~Somebody tell me, tell me
What I'm feeling
Somebody tell me, tell me
What I'm feeling
I'm telling you I went dry
I couldn't do it anymore
Tell myself that I was fine
It was something that I just ignored
That I feel a weight lift off
The moment that I saw love through
But I guess I fooled myself
Cause I never really wanted to
Oh I knew that even if
I catch you in the dark
It would never do
Because it only takes a spark~
Lauren's P.O.V.
"Hey nerd," I said as I threw a piece of scrunched paper towards my best friend who was sitting on a chair at her desk in front of the bedroom window, engulfed in homework, "are you almost done?"
"Almost." She breathes out not even bothering to look in my direction.
I lay on my stomach, my head propped up as I examined the younger brunette a few feet away from me. Camz is so studious; I really love that about her. Straight As, mounds of extra curricular activities and so on. She's definitely a trooper. She's so adorable, with her shimmering brown eyes glued to her homework and her lips poking out. That's how I can tell she's thinking; her lips poke out.
I begin chuckle and I see her eyebrows furrow.
"What?" Her head turning to face me, as somewhat, brown tired eyes met mine.
I could feel my lips pull to my ears.
"You're just...such a GEEK, I kinda love it." I rolled on my back and began to laugh as I stared at the ceiling.
Next thing I knew, she jumped on top of me, straddling me, pinning both arms against the bed.
"Take it back!" She bit her bottom lip and tried not to smile.
"No way NEERRRDDD." I smirked up at her.
"Alright...you asked for it Lauren Michelle, I tried to be nice..." She trailed off as she began to tickle me.
We were both laughing so hard as tears flowed from my eyes, I couldn't stop laughing. I tried to get Camila off of me; the tickling was too much. I grabbed her hands and accidentally rolled both of us off of the bed.
"Owww!" She said as we both ended up on the floor; she continued to laugh.
"I'm soooo sorry, you okay?" I said looking down into brown eyes that flickered with the light above.
Both our laughter slowed down and all we were left with was a silent room and our breathing. I found myself lost in shimmering brown eyes that continued to pierce through mine. I slowly bent down, our noses touching first, I searched her eyes, and she wasn't stopping me, my lips slowly brushing against hers...
~RING-RING-RING~
~RING-RING-RING~
My thoughts snapped back into place as I heard my phone ring. I broke lip contact, pulled back as I quickly popped myself up in search of my phone.
What did I ALMOST just DO? I ALMOST kissed my best friend!
There it is!
"Hello?" I answered my phone as my eyes drifted from the wall back down to the brown-eyed girl who remained laying on the floor, eyes on the ceiling. "Yeah, okay, love you too mom."
She's still on the floor, now with her eyes closed, her hands over her chest like she doesn't have a care in the world.
I cleared my throat of nervousness, "hey Camz, I better get going, I'm late for dinner." I see her prop her torso up, staring into space.
"Camz?" She turns her attention to me, glimmering brown orbs looking up at me; I can feel my knees go weak.
What is going on with me? Why does my stomach feel funny?
"I'll see you at school Monday." I could tell my voice was a little shaky as I walked towards her door.
I look over my shoulder and her brown eyes were still glued to me; she remained sitting on the floor, giving me an adorable half smile. "Have a good night Lauren."
~I'm standing in the pouring rain
I feel it like a hurricane
A photograph is all it takes
But I know I shouldn't let it
And the memory is rising fast
It's seeping into every crack
Oh, funny how it all comes back
When you're trying to forget it
Here comes the hurricane
Somebody tell me
How I'm feeling
Here comes the hurricane
Somebody tell me
How I'm feeling~
"Hey Lauren, you're here early, bell hasn't even rung yet." Ally said as she giggled from her desk, which was to the right of mine.
I chuckled back, "I know right? It just feels wrong." I said bending down to give her a hug before taking my seat.
I was a little early for chemistry, which usually NEVER happens, but I'm here waiting for the bell to ring so I can get this hell period over with. I find my mind wandering and every time it seemed to end up where it didn't belong. Camila. She looked so cute today during first period; she had on black skinny jeans with a loose gray sweater, black chucks and red lipstick. She's a different kind of dork, a very cute kind.
She's your best friend! Stop it, ugh, I really hate you right now brain! Maybe it's my heart? NO! NO WAY! Thank goodness we only have first and fifth period together, I would never get anything done!
"Miss Jauregui! Would you care to share with the class what you're thinking about since you're clearly not looking at the assignment on the board?" My teacher said as he crossed his arms.
"Uh…no, not really Mr. Warren, but maybe next time." I said with a smirk on my face; the class began to laugh.
"Settle down! Everyone back to the assignment, including you Miss Jauregui." I just smiled at him.
"Slick Lauren, slick." Keaton said as he winked at me.
Everyone knows Keaton's always had a thing for me, but I've just never felt that way about him and to be honest, he's kind of a douche. Maybe this is what I NEED to get my mind off of Camila, yeah, why not? At least he's not bad to look at.
"When am I NOT?" I said winking back at him as he smiled back and blushed.
