device under my thigh before it started buzzing.

From: Hot Head

To:Roxas

hey, roxy bear

I let myself smile at the nickname, my hand wandering to my stomach. My fingers splayed and drew patterns on the extended skin. I felt a small kick and traced the tip of my right pointer finger on where it hit.

To: Hot Head

From: Roxas

he's kicking

I felt my phone buzz shortly after but ignored it for now as we pulled up to the house. Sora and I stayed in the car, waiting for our parents to help us out. Since we were both currently on bed rest while we finished healing, we were helped up to our rooms and into beds with the promise of dinner soon to come. As I settled in, I pulled my phone back out to check my messages.

From: Hot Head

To: Roxas

really?! what does it feel like? actually can I just call you?

I was trying to type out a response but didn't get the chance before Axel's name 'Hot Head' appeared on my screen. Pressing the green answer button, I brought my phone up to my ear.

"You're really impatient," I greeted.

I heard Axel sigh on the other end, grateful I actually picked up. "Rox, I-"

"If you try to apologize to me, I'm going to hang up. I didn't answer your call to talk about your fucked up decisions," I interrupted.

"Then why did you answer?"

Slowly, I managed to sit up in my bed and lean against the head board. "I answered to talk about peanut, but since we're already off topic, I'll humor you," I adjusted the oxygen tube on my faced before speaking. "I probably won't ever be able to forgive you for what you did. I'm no where near ready to be a parent but I also don't want to let go of our baby. Thus, I'm stuck with you for at least the next 18 years of my life or more. Also," I paused, not sure if I was ready for what I was about to say. "I don't think I can fall out of love with you."

I spoke so softly that, at first, I didn't he heard me. Part of me hoped he didn't.

There was a long stretch of silence before Axel broke it. "I love you, too, Rox. So much. You have no idea."

I hadn't even realized I was crying at this point. "I don't want to love you, Axe. You did a really terrible thing to me."

"I know. I can't even express just how sorry I am. I'm still not going to leave you alone in this, though, you know that right?"

I nodded, not even caring that he couldn't see it. I tried to shake away my crying. "I don't want to be sad anymore. Let's talk about something else."

"Sounds good to me," I could hear the small smile in the way he spoke. "What does it feel like? When peanut kicks, I mean."

I chuckled a bit. "Well, it kind of hurts but nothing major. Just a little pinch. It scared the crap out of me when I first felt it, though."

Axel laughed a bit at my response.

The night dragged on like that. Axel and I talking casually back and forth. Every so often, an old childhood memory would come up and we'd reminisce, which would lead to sharing stupid stories of when we were young. It was...nice. Almost as if nothing had changed.

A quote that my mom told me when I was little played over in my head the entire time we were talking.

"Roxas, in order to truly move on you must be willing to forgive others. Not for them, but for you."