Childhood Remix

Disclaimer: This is an "Inuyasha" fanfiction. I have not stolen the idea and I have not taken claim to the show. It has not now nor has it ever been mine. Enjoy! 

Chapter 4: Not to speak a word of the fall…

Inuyasha awoke sometime around nightfall. "Oh thank godness!" he heard Kagome shout. "I was so worried about you!" she exclaimed as she embraced him in a tight hug. He didn't mind though, he was too numb to feel it.

"What happened to me?" he asked in a weak voice.

"It seems you had a delayed reaction to some snake poison," a woman said as she walked into the room.

"Oh, that sucks. Who are you?" Inuyasha asked as he tried to sit up. Wincing and settling back down, the woman put some herbs on his arm.

"I am Kagome's mother. Thank you for letting her stay with you last night, I was really worried," she said with a smile.

"You're…thanking me?"

"Of course,"

"Though no one knows why," Kikyou replied nastily.

"Kikyou!"

"But mother-"

"No buts, that's no way to treat a guest!"

"Sorry mother," Kikyou replied as she bowed her head.

"Now then, do you hurt anywhere dear?"

Inuyasha shook his head. "No ma'am," he answered aloud. He tried to sit up, but winced again and fell back onto the mat he was on when he woke up. His arm and back felt like it was on fire!

"Just lay down, that snake poison was very strong," Kagome's mother said as she got Inuyasha some water.

"I would think so, it belonged to a demon," Kagome said as she sat down by Inuyasha.

"Why does my back hurt? That demon bit my arm," Inuyasha replied as the older woman came back and helped him sit up. He drank some water before she answered.

"The poison most likely spread through your body. We're doing all we can to heal you, but I'm not sure if you'll be alright," she replied.

"Why?"

"It was strong poison,"

"No, I mean why are you doing this for me?"

"Why wouldn't we?"

"Duh, he's a half-breed," Kikyou answered in a sharp tone as Inuyasha's ears drooped.

"Yes, we noticed you are a half-demon, but that is no reason to treat you any differently," her mom said. Kikyou's smug look had dropped with her mouth.

"It's not?" Inuyasha and Kikyou asked in sync.

The woman glared at her eldest daughter. "No, it's not," she stated.

"See? I told you that she'd like you!" Kagome replied excitedly.

"Well, Miss…" Inuyasha started.

"Higurashi," she finished.

"Well, Miss Higurashi, it was nice meeting you," Inuyasha replied quietly with what some could call a smile.

"Would you like something to eat?"

Don't take it Inuyasha! Sure she seems nice enough, but that's what she wants you to think. She probably poisoned it or something! Inuyasha thought as he looked at the woman in front of him. "No, I'm not really that hungry…" his lie would've worked too, had his stomach not growled right after annoucing it.

"See, he's a liar, and it's because of his demon blood!" Kikyou exclaimed.

"Now you listen to me, he saved your little sister, and he's hurt! He's our guest, and you will treat him with respect!" Miss Higurashi yelled at her daughter.

"What's going on in here?" a man asked as he walked into the room.

"Nothing daddy," Kikyou replied before her mother could.

Mrs. Higurashi. I have to remember that, Inuyasha thought as he looked over at the man. Mr. Higurashi locked eyes with the young hanyou. His eyes seemed to grow harder as he took in the boy.

"Dear, can I talk to you a moment?" he asked his wife.

"Um, sure…" she answered as they both went into another room. Their conversation was quiet at first to the point where only Inuyasha could hear it, but it soon grew to as volume anyone passing the house could've heard it. "What do you mean!"

"I mean, how dare you bring that…that thing into my house without my permission!"

"He saved your daughter!"

"He probably was just going to hurt her had he not been stopped by this snake you speak of!"

"He was helping her get home!"

All the kids her the man spat. "Yeah right! How can you trust the word of a demon!?"

With each thing that came out of the man's mouth, Inuyasha's ears drooped more. "I know I can trust him! He had all night to hurt Kagome, if he wanted to, then he would've already!"

"I don't give a shit what you think! I want that beast out of my house!"

Before anyone could do anything, Inuyasha was on feet and out the door trying to ignore the pain. He ran and ran until his legs were aching. He sat under a tree far away from her home. He knew it wouldn't go well, and he didn't know why he let that girl lead him to believe differently, and he never wanted to see her or her father again.