I NEED this.
~Oh when I cut you off
It was something that I had to do
You can try to push it down
But it's always gonna follow you
And, yeah, if you close your eyes
It doesn't mean you fell asleep
Oh and I could keep you out
But you're never really gonna leave
Oh I knew that even
If I kept you in the dark
It would never do
Because it only takes a spark
I'm standing in the pouring rain
I feel it like a hurricane
A photograph is all it takes
But I know I shouldn't let it
And the memory is rising fast
It's seeping into every crack
Oh funny when it all comes back
When you're trying to forget it
Here comes the hurricane
Somebody tell me, tell me
How I'm feeling
Here comes the hurricane~
Dinah, Ally and I were sitting at our usual spot at the lunch quad area chit chatting. This was definitely my favorite part of high school, hanging out with my best friends everyday.
"Where are Camila and Normani?" Dinah asked looking around the quad.
I almost choked on my apple juice just at the mention of her name. We had a test during first period so I hadn't said a word to her since our study session Friday night. Well, more like HER study session.
"Oh my gosh Lauren, are you okay?" Ally said with concern in her eyes.
"Yeah I've fine, wrong pipe." I said nodding my head.
"Geez Dawg!" Dinah laughed, "Oh there they are! Mila! Mani!" she waved excitedly.
I could see Camila from the corner of my eye make her way to Ally and Dinah, giving them a hug.
Keep your eyes on your history book, try to study, avoid eye contact. Okay, okay, who am I kidding? Keep your eyes on your history book…pretend to study.
"Hey guys!" Mani said squeezing in between Ally and Dinah putting her arms around both girls as they sat across from me. "Wait, hold the phone! Is Lauren Jauregui actually studying?"
They all began to chuckle as I looked up at Normani, "Take a picture, it last longer." I said winking at her.
The three girls conversed in front of me as Camila made her way around the table to my side. She threw her arms around me from behind and squeezed tightly around my body, her chin resting on my shoulder, her face right next to mine as she gave me a quick peck on the cheek. I breathe in her scent and I was intoxicated with the smell of fresh flowers and lavender.
I could breathe her in forever, she smells so good and these arms; I love these arms. What am I thinking? I need to stop, she's YOUR best friend; she does this all the time!
She took a seat next to me; I tried to keep my eyes on my book. "I missed you this weekend." She said into my ear sending shivers down my back.
"Oh yeah?" I said with modest smile as I turned my head slightly to face her.
She just nodded while sticking her teeth out and made a goofy face. I couldn't contain my laughter as the girls' attention turned to me.
"Lauren, you seriously laugh like a baby." Normani said.
"Oh Laur, Drew asked me during fourth period if you wanted to join us and Keaton for double date Saturday night." She looked at me pleading.
This may not be a bad thing; I need to get these thoughts of Camila out of my head.
"Uh sure." I said as I shrugged my shoulders.
"Oh yay! Great! I'll text you details later!" She said as she beamed.
"Hey guys lets go, I gotta run to my locker before fifth period starts and we CAN'T be late." Dinah said as all three of them got up and headed for their lockers.
"Bye." I said looking back down into my book, trying to avoid brown eyes that where staring at the side of my head.
"Keaton, really?" Her tone was a little sharp, never really heard this from Camila unless she's upset.
"Sure, why not?" I shrugged turning the page.
"He's a douche, you even said it yourself."
I turned to look at her, "well, maybe I judged him too soon, besides, it's for Ally too."
I see her gather her things not saying another word.
"Where are you going?" I said a little baffled.
Why is she acting like this? Maybe she feels what I'm feeling-STOP LAUREN, just stop! All she ever talks about is One Direction and Harry styles. Ugh, hate that guy.
"Fifth period, don't want to be late." She said walking away.
~Oh everybody knows
I didn't want it to end
Oh everybody knows
I didn't want it to end
I'm standing in the pouring rain
I feel it like a hurricane
A photograph is all it takes
But I know I shouldn't let it
And the memory is rising fast
It's seeping into every crack
Oh funny how it all comes back
When you're trying to forget it~
Wednesday. Half way through the week, thank goodness. Camz has been a little distant since lunch on Monday, not really sure why. I walk into first period and of course she's already in her seat, such a geek, I really do admire that about her. I took my seat next to her in the back of the class and observed the younger brunette next to me. She had on a black pullover, paired with jeans and a scarf; I don't know what it is, but there is something just ridiculously adorable about this girl next to me.
"Hey nerd, nice scarf." I whispered.
I see her lips pull into a smile as she tilted her head slightly in my direction and rolled her eyes at me.
There she is, I've missed her.
"Miss Jauregui, what do you think?" Mrs. Sterling asked from the other side of the room, "the book Lauren? What did you think of the chapter? Stand up please so the class can hear you"
I stood up as all eyes drifted on me, but the only ones I really noticed were brown ones, sparkling, waiting for my answer.
"Go on." Mrs. Sterling encouraged nodding her head.
