CHAPTER 86:
A few days had passed and it was now November 24th. Nikki had just finished her part of being the special guest ring announcer for "RAW" when she and her sister were walking down to the locker room. "Good match you had tonight" said Nikki. "Good job yourself" said Brie. "I'm totally surprised that you were able to remember the entire roster within less than a week." "I know right? I guess you can beat pregnancy brain after all" said Nikki as they continued walking down the hallway. "You wore such a cute dress tonight" said Brie as she took a note at Nikki's white and purple polka dotted dress. "Thank you I got it from that maternity store last week" said Nikki. The two continued until Brie suddenly stopped them.
"Isn't that John?" she asked. "So, why should I care?" asked Nikki. "Because remember you guys have to keep up appearances" said Brie. "And by the way how is that going?" "Null and void" said Nikki. John finished up a conversation with Bo Dallas and Titus O'Neil before heading their way. "Hello Brie, Nicole" he said kindly. "Hey John" said Brie. "How's it going?" "Great" said John. "I'm glad that I won that match out there." "Yeah I know. I announced it while holding your arm up, remember?" Nikki said sarcastically. "Yeah Nikki I remember" said John. "It's only been 15 minutes".
"So then why are you reminding me?" asked Nikki. Brie began to slowly take a step to the side after she took an awkward glance at John and her sister. "You know what, I'll just come find you when I'm ready to go ok?" she said as she walked away. "Why are you doing this to me?" asked Nikki. "Ok Nicole, this isn't the time or the place" said John. "You know what?" said Nikki angrily. "Fuck it!" she grab a hold of John's hand and quickly led him into his dressing room and locked the door behind them.
"Sit" she said firmly. "What do you mean sit?" asked John. "Sit down now!" shouted Nikki. "Nicole there's no need to raise your voice at me" said John. "I am not a child and to add that in, you're yelling and I know that can't be good for the kid." "John you don't give a damn about me or this baby ok?" said Nikki as she took a seat onto his couch. "All you ever cared about since I've known you was yourself!" "That's not true at all Nicole and you know that!" shouted John. "I loved you and what do you do? You go out and you go fuck another one of your coworkers and now you're possibly pregnant with his kid."
"Yeah well guess what John! You're not so perfect either aren't you!?" said Nikki. "You went ahead and cheated on with AJ and you didn't even have the audacity of telling me that it wasn't even yours." "What's it to you anyway?" asked John. "We're not together anymore anyways". "Look the only reason that I got drunk and slept with Joe that night was because you cheated on me with her and you never even told me" Nikki said through her teeth. "And every day since I found out that the mess that the 4 of us had managed to get ourselves into, I've been suffering. I have a permanent psychological disorder John that no one knew about and for months I had signs but those closest to me couldn't even pay attention to it long enough to even realize that I had something seriously going on with me and it took a suicide attempt for it to finally come to out."
John continued to look back at Nikki as she kept speaking, his facial expression quickly going from anger to horror. "And when the doctor finally came into the room to tell me that my baby was fine, I didn't even care at that point of whether she lived or not." "She?" asked John with confusion. Nikki started to tear up. "And up until that point I didn't even want it-her, I…just wanted to get back to my career and to move on with my life from away you, whether it was your baby or not and that I still don't know yet" she continued. "I wanted to have an abortion for months until one day I realized that I had family that would love me no matter what I did even if I did made the choice of not to have her, so I decided to become responsible for this baby and that has been one of the hardest things in my life that I've ever had to do".
"Nicole I…" John trailed off. "And then when I see how much Joe is still there for AJ despite all what was happening, you were nowhere near around me John" said Nikki. "And I needed you and now I'm stuck keeping up appearances in order to keep this all away from the media because it could destroy us all. I mean for God's sake's John we had to hug and kiss after your match was over!". "Nicole" said John. "And then you went on and told the world that I was pregnant on live national television when I told you not to and when I confronted you about it you just...you just kissed me as if nothing had ever happened. Like nothing ever went wrong between us" said Nikki. "And for that, for all of that…all of this I simply can't pretend anymore."
"Nicole I am so sorry" John sincerely said. "I had…I had no idea that you had went through all of that. I really didn't." "Remember when I told you that I hope that the baby isn't yours? Well I really meant it" Nikki continued as she ignored him. "I hope that my daughter isn't your child because it's looking more and more every day that Joe will be a better father to her than you. I mean hell if his and AJ's daughter was actually yours then I guess the only thing that three of you could have in common is being lefties."
"Nicole…what does that have to do with anything?" asked John. Nikki sighed. "What? You didn't know that your little ex-girlfriend is a lefty?" she asked. "Just like you are?" "That…that has nothing to do with anything" said John. "It's completely irrelevant and she was never my girlfriend and you know that." "Well you sure did spend a lot of time with her" said Nikki. "I mean for God's sake's John you even inspired her ring attire!" John could begin to sense that this was coming from someplace else now. "Come on with this nonsense already" he said. "And so what if I gave her a little advice? That was years ago! Before I even met you."
"Who are you trying to kid John?" Nikki asked. John sighed. "Please you have got to stop this" he said. "You have got to let this go. I have. I'm not even mad at you for sleeping with Joe anymore ok? I deserved it alright!? I know I wasn't always the best man to you but damn it Nicole we all make mistakes! People make mistakes but guess what they get through them! I mean you always keep saying Joe is still there well because AJ still wants him around and you don't! You don't want me around anymore because if so then you know that I would be there for you so there does that make you happy to hear me say that!? I forgive you ok!?" He was yelling. Luckily no one was around to hear them.
Nikki just shook her head as she scoffed. "John even if you were sorry…I just don't think that I could really accept what you did to me" she said. "Alright Nicole you don't have to ever except my apology but please it just isn't healthy anymore" said John. "This has been going on for years and I thought once you got your diagnosis, it might help you to realize that this hate…this insane amount of hate that you have for AJ would go away but…I guess I was wrong."
"You wanna know what isn't healthy since you wanna talk about unhealthy things?" asked Nikki. "You getting yourself into a relationship after just weeks after ending a 3-year marriage to someone you've been with for 14 years!" said Nikki. "Your expectations that a woman would ever give up wanting to have children or a marriage just to be with you! And you kissing me after we haven't even shared the same bed much less talked or even been together in months!" Her voice was now breaking. "But Stephanie I…" John said before Nikki cut him of him.
"You know what John? Just save it. Save it for someone who really cares" she said. Tears ran down her face as she finished speaking. "I don't wanna talk to you anymore" she said. "Not for a long, long time." And with that she made her way to the door when John stopped her. "What is it now?" she asked. "You never gave me a chance to explain" said John. "I don't need to" said Nikki tearfully. "I think we've both did more than enough talking for today…just let me know when you wanna take another photo or when we have to do another stupid appearance". "But I thought you said that you don't wanna pretend anymore" said John. "I don't" said Nikki. "But have no choice." She painfully sighed. "This is just…so fucking confusing and I honestly don't know that if…we could ever even be a we again." With that she left John alone in his dressing room to reflect on all that has just happened.
"A girl?" he said softly to himself. "She's having a girl."
A/N: So intense between these two :-(. Anyways I've decided to put up a poll in my bio for those who have been reading and following this story carefully with the simple question of "Will Nikki's baby be John's or will it be Roman's?" It will remain open until the day I post the chapter that will finally answer said question :-). Check it out now and again a huge thank you to all who have been reading and reviewing my story :-)
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