People change… We change by time… And what is time? It's an uncountable measure that helps us in determining how much we age… how much we change… it always changes… and yet change itself doesn't change, as if change changes and change wouldn't be there anymore.

I lied down staring at the ceiling wondering how things are and were. I let my mind drift into the thoughts that I had suppressed for years. I guess it was my only way of coping… blocking all the pain and not dealing with them. It was the easiest thing in life… not caring what happens.

I remembered how things were back when I was younger and how both my parents were there for me… where present in anything I did. Where there in anything I needed. I felt loved… I felt different than today… I was different.

Flashback 2009

'So this is what you were fucking doing all this time Christian? Seeing Elena?' I heard mum shouting from the kitchen.

'Ana, please calm down! I needed to vent off!'

'And you cannot fuckin' vent off with your wife? You need a hooker to do so?'

'She is not a hooker.'

'Than what is she huh? Ohh… yes right… she was that person who taught you the ropes right?' Mum shouted back as dropped the dishes with a thud. 'And you honestly think I'm falling for that Christian? You think I don't know what two people in bed together means?'

'Ana, don't shout! Sera's upstairs…'

'No, I'll shout so she'll know what kind of a father she has!' She shouted again as she climbed the stairs and dad followed suit.

As she entered their bedroom she took out the luggage from underneath their bed, and started packing anything she could find.

'Ana what are you doing?'

'What do you think I'm doing? I'm leaving… Sera's coming with me.'

'No way in hell you're taking our daughter.'

'Yes I am… I'm not leaving her with a cheater.'

'Ana please, listen to me… let's work this out…'

'NO Christian… I'm tired… I've tried helping you, I've tried understanding you… I've given you more than enough… and then you throw this? What the hell do you think I am? A frikkin orange that you use, squeeze all the juice and then throw it away?'

'Ana please… Nothing happened… She pushed me in bed… I never did anything with her.'

'Tell that to the lawyer… you'll be hearing from mine… Get your crap sorted out Grey.' Mum finished as she closed her suitcase and made her way to the door to my room.

She opened the door immediately and without any hesitation she stated. 'Sera, pack up some stuff that you need… we're leaving…'

I still never understood what happened… I never figured out what the deal was with that incident. Mum was seriously leaving dad… and dad cheating? He's … he's not that type… although I don't know what makes a cheating person the type of cheating person. I'm not even making any sense… I remember, I packed as fast as I could… I didn't want to anger my mother more than she was… my father was in tears begging mum to stay. I could see that he truly loves her. Maybe nothing really happened with this woman… maybe… I don't know… I'd rather believe that it was just a dream or that the leprechauns came at night giving me this bad dream.

I felt losing myself into sleep… It often happened that one moment I'm thinking and the other I'm sleeping… However, my mind would still be subconsciously thinking.

'Christian, leave me alone… We're leaving…' Mum said again as she took both our luggage and made our way hurriedly out to the parking lot. I was almost running trying to catch up with my mother. She was broken hearted. She didn't even say a word.

As we climbed in the car and mum started the engine, I could see my father running to us… but mum was quick and we drove as fast as we could out.

She was in tears, and I didn't know how to help her. I wished to take her pain and help her feel better, but I didn't know how…

'Mommy? Are you ok?' I asked her slowly.

'Yes dear…' She answered back as dried her tears. '… I'm a bit sad… that's all…'

'You know I love you very much mommy… right?' I replied innocently as I looked at her.

'Yes dear… I know… and I love you very much as well…' She said again as she took her eyes of the road for a second and touched my face…

It was that dreadful moment that a blinding light reflected into our eyes.

'MOMMY!' I screamed… while she took control of the car and pushed the breaks not letting us crash in an instant.

'That was close…' Mum said as she faced me again. 'Are you ok dear?'

'Yes mommy…' I said as I went forward and hugged her. 'I'm never leaving you mommy… I promise…'

'I know you won't dear…' She replied again, but it wasn't long till panic rose in us again.

I heard mum screaming and a sharp pain took over me. I felt my world flipping and turning… however it wasn't my world… it was the car… Everything was in slow motion… Everything was different… My head was aching and blood was gushing out of it. I looked at my side… and there was mum… lying lifeless, with her hand still in mine. I tried shaking her to wake up… but it was to no avail… I screamed for help but soon I felt myself being pulled into deep unconsciousness.

That was all it took for me to jolt up again from my sleep, and in few seconds both my parents were there beside me.

'What's wrong?' Dad asked panicky.

'Nothing dad… Just a nightmare…' I replied as I saw mum's eyes fill with pain.

'Why don't you go make some hot cocoa? I'll stay with her.' Mum suggested to dad… and he immediately noticed that maybe mum knew about some things that he was still in the dark…

'He left…' Mum started as she came sliding in between the bed sheets with me. 'How long?'

'How long what?'

'Don't play dumb… you know what I'm talking about.'

'It's nothing…'

'Sera… you never talked about this… with no one…'

'Mum it's nothing… it was just an accident…'

'Caused by unfortunate measures Sera…' Mum insisted… 'Why don't I make you an appointment with Dr Flynn? Your father and I have to go…'

'Mum, I'm not insane… it's just a nightmare…'

'That you've been having for over 4 years now Sera!'

'Mummm…'

'Ok… what if you talk to me?' Mum suggested… 'I can help you out…' She continued…

I thought about it for a second before asking again. 'What happened after the accident? I … still don't quite remember…'

'Neither do I dear… All I remember is when I woke up your father was there holding my hand and all I wanted was that man regardless of what the fight we had before… '

'Yes… but what happened that… I remember you still didn't want to sleep with daddy after everything happened… I still remember the constant fights…'

'True… and we did become a bit distant… but we're working on it… which is why we still are visiting Dr Flynn…'

'Does therapy take this long?' I asked as dad knocked bringing in the hot beverages and handed them to both of us. 'Thanks dad…'

'Is everything ok?' He asked suspicious.

'Yes…' I answered instantly as mum got up from the bed.

'Are you going to be ok?' Mum asked.

'Yes… I think I'll sleep now…'

'Ok dear… if you need anything you know where to come…' She said as she came forward and dropped a kiss on my forehead, while she dragged dad outside.

'What was that about?' He asked as they sat on their bed.

'Nothing…' Mum replied…

'Nightmares don't start with nothing Ana.'

'She doesn't want to talk about it for now…'

'… she never wants to talk about anything Anastasia…' He replied as he held her close to him… 'I'll make an appointment for her tomorrow with the good doctor…'

'Already suggested that and she refuses to…'

'Since when do we ask her about her wellbeing?'

'Christian we need to give her time… she needs to deal with things at her own pace… When she wants to talk she'll come to us… I was like her when I was younger…'

'At least she has the qualities of one of her parents.'