Sara didn't know how long it was going to take her to tell Rip and Snart, and to a lesser extent Jax and Stein, about her pregnancy. She had expected she would probably put it off for as long as possible, or you know at least until she was comfortable with the idea herself. But turns out that she didn't have that luxury, because it was during the mission to murder Savage in the middle ages that she was forced to reveal her secret.
She had been paired up with Snart, of course. The rest of the team had snuck into the castle whilst the guards changed their shift and the two of them were waiting as backup in case something should, and knowing this team would, go wrong. Mick had been with them originally, but he had requested to go in with the others because honestly he looks like he could be a guard in the middle ages and that could be used to their advantage. Sara had rolled her eyes when Rip agreed because she knew Mick's true motives for asking about the switch; he wanted her to tell Snart about the baby. She knew that she should be grateful, he was offering her some justified alone time with the crook where there would be nothing for them to do but talk. But she didn't want to talk. She didn't even want to think about it and yet it was all that seemed to be able to run through her mind. Snart being the quiet and focused man that he is wasn't helping either; any conversation initiated by him would've been a welcome distraction from her thoughts. In fact, she didn't even care if it came from him or a house on fire; she just wanted a distraction.
Well be careful what you wish for.
After about only fifteen minutes or so of just crouching on behind a small hill not far from the castle she felt the familiar sensation of something wet seeping through her underwear, something that was definitely not supposed to be there. Her eyes widened and so she reached up and turned off her comm., not wanting anyone to hear if she started panicking.
"It can't be," She thought to herself; Gideon had confirmed her pregnancy, not only with a scan but also with an ultrasound, so this definitely could not be happening.
She continued to focus on that fact as she very cautiously slipped a hand between her thighs, hardly even noticing it when Snart rolled his eyes at her. Much to her horror she felt something wet on the leather of her pants and when she pulled her shaking hand away her fingers were lightly stained with the color red; and she was sure she felt her heart stop.
"I, I'm bleeding." She finally said with a terrified gulp, this motivated Snart to look over at her and notice the panic written on her face.
He also turned his comm. off, probably to save her as much embarrassment as he could.
"Here," he said whilst stripping off his jacket, "Tie this around your waist, we'll get you something after the mission." He promised as he held out the jacket, but she wouldn't take it. Instead she just continued to stare down at her fingers.
"I'm bleeding," she said again, this time he noticed that there was a little crack to her voice.
"Very observant," He replied with a role of his eyes, "Now I'm sure you have some of those tampon things or whatever it is you use back on the ship, but-" She cut him off not only with words, but also with a face of complete and total fear.
"No Snart, I, I'm pregnant." She forced herself to spit it out, and also try not to be upset by the way his eyes widened and his gaze became distant as if he had zoned out. "Or at least I was, I mean I was this morning but… I don't understand. Gideon, Gideon checked me out and said everything was fine yesterday." Tears began to pick at her eyes and she was coming pretty close to hyperventilating when she suddenly realized that Snart was no longer kneeling a few feet away from her, but instead was standing over her and helping her up.
Only when she stood did she realize how wobbly her feet were and she nearly fell back down, she would've had Leonard not caught her and lifted her bridal style into his arms. Despite holding her close to him he still managed to reach up and switch his comm. back on.
"Change of plans, Sara and I are going back to the Waverider." He announced, already running with her held firmly in is grasp. She was grateful for that too, because the panic and fear were starting to overtake her as she thought over what was happening. Rip must have been shouting, because Len was very violent in turning his comm. back off.
He didn't care what Rip said though, nor did he care that he barely understood what exactly was going on. Sara was, or is, pregnant? He wanted to deny all possibility of it, or at least all possibility of it being his, but he couldn't. Even if he could, even if this baby that she may or may not be carrying isn't his he does understand one thing: something is very wrong.
"You'll be ok," He assured Sara when he finally registered that her breath was coming out in hiccups as her fears sank in and her tears began to spill out. "You'll be ok," he said it again, "You'll both be ok."
By the time they got back to the ship Sara, although she was still unspeakably worried, had calmed down and Len had pretty much processed that what was happening actually was. Despite his rush, he was gentle in lying Sara down on the medical bed; he didn't want to risk making the situation worse.
