-After a long day and a way to painful headache Jane entered the house and just wated to have a peaceful evening with her wife and forget everything that had happened today. She knew she'd overreacted as she had beaten up Scott and she knew that she surely would have to deal with consequences. Even if Maura wouldn't report her to the Lieutenant then Scott's lawyer would do it and that would reach much higher positions. With Caavanaugh she could deal, he would understand her ... somehow. But now she just needed the near of her beloved wife, even if it would mean that they would have a fight again. Wheatever, her headache couldn't get any worse. But being with Mau ...

" Jane Clementine Rizzoli! ", the voice of her mother brought Jane back to reality.

Jane closed her eyes and sighed. She was so wrong. It could get much worse. " Hey, Ma. ", she sighed.

"What the hell is wrong with you= ", Angela asked with a accusing voice.

Jane walked to the fridge and took a beer. " What do you mean? Why I am all sweaty or why I am tired ... or why I am sweaty and tires? "

Angela pressed her lips to a thin line together. " Don't be snippy. You know exactly what I mean. Why did you beaten up a perp? Didn't I raised you better than to use your fists? "

Jane sipped her beer and rubbed her left eyebrow. " Maura told you? "

Angela paused for a moment. " Maura know about it? "

Jane frowned. " Of course she do. She checked on the perp. ", she stopped and drew her eyebrows together. " Wait ... if Maura didn't told you what had happened ... who told you? "

Angela crossed her arms. " There's a reason why you have a brother. "

Jane rolled her eyes. Of course Frankie had told their mother her current emotional state. She surely commanded him to watch after Jane after Frost was killed. " I blew a fuse. "

Angela snorted and took a deep breath. " Is that all? You blew a fuse? "

Jane pressed her lips together and shook warningly her head. " Ma, ... can we ... do this ... whenever you want ... but ... but please noth tonight. I just need to talk to Maura. "

Angela looked at her long. " Did the both of you fight after your mind went blank for a moment? "

Jane sighed and nodded in agreement. " Yeah. Where is she? "

Angela nodded to the stairs. " She went into her office after she brought Alexis to bed. "

Jane bit her bottom lip and started to walk. " See you tomorrow, Ma? "

Angela sighed worridly. " Like always, baby. "

Maura sat at her desk in her home office and worked at her laptop as someone knocked softly at the closed door. She didn't looked up while she stared at the blank Word page. " Come in. "

The door opened and Jane looked sheepishly in the office. " Mind if I come in? "

Maura looked at her wife and closed the laptop. " Of course not.

Jane enetered the home office and sat down at the more comfortable couch as the one in the morgue. " Why is it that this couch is more comfortable then the one at work? "

Maura licked her lips and looked long at her wife. " Because this is home and, even if I am a Doctor, my patients never complain about how comfortable their tables or my couch are. "

Jane smiled a little and sipped her beer with a sigh.

A pregnant silence suddenly laid in the room.

" Do you want to talk about it? ", Maura wanted to know.

Jane slowly shook her head while she stared in the distance. " No, not really. "

" Why not? ", Maura wanted to know.

Jane hesitated and rolled the beer bottle between her hands. " You know ... you know I am not good at these setimenatl stuff and spit out all my thoughts. These days are rough, Maura ... for all of us. And when I spit my heart out it is a ... a touch of my emotional instability after Frost's ... You know ... I am not that kind of person who talk about their feelings or sadness or happiness. "

Maura nodded in agreement. " I know and I hope you know that I would never force you to do so if you don't want to. "

Jane sighed but she couldn't look into her wife's warm, loving eyes. " I know. "

" Jane? ", Maura said softly.