He got his wish for the moment, and things only got worse from there.

**Three years later**

Inuyasha sat in the infirmary with his nurse handing him some water. He shook his head. He looked up as another woman came in. "Hello," she greeted him with a strait face.

He simply nodded once.

The woman looked at his nurse. "He doesn't talk," she answered.

The woman looked at him with eyes. The eyes. The ones that told him he was different, weird, and didn't belong. He looked away from her glance. "And what is he in for?" she asked the nurse.

"He's in here for-" she stopped when she saw Inuyasha shake his head slowly with almost pleading eyes. "He fell," she finished against his will.

"Clumsy fool," the woman replied cruelly before walking away. Inuyasha looked up when he heard someone. His eyes widened as he took in what he thought must be the most beautiful girl he had ever seen. Something seems familiar about her… he thought before his nurse broke his musings.

"She's an apprentance for the priestess of the village," she answered. He could tell by the nurse's scent that she had never really liked him, but the doctor surprised her and told her she'd be fired if he didn't take care of Inuyasha. He knew why, he had reconized the man's scent. He had a son. His son was a half-demon too. He just took pity on Inuyasha, and the hanyou didn't like it. She still tried to get him to talk from time to time, but all he ever did was ruin things when he spoke.

"What's her name?" he asked in a whisper no one could've made out.

"What!?" she asked surprised.

Inuyasha just looked away and shook his head.

The woman's surprise was still there, but she immedeatly lowered her voice. "No, no it's alright, I just didn't hear you. What did you say?" she asked more carefully this time.

"What- what is her name?" he asked a bit louder this time, though not by much.

"I'm not sure, but why don't you ask her?" the nurse asked.

Inuyasha shook his head and looked down at his bandages. He heard the nurse sigh as she left his room. He rolled over and fell asleep. When he woke up a few hours later, he saw the girl closer than last time. She was looking at some herbs until she heard him shuffle in the sheets. She gasped and looked at his ears. He looked away as if he was angry, but he was really hurt. She doesn't like my ears, she doesn't like the fact that I'm half-demon. He thought sadly.

I know that man! The little girl thought as she looked at him. She smiled. "Hi there," she greeted cheerily.

Inuyasha looked at her for what seemed like hours before softly answering, "Hey."

"What are you at the physician's for?" she asked.

Inuyasha thought about it for a moment before lifting his arms out from under the sheets. She gasped at the bandages starting at his wrists and going around his arm all the way up to his shoulders. "That," he answered simply and quietly.

"How did that happen!?" Inuyasha thought about telling her that he had fell like his nurse always had, but he didn't want to lie. Not finding the words to describe it without being crude and blunt, Inuyasha slowly lifted one hand and gently swished his claws right over the bandages. She gasped. "You- you did this to yourself?"

Inuyasha nodded softly.

"But why!?"

Inuyasha shrugged. "Got bored," he replied nonchalantly.

The girl shook her head. "What's the real reason?"

Inuyasha sighed. "Life sucked, I figured dying'd be better," he said softly.

"Well I'm glad you didn't succeed," she said just as softly.

Inuyasha perked up an ear and looked at her with stun. "What?"

"I said, I'm glad you didn't succeed," she said again.

"Why?"

"Then I would've never been able to meet you, and you would've died thinking life was bad," she stated.

Inuyasha looked at her a bit longer before sighing again and looking away. "My name's Inuyasha," he replied unexpectedly.

"I know," she answered.

"Wha-?" Inuyasha started in a stunned voice.

"My name's Kagome," she said before he could ask.

Immediately, Inuyasha's eyes widened. "I knew there was something familiar about you!" he exclaimed. It was the loudest he had talked in two years. He had given up the pointless act a year and a half ago.

"Yeah, you left about three years ago, and you never came back," she replied sadly.

"Your father didn't want me there," he said in spite.

Kagome stayed quiet for a moment. "My father died," she said.

Inuyasha gasped softly. "I'm so sorry, I know what it feels like to lose a parent," he said comfortingly.

Kagome nodded. "It's okay. So do you have any family left?"

Inuyasha shook his head.

"Friends?"

A pause, then another shake of his head.

"Home?"

"No, but I have Myouga, and that's enough," he answered quiet again.

"Where is he?"

"He left,"

"When?"

