~Another day another life
Passes by just like mine
It's not complicated~
Another mind
Another soul
Another body to grow old
It's not complicated~
***Camila's House, 6PM***
Camila's P.O.V.
"You and your little sister?" her green eyes scanning the picture next to my bed, my own scanning her face; she had her guard down.
I watched her walk around my room and grab a photo album that was tucked away at the corner of my desk. "No Lauren!" I ran and tried to grab it from her hands, but she held me back with one arm as she flipped it open. "Lauren! No!" I tried to grab the album from her, but she was too strong and I was, apparently, too weak.
I felt her arm that was holding me back relax, and I stopped trying to grab it out of her hands. She sat down on my bed, her eyes soft as she flipped through it, her lips pulling to her ears.
She began to laugh, her pearly whites in clear view. I don't think I've EVER seen Lauren really genuinely laugh before like this, her expression irreproachable and I was astonished by it.
It was HEARTWARMING.
I couldn't help but just stand here, admiring the girl in front of me, "is that YOU?" her eyes wide with amusement, "oh Camzi, you gotta let me have this picture, I'm taking this picture."
I crossed my arms, "CAMZI? NO."
"NO?" She smirked up at me as if she's never heard the word before; lets face the facts, no one says 'NO' to Lauren.
"CAMMMZZZZ?" how can I say 'NO' to that face, those eyes, those smoky emerald eyes.
"Camz is MUCH better," I said with a smile as I uncrossed my arms and took a seat next to her, "let me see that picture?"
She held the picture next to her face as she wiggled her eyebrows, causing me to giggle, "No." I shook my head, "You don't want THAT picture."
"Oh," She nodded her head, "but I DO!" still holding it next to her face. "I mean, I just HAVE to have the picture that spawned THE bow era, I have too. You're just SO CUTE, what were you like two in this picture?"
It's official; I won't be saying 'NO' to that face anytime soon. "Five!" I corrected her.
She tucked the picture into her jacket pocket and turned her gaze back to me, tucking a stray hair behind my ear.
Why can't she be like this ALL the time? She confuses me sometimes, all the time.
That same hand smoothly cupped my cheek, her green gems so mesmerizing as they looked at me. I bit my bottom lip anxiously, knowing what was coming next; I wanted her ample pink-reddish lips on mine and I wanted them NOW.
I briskly grabbed her face with both my hands, drawing her lips onto my lips, taking charge. She laid on top of me, kissing me, her lips so lenient on mine, as if to mirror the entire night, which was so pure and gentle. Her right hand so delicate as it gripped my waist; the other pinning my right hand above my head, still her force was mild.
She's different tonight. All barriers utterly diminished and for the first time, I feel like I'm REALLY with HER and she's REMARKABLE; even more so than before, didn't think that was possible.
~BUZZ-BUZZ-BUZZ~
She popped her head up, breaking contact, much to my displeasure as we both breathed heavily, "ignore it!" I said positioning my hand behind her head, bringing her lips back down onto mine.
Our lips eagerly danced with each other as I tugged on her hair, pulling at it with my fingers every time she bit my lip, letting her know that I approved.
~BUZZ-BUZZ-BUZZ~
I could feel her smile into my lips, "you better get your phone." she said into my lips before giving me another kiss.
She rolled off of me and laid on her back, staring at the ceiling.
I grabbed my phone off of my bed and walked to the corner, "hey?" I whispered, "mmhhmm, okay sounds good Jer, I'll see you tomorrow." I said in what I thought was a quiet tone.
"Who's Jerrrrr?" She asked, her green eyes penetrating through mine.
Who's Jerr? This guy I've kind of been seeing, look I may be sweet and innocent, but I know I'm not the only one in Lauren's life and she's made that VERY clear, even though I want to be, so yeah, I've been dating.
"Jerrod, he's just uhhh, a-a-a friend of mine from my old school." She quickly propped herself up, hands supporting her as she slightly leaned back.
She looked straight into my eyes, "you always stutter like that when you talk about a friend?" her tone stern.
"Why does it matter? You have Cece!" I spat in the same tone.
