Rachel woke up next to her mother. She loved the feeling of her mom's arms around her. Rachel turned around and looked at her mother. She was so pretty, Rachel took time looking at all of her mother's feature.
"Oh good morning sweetie, how long have you been awake for?" Shelby asked as she opened her eyes feeling someone's eyes watching her.
"Not long" Rachel mumbled before nuzzling her head into her mom's chest. Rachel had her hands against her mother's chest.
"Come here" Shelby said as she turned onto her back. She pulled the girl up so that she was lying on top of her. Rachel's head was tucked under Shelby's chin. Her hands were resting softly on Shelby's breasts. She didn't notice at first but then pulled them away suddenly when she realized, clearly embarrassed.
"Hey, it's okay" Shelby said but Rachel still looked embarrassed. Shelby hated the way that her daughter would freeze up. She didn't want the girl to ever feel embarrassed or uncomfortable in front of her.
"You are my daughter Rachel and if it's comfortable for you, you can rest your hands on my boobs. I don't mind and you do not need to be embarrassed in front of me" Shelby explained trying to calm the nervous girl down. Rachel was still tense in her mother's arms.
"Did you know that I got to hold you when you were born" Shelby asked and Rachel shook her head.
"When babies are born, their mom produces milk for their boobs for their baby and because you were born early your dads said that I could feed you" Shelby explained "I feed you and my heart broke. I wanted to keep you so much but I signed a contract saying I wasn't allowed to see you until you were 18 unless you contacted me first"
Rachel relaxed listing to her mother's voice, she moved her hand back to the comfortable natural position that it had previously been in.
"I held you like this" Shelby said as she scooped her daughter up and held her sideways just like she had done when she was a baby.
"I looked down at you suckling and you looked up at me with those big brown eyes and I knew that you were my angel" Shelby said kissing the girl on the head.
"Mommy, I wish you never left me" Rachel whispered and Shelby had to control herself from sobbing.
"I do too baby, it is the biggest regret of my life" Shelby whispered into her baby girl's ear.
Shelby looked down at her baby girl in her arms, her daughter.
"I love you so much Rachel" Shelby said and Rachel looked up at her.
"I love you too mom" Rachel admitted. This was the first time Rachel had said to Shelby that she loved her and to Shelby it was the best moment of her life. They stayed like this for a bit longer before Shelby spoke.
"I think we need to get up now baby girl" Shelby said and Rachel sighed but nodded. She loved spending time with her mother.
"Can we do this again?" Rachel asked.
"Do what again sweetie" Shelby asked confused.
"Cuddle up like this" Rachel asked and Shelby's heart melted again.
"Of course sweetie, anytime you just want a cuddle like this just tell me. If you don't want other people seeing just tell me and we can go into my room and have a cuddle like this" Shelby explained and Rachel nodded. Shelby cuddled her daughter for a further minute before climbing out the bed. Shelby then helped her daughter out of the bed.
"Get ready and then come down the stairs" Shelby said and Rachel nodded. Shelby started making breakfast for the girl. Once Rachel was ready, Shelby went to get dressed.
"Come on Rach, we are going to be late" Shelby shouted and Rachel came running through. They climbed into the car.
They drove in near silence again. Rachel loved the journey to school. She spent the journey looking out of the window.
"You need to be sharp out of school today" Shelby said and Rachel nodded before jumping out of the car.
Once Shelby was sure that the girl was safely in school, she headed home. She arrived home and decided to annoy her mom. Rachel had only been at school for Once Rachel was in the school, Shelby headed back home. She arrived home and decided to annoy her mom for a bit. Rachel had only been at school for 3 days and already Shelby was bored.
"Mom, I don't know what to do" Shelby complained.
"Shelby you are worse that a child. How about you do some cleaning?" Elizabeth asked and Shelby made a face.
"That's boring" Shelby complained.
"Are you remembering that you have the CPS officer coming today?" Elizabeth asked.