Jane swallowed hard. " Hmm? "

" Why ... did you beat up Scott? "

Jane shrugged and searched for an answer that would explain it all. " I thought he was our killer. I ... as I had him to the ground I just saw red. The only thing I could think about was Frost and you. "

Now Maura was confused. " Why did you have to think about me? "

Jane stood up and studied a book about a lexikon. " I had to think about you because we, you and me, found frost dead. You'D did CPR qat Frost even you knew that wouldn't change anything at all. And then you had to perform the autopsy at him. "

Maura could hear the guilt in her wife's voice and stood up. " That was my decision, Jane. I decided to perform the autopsy at Frost on my own. You didn't do anything. "

Jane dropped her chin to the chest. " And why do I feel like I'd forced you to? Why do I feel this unbearable pressure on my heart? Why ... "

" Because you're still grieving, Jane. ", Maura said softly as she put her hands on Jane's. " And grief is an long and hard procedure. Grief don't go away in a week or a month or a year. It can take years until it is bearable. But you are not alone in this, Jane. Don't shut everyone who loves you out and beat the crap out of someone who didn't committed those murders. Because that worries the ones who loves you even more. When someone askes you how you feel then tell them the truth. "

Jane sighed and shook her head. " Maura, I just told you that I am not a person who ... "

" You don't have to tell your heart, Jane. ", Maura cut her off. and raised her eyebrows. " Just tell that you don't feel well and that you're not in the mood to talk about it. But then you don't have to pretend that you are fine at all. Because you are not ... we are not. None of us. But we are too proud to say so. "

Jane sniffened and wipped her nose with the back of her hand. " For an social awkward person you aren't so awkward right now. "

Maura laughed sorftly and laid her cheek between jane's shoulder blades. " To give someone the advice and do it by yourself ... These are two different pairs of shoes, Jane. "

Jane took a deep breath and turned to her wife. " You know I love you, right? "

Maura looked puzzled at Jane and nodded. " Of course I do. "

Jane hugged her relieved and buried her nose deep in Maura's neck. " Good, I was afaraid you didn't knew. "

Maura replied the hug and closed her eyes. " Jane, I would never doubt your love to me, to our daughter, your family or tho those you love the most. "

Jane tightened her grip and inhaled Maura'S scent deeply. " I love you so much. I will never ever let you go. "

Maura stiffened a litt.e " I am afraid you have to let me go now because I have to pee, Jane. "

Jane wrinkled her nose as she let go of her wife and frowned. " That was so not sexy, Maura. "Maura shrugged and chuckled. " It's nature, Jane. I can't control it. "

Jane raised her eyebrows questioningly. " Are you sure you can't control it? "

Maura riolled her eyes and started to walk. " There are some things I can't control. For example ... your mood swings. "

Jane wanted to teore something but Maura was already gone.

Jane watched her wife in the morning. It was unusual for her to be awake before Maura or even Alexis. But this morning it was other. She followed Maura's facial contour with her eyes and wondered how often her wife had done exact the same whe she was sleeping. How many times Maura enjoyed the time she had to memorize every single line in Jane's face.

Jane sighed deeply at the pieceful view and smiled a litte. " You are even more beautiful when you're asleep, Maura. ", she whispered and and brushed carefully a strand of hair behind Maura's ear. She couldn't remember how often she laid on this side of the bed without being able to touch Maura because they were just best firends ... whatever that meant in their case. She knew from the very first moment that Maura was something special ... something other. But she blinded herself by telling herself everytime that Maura would just be her best friend and she didn't wanted to jeopardize this strong connected friendship. And now she still couldn't believe her luck to call Dr. Maura Isles her own. Jane paused and frowned. Your own? God damnit, Jane. You are so proprietary.

Jane sighed and brushed her lips against Maura's neckas she thightened her grip around her waist. She loved to be the big spoon but she would never admit it.

Maura smiled and sighed. " Jane. "

Jane's heart almost bursted and she thightened the grip a little more.

And then as they laid there in silenece and peace, as nothing bad could harm them the unbelievable happened.

Alexis was heard by crying out loud over the baby monitor.

Maura jumped up and was wide awake.

Jane sighed loudly and turned on her back. " It's your turn. "

Maura glared at her and frowned. " I watched nine months after her. Why is it my turn? "

JAne growled and got up. " Really? Will this be you agrument for the next twenty years. "

Maura smiled sweetly. " Yes. "

Jane rolled her eyes. " What else did I aspect? ", she growled beforeshe made her way to the nursery.

Maura cuckled as she laid back into the bed. " I love you too. "