Childhood Remix

Disclaimer: This is an "Inuyasha" fanfiction. I have not stolen the idea and I have not taken claim to the show. It has not now nor has it ever been mine. Enjoy! 

Chapter 5: Kiss and tears…

Inuyasha fell numb into a pool of blood. His blood. Before the blackness took him in, he smiled. This is what you want, was his last thought.

***

Kagome lay down on her makeshift bed while her sister stoked the fire. "You didn't have to tell him to leave," she stated quietly.

"It's not my fault you didn't have the guts to do it," Kikyou replied nastily.

"He's a nice guy,"

"He's a demon,"

"So?"

"So, he shouldn't be with us priestesses,"

"But mom had no problem with him,"

"That's because he saved you. Mom couldn't hate anyone that saved her precious Kagome,"

"So you admit he saved me?"

"All those years ago? Yeah, I guess. Nothing would've happened to you, but you were scared, and he 'saved' you,"

"So why don't you like him?"

"Because he doesn't belong in this world,"

"Kikyou,"

"What?" she snapped.

"Dad wasn't a priest,"

"So?"

"So you're only half-priestess. How can you be such a hypocrite?"

"I'm all human though, it's different!" Kikyou almost growled.

"How!?" Kagome yelled as her ire rose.

"People respect me and our family for all we do for them! Who in their right mind would respect him!?"

"He has a name!"

"Who in their right mind would respect I- nu- ya- sha!?" she spat out.

Kagome sent a glare to her sister before turning her back to her with a huff. "Me!"

"Just goes to show that you're not in your right mind," Kikyou muttered.

"Look here, I-!" Kagome started before a nearby scream interrupted her. Immediately, Kikyou and Kagome grabbed their bows and arrows.

***

Inuyasha's nurse was on a wild goose chase for him. When she had come in to check on him, he was gone! She searched all over town, but she couldn't find him anywhere. Finally, she took a path that lead down into the woods. She followed it until her foot hit something wet. She looked down to find blood. Trying to keep calm, she went up the hill from down it trickled. She was surprised to find her patient lying on the ground covered in blood. She couldn't help herself this time, she screamed.

***

By the time the two got there, all that was there was a puddle of blood leading back to the village. They followed the crimson liquid to the infirmary. "You go home, I'll see what happened," Kikyou ordered.

Kagome nodded before taking off.

***

The smell of blood and sickness was the first thing he noticed as he groggily woke up. His wrists were sore, and he was lying on something soft. All he could do was moan as the pain throbbed. What happened? I thought you weren't supposed to feel pain after death… Inuyasha thought as he opened his eyes slowly. A bright light was in front of him, and he thought that he was just about to die. I'm not going to hell? What a surprise, but you find me complaining. Go on heaven, take me, he thought. Shocking to the hanyou, the light started to fade, and he could see a room around him. His room. The one he had at the infirmary. It was all around him, and he groaned. That means I'm alive. I didn't succeed, again, he thought grimly.

"Are you alright?" he heard a familiar voice ask.

"N- Nurse?" he asked in a scratchy voice.

"Yes, it's me. I'm glad you're talking this time," he heard faintly.

"Mhm," he muttered.

"What's going on here?" he heard another woman ask. He looked around, but he couldn't find the source of the voice.

"Inuyasha had another…accident," he heard his nurse lie.

"Accident? This looks like no accident to me," he heard the other voice say.

"Well, I assure you, it was,"

"What happened?"

"He slipped,"

"And cut both of his wrists?"

"Rocks, gravel, he…um…he slipped when he was running and got cut by some rocks and such,"

"Why isn't he cut anywhere else?"

"He is, just nowhere you can see,"

"So he stopped his fall with his hands then?"

"Yes! That's what he did!"

"Then why aren't his hands cut?"

The nurse immediately realized her mistake. "You tricked me,"

"Nonetheless,"

"He fell. That's what he did, leave it at that," the nurse snapped.

"Alright, fine, can we have a moment?"

"A moment for what?"

"That is none of your concern,"

"He is my patient,"

"Yes, but I need to talk to him,"

"Just tell me why,"

"I need to ask him some personal questions,"

The nurse seemed reluctant, but, finally, she sighed. "Fine, but make it quick!"

After she left, Inuyasha was stunned to find Kikyou sitting next to him. "So it was you?" he asked.

"I'll be asking the questions," she answered coldly.

"Fine," Inuyasha ground out.

"Why did you hurt yourself?"

"That's my business, not yours,"

"Answer the question,"

Inuyasha sighed. "I don't belong anywhere,"

"And why is that?"

"Even though I'm stronger than most youkai that I meet, they only see me as a hanyou. They judge me before they even know me, but I live like a demon, so I don't fit in with humans," he explained.

"Even though I'm more powerful than most priests and priestesses, they automatically think I'm inexperienced and weak. They judge me before they even know me, but I live like a priestess, so I can live like or with humans other than to protect them," Kikyou sighed. "Something my sister said called me into realization. She called me a hypocrite, and while I'd never hurt myself, she was right. You and I are alike in many ways, but I treat you differently. I simply came to apologize and thank you for helping my sister,"

"The gratitude thing doesn't look good on you, trust me,"

"Nonetheless… Inuyasha?"

"What?"

"How do I look to you?"

"What?"

"Do I look human?"

"What are you going on about?"

"Mother said, as the elder child, that I must never let others see my weaknesses, but weakness is what makes us human. So do I look human?"

"What's wrong with you? The whining thing doesn't seem like you," Inuyasha snapped.

