~When I found you
You could run so fast
You never really wanted love
And it couldn't really hold you back
You were that speed train
And you were still on the run
Yeah you would crash right in
And then you'd just move along
Oh I know that it haunts me
Wishing you could just stay
Drive away if you want to
You can slow down babe
But you just can't wait
Don't you see?
You can try to fight it
But it's meant to be
You and me
Baby please
Don't believe
Anything they tell you
Right here
I swear
This is where you're meant to be
This is where you're meant to be~
Camila's P.O.V.
~Click-Click-Click-Click~
The sound of my pencil between my fingers clicking back and forth on my desk was consuming my entire room. I look at the time and it's been about an hour and I haven't gotten any homework or studying done.
This isn't like me at ALL. I'm Camila Cabello, I get things done before they're even due! As SHE would say, I'm a GEEK. HER geek…stop, but I can't help it.
I can feel my lips pull into a smile at just the thought of Lauren.
"Just stop." I whisper to myself as I give my head a quick shake.
I begin to read the book for Literature class and my thoughts roam inside my brain, mostly to Lauren's opinion yesterday. Looking up at her, into those glistening green eyes that seemed to pop with her dark chocolate wavy locks surrounding her creamy skin. She looked so beautiful yesterday; wearing a black coat, with a Rolling Stones t-shirt that was loose, but still seemed to caress her body, paired with light blue distressed jeans that showed off her curves very nicely and of course her combat boots. She spoke so intensely about the book; everyone's attention on HER and they were in awe. Not a lot of people know this because Lauren is one of the most popular girls in school and she comes off like she doesn't care about class, but she's very intelligent and she loves to read. I was in awe as well, but for different reasons as the rest of the class, I'm sure.
Maybe, just MAYBE the tall, absolutely gorgeous, brunette, green-eyed girl, who also happens to be my best friend, felt something for me. ANYTHING, but then she said falling in love with your best friend is a bad idea. WHY? Why would she speak so passionately about Jared WANTING Sarah then just basically take everything back with her last sentence. WHY? I know her so well, yet she's the only person who completely confuses me and causes me to lose my train of thought with one look.
MIND BLOWING. REALLY.
~RING-RING-RING~
I can hear my phone ringing, but it takes me a second to check back into reality, away from my thoughts of the green-eyed beauty.
I look at my phone, Lauren; I swallow the lump in my throat before answering, "hello?"
"Hey Camz, you busy?" She said with her raspy voice that sent goose bumps up and down my arms.
Stay calm, nonchalant…yeah; you're nonchalant.
"Just trying to get some studying done, you?"
"I'm actually outside, couldn't really focus."
OUTSIDE? NOW! I'm a complete mess! No make up, with pajama bottoms and a starry shirt…it's not even eight o'clock yet. NOT CUTE, not cute at all.
"Outside?" I peek out my window, "well, what are you waiting for? Come up."
I begin pacing back and forth waiting for Lauren to enter.
Relax, she's been in your bedroom a bajillion times, this is no different than those other times.
My door slowly opens and I'm not really sure what takes over me, but before any words get in the way I engulf her in the biggest embrace I could give. I've reserved these hugs just for HER. She rests her head on my shoulder for a few seconds; I didn't mind it at all. Slowly we parted and I watched her take her panda beanie, that I loved so much, off, undo her scarf, remove her leather jacket as she placed all three on my coat hanger.
I made my way to my bed and took a seat, "attempting to study," I looked into green smoldering eyes that left me immobile, "proud of you Lo." I said trying to contain my smile.
"Key word, ATTEMPTING." I couldn't help but laugh at her response.
CHARMINGLY IRRESISTABLE.
"You know on Wednesday? You spoke pretty passionately about the book we're reading." she asked her eyes on my wall.
"I meant every word of it." I said in a definite tone as I slowly stood up from my bed.
Why is she bringing THIS up? I wish I could read her mind sometimes.
"Why do you ask?"
"Nothing, I just," her green eyes meeting mine as she shook her head slightly. "Nothing."
