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Don't worry guys, this is a Linstead story, I'm just throwing some twists in there. I hope you've enjoyed the chapters so far, Ive tried to incorporate every character somehow. Enojy the new ones tonight! And thanks for reading (:

Chapter 8- To Love or Loathe

Jay started off the weekend great, things were good with Erin, or so he thought, but by the time Sunday morning rolled around, that had been the worst weekend he had in a long time. Around 11:00 am Jay woke up on his couch, How did I get back here? He thought to himself. I guess I had one too many.. He had no plans for the day other than trying to recuperate from last night. Jay found himself checking his phone in hopes of seeing a text from Erin but to no dismay, his phone only had a few calls from Ruzek who was probably checking to see if he was alive. How could she do this to me? I know were partners and I know our relationship probably wouldn't have been the best idea, but it was worth a shot. As he was thinking about how betrayed he felt, Jay got a text from Ruzek, "Round two tonight? Firehouse 51 and firehouse 12 will be there, should be fun." Tonight, Jay thought, was going to be completely different from last.

A throbbing headache work Erin up at 10:30, she just laid there in the darkness with her eyes closed hoping the feeling of an elephant sitting on her head would go away. Finally a half an hour later Erin decided it was time to start the day, she checked her phone, looking for a text from both Kelly and Jay. No text from Jay, which didn't surprise her, she was a complete bitch last night. There was a text from Kelly asking if she wanted to go back to Mollys tonight with a few of the firehouses, District 21 was invited of course. I think that's just what I need to get the guilt of Jay off my mind she thought, and besides he probably won't be there after last night. Erin didn't really know why she felt guilty, it's not like they were dating or anything, but at the same time Erin did know exactly why she felt bad… Jay has feelings for me, she thought, and I know I have feelings for him, it's just not a good idea. Erin finally dragged herself out of bed, ate breakfast with a few advils, and went for a run hoping to clear her mind.

Jay finally decided to stop moping around his apartment, if Erin doesn't want me, that's not my fault, God knows I tried, he thought to himself as he headed out the door to go to the gym. Once there he cleared his mind with every punch he through in the hanging bag, beads of sweat dripped down his face, they were a sign of anger towards Kelly Severide. Swooping in and taking his girl… his partner… like that. After an hour of beating the stuffing out of the bag he decided it was time to go. Turning around he bumped into a beautiful blonde girl who was just about to start a kickboxing class. Why not, Jay thought as he struck up a convo with her.

7:00 pm rolled around slowly as Erin started to get ready for Mollys to make it there by 8:00, tonight would be an early night she thought, still feeling a little hungover from last night. As she was curling her hair, she heard her phone go off in the other room and galloped to see who the text was from. Looking down she saw it was from Kelly, a smile spread across her face as she unlocked her phone. Erin let out a sigh as she read it, "Sorry Erin, something came up with my dad, I won't be able to make it tonight, raincheck?" Damn. Tonight wasn't going to be as fun as she thought. At least I'll get to see Jay tonight and apologize for being such a bitch.

Erin finally found a parking spot down the street from Mollys and started to make the cold walk to meet up with all of her friends. She saw Jays car parked in front and was happy she would get a chance to talk to him, a much needed talk at that. Erin walked in the bar and made her way over to the table where her district was sitting. Everyone was there; Antonio, Burgess, Olinsky, Atwater, Jin, and Hlastead was making his was over to the table with two beers in his hands. Erin turned to him and pulled him away from the group for a second to get the talk over with so it wasn't hanging over their heads for the whole night. "Jay, about last night.." She was cut off by an impatient Jay.

"Look don't worry about it Lindsay, I see where we stand now, and it's perfectly fine with me." He sharply said never taking his eyes off hers.

"Okay but I sincerely do feel bad, I just had a lot on my mind and I was worried about Voight finding out," She said as Jay looked around, seeming as though he was trying to find someone.

"Yeah, whatever Lindsay, can we talk about this later?" He said as he looked back at her beautiful hazel eyes. It hurt Jay to say those harsh words to her, and it hurt him even more when he saw her reaction.

"Uh, yeah, I'm sorry.." She said as he started to hand a beer towards her. "Thanks!" She smiled, despite what just happened.