"It doesn't!" she stood up and grabbed her book bag, "and I don't HAVE Cece, I'm not with her."
I followed the green-eyed girl, full of emotion as she stuffed her books in her bag. "What's your problem?"
"I don't have a problem Camila, you can be with whoever you want to, and it's not like we're together." She said harshly, not making eye contact.
WOW, that hurt; her saying it out loud, it HURT.
I could feel the hurt rise and the words left my mouth faster than the speed of light, "excuse me for protecting my HEEAARR-," I stopped myself before I finished the last word; I hope she didn't catch that; I could feel my tense stance unwind, "Lauren, you don't have to go."
I didn't want her to leave; this is so stupid. I don't even like Jerrod like THAT; its just Lauren scares me.
"I do, my parent's are probably waiting for me." She said walking towards the door.
I let out a puff of air, "That's right, don't want to keep the parentals waiting." I said mockingly.
Her glare quickly snapped towards me, "don't you dare Camila, I get it from everyone else, not you too," she shook her head as her green eyes became glossy prompting me to close whatever gap there was between us.
I cupped her face and looked into her eyes before wrapping my arms around her. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean it, I'm so sorry." I kissed her lips.
"I know," she whispered, cupping my face before kissing me, "I gotta go." She turned around and she was out the door.
~Do you ever wonder if the stars shine out for you?
Float down
Like autumn leaves
Hush now
Close your eyes before the sleep
And you're miles away
And yesterday you were here with me~
Lauren's P.O.V.
We sat at the corner booth where we usually sit as we waited for our milkshakes. I put my head down in my arms and let out a sigh; I needed a moment.
"You alright Laur?" Dinah asked as she rubbed my shoulder.
I popped my head up to answer, but my eyes were quickly drawn across the ice cream parlor, there she was with her bow eating ice cream with someone, must be Jerrod.
Why do I feel the need to go punch him in the face right now? Ugh!
"You like her don't you?" I gave my head a quick shake as my eyes looked at my best friend.
"What? No." I shrugged.
Do I? You already know the answer to that. Ahhh SHIT.
Dinah just perked up an eyebrow, "WHAT?" I asked.
"Lauren, I've known you since sperm, well almost, I know you."
"I don't know," I said glaring at them as they ate their ice cream; Camila knew I was staring; she stole glances…GOOD! I want her to feel my stares. "It's just…"
Am I jealous? NOOOOOO, okay maybe I'm a little jealous and I really want to go over there and punch that guy in the face.
Dinah gave me a curious look, "it's just what?"
"She makes me laugh." I said with my face hardened at the realization.
SHE MAKES ME LAUGH.
Dinah's eyes grew wide, "this is further along than I thought."
"WHAT?" I whispered.
WHAT THE HELL DOES THAT EVEN MEAN?
"It's okay bestie, you know I love you, this stays between us." Dinah whispered as she tapped my hand, her head gesturing towards the door where Cece and Normani had entered.
"Hey baby!" Cece said aloud, almost like a dog peeing around, claiming their territory; I was disgusted by it.
She threw her arm around me and kissed my cheek; whatever, might as well go with it, as always.
Camila's P.O.V.
"Camila…Camila?"
"Huh? What?"
"Who are you staring at?" his eyebrows furrowed as my gaze finally met his.
I didn't even realize I was staring so hard.
"No one, sorry." I said with a smile, "Lets get out of here?"
I can't stand hearing Cece laugh from across the parlor; she's so obnoxious.
"You don't want to finish your ice cream?" His eyes looked confused; I never leave anything on my plate.
I could feel my stomach turn into knots; I could see the blonde kissing Lauren all over her face; I can't be here.
"Yeah, I'm sure, let's go."
Lauren's P.O.V.
Oh no you don't Camila, you don't get to leave that easily.
"I gotta grab something out of my car, Dinah, tell Normani and Cece that story." I nodded as I wiggled my eyebrows.
"What story?" She was confused.
Come on, read my mind, that's what best friends do...READ MY MIND so I can talk to Camila outside!
"Oh yeah! The story, well let me tell you guys," she winked at me as I got up from the booth and headed outside.