I let out a sigh and took a seat on my chair in front of my desk and pretended to study; I didn't want her to see the disappointment in my eyes.
"I should probably go back home and ACTUALLY study." She says to me as I keep my eyes on my book, pretending.
I can see her gather her things together from my peripherals; my heart began to race, I don't want her to leave.
"I'll see you later Camz." I can hear the doorknob turn slowly while my mind was in a whirlwind simultaneously.
This is CRAZY Camila! Okay, thanks for stating the obvious CONSCIENCE. CRAZY OR NOT, I know what I'm FEELING and I've known for a long time now. NOW OR NEVER…thanks HEART.
I slowly get up from my chair and make my way towards the taller brunette, "Lauren…"
Our eyes locked and she didn't move, she didn't say a word as I reached for the door behind her and closed it shut. I could feel her breath on my lips; we were so close. I wasn't going to hold back anymore; I've been holding back for far too long. I let my heart take over as I pushed her against the door and pressed my lips onto full, succulent ones that gradually began to caress my own. Lips slowly retreated as I took in every moment that just passed and fluttered my eyes open.
Her green eyes penetrated through me as I cupped her cheek, "in case you were still wondering." I breathe out before leaning in for another kiss.
~When you fly off
Yes you get so high
You never want to come back down
And you never really had to try
Baby all I know
And that I've come to find
You can the touch the sun
But you're never gonna kiss the sky
Oh I know that it haunts you
Wishing you could be there
Fly away if you want to
It's a new view babe
But it's the same air
Don't you see?
You can try to fight it
But it's meant to be
You and me
Baby please
Don't believe
Anything they tell you
Right here
I swear
This is where you're meant to be (meant to be)
This is where you're meant to be~
I was already in my seat waiting for class to start. Of course I am; I'm ME after all. All the students pour in, except for Lauren. My heart's beating picked up as my mind drifted to last night.
We KISSED! FINALLY. She feels the same way.
I begin to doodle in my notebook as my lips pulled from ear to ear, I couldn't help but wear the biggest smile.
"Hey nerd, that's a beautiful smile you have on." Her lips slightly grazed my ear as her husky voice whispered, causing me to lightly jump in my seat.
I just smile back at her, full on pearly whites making an appearance on my face. I can feel the heat rush through my body and surfacing on my cheeks.
"You're cute when you blush." She says before taking her seat next to me.
I look at the board and I can feel a pair of green eyes still staring at me.
She's KILLING me. How am I supposed to pay attention?
"Stop." I mouthed to her, not really wanting her eyes off of me.
"Make me." She whispers just loud enough for me to hear, causing me to giggle.
The entire class period consisted of stolen glances, mostly me keeping my eyes on my assignment while she stared at me. How could I NOT look at her? She's so charismatic; it really should be a crime when paired with the most alluring green eyes I've ever seen in my life. Sneaking smiles behind the teacher's back, yeah, I didn't get anything accomplished in first period; let's just say that and for once, it doesn't really bother me. The bell finally rang as we both headed for the door to our lockers.
She delicately shoulder bumps me in an affectionate way, if that makes sense. "Hi," her smile so bewitching as her green eyes glared in to mine.
She's so CUTE; she's making me blush.
"Hi." I said turning to face her as I lean against my locker, my smile uncontainable.
"Can I walk you to class?" her eyes hypnotizing me as she spoke, "Camz?"
"Huh?" I could feel the heat in my cheeks, "Yes, yes you may."
We were at the quad during lunch, Ally, Dinah and Normani cramming for a test they had in fifth period as Lauren and I studied for our up coming test in Literature, which wasn't until Monday. Lauren threw an arm around me as she leaned in to rest her head on my shoulder.
"You tired?" I ask her taking in the smell of fresh apricots from her hair; aroma so powerful I was spellbound.
She can lean on me forever if she wants.
She nods into my shoulder. "I'm going to take that as a YES." I smile to myself.
"Can we study later instead? At your house?" she asked as she continued to rest on my shoulders.
"Of course," I give her a quick peck on her forehead.
"…Maybe cuddle?" she's barely audible.
I chuckle lightly, "yeah…maybe."