"Shit" Shelby said jumping off the sofa. She had completely forgotten about the meeting and quickly got to work cleaning. She was terrified that something would arise and the girl would be taken off of her. That was her fear.
"Shelby, you are going to have to leave now if you want to pick Rachel up on time" Elizabeth said.
"I best leave" Shelby said grabbing her bag as she realized that she was going to be late.
"Don't mess up the house" Shelby called as she ran out the front door. Elizabeth rolled her eyes. Her house was always tidied until Rachel and Shelby moved back in.
Shelby drove quickly to the school. Shelby cursed as she noticed the girl sitting nervously on the wall. Rachel looked close to tears. She climbed into the car silently.
"I'm sorry I was late sweetie" Shelby said and Rachel just glanced at her. Shelby noticed that it looked like the girl had been crying.
"Sweetie, I am really sorry" Shelby said putting her hand on the girl's hand.
"I thought you weren't going to come and pick me up" Rachel said and Shelby sighed.
"I will never forget about you baby, I left later than normal and the traffic was really bad but I was on my way" Shelby said and Rachel nodded.
"Anyway, did you have a good day at school?" Shelby asked and Rachel nodded.
"I'll glad sweetie" Shelby said. They spoke for a bit longer about Rachel's day at school.
"So the CPS officer is coming around tonight to speak to you" Shelby said and instantly Rachel's face dropped again.
"Mom, no" Rachel complained.
"I know that it difficult for you sweetie but it is something that must be done" Shelby said and Rachel went off in a bit of a huff. Shelby just left her deciding to speak to her later about it.
They arrived at the house and Shelby ordered Rachel up to her room to get ready. She wanted the girl out of her school outfit and into something more comfortable.
"Good girl" Shelby said kissing the girl on the head as she walked down the stairs.
"Listen sweetie, I understand that you don't like speaking to people about what happened to you with your dad but it is all so that you can stay with me and that they can get punished as they are supposed to be" Shelby explained and Rachel nodded.
"Go and watch some TV" Shelby said and Rachel sat down and watched the TV for a bit. The doorbell then rang and Rachel jumped.
Shelby walked over to the door and let the woman in.
"Hi, nice to meet you" Shelby said as she led the officer into the house.
"Hello, my name is Linda" She said shaking Shelby's hand.
"Where is Rachel?" Linda asked looking around for the girl.
"She is in the living room. She is a little nervous" Shelby explained and Linda nodded.
"Of course, I'll speak to you both first and then I'll try to have a chat with Rachel by herself, maybe taking her to her room" Linda said and Shelby nodded.
"Of course" She said as they walked into the living room.
"Hello Rachel, my name is Linda" Linda said and Rachel nodded before climbing into her mother's arms. She held onto her mother as tightly as she could. She was scared and her mom was making her feel slightly better.
"Hey, you're okay baby girl" Shelby said rubbing the girl's back encouragingly.
"So, I'm just here to have a little chat with you so we can make sure that you are happy" Linda said.
"I am happy here, I like it here with my mom" Rachel said cuddling closer to her mom.
"That's good" Linda said "Do you prefer staying with your mom than with your dad"
Rachel nodded.
"Why?" Linda asked softly.
"She loves me, and doesn't hurt me" Rachel said quietly. "She will cuddle me and keep me safe"
"That's good, what ways did your dad hurt you that your mom doesn't?" Linda asked.
"She doesn't hit me or anything" Rachel said and Linda nodded.
"Rachel, can you tell Linda about what you told me your dad did to you?" Shelby asked. "What made you feel funny?"
"No, mama" Rachel said.
"Rachel, Linda only wants to help you" Shelby explained. "Nothing is going to happen to you. We just want you to be safe and to help you over everything"
Rachel nodded.
"He hurt me and did things to me" Rachel said. "He made me bleed"
Linda nodded. She knew that she needed to just listen to Rachel, she didn't want to lead the girl the wrong way.
"Tell her what he used?" Shelby said.
"His fingers, his tongue and his willy" Rachel mumbled. Linda nodded.