He opened the door for her, what a gentleman…makes me want to REALLY punch him in the face.
I jogged towards them, "Camila!" She turned around, brown surprised eyes meeting mine.
"Lauren?" she gave me the WHAT THE HECK look.
"I just wanted to say hi," I quickly turned my attention to her date or whatever, "I'm Lauren."
He shook my hand, it was weak, how could Camila date THIS guy, weak handshake, "Jerrod, nice to meet you, how do you two know each other?"
"School." I answered a little rudely, woops.
"Actually, could I steal Camz for like a second," Her eyes narrowed at me, "I have to ask her about an assignment if you don't mind."
"Uh, yeah, no problem." He hopped in the car as I pulled Camila further away.
Camila's P.O.V.
What the hell is she DOING? She NEVER speaks to me unless we're alone and she picks this time to be the FIRST time, she has got to be kidding me! She's trying to intimidate him; okay it's a little sexy how possessive she's getting, but still! What is her issue?
I crossed my arms a little annoyed, "assignment? We don't have an actual class together! And what the hell are you doing out here talking to me anyways?"
"I just," she shimmied back and forth, resembling an innocent child, "I wanted to say hi."
Gosh why does she have to be so ADORABLE right now?
I let my arms hang loose as a smile crept on my face, "hi." I playfully rolled my eyes at her.
"Camila! We should get going, we're going to miss the movie!" Jerrod yelled from the car.
"Coming!" I shouted over my shoulder, "You should probably get going too."
"Yeah." She said faintly as her fingertips lightly touched on mine. "You're probably right."
It should really be against the law to be THAT beautiful and have green eyes; it's just not fair.
"Good night Lauren."
"Have a good night Camz." She broke contact and walked towards the parlor.
I watched the porcelain-skinned girl walk inside as I sighed. I know I won't be able to get those eyes off of my mind the whole night.
Lauren's P.O.V.
"Lauren! Get down here now!" I heard my dad yell.
"Dad? What's going on?" I ran down the steps confused.
He held my incomplete college applications in his hands; he was fuming. "These were due a couple of weeks ago!"
CRAP.
"Dad, I…" I really don't have an excuse.
"Get these done Lauren, you're lucky our family has connections." He shook his head at me, "Look Lauren, you know I'm only hard on you because I want you to reach your full potential."
POTENTIAL, it really just means, not quite there yet.
"Just get dressed Lauren, dinner is in a couple of hours and the Freys will be here soon." He said with his nose scrunched as he pinched his bridge.
"Why are the Freys coming over dad?" I was confused; I know our families have always been close, but this seemed last minute.
"We're thinking about merging our companies." He said firmly. "You really need to start taking your relationship with Cece seriously."
I'm seventeen! I don't need to take anything seriously!
"Relationship? Dad, Cece and I aren't even togeth-"
"I don't want to hear it Lauren. Get Ready."
I made my way up the stairs and I stopped, I had to ask, "What about love? Does that count for something anymore?" I stared at him.
He chuckled, "One day Lauren, love's going to fade," he stared directly into my eyes, "the choices you make now will determine what you're left with after. One day you'll understand, now go get ready."
I ran up the stairs, I could feel the tears forming in my eyes, "Lauren!" I stopped in my tracks, not bothering to look at him. "You know I love you right?"
"I know dad, I love you too."
It was time to grow up, be the person my parents expected me to be, it was time.
~Another tear
Another cry
Another place for us to die
It's not complicated
Another love that's gone to waste
Another light lost from your face
It's complicated~
Camila's P.O.V.
I haven't really seen much of Lauren this week, I'm sure she's been busy with hockey and midterms. Time to take matters into my own hands; this time I waited behind the locker, waiting for her to cross my path.
I pushed her into the closet, kicking the door behind me, her green tired eyes meeting mine. "Hey, hey," I tilted my head looking for something, "it's me." She just smiled.
Her eyes, they gave her away, she looked so vulnerable.
She placed her lips on mine, our lips caressing gently, tenderly, and passionately. Her lips were so sweet as they continued to brush against mine; we slowly pulled away and she was crying.