"We'll see you two later, come on guys lets go, can't be late! Big test!" Normani said turning to Dinah and Ally as the three of them grabbed their backpacks.
"Lauren!" Ally yelled turning around as she walked backwards to keep pace with the other two.
I feel Lauren's head lift from my shoulder as she turned her focus on the shorter girl.
"I'll text you tonight about our double date tomorrow!" She beamed as she blew Lauren a kiss.
Double date, with Keaton…my stomach is turning.
"See you tomorrow gorgeous! Bye Mila" she blew me a kiss too.
I don't want your KISS!
I could feel my blood boil at the thought of that douche bag going on a date with MY girl.
That's STILL ON? No, not happening…NO.
I could feel Lauren's gaze on me; she's waiting for me to say something.
I could feel it, word vomit. Stand up, walk away, just walk away before you say anything you'll have to apologize for later.
"Camila?" She says eyeing me standing up as I placed my books in my backpack, "say something."
I didn't want to say anything I'd regret, "fifth period, don't want to be late." I gave her a half smile as I walked away from the table, I could feel green eyes glued on me.
I jumped out of the shower and changed into a pair of boxer shorts and white boyfriend tee as I hovered over my bed folding the last of my freshly dried clothes. I hate doing laundry, but I love the smell of clothes out the dryer and the feel of warm clothes on my body. I pick up one of my pullovers and take a big whiff.
Right out of the shower kind of smell, it was almost as good as Lauren's scent, ALMOST.
I hear a faint knock on my door before it slowly opened revealing the taller brunette that seemed to be on my mind for most of the day.
"You never knock." I say to her with a questioning look as I poked my lips out.
"I like those, those are cute." She said pointing in my direction with a smirk plastered on her face.
I didn't realize I was holding a pair of my boy brief panties in one hand; I quickly scrunched it up and tossed it in my dresser. I was a little embarrassed as I turned to face the green-eyed girl who was still staring at me with amusement in her eyes making my heart melt.
How does she do THIS to me?
"Whaaaatttt?" I exhaled, rolling my eyes playfully. "You know you REALLY need to stop doing that to me."
She made her way towards me, bending down slightly as she placed both her arms around my waist, pulling me against her body.
"Stop doing what?" she whispered as green eyes looked deeply into mine making my body slightly go limp as I feel two strong arms hold me up.
"THAT." I threw my arms around her neck.
"For what it's worth Camz, you have the exact same effect on me," her voice raspy not breaking eye contact.
She leaned in to place a gentle kiss on my lips and lightly bit my bottom lip. Full lips danced along my own, it was slow and sweet. We gradually parted, barely any space between our faces as she moved a piece of damp hair away from my face and tucked it behind my ear causing my lips to pull at my ears.
"About that date tomorrow," I could see green eyes searching mine for a reaction and I knew she had found them when I feel her hand cup my face; I couldn't help but feel sad. "I'm not going."
"You're not? Why?" My brown eyes wide as my heart began to beat a little faster.
"Why? Because I'd rather be with you." She said in a whisper before pulling me in for another kiss.
I couldn't help but smile into her warm, luscious lips. I could feel her lips pull away as my eyes slowly opened locking with green eyes.
"I'd rather you be with me too." I said giving her a smile nodding up and down; she let out a light chuckle.
"So, do you think we're actually going to get any studying done?" my eyebrows perked up at the question.
"We have too! I need an A on this test!" I said a little too loudly in her face as she began to laugh.
"What's so funny?" I said as I lightly bit my bottom lip, it was a reflex.
"You're just," she paused looking intently into my eyes, "you're just such a GEEK…but you're MY geek."
Lauren leaned in for another kiss, our lips meshing together slowly, passionately, conveying feelings we needed expressed right then and there.
HER geek.
I smiled into her kiss at the thought.
~This is where you're meant to be
This is where you're meant to be
Don't you see?
You can try to fight it
But it's meant to be
You and me
Baby please
Don't believe
Anything they tell you
Right here
I swear
This is where you're meant to be (meant to be)
This is where you're meant to be~