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Chapter Twelve
This weekend has been a crazy one. She is driving me insane! I don't want to feel like this because I feel that Bella will someday love me and yet, Gwen is the most perfect girl I have ever seen on this earth…Great now I am getting corny!
My cell phone was ringing: Seth.
- Hey Seth what's up?
- Hey could you give me a lift? I am at the hospital.
- What? What happened?
- Just get here Jake. See you! - He hung up and I took off as fast as I could to the hospital. Once I got there I was greeted by Seth. He seemed ok.
- What happened? Is everything ok Seth? Are you hurt?
"No I am fine! Gwen is hurt so we needed…"- My heart stopped. My imprint was hurt. I ran inside and went straight to the reception. An old lady greeted me with a smile but when she saw the look on my face her smile fell.
- I'm looking for Gwendolyn Swan! Please you need to tell where she is!
- Hum…who are you? – Okay Jake think! They won't let me near her if I'm not related to her…but we sure don't look alike so I just said the first thing that came into my mind.
- Please! She is my girlfriend! – The secretary looked at me and started searching for Gwen's name in the files.
Seth looked at me and then started laughing loudly.
- What's so funny Seth? – I snapped at his laughter. She is in danger! MY IMPRINT and he is laughing at her misfortunes!? Before I could yell at Seth I heard her small voice.
- Hum…I'm right here!? – Her hand rose slowly and smirked when she saw me. I was in awe and shocked to say the least. She walked closer to me and the secretary smiled at us.
- Well…there's your girlfriend! Have a nice day! – Gwen tried to correct her but the secretary walked away. I grinned at the possibility of Gwen to be my girlfriend…WHAT THE HELL!? NO!
Jake didn't give me any time to take deep breath. He held my shoulders and tried looking for any kind of injuries.
- Are you ok? What happened? Who did this to you?
- Yes I am ok, I sliced my hand with a scalpel in Biology class and I am such a clumsy person! - I almost took her injured hand into mine but I retracted my hand remembering her date with that jackass. I couldn't show any signs of affection for this girl or else I would be doomed. My head controlled my heart whenever I was around her. Bella's love grounded me to the earth.
- Why do you do that? - She asked me. Her deep blue greenish eyes bored into my own brown emotionless eyes.
- What? – I asked confused.
- Why do you always keep changing your feelings when you are around me? One day you are all concerned and the next moment…nothing. It drives me crazy!
I remained silence. I was driving her insane? She was the one driving me insane and not the other way around! That's when I remembered. I have brought my bike and I couldn't take both Seth and Gwen with me.
- I didn´t bring my car so I need to go get it. - I turned around and walked away but Seth grabbed my shoulder.
- No need! I will go by foot you take Gwen home! – Damn it Seth! I gulped and forced a smile.
- No there is no need Seth we can wait for Jacob and we ALL go home! - Interesting…she was trying to get a way out.
- Nonsense Gwen! I am a werewolf after all! - He grinned at me and then at Gwen and left us alone. She was nervous I could hear her butterfly heart pound over her chest. Did I make her nervous?
- Let´s just go. - I grabbed her good hand and remained silent. I sat down in my bike and I looked at her.
- Are you going to stand there all day or what?
- I'm not going in this thing! I mean…do you even have a helmet? - That I was not expecting. I don´t think I have laughed this much in a long time. She was embarrassed. Her cheeks were pink flushed. She looked so cute!
- I am sure if we get an accident I will be able to save that pretty little head of yours. Just get in. Trust me. - She sat down behind me and held my waist tightly. Every time she touched me she gave me this tingling feeling. It was so warm and fuzzy that sometimes I couldn't take it anymore!
- Just please go slow. - She whispered into my ear and that gave me chills. Let's show her what this baby can do!
- Yeah right. - I drove as fast as my bike could take it. Her hair flew everywhere and her hands were holding me even tighter. She screamed the entire way and I felt so free with her. I just laughed. When we were near her house I parked my motorcycle and she still held on tight to my waist. We stayed like this for five minutes and it was nice. I tried to loosen her grip but she was so scared. Her heart was still beating erratically and she wouldn't let me go and she didn´t say a word. However, I had to go pick up Bella from school.
- Are you going to let go of me? We are here… - She opened her eyes furiously and gave me a scary death glare. Wow she was serious mad! I don't think I've ever seen her mad! It was kinda…hot!
