I had lied, and I was a terrible liar. The moment I had laid eyes on Paul I knew I had most definitely never done better than him. Hell I hadn't even seen better than him. I rolled over on my bed and sighed as I realized that for what felt like the gazillionth time this week I had thought of the mysterious Paul. After he had led me back to the clearing, there were some oddly cryptic exchanges between him and Jacob that made me uncomfortable because even though I didn't understand exactly what they meant I knew I was the current topic at hand. It didn't help that whatever it was they had been referring to had Paul looking pissed off and Jacob laughing.

I rolled over back on my back and stared up at the ceiling with my heart pounding in my chest when I thought about him. Seriously? What is wrong with me? I've taken princes for lovers before, I have had the best of the best and some boy that lives in the middle of no where land is the one that's captured my attention. Not that I'd ever probably let him know that, by the way he had been going at it the first time we met in the woods I knew that me and Paul would never happen. He practically ignored the poor girl afterwards despite her whining and grumbling. I almost felt bad for her. Almost. But I'll admit it had been nice having his attention set on me despite his current status whatever it was with her.

Which is why it would never work between us. Ever. I've dated the bad boys before and they were most definitely my favorite but they also hurt the most. They lied, deceived, and cheat their way into your heart. I knew this, I know Paul's type and that what was why I would not fall for it, not this time. I would not be known anymore as the girl who cares too much or the girl who loved too easily. I've dealt with the past and felt the pain that accompanied it. I would never follow that path again. A new set of eyes infiltrated my well guarded mind and this time I sighed covering my face with my pillow. They were deep red eyes, framed by shaggy brown hair that was unkept in an attractive way. Garret. It had been a long time since our paths have crossed. He was my first bad boy. His daring grin and mischievous gleam had drawn me in. I had practically been putty in his hands.

It was a whirlwind of a romance that had left me breathless and wanting more. Every second had been more exciting than the last, he was the first man I had ever loved. I remembered telling my dad that Garret was leaving, he was a nomad and he never stayed somewhere for too long, and he had wanted me to go too. When I told Joham he had nearly cried if his body would have allowed it. He told me he couldn't loose me and we had argued. I told him I couldn't be without Garret, that every moment we shared had been too valuable and precious and I couldn't imagine missing one more moment. But Joham had stolen that from me. One of my sister's had a special gift that worked much like mind control and she had manipulated me to forget about Garret, I hadn't even known until the night the Volturi came and told us that if we stayed with my father we would meet his fate. She had stayed and when she was brutally murdered the memories came back to me. She no longer had hold of me. When I first remembered Garret I cried, I had been in the shower and I had curled up on the floor and simply cried. It was as if every kiss, every touch, and every word we had shared was pounding in my mind. All of it had been torn away from me.

I still didn't know how I felt about the whole situation. I didn't know how I could so readily defend Joham when he deprived me of a real life. He had been selfish because every time he seen me, he also saw my mother, both in physical features and our personalities. I tried to bring myself to hate him several times but it seemed no matter how hard I tried I couldn't.

Jacob had been right about his observation of my father but I still defended him. I always did because no one knew the reasoning's behind every meticulous act her did. Even know I felt an overwhelming need to protect him and his feelings. He wasn't even alive anymore damn I was so screwed up. There was a knock on my door before Renesmee opened it and popped her head in a wide smile on her face. "I'm going to the beach with Jacob do you want to come?" I looked over at her biting back a remark. I had only been here a week and everyday she has tried and tried to get me out of the house and go places with her, weather it be shopping or the beach and each time I made up some excuse. The girl seemed stuck on some presumption that I was lonely and I looked at the food of the bed where my new sphinx kitten was curled up. I named him Prince and really I was surprised she got him for me. He was one of those no hair cats and most people thought he was ugly, I thought he was abstractly cute. But hey that was just my opinion. Renesmee had gotten him for me about two days ago and he's never wanted to leave my side since.