"About a month ago,"

"That doesn't seem like a friend to me…"

"He comes and goes, but he told me he'd be back," Inuyasha replied hopeful. "So what are you doing here?"

"My sister and I were training. She's always telling me how she's so much better than me, so I went to someone else. She's in the next village over," Kagome replied.

"Does she know you're here?"

"Probably, she can probably sense me," she answered.

"Well then, it looks like we're both stuck here," Inuyasha stated with a small smile. This is the second time she made me smile after so long without one. What is it with her? He thought as he frowned again.

"Yeah, and since we are, how 'bout we stick together?"

"What d'you mean?"

"I want to be your friend, Inuyasha," Kagome answered patiently with a smile.

"You do?"

"Mhm!" she replied as Inuyasha smiled much wider this time.

"Okay!" he exclaimed in excitement as she sat on his mat next to him. They talked all night and Kagome came to see him every day. Inuyasha forgot about his injuries and why he made them as things started to look up for him. One day, he was waiting for her to come, but she was running very late, so he went against his nurse's orders and left the infirmary. He walked along the road until he met her scent. He followed it until he realized where it was going. Home. She was going back home. She was gone, out of his life. Again. He thought over his options before taking after her scent. She was the only person that could make him happy, and he wasn't about to lose her again.

He finally spotted her setting up camp with her sister. The ten-year-old was also very pretty, but he saw right through it. She wasn't fond of half-demons and the last time he had seen her, she had not accepted him. He shook his head to clear them of the memories and sniffed the air. Kagome was crying.

Inuyasha bolted toward the clearing. "Kagome?" he asked as he got into range.

Kikyou looked up. "Well, if it isn't you again. Why don't you leave me and my sister alone?" she replied coldly.

"Why is she crying?" Inuyasha asked innocently.

"That's none of your business. She is my sister, and it is my job to take care of her, not yours," Kikyou replied again.

"Kikyou…" Kagome started. "Leave him alone, he just got out of the doctor's," she finished as she finally turned around. Yep, she had definitely been crying. "Why don't you go back to it, and leave us alone?" she asked softly.

"But I don't wanna go back, I wanna stay with you," he said trying to hang onto the happiness he had felt when he was with her. He never got to feel like that anymore.

"Last time, you didn't want anything to do with my family," she pointed out.

"I know, but I wanna stay with you. You're my friend, and I don't wanna say goodbye," he said.

Kagome was happy. He barely talked, even to her, but lately, he had been talking a lot. She knew she was making him happy, but Kikyou said it was time to go home. Kikyou wouldn't allow him to come home with them, and she was her elder. He couldn't come with them. "No, stay away. Go back to the physician. That's where you belong. Not with us. I'm sorry Inuyasha, but you can't come," she stated softly.

"So that's it then? You're just going to leave?"

"Yes, I need to,"

"You heard her half-breed, get lost!" Kikyou ground out angrily.

Inuyasha nodded before running back to where he came. He felt so lonely, and he had never noticed how much he liked having her there until she was gone, but he wasn't going to cry about it. He wasn't about to show weakness and get upset. No, he'd rather stop fighting. Not just his emotions, everything. Everyone and anyone who cared was gone, and no one else wanted anything to do with him. He was weak and caught in between two breeds. He had to fight for food, water, his own breath. He had to fight everything. No! He shouted in his mind. Thoughts like that are what made you hurt yourself in the first place! You need to look on the bright side, you're alive! He thought as hard as he could, but, as always, there was a feud in his mind. But you don't wanna be. You never wanted to be. Those people hurt you, and killed your mother. They are what you have to live around, so why live at all. Another voice in his mind thought. But you don't want to die… do you? He thought. He was slowly losing the battle. Kagome was the only one who didn't care about his demon heritage, and she was gone. For good. Do it, his mind thought at him. Go on, end it all. The sadness, the not speaking, the looks, the humans, the breath in your lungs, the beat in your hear- his mind suddenly stopped talking to him as he slashed down his claws and tore through bandage and flesh alike. Blood staining his claws and running down his wrist, he lifted his injured hand and slashed it down the same way on his other wrist. Just for good measure, he thought.

**The end! Sorry I couldn't get out another chapter until now, but I had a lot on my plate. I'll try to update faster next time and we'll see if young Inuyasha succeeded. Tell me what you think, and I'll get a new chapter out soon!**