- You are a jackass! You knew I have never ridden a motorcycle and yet you make fun of me! Argh!
She walked away and I said it was only a joke. She stopped walking and turned around.
- Well Jacob today is your lucky day. You will never see me again. Not when I still live on this earth! - She walked inside her house and slammed the door hard. A sense of loss came through every cell from my body. This imprint thing was so powerful that I even got sometimes carried away from its powers. She said she never wanted to see me again! Maybe that is just because she is dating that Langdon Guy! Argh…breathe Jacob, just breathe! I can't believe she is dating a jackass like HIM! She would be so much better with ME!
Wow did I just think about Gwen and me as a possible couple? NO, no I will make sure this imprint bond stays as far away as possible, even if I have to never see her again. I drove to Forks High School to pick up Bella.
She was already waiting for me in the entrance. She said goodbye to that bloodsucker and came to me.
- Hey Jacob.
- Hey beautiful! - We hugged it out and headed over to La Push Reservation. We could see the mountains in the reflection of the limpid water. What beautiful and endearing scenery! This is it: today I would declare myself to Bella and I knew she would come along when she saw all of her possibilities. I am her best choice and it's up to me to open up her horizon of possibilities.
- It is so pretty here! - I just nodded at her. This is one of my favourite places of all time.
- So…Alice is planning a big graduation party which you are invited to. - I gave her a you are kidding me look.
- Yeah…figured that - I stopped walking and Bella turns around facing me.
- What?
I sighed.
- I just want to do this differently. Smoother…but now I am out of time.
- To what?
- You need to hear the truth Bella. Understand all your options…and you need to know that I am in love with you! And I want you to choose me instead of him!
She looked shocked, as if she didn't feel something for me!
- I thought you understood. I don´t feel that way for you…
- I don´t buy it!
- Why don´t you buy? That is how I feel. - I was getting mad. Why couldn't she just admit it to herself?
- You feel something else for me. You just won't admit it! So I am not giving up! I am going to fight for you…until your heart stops beating.
- Well you won't have to fight for long!
- You are rushing into it because you are afraid you will change your mind!
- No I am not. I know what I want! - Bella always so stubborn. So childish!
- You wouldn´t have to change for me Bella or say goodbye to anybody. I can give you more than him. I mean, he probably can´t even KISS YOU without hurting you. - I place her hand over my heart. This felt familiar…when Gwen…she doesn´t matter Jake! FOCUS!
- Feel that? Flesh and blood and warmth. - Without giving her a heads up, I grabbed her face and kissed her. Finally after so much time I could feel her close to me. She tried to resist but I just deepened the kiss. She immediately pushed me away and punched me.
- OHHH! GOD! - She broke her hand by punching me! She didn´t want to go to the hospital so we went to her house. The moment we arrived at her place the leech came to the rescue!
- If you ever touch her again…
- She is not sure what she wants!
- Let me give you a clue! Wait for her to say the words!
- FINE! And she will!
Bella was between us. If she wasn't between me and the leech I have already ripped his head out! Gwen tried to keep us apart but it was useless.
- Jacob just go, ok? - Bella was pleading me to go when Charlie intervened.
- Hey, hey, hey easy guys let´s take down a notch. All right? - Gwen was behind Bella speechless. I felt bad, almost as if I have betrayed her. Edward eyed me curiously and then it hit him.
- She is your… - He whispered so low that I was the only one who could hear him.
- SHUT UP! -I hissed to him.
- What is going on? - Gwen asked us. Silence came but then I decided to tell her the truth. No more lies.
- I kissed Bella…She broke her hand, punching my face - I eyed Gwen and then turned to Charlie - Total misunderstanding.
Edward seemed relaxed. Just because she is my imprint doesn´t mean I am in love with her bloodsucker! His face stiffened again once he heard my thoughts.
Gwen was looking down, so upset. I hurt her. She was hurt. A pang in my heart started to build up and I needed to hold her, to take away all of her sorrow but I couldn´t. She said she didn't want to see me again, so I would make her wish come true. I would be invisible, unknown in her world.
She turned around and walked away without even saying goodbye. Bella and Edward went to the Cullen's house to check on Bella's hand leaving me and Charlie alone in the front yard. I could hear Gwen cry from her room.