"Well, in the book, Jared's going through a lot, he's having to make decisions he's not really aware of and Sarah, his best friend, is the only one he can turn to. He's so consumed with trying to please his family, friends and coaches that he doesn't realize what he REALLY wants."
"Very good Miss Jauregui and what is it, you think, Jared really wants?" Mrs. Sterling asked placing her hand on her chin.
"I think he wants Sarah," Camila's face flooded my mind as I quickly glanced down to the brown-eyed girl staring up at me. "I think Jared's in love with his best friend and the other details don't really matter, he just hasn't realized it yet."
You're not in love her, calm down. It's fine; I'm not in love.
"Great observation Miss Jauregui." Mrs. Sterling said in satisfaction; I tend to act like I don't pay attention, but I actually enjoy reading very much.
"I also want to add that I think it's a BAD idea." I said quickly, as she gave me a look as if to say continue. "You shouldn't fall in love with you best friend that you've known your whole life; it could ruin a lot of things, EVERYTHING." I finished my thought and sat down.
I see Camila's hand rise up.
"Yes Miss Cabello, is there something you'd like to add?" Camila stood up.
"Although I agree with the first part of Lauren's opinion, I can't, however, agree with the last. Falling in love with your best friend isn't a bad thing."
It is when your best friend is a girl.
"Continue." Mrs. Sterling said.
"What's life without love? MEANINGLESS. I mean, if it were ME and I fell a in love with my best friend and that person returned my feelings, how could THAT be a bad thing?" She asked rhetorically and sat back down.
What's THAT suppose to mean? It probably doesn't mean anything.
"Thank you ladies for your opinions, you both bring up very good points." Mrs. Sterling said as the bell rang.
It's Thursday and I'm trying to study for my history test that's tomorrow. This blows! I figured I'd get my studying out of the way since I won't really have much time to cram tomorrow, maybe during lunch. I cringed at the thought of cramming, not gonna lie. I grab my mini basketball and begin to toss it against my wall. I haven't really gotten much studying done; lets face the facts. Most of my time studying was really consumed with thoughts of my best friend.
What did Camila mean by what she said in Literature class? Maybe she does feel the same way about me.
I couldn't contain my wandering thoughts about Camila and I found myself walking the few blocks and ended up in front of my best friend's house.
~RING-RING-RING~
"Hello?"
"Hey Camz, you busy?
"Just trying to get some studying done, you?"
"I'm actually outside, couldn't really focus."
"Outside?" I see her look out her window, "well, what are you waiting for? Come up."
I hung up the phone and headed inside.
I walked in her room and she came up to me and gave me a big hug. I just let my head rest on her shoulders for a few seconds before pulling away, reluctantly. I pulled my beanie off and undid my scarf along with my jacket and threw it over her coat hanger.
"Attempting to study," she said as she sat on her bed, "proud of you Lo." She said with a charming smile and the most mesmerizing brown eyes I've ever looked in to.
I can't exactly say why, but tonight she looks more beautiful than any other time I'd seen her before. She had on pajama bottoms and a pink shirt with stars all over them with no make up on; just pure beauty in front of me.
WOW.
"Key word, ATTEMPTING." I said as I watched her throw her head back and laugh at me.
RIDICULOSLY ADORABLE.
"You know on Wednesday? You spoke pretty passionately about the book we're reading." I brought it up as casually as I could not making eye contact.
"I meant every word of it." She said assuredly, slowly standing up from her bed. "Why do you ask?"
Why do I ask? WHY? Oh nothing, I was just wondering if you, my best friend, felt anything for me? That's all. Ugh.
"Nothing, I just," I shook my head and looked at her. "Nothing."
She sighed as she sat on her chair at her desk and began to study.
"I should probably go back home and ACTUALLY study." I said while she continued to read.
I put on my jacket, scarf and beanie on as I looked over at the beautiful brunette, with her lips poked out as she studied. I couldn't help but smile at the girl who made my heart skip a beat.
"I'll see you later Camz." I said as I turned the doorknob slightly opening her bedroom door.
"Lauren…" I turned around, my back to the door as she slowly made her way towards me, brown eyes locking with mine, I couldn't move.
She reached in between my body and right arm to push the door shut behind me, our bodies grazing and her breath on my lips as she looked deeply into my eyes, searching. She pushed me up against the door and planted her luscious lips onto mine. It took me a fraction of a second to respond, but when I did, my lips began to glide along with hers. It was smooth and subtle; I could feel my heart race as our lips parted. I opened my eyes to see hers still closed and flutter open slowly, revealing brown orbs that held me in place and I was left speechless.
~How I'm feeling
I'm feeling like a hurricane
Somebody tell me, tell me
How I'm feeling
Here comes the hurricane
Somebody tell me, tell me
How I'm feeling
I'm feeling like a hurricane
Somebody tell me, tell me
What I'm feeling
Here comes the hurricane~
She cupped my face and whispered, "in case you were still wondering." She placed another gentle, soft lingering kiss on my lips.
***OKAY, SO I AM THINKING ABOUT A PART 2 IN CAMILA'S P.O.V., LET ME KNOW IF I SHOULD CONTINUE*** =D