I was kind of afraid if I said no she would try to buy the beach for me or something I mean she did spend over a thousand on the kitten and she seemed to be getting more and more desperate for me to actually hang out with her rather than try to plan against the Volturi. Humor the girl. I groaned and sat up in bed, "Sure." I grumbled getting out of bed. Her cheeks turned red as she noticed I was only wearing a thong but I shrugged. I've lived long enough that really I grew out of caring about stuff like that she was a girl afterall not like its anything she hasn't seen. She averted her eyes as I slipped a bikini top on and a pair of designer ripped mini shorts along with a white see through tank that flowed off my body. You could easily see my bellybutton ring and bathing suit top which was kind of the point. I only planned on laying out so I wasn't too concerned with changing into a full bathing suit.

"A-are you done?" She stammered. I smiled and opened the door as I slipped on sandals. She was so adorable to be honest. "Yes I'm done." I informed her as I walked out of the house. She went to grab for her keys and my brow furrowed before I shook my head. "We'll take my car I'll drive." I informed her. She returned my gaze with a puzzled one.

"But you only have a two seater." She said slowly as if I didn't know how many seats my own car had. I nodded and looked at her as if to say 'yes and?' "Well Jacob was going to ride with us." She explained.

Oh. I had figured they were going to meet there and I'd be spared at least a little bit of their makeout session. But apparently not. Renesmee took in my how my expression had fallen and she looked mortified. "I can call him to meet us there though no problem. That way we can have some girl time." She smiled at me. I was pretty sure the girl was confused and for some reason thought that was the source of me being upset when in reality I just didn't want to be the awkward third wheel. I let it go though as I let her in the car and we took off to the beach.

I could tell Renesmee was horrified and terrified by my driving by how tight her seatbelt was and the white knuckled drip she had on the dashboard as I drove. To me it felt good as the high of adrenaline made me smile as I took a sharp curve hard and Renesmee bumped into the door. Her eyes were wide with absolute terror and I had to try so hard to restrain from laughing at the poor girl.

I could tell by the time we got there that she was ready to get out. I screeched putting us into park and undid my seatbelt as Jacob ran over to the passenger car door side and glanced worriedly at his girlfriend. He gave me one of his world famous stink eyes which sadly meant he probably wasn't team Addie either. No one save for maybe Renesmee, Carlisle, and Edward ended yp siding with my being here anyway and even though the majority would have usually won no one really wanted to openly make accusations against me in front of Carlisle,

"You could have killed her Jacob spat as he helped her out of the car and I followed getting out myself and gave her the once over before looking back at Jake. "She looks fine to me." I grumbled as I picked my purse up and started walking down to the beach. Apparently the group we were going to be joining today was not just Renesmee and Jacob and me. Nope there were a lot more people than that gathered here. I looked around at them as they grilled food, scarfed it down, laughed and talked. Everyone was so familiar with each other and I didn't even know a single face.

Well I thought I didn't until a beautiful set of amber eyes found mine and made me feel stuck in place. Paul was here. I didn't even know him well enough to consider him as 'safe' to talk to at this event. Looking around Renesmee had already gotten comfortable and was greeting everyone and I really did began to fill left out. I didn't know a single face and the two I did know was either socializing. Ick. Or hated me. Ehh. I sat down on the beach kind of distanced from everyone and stuck my headphones in my ears beginning to play Fall Out Boy. I had no idea why I had even come it wasn't like I knew anyone. I didn't.

I really just felt bad for Renesmee and now it was coming to bite me in the ass, and hopefully not literally. I could feel myself tense as someone sat down next to me, their shoulders brushing mine. In this proximity and given the small amount of time we've even know each other the fact that Paul sat beside me wasn't just weird because he was here. It was weird because he had a girlfriend and the reasons he were ever really talking to me were beginning to crumble. "Well look who it is?" He smirked and I didn't have to look to see his amber eyes it were steadily trained on me. I could feel my palms sweating and I crossed my legs at the ankle and pulled my top off leaving me in my strapless neon pink bikini top that stood out against my skin and my shorts. I was going to be perfectly content ignoring him today.

"Your tits are too big for a strapless bikini." I glared over at him and looked down at my chest that looked perfectly fine to me. My face flashed into a bright red as I noticed his eyes were roaming my body. I didn't even know how to fucking reply to the guy.

"And what are you the titty police?" I shot back. Smooth Addie, wow so smooth and I sit here and wonder why I'm still single. I laid back against the sand and wished that it would swallow me whole. Why could I not think of good comebacks? Not to mention I had embarrassed myself about a thousand times over. This was just perfect. What did I even care what this guy thought about me? He was an asshat. I could feel him smirking at me from beside me but he seemed to let what I said go. My heart kept speeding up when I glanced over at his amber eyes and each time I took a peak he was openly admiring me. This was not going well, so not going well.