"Gideon, run a scan on Sara! Something's wrong!" He all but shouted up at the ceiling. Gideon didn't respond verbally, but instead the blue light Sara had been scanned by just two days ago returned and began roaming over her body.
The tears were streaming freely down her face by now, her breath coming out in shallow gasps as she tried to calm herself. Leonard even looked scared, and she couldn't decide if that was a good thing or a bad thing.
"It appears that Miss Lance has suffered from some minor vaginal bleeding, most likely caused by a slight shift in the embryo's position as it begins to develop more fully. It has already stopped on it's own and is nothing to be concerned about." The AI's robotic voice finally explained and while Len let out a breath of relief that he had been holding, Sara just let out a sob.
He turned to her, looking at her incredulously, as she covered her mouth with one hand and her red face scrunched up as she silently let out her tears. At first he thought maybe they were tears of happiness, but even in this situation she didn't seem like the type for that. Then he thought that maybe she was just trying to calm herself down, but then he noticed how she had her eyes squeezed shut and when they opened she still wouldn't look at him.
She was afraid of his reaction.
"Let's try this again," he drawled, trying to make his voice as non-threatening as possible while still sounding firm. "Do you want to tell me why you really fainted?" He asked and in response she began scrubbing furiously at her eyes as her breath repeatedly hitched with her efforts to calm down. He waited patiently for her to do so, giving her all the time she needed to compose herself.
"I didn't want you to find out this way," she finally muttered, the tears gone from her face but still very evident in her voice.
"How long have you known?" He asked and she sniffled,
"Two days, three if you count the night I found out." She replied and he had his next question ready, but he couldn't bring himself to ask it.
"How far along are you?" His voice was softer now, it's edge starting to disappear because not only does he not need it around Sara but this is also neither the time nor the place for it.
"Just under two months," she answered, he tried to figure out exactly how long ago their little escapade had been but with time travel it gets a little jumbled.
"Is it…?" He finally asked with a gulp, trailing off, as he couldn't bring himself to finish his question.
Luckily, she knew what he was trying to ask and nodded her head in confirmation. He tried not to look afraid, mostly because she looked like she was only seconds away from crying again and he knew that a bad reaction from him could set her off. Fortunately, or unfortunately maybe, he didn't have much time to give a reaction because at that very moment Rip marched in looking royally pissed off and Len noticed that the tail of his long coat was singed slightly.
"What happened?!" He demanded of Sara and Leonard. "You know what, don't answer, I'll tell you what happened. Our backup decided to leave in the middle of a mission and because of that we not only didn't defeat Savage but we lost the knife, meaning that we are going to 2166 with NO advantage!" He lectured,
"If you haven't noticed Rip, we're having this conversation in the med bay, we had a pretty good reason for leaving." Len drawled, more than a little annoyed that their captain clearly hadn't even considered the fact that he and Sara had a good reason for ditching the mission.
"Very well," Rip said, his voice a little more calm but still angry as ever. "I'll play along, what happened while you were sitting on a hill waiting for a signal that required you report to the med bay immediately?" He asked, crossing his arms and staring expectantly at the two of them.
Neither of them answered, they both looked to be very uncomfortable with being put on the spot and Leonard did briefly glance over his shoulder at Sara, but neither of them answered.
"Well then, be on the bridge in five minutes to make the jump to 2166." He instructed before exiting out of the med bay. Once he was gone Len turned back to Sara and let out a sigh, she looked as scared as he felt.
"We're going to have to tell him," he deadpanned; she looked at him in surprise.
"We?" She asked and although he tried to hide it with a fake smile he felt his heart break a little bit at the underlying meaning of the question.
"You didn't really think I'd walk out on this, did you?" He asked and she shrugged,
"You don't exactly strike me as the type to want kids," she reasoned,
"Yeah well whether I like it or not I'm going to have one," he said, but that was when something else crossed his mind that he hadn't even considered in the midst of all this chaos. "Unless you were planning to-" the violent way in which she was shaking her head cut him off.
