Whenever on a raid I always waited on the backseat. There wasn't a time of those when I wasn't reminded of my mother, ever anxious of Kyle or me getting lost. In the end we were the ones who lost her. Lynn O'Shea, she was a college professor, so dedicated to her students and children. Every time I was sitting there I could see her leave the car while saying "remember, if you leave the car, you would be leaving me and breaking my heart, do you want to break my heart?" and Kyle and I nervously shook our heads until she was convinced. That was one of the best memories I kept intact, I wonder if Kyle remembers that too.

However, this time I was not sitting on the backseat, I was on the driver's seat. Even more anxious than my lost mother of losing my Wanda. Wow, MY Wanda… I knew I love her but that might be excessive, I smiled slightly at my own stupidity, she could never me anyone's, she's the freest soul. Wanda had already buy supplies in four different supermarkets, canned food but also perishables. It was taking her longer this time than the others, but well, the supermarket was bigger too. It's almost dark, she must hurry now, I was so nervous, I was almost going inside of the supermarket when she got out, blushed and beautiful. She smiled at me trying to calm me and we walked together to the car.

- I was freaking out Wanda, what took you so long? Did any soul stop you? – She was nervous but in the better sense of it and blushed.

- No Ian… I… I was looking for something. I couldn't find it in the beginning – She was smiling at me, I didn't understand

- What? Why are you blushed? Wanda… - Then my mind flew back to that short moment in the car before starting our raid – Wanda, you don't have to do it if you don't want to… - Then she stopped me, the first time I've seen her so confident in her new body, shushing me with one of her delicate fingers touching my lips. My lips tickled where her finger was, then I realized I wanted, I wanted it so bad, for so long. She was beautiful, soul and body, she was sweet and most importantly we loved each other.

- Ian, I am extremely sure. – Then she leaned forward and tiptoed until we melted into a kiss.

- It's getting dark, we should head to the hotel now. – I knew it was not only because it was dark but maybe she was too innocent to notice my newly grown impatience.

We sat on the car and I drove, respecting every signal, every limit although my body just wanted me to run as fast as I could, to hold her close, hug her, kiss her, caress her skin, bite her,… But I tried to calm myself, it was her first time and it was my first time in such a long time. Were we ready for this? Was she? Or was she trying to be brave like a scared teenager with an older boyfriend? Wait, she was a teenager.

- Wanda, how old are you? – I felt the serious tone in my voice

- Does it matter? – She was smart, as always.

- It does to me – I looked at her with the most piercing look I ever gave her.

- I… I am… - I interrupted her because deep down I knew how stupid this was. She was mine and I was his and a few months wouldn't make a difference. I already knew she was seventeen, the eleventh of September.

- Wanda, lie to me, make me believe, make me believe this isn't wrong.