"Thank you for speaking to me, Rachel" Linda said. "Can I just confirm something?"
Rachel nodded.
"Did he rape you?" Linda asked and Rachel nodded before bursting into tears. Shelby held the girl in her arms and she turned towards her burrowing her head into her mom's chest.
"You are so brave, Rachel" Linda said and Rachel nodded.
They spoke for a bit longer before Linda decided to trying to speak to Rachel alone.
"Rachel, will you show me your room?" Linda asked and Rachel nodded. She jumped off her mom's lap and went to the door before turning around to look at Shelby.
"You go to your room that Nana got sorted for you" Shelby said and Rachel nodded. Linda followed her.
"Wow, it's a beautiful room" Linda said and Rachel nodded.
"I like it" Rachel said as she sorted out the cushions on her bed to make them sit perfectly.
"Do you sleep here?" Linda asked and Rachel shook her head.
"Where do you sleep?" Linda asked.
"With my mom" Rachel said. Linda nodded.
"I like to cuddle up with her then I don't have nightmares" Rachel explained.
She sat speaking to Linda for a bit longer before they headed back down the stairs.
"Well, I am very happy with how Rachel is doing" Linda said. "I would like to have another meeting in 2 weeks just to check everything is okay and you might want to go and see a therapist"
Shelby nodded.
"Of course, thank you" Shelby said as Linda left.
"It's no problem, you and that girl belong together" Linda said and Shelby smiled.
"Thank you" Shelby said before they said their goodbyes.
Once Linda left, Shelby started making tea. It didn't take her too long and she called Rachel down.
"Mmm, Mom this is amazing" Rachel said eating the pasta her mom had made. Pasta was a safe food for Rachel to eat. She never had a reaction to it, so Shelby used it to try new food with her. Previously, she had only given the girl tomato based sauce but today she was trying a cheese sauce to see how the girl managed.
"I'm glad you like it" Shelby said.
Once they finished eating, they cuddled up on the sofa and watched the TV.
"Mom, when are we going to New York again?" Rachel asked.
"Well, next week is Thanks Giving and we are going the week after" Shelby explained and Rachel nodded.
"I think Ellie is going to go with us" Shelby explained and Rachel nodded.
"It'll be good for you to get to know Ellie" Shelby said and Rachel nodded. She was starting to get tired now.
"Right, shower and bed" Shelby said noticing the girl drifting off to sleep.
"Mommy" Rachel moaned.
"Now" Shelby said and Rachel sighed. She went up the stairs and quickly had a shower. She was really tired and for some reason she just wasn't in a cuddle mood, at least she didn't think she was. After speaking to Linda, she became embarrassed with the fact that she slept with her mom. She was going to sleep in her own bed.
Rachel walked into her room and climbed into bed.
"Rachel" Shelby called when she was unable to find her daughter.
"In here" Rachel shouted and Shelby followed the voice.
"What are you doing here?" Shelby asked.
"I'm going to sleep" Rachel said and Shelby nodded.
"Okay, then I suppose I'll see you in the morning baby" Shelby said kissing the girl on the head after tucking her in. Rachel nodded before trying to get to sleep.
Shelby walked down the stairs, she was a bit confused as to why the girl wanted to be on her own in her own bed. It wasn't like the girl. Shelby watched some TV before heading up to bed herself. She struggled to get to sleep not having her baby girl curled up to her. She eventually started drifting off to sleep when the door opened. Shelby sat up slightly to see who it was.
"Mama?" Rachel whispered.
"Hey baby, what's up?" Shelby asked.
"I'm sorry, I can't sleep by myself" Rachel said before bursting into tears.
"I got scared" She mumbled and Shelby sighed.
"It's okay sweetie, come on and climb into my bed" Shelby said and Rachel hesitated but walked over to the bed.
"Come on in, we can work on it baby but at least you tried" Shelby said as she lifted the girl into the bed. Rachel instantly curled into her mom's side. Hey both got a better night sleep in each other's arms.
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