A/N: This is a continuation from the last one (the Zoethian oneshot) where it shows how Lalna felt about Zoeya. Onsided Zoeyna/Zoelna etc.
I thought following Rythian would lead me to Zoeya, my love. It did, but it also left me heartbroken. I loved her so dearly, but to her I was nothing. Invisible. Non-existent. Even when she did see me, talk to me, it wasn't because she liked me. She was just interested in my work, my science. Not me. All this time I thought she liked me.
Ever since the accident, I had been trying to help her. I didn't want her to be hurt; I was only trying to get back at Rythian. Instead she got caught in the crossfire. I helped her how ever I could. She was gaining an interest for all the science I used on her. I decided it'd be a good way for us to get to know each other. The more I helped her, the more I was falling for her. I thought she stayed because she liked me too. It was fun to see the angry looks on Rythian's face, either way. But...it turned out Rythian and I had the same idea on the same day.
Earlier that day, I had been making the perfect present for her; to show my undying love for the strange, red-haired girl. It wasn't much, as I didn't have long. I knew Rythian would soon follow her, and that would be my chance to find her. I just needed to find her before him; he had the same feelings I did for her. Unfortunately, I had to follow HIM to find her. If not I'd just get lost in the dense forest. He'd been through forests before to find her, he was a natural. I was not. I would get caught on every branch, twig, root, you name it. I never really went outside my lab, really. There wasn't much need. Not until I helped Zoeya. Then I'd start to come out more often, to see her. Even if Rythian wanted me gone, I'd still sneak around to see her. She'd be oblivious to my love, but I was also too blind to see it...until it was too late.
I saw her hair the instant Rythian did. We both chased after her, but I still trailed behind. Even when he tripped and fell, I remained behind. I watched as she suddenly came out of the bushes, sitting beside the mage. They began to talk, and I could barely hear what they were saying. I leaned in closer, soon seeing them embracing. My heart stopped. She had chosen her love. And it wasn't me. The two left, her in his arms, while I just sat. Alone. Heartbroken. Why did she choose him, and not me? I had been double, no TRIPLE, what he was to her. Yet Zoeya still didn't see it. I didn't know what to do. I pulled my knees up to my chest, resting my head on them. I didn't want to live anymore, now that she would never accept me. Zoeya...why... Why him? Why him of all people? He's an idiot. Why him? Why not me? I curled up as small as I could. I didn't want to exist. She had left me for him. I felt something land on me, glancing up. A small flower sat on my hand; the same red as her hair. I leaned back against the tree, holding the flower in my cupped hands. Maybe...it didn't matter so much that I couldn't have her. Maybe it was better this way. There was no point crying about it now, right? I couldn't change it even if I wanted to. Not with any science I possessed. But that's ok. I think I'll find someone else and even if I don't, I'll be fine alone. Just me and my science. That's all I need now.
A/N: By the way, I do have some definite pairings that I'm doing. E.g Sjips, Rythna, Xephmadia, InTheLittleDream, NanoCoffee/LividSounds. Those are just some, I have others too. I might also do multiple oneshots for certain pairings, depending on which pairings people like the most. Just keep on suggesting ^_^