"No, no I suppose it doesn't," she stated with a sad expression. Inuyasha was feeling bad, again.

"Look, I'm sorry, but we all have things that bother us,"

"I know, if nothing was bothering you, you wouldn't have done such a thing to yourself. Are you upset that you didn't succeed?"

"Of course, there was nothing I wanted more than to leave this life,"

"But why? Everyone has their problems, I understand that much, but why let something that everyone has get the better of you?"

"It didn't get the better of me! If I died, no one would miss me, so why would I care? I needed a way out, but I can live with my problems!"

"Then why don't you?"

"Why? Do you want me to?"

"I know it would make Kagome happy,"

"And why is that?"

"She's very fond of you, and at first I didn't know why. I said I was sorry for not seeing through what you are in order to see who you are, but I see who you are now. You are just a boy that wants a friend, that wants someone to care and miss him when he's gone,"

"You make me sound like such a wimp!"

"Inuyasha, all I am is a girl that wants someone that understands what I'm going through. And that's you. You understand everything I have gone through in my life, just in a different way. I know I treated you badly, but can you forgive me?"

"And what made you change your ways again?"

"I thought over what Kagome called me and realized that she was right. I thought about it for a long time, and decided that I didn't want to be a hypocrite. I'm willing to get to know you before I ever slam you again. I want to know who you are and what you are like. Will you forgive the way I acted before?"

"…Yeah, sure, I guess. This had better not be a false sense of security!"

"How could you think a priestess such as I could do anything so underhanded and impure?"

Inuyasha thought about it for a moment. "I just don't want to get hurt," he said finally.

"I promise I will not hurt you. Now then, I have more questions for you,"

"What?"

"Where is your mother?"

"Dead," he stated harshly.

"How?"

"Murdered,"

"By who?"

"Village leader,"

"Why?"

"I was her son," he said looking away. Seeing that it was a sensitive topic, Kikyou changed her direction.

"Why did you help Kagome?"

"She was younger than me, and she was scared,"

"So?"

"I don't like being scared, and I didn't think she would either,"

"Do you like humans?"

"Depends,"

"On what?"

"How they treat me,"

"Do you like it in this village?"

"No,"

"Why?"

"I'm not allowed to leave this infirmary,"

"Do you want to leave?"

"Desperately,"

"Do you want to come home with me and Kagome?"

"You're the one that said I couldn't,"

"Yes, but how am I supposed to get to know you if you're here and I'm there?"

"I dunno,"

"Exactly, come with us,"

"I can't,"

"Why?"

"My nurse won't let me,"

"What if I could convince her?"

Inuyasha seemed to think about it for a minute. "Then I guess it'd be okay…"

"Good, I'll be back then," Kikyou said as she stood and left.

***

"I need to talk to you," Kikyou said as she walked up to the nurse.

"Yes?"

"I want Inuyasha to come with me,"

"Not happening!"

"And why not?"

"Inuyasha is my responsibility, and I'm lucky my boss didn't fire me for losing him today! He's hurt and not fit for travel!"

"He's half-demon, I'm sure he'll heal fast. I will watch over him for you, and when we get to my house, my mother will take care of his wounds,"

"You'll watch over him when you're traveling to your house? What are you? Nine?"

"Ten, actually,"

"You're just as old as he is! You can't watch over someone the same age as you!"

"But I can, I'm watching over my sister, and she's only two years younger than me,"

"I won't have it!"

"Nurse Jess," Kikyou heard a man call.

"Yes boss?"

"Let the boy go, he needs the fresh air, and Kikyou's village is very safe. She and her mother will take good care of him,"

"Yes boss," the woman said quietly as she nodded at Kikyou in approval.

***

Inuyasha sat up slowly as Kikyou came back in. "What'd she say?"

"She said that it would be okay for you to come home with us. Get your stuff ready,"

"Okay," Inuyasha said as he grabbed the Robe of the Fire Rat. "Ready," he said as Kikyou raised an eyebrow.

"That's it?"

Inuyasha nodded innocently. He doesn't know that he could have so much more. He takes pride in what he has… Kikyou thought as she grabbed Inuyasha's hand and they walked outside.

"Thank you for doing this," Inuyasha said quietly.

"No problem," Kikyou replied nonchalantly. To Inuyasha's surprise, Kikyou turned toward him. "Inuyasha?"

"Hm?"

"Thank you for forgiving me," she said as she kissed him. Inuyasha's eyes went wide before he hesitantly kissed her back.

***

Kagome was wondering what was taking her sister so long. She had been sitting under this tree for what seemed like forever, and there was still no sign of Kikyou. Kagome started heading back toward the village at which Inuyasha was staying. As the infirmary came into view, Kagome saw her sister and Inuyasha exchanging some words.

Running to get closer, Kagome stopped immediately. She's kissing him! She yelled in her mind as her heart nearly stopped when she saw him kiss her back. Tears welled up in Kagome's eyes as she ran away wiping at her eyes. Oh come on Kagome, of course he'd like her better! You were just kidding yourself…

**Oh, so sad. I hate Kikyou and Inuyasha together, but I'm trying to keep it close to the real story line. Grr, I'm so upset. I hate the two together, and I hated writing this chapter. As some of you would notice, this is the first fanfiction I have written where Kikyou is actually a part of the story. Now you know why, because I hate them together. Next chapter, they'll be jumping ahead some years, or maybe the chapter after that. I'm not keeping him a kid forever, but don't worry, it won't be a big jump. Tell me what you think so far, and I'll update soon!**