Okay, major change of plans, obviously. I know, I promised a party chapter and I started writing it but it just didn't fit yet. It's definitely coming but I first have to explain a few things & something huge has to happen before that. This chapter is only a workaround. I don't want to put too much stuff into one chapter, I just felt like this one is done. But expect a new "real" update this weekend!

Chapter 7

[starting over]

"We fall so hard

Now we gotta get back what we lost

I thought you'd go

But you were with me all along"

[starting over - macklemore feat. ben bridwell]

I finally figured out a way to grill Jenn about how her life is going right now without me being the bitch. And the solution was pretty damn easy. Harvey' gonna do it. It would only be polite to get to know your wanna-be sister in law. And that's exactly what he did.

"So, Jenn. What are you doing for a living?" Oh wow, what a creative way of asking her that. I'm impressed.

"Actually, I just got promoted. I'm an attending now, head of our general surgery department." Well, she didn't sound too excited about that.

"So you did go to Stamford?" I asked. shit, I just wrecked the whole thing.

"Why do you sound so surprised? I always wanted to go there, you know that."

"Yeah, yeah," I tried to graciously talk myself out of this. "I haven't talked to mom and dad in a while. I just wanted to make sure.." My whole body tensed. Here I was again, so sure of myself and yet hating on my sister for chasing her dreams. Harvey sensed my discomfort and put an arm around me, pulling me closer to him. We sat in our living room, Harvey and I on the white couch and Jenn opposite from us in the armchair, her legs crossed and a whiskey in her hand. She looked exactly like I did when Harvey and I would work late and discussed our problems in his office. Our relation really couldn't be denied.

"Well, that's nice. Congratulations." Harvey said, smiling genuinely. Jenn looked outside now, letting her eyes wander about nighttime New York City.

"I don't know if taking over the department was a masterstroke of my boss. I doubt it, to be honest." I narrowed my eyes, slowly starting to look through her overly sisterly facade. Harvey, in total lawyer mode now, already sensed an opportunity.

"What do you mean?"

Jenn remained silent again, staring at her glass of scotch in utter bitterness.

"I…I killed someone. 3 months ago, heart transplantation. They thought I was the best in my field and insisted that I was operating. And I fucked up." she whispered with tears in her eyes.

"The Chief knew about it. And he still promoted me only 2 months after…it… Why the fuck would you promote a fricken murderer?" she shouted now, totally losing her temper. I still tried to comprehend what she was saying, I tried to figure out a way to handle this. But like always, Harvey was faster.

"Mistakes happen, Jenn. You can't save everyone, death comes with your job. I represented a lot of doctors who got sued by grieving families and every single one of them was devastated. You just need to learn to accept it, there's nothing else you can do about this."

Jenn simply grunted. "Need to accept it? What the fuck am I supposed to accept? That I killed a one-year-old because I wasn't focused? Because I had to pity myself for being cheated on? That's what I call fucking egocentric, I could've let someone else do it for me. But no, Dr Paulson had to prove herself. And she fucked up again. They couldn't even celebrate his 1st birthday" Harvey and I both tried to understand her puzzle pieces of sentences she threw at us but believe me, it wasn't easy. Her face was in her hands now, sobbing horribly and that's when I realised: People decide which part of them they want you to see. And which one they wanna bury in the ground. Even my seemingly perfect twin did that. Harvey looked at me, as unsure about how to react as I was and I just stood up. I walked across the room, pulled her on her feet and wrapped my arms around her as tightly as I could.

"I quit 3 days ago, effective immediately. I wanna start over, I want to finally be able to live with myself. That's why I'm here." she was still sobbing. But for some twisted reason I was relieved. She was here to come clean, without any vicious hidden agenda. And I really wanted to believe that for a while.

"Do not, do NOT, no matter what happens, let harvey and donna and jenn have 3 way sex... Or just harvey and jenn... Maybe I have a dirty mind but I felt there was a slight implication, slight threat there. Ugh. Shudder. "

ha, haha, hahaha, hahahaha! Whoever you are, I love you & you definitely made my day! I reread the whole story because, well, I did not plan on any of that haha! And I really have no idea why you think that but oh well, I love you for that! And I can soothe your nerves, there's no threesome planned :-DD

Also, I'm really glad that you like this kind of fast forward story. I know that all of us are waiting for them to finally get together & even though it feels slightly out of character: They're endgame, I can feel it & I need it. Or I'll hate suits forever and always… No, I can't and I won't but you get my point ;)

Well, like I said: this is only a workaround & the next "real" chapter is coming sooner than you think, so prepare yourself ;)