Another body towered over me blocking the sun and I looked up to see a whole slew of guys with perfectly caramel tanned skin. They all just looked perfect. It was rather disconcerting to say the least. Renesmee had informed me that Jacob, Paul, and the rest of these res guys were shapeshifters which quiet honestly gave me mixed feelings. I looked up at the selected group who were intent on getting my attention and I stood up dusting sand off of my shorts and looked up at them. "Can I help you?" I asked sarcastically. I could feel someone's gaze travel down me and he spoke up first.

"We just wanted to officially meet the girl who Paul has not stopped talking about for the past week. Your prettier than I thought actually." One of them spoke up Paul growled at him but I ignored him and smiled at the guy who couldn't be any older than like 16 or 17. "I'm Collin." He smiled back at me his cheeks turning pink and the others looked at him chuckling and shoving him around. It was clear he had what I referred to as a school girl's crush. Well I suppose in his case a school's boy crush but none the less.

They all began introducing themselves and honestly they seemed a lot more friendly than Paul did with his mood swings. One minute calling me a bitch and the next staring at my ass the first day we met. "I'm Addie." I smiled once they had finished. I wasn't used to so much attention to be honest. I mean yes a lot of guys thought I was pretty enough but I never really stuck around for too long when I was with my father. He had made sure I never formed too many close connections since Garret. So actually staying somewhere, and socializing for more than a day was something to get used to.

"Okay okay stop drooling." Paul growled shoving Collin. I looked at him hard, what claim did he have over me? His whole stance radiated possessive and I wasn't sure if I felt complimented or insulted.

"Leave Collin alone." I defended, Paul looked at me frustrated for a moment and shook his head as if I were a child he were trying to teach something to. "Look you don't really get it." He grasped for words but couldn't quiet stumble any out so I put my hands on my hips and settled him down with my world famous glare. "I am not a child Paul. I am older than anyone currently present here so don't assume what I will and will not understand." That stopped everyone and they all looked at me for a moment before I was bombarded with questions.

"How old are you?"

"Where were you born?"

"Did you see dinosaurs?"

The last one through me off and I looked at Brady the kid who had asked the question, okay he definitely needed to stay in school or rely on his pretty baby face. I could feel myself getting flustered and I kicked the sand around a bit before answering the question. "Like 419 give or take." I grumbled. My 420th birthday was actualy coming up pretty soon and everyone stared at me in shock as if I had just spoke an onslaught of gibberish.

"You are over 400 years old?" Paul looked me up and down shocked and I rubbed the back of my head sheepishly and nodded. My cheeks were turning pink and I would be lying if I said I felt at ease with my age. I was old for vampires let alone being the first dhampir to ever come into existence, yeah this was so not a conversation I wanted to have.

"God damn you are old." Jared spoke up the first real comment about my age. My cheeks turned even more red. Yeah like I hadn't heard that one before. I wanted to dissolve into the sand before this conversation could keep going and Paul looked at me with his knowing amber brown eyes. It was like he understood my discomfort almost like he could feel it and he picked me swinging me over his shoulder. A yelp escaped my lips and I squirmed as I noticed he was running towards the ocean. "No no no." I begged and squirmed harder. All the pack was laughing at the change of pace and even though it felt good to not have everyone gaping over my age, the next instance when Paul tackled me into the water was like an ice cold bucket had been dropped on me. I emerged sputtering and coughing and Paul grinned wide at me. Water glistened and fell off of his abs, it was like something out of a magazine and my cheeks heated as we stared at each other silently a palpable intensity passing between us. That was until a wave crashed down over me and sent me sprawling ontop of him as we washed up on the beach. My hips straddling his and my hair hanging in our face. My cheeks were probably on fire and the blush forever permanent as a wide smirk spread over his lips along with some own heat covering his cheeks. I really could get used to staying here.

Lightbabe- I know I liked viewing the Cullens in a bit of a different light I'm not really a fan of perfection in characters like how they portrayed Bella and even Carlisle at times. Everyone has flaws so I tried to make them a little more realistic.

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