- Charlie, could I come in and talk to Gwen for a second, please? It's important. - He looked at me like I wore a dress! For crying out loud I was just going to talk to her!
- Hum…I don´t know….shore Jacob. She is upstairs. - I ran upstairs and her bedroom door was closed. I could hear her trying to suppress her crying. I took a deep breath and opened the door.
Gwen was lying on her bed and she looked miserable. Her hair was a mess, her eyes were so red she could pass down as a vampire and her fragile body was twisted in a painful way. She looked awful and it was my entire fault. At first she didn't see me but when I cleared my throat she immediately stood up.
- What are you doing here? I thought I said I didn't want to see you ever again? - She was so hostile towards me. I shivered.
- I came here to apologize.
- Apologize for what?
- I kissed Bella and… - She looked even more hurt when I confessed again.
- I don't care who you kiss or who you date. We aren't boyfriend or girlfriend for crying out loud! Besides…I'm dating someone.
- Langdon isn't the right guy for you. He has hurt many girls Gwen. He is bad news. – I tried talking to her calmly but I was becoming angrier by the second.
- Just go Jacob. Please. - She held the door and closed it. I sighed and looked down. It was hopeless. What is done is done and now she would hate me for the rest of her life.
I descended the stairs and walked out from the Swan's house.
Sam's howl echoed through the forest. I changed into my wolf form.
- What happened Jake?
I showed them all my memories from my last conversation with Gwen to my first kiss with Bella.
- You are such a jerk Jake
- Shut up Paul! It has nothing to do with you!
- SILENCE! What happens amongst our lives has nothing to do with our search patrols. Is that clear? - Sam´s voice boomed inside our minds. We obeyed him and searched for any kind of trace from the red headed. Nothing.
Embry and Jared were patrolling today the Swan's house for Bella, Charlie and Gwen's safety. We spread out for a bigger perimeter. All I could still think about was those blue teary eyes staring into mine with such sadness and betrayal. I was a traitor.
(Gwen´s POV)
I cried, I cried and I cried. That was all I could do for the past few hours. It came to a time that I couldn´t cry and it became something involuntary. I could not control. I was more and more taken with Jacob but he made a hole in my heart that right now was unbearable. I guess that is why people sometimes say that love sucks. It must be the most painful yet blissful feeling we have of our lives. To be in love. I am only seventeen and I don´t know what love is. I don´t think anybody can describe it. It is the closest thing to magic, that must be cherished once you have it. You should hold on tight to the people you love because that is all that matters in this dying world. We are born, we live and we die, leaving behind our loved ones. I didn´t mind if I left right now this world for I knew that here would be more people on the after world waiting for me. My parents. Nobody in this world would notice my disappearance. I am invisible.
I heard a tap on my window. It was Embry and Jared. I opened the window and they both gave me sad smiles.
- What?
- Are you all right? We heard what happened…
- I am fine Embry. Don't worry about me! It's just a phase. - Embry was still not satisfied with my answer.
- Well…I guess I am going to patrol outside. - Jared left and Embry entered my room.
- Nice crib!
- Thanks. - I bluntly said.
- Look, Jacob… he does like you. He is just undecided.
- You have already told me that Embry.
- You are his imprint and…
- Imprint? What the hell is that?
- Shit…Jacob is going to kill me - he whispered to himself.
- Please Embry I need some answers. - Embry sat down on my bed and I sat next to him, looking for my answers in his shifty eyes.
- An imprint is a special bond between a shape shifter and his mate. It is a bond for life. Sam's imprint is Emily, Jared's imprint is Kim and Jacob's imprint is…you.
- What? I still don´t get it…?
Embry sighed and look up to me.
- Imprinting on someone is like…like when you see her everything changes. All of a sudden is not gravity holding you to the planet. It´s her. Nothing else matters. You would do anything…be anything for her.
- Well Embry I think you are wrong. I don't think I am Jacob's imprint. He never saw me that way.
- But the annoying thing is that he does look at you. He just won't admit it to himself!
- Embry I think you should leave. It has been the longest day I have ever had and I just want to end it. - I was on the brink of crying again but I held myself. Embry said goodnight and left, leaving me alone.
Gwen finally knows that she is Jake's imprint! Yeah or Nah!?
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