"I can't, I just can't." She told him and he nodded acceptingly, "I still don't know about after it's born, if I could keep it or not. But I do know one thing; I can't have you there halfway." She told him seriously,
"Meaning?" He asked, although he was fairly sure that he had a pretty good idea.
"Meaning that whatever the decision comes to I want us to make it together." She explained, "If we decide to give it up I need to know that you're on board with that, and if we decide to keep it then we need to find a way to make that work together. Neither of us can continue the life of coming and going in and out, either we work out some joint custody agreement or if only one of us wants to keep it then the other walks away like none of this ever happened." She explained, honestly she's not entirely sure either one of them could handle being a single a parent. Sure he practically raised Lisa and she looked out for Sin, but it's been a long time for him and she didn't even meet Sin until she was thirteen and mostly able to take care of herself. But if it were to come down to that then she and Len could never see each other again. They couldn't become one of those people who pretend that they're just a friend of the parent and visits once or twice a year; this was something that needs to be either all or nothing.
"So I take it you don't want to get married?" Len asked half jokingly after listening to her conditions.
"Let's figure out what to do with the kid first," she said and he smirked before turning as if he were about to head to the bridge, but then he turned back.
"I know you said you're not sure if you CAN keep it, but do you want to?" He asked as she got up and off the bed, biting her lip with thought before she nodded.
"I'll think it over," he promised her, "But I doubt my answer is going to change." He said before turning to go,
"And what is your answer?" She asked, getting him to stop just outside the doorway and look back at her over his shoulder.
"I'd like to place my vote under keep it," he replied, she let him go and continue on his way after he told her. She didn't tell him that his words lifted a huge weight off of her chest.
As if time jumping isn't bad enough, time jumping into London 2166 is probably the worst idea one could ever have. They were being shot at before they even hit the ground.
"Savage's forces are doing the shooting, here in 2166 they've subject-gated most of the globe!" Rip informed the team after Jax asked why they were being shot at despite only having just entered the time.
"Well maybe picking up here wasn't the brightest idea!" Sara remarked as another powerful shot rocked the ship and she struggled to keep her food down where it belongs.
"Unfortunately we no longer have the luxury of blindly searching for Savage throughout history," Stein reminded her. She nodded and sucked in a breath through gritted teeth, no longer having the luxury of being able to speak unless she wanted to throw up again.
Snart glanced over at her, not that she noticed, worried about her and thinking that maybe she shouldn't be time jumping.
"Indeed," Rip's reply to Stein cut through the crook's thoughts, "We need to target Savage at the time and place we know he will be, which is-"
"Right before he wastes your family," Mick cut off bluntly, the others all turned their heads to glare incredulously at him, including Len and Sara despite their own concerns. "What?" The arsonist asked, somehow believing what he had said was appropriate.
"Yes, Mr. Rory, Savage will kill my wife and son in three days time. But we can save them and the world by stopping Savage now," Rip said, choosing not to spend right now lecturing Mick on the social etiquette that he so clearly never learned.
Within the next two minutes they landed and while everyone got up as if the jump and attack had been nothing, Sara remained in her seat for an extra minute after removing her restraints. Len sent her a look, one that asked if she was all right, and she nodded in reply before getting to her feet as Rip babbled on about something.
"Savage is going to be out in the open tonight. Now, in order to capture him I require the services of-"
"Killer, Clepto, and Pyro." Mick cut the captain off for a second time,
"Bingo," Rip replied before glaring at Len and Sara. "Meaning that this would be a lot easier if Killer and Clepto would tell me why they abandoned the previous mission."
"Are you kidding me Rip?" Len all but whined, the hard gaze of the captain said that he was not kidding.
"Unfortunately no Mr. Snart, this is our last chance to defeat Savage before you all end up in the timeline as nothing more than forever unsolved missing person's cases. So I need to know that I can trust you, less you want to pay the consequences." He said sternly and Len gave a sigh, he'd be fine with never being able to return home but he knew that the others would all have problems with such a thing. He looked over at Sara who sighed in agreement; it was time to come clean.
"Alright," she agreed calmly and everyone turned to look at her, especially those who already know about the events of the past two days. "I'm pregnant."