"Oh, Jay, um, who's this?" A blonde haired girl asked as she grabbed the beer from his hands, I guess that wasn't for me Erin thought, I should've known.

"That's my partner, Lindsay." Jay said as he wrapped his arm around the mystery blondes waist.

"You can call me Erin," She said as she gave Jay a harsh glare, "Who are you?" Erin as turning her attention back to the girl who was not Jays type at all.

"My names Maddie, I met Jay at the gym.." She sweetly smiled, but Jay quickly cut her off.

"Were gonna go over here for a little while to talk, see ya later Erin." He said not even looking at her directly.

Ummm what just happened, Erins face turned pink and she felt a little embarrassed. Wow. This is unpleasant she thought to herself, this must be how Jay felt last night when she totally brushed him aside. I guess it's payback, and I understand where he's coming from. Jay didn't even try to make in convincing, blondes aren't his type, and based on the other night, Jay is more of a boobs girl and this girl had none of that going for her. This is going to be a long night, I cant leave because that will be too obvious, so Ill just suck it up and have some beers with the others Erin finally leveled with herself as she took a seat next to Burgess. The first round Erin got for all of her coworkers, round number two was on Olinsky, and round number three was picked up by Antonio. By the time Antonio made it back with the third round Erin couldn't take her eyes of Jay and Maddie. Their stools scooted closer to each other as the night went on his arm went around her shoulders as she held his hand and sipped on her wine. Seriously wine? Erin thought, wow, what a lightweight, sipping on that same glass the whole night. Jay leaned in an whispered something into the blondes ear causing her to blush and smirk back at Jay as he moved his arm from around his shoulders to around her waist. Maddie leaned in and placed a kiss on Jays jaw as he pulled her closer to him. I cant take this anymore Erin screamed in her mind. I should just go. But no I cant back down, all this was running through her mind as she made her way to the bar to order shots.

Erin returned to the table with 8 shots but there was only four people left at the table, Antonio, Ruzek, Burgess, and herself. Erin passed out the shots to everyone. "Tequila, huh odd choice coming from you, Lindsay" Ruzek laughed before he downed the shot.

"Yeah well I've got a lot going on that I want to forget about." Erin spit out as she downed three shots in a row.

Looks were exchanged by everyone around the table because they knew very well what Erin wanted to forget about, because it was sitting just a few tables over. As the night went on Ruzek and Burgess left leaving Erin and Antonio at the bar. Erin was up picking a new song from the jukebox as her hips swayed side to side, Antonio could tell she was blasted out of her mind. Erin chose a fast paced song and started to sway her hips faster and faster to the beat. Antonio went up to her and gave her a hug and told her he would see her in the morning. He then left but he had his sister Gabby, who was working the bar that night, call her a cab and it would be there within 45 minutes, so he wasn't worried. Erin was left to dance alone in the middle of the bar, attracting a lot of watchers.

Jay Was sitting at the other end of the bar by himself, his date had left long go, but he wanted to stay to keep an eye on Erin. Watching her dance turned him on, but mostly he was just happy that she forgot about all the drama she has going on in her life, he was happy to see her so carefree. Jay was smiling at her from across the room, just then an unfamiliar guy went up behind Erin and started to dance with her. He was sure that Erin would push him off and defend herself but she let him dance on her, she even started to grind her hips into his. That's when Jay snapped. Speed walking across the room he shoved the guy off of Erin and told him that he needed to back off. "Hey man, I think you should leave her alone."

"What are you her boyfriend?" The guy said as Erin stumbled around and he grabbed her wrapping his arms around her holding her back to his chest.

"Yeah, and I think its time you back off." Jay said getting in his face.

"Whatever dude." The stranger slurred and went back to his buddies who were all laughing their asses off.

Jay took stumbling Erin into his arms as she looked up at him and slurred, "Did you just call yourself my boyfriend?" She giggled as she started to dance with him.

"Maybe, does that bother you?" Jay asked as he watched Erin move her hips in circles.

"Not tonight." She honestly replied as she put one of Jays legs in between hers and started to grind her hips.

"Let's go talk somewhere" Jay whispered as he kissed her neck.