I wiped her tears with my thumbs, "What's wrong?" she just shook her head, mustering a half smile, "it's me, you can tell me anything."
She leaned in to kiss me once again, her lips salty from her tears, "I'm so sorry Camz." She sobbed.
"Sorry? Sorry for what?"
"I can't do this anymore, my parents they expect me to-to-to…" she continued to sob.
I couldn't understand her, "Lauren, hey it's okay, whatever it is, it's okay."
She looked at me with her watery green eyes, those same green eyes holding my heart, "I just, I can't do this, I have to go." Before I could say anything, I found myself alone in the janitor's closet.
~Is it that it's over or do birds still sing for you?
Float down
Like autumn leaves
Hush now
Close your eyes before the sleep
And you're miles away
And yesterday you were here with me~
"Thanks for dinner Jerrod." Gosh I hope he doesn't try to kiss me right now; the last thing I need is someone else's lips on mine when all I can think about are green eyes.
"Of course." He smiled charmingly, "look Camila, I don't know if I'd made my intentions clear, but I like you and I want you to be my girlfriend."
Is he asking me this NOW? What do I say to that? Is that an actual question?
"You don't have to answer me right now," Thank God! "I just wanted you to know my intent." He grabbed my hand, "I'm a really good guy Camila, and you know I would treat you right."
I know, I KNOW.
"Just think about it." He kissed my cheek and went on his way.
I didn't really have time to process anything; all I know is when he asked me to be his girlfriend all I could think about was Lauren.
Lauren's P.O.V.
I sat at the bar at my family's restaurant; we owned a lot of restaurants, lucky for me they all served alcohol. "Whiskey on the rocks."
"Lauren, it's noon and you're underage." Dan, the bartender said to me.
"Look Dan, I won't tell my dad okay, you've served me before, "whiskey on the rocks, please." This time my was tone firm, leaving no room for argument.
"Make that two!"
"Hey Dinah, what are you doing here?" I asked my best friend.
"Well, I didn't see you at the optional practice this morning and even though it's optional," she paused to take a sip of her whiskey, "you're ass is ALWAYS there. What's going on with you Laur?"
"It's my dad, he just expects so much out of me." I shook my head as I took a sip, letting the whiskey warm my body.
"What's new? They expect you to pull the world out of your ass!"
"It was different this time Dinah, you should've seen my dad, I've never seen him like that before."
"Hey Laur," She nodded towards the door, my eyes confused as I slowly spun my stool around, "I'll make myself busy on the other side of the bar."
"Camila, what are you doing here? It's noon, don't you have class?" my eyes confused.
"Don't YOU have class?" her eyes drifting from my eyes down to my whiskey.
"What are you doing here Camila?" I tried to sound as indifferent as I could, staring at my drink.
"Jerrod asked me to be his girlfriend." I slowly turned my gaze, looking into the most stunning brown orbs. "I need to know, THIS, whatever this is between us, is it real? Do you feel something for me?" her hand squeezed my arm. "Lauren?"
I took a sip of my drink, "you should be with him Camila, he'll treat you better."
"I want you to look at me, look at me and say it."
~Ooh how I miss you
My symphony played the song that carried you out
Ooh how I miss you
And I, I miss you and I wish you'd stay~
I looked into her eyes and the next few words would be the hardest words I've ever let out, "there's NOTHING between us Camila, you should go, be with him." I turned my eyes back to my drink, "I don't feel anything for you, you should go."
"Okay," she said through her tears before walking out the door.
It broke me.
"Lauren, what just happened?" Dinah asked.
"I told her I didn't feel anything and that she should be with someone else."
"Why would you do that? I thought you liked her."
"I don't like her…I'm IN-LOVE with her and she deserves to be with someone so much better than me." I said before finishing my drink and making my way out of the restaurant.
~Do you ever wonder if the stars shine out for you?
Float down
Like autumn leaves
Hush now
Close your eyes before the sleep
And you're miles away
And yesterday you were here with me
Touch down
Like a seven four seven
Or stay out and we'll live forever now~