~Written in these walls are the stories that I can't explain,
I leave my heart open but it stays right here empty for days.
She told me in the morning she don't feel the same about us in her bones,
It seems to me that when I die these words will be written on my stone.~
Camila's P.O.V.
I always thought that all you needed was love. ALL YOU NEED IS LOVE! Right? Now I'm not so sure. I've never been this heartbroken before; come to think of it, I've never been heartbroken. It's been hard not to give in to this feeling of complete and utter anguish, but I'm done, I'm done being broken. I'm not waiting anymore. It doesn't mean that I DON'T love Lauren; I'm very much still IN-LOVE with her. I just can't let myself walk around being heartbroken over her, I can't.
EASIER SAID THAN DONE.
I was snapped away from my thoughts, "Hey Mila! How was your weekend? How are things with Jerrod?" Ally asked gleefully as she sat down in the seat next to mine.
"It's good," I said without much emotion behind it. "We're taking it slow." Slow is an understatement.
"Have you answered his question yet?" She whispered as the teacher walked in.
"No, not yet." I whisper back.
My eyes drifted from Mrs. Tanner, who was writing our assignment on the board, to the porcelain-skinned girl that walked in late, per usual. I remember when I was the reason Lauren used to be late for class. My eyes followed her, all the way to the back as she put her head down. I couldn't even catch a glimpse of her green eyes; she was wearing a fitted cap.
Lauren's P.O.V.
I sat at my desk, crossed my arms and put my head down. I'm mentally and physically exhausted. Season is starting to take its toll on me, and this thing with Camz. This THING? You're thinking to yourself, no one can hear you; you can say it. What do you want me to say? Yes, I'm IN-LOVE with her! I just want to be with HER, only HER! Why can't love be enough? It should be enough. I slowly peeked up from my arms and narrowed brown eyes met mine; how long has she been looking at me?
"Miss Jauregui!"
My tired eyes turned to the front of the class, "yes Mrs. Tanner?"
"It's nice of you to grace us with your presence…late again." She said crossing her arms.
"You're welcome." I said as the class began to laugh; she was not amused.
"Lauren, take your cap off and pay attention."
I really don't want to be here right now! If Coach Tanner wasn't the teacher, I wouldn't be here and I REALLY don't have the patience for Cece today. I think she senses that too, she's left me alone for the most part.
"Okay, so don't forget, your assignment is due this Friday, work with your partners, I'll see you all tomorrow."
~And I'll be gone gone tonight
The ground beneath my feet is open wide
The way that I been holdin' on too tight
With nothing in between~
***Lauren's House, 6PM***
The day was a blur and I was sitting in the corner of my room, arms wrapped around my knees, head tucked in and I was sobbing, I couldn't stop sobbing.
"Sweetie, are you okay?" I popped my head up.
"Mom!" I lunged to hug her. "You're home!"
She brushed my tears away, "What's wrong Lauren? Talk to me."
"I'm just feeling really overwhelmed, with hockey and dad and-"
"Oh Lauren, you know your father loves you right? I know you have a lot going on, you don't need to worry about him. We're very proud of you."
"I know he does, but a few weeks ago, with the merger and the Freys and-" I said as my breathing slowly became normal; talking to my mom always seemed to calm me down.
"Lauren, you're seventeen, you don't need to worry about a merger that's NOT going to happen, let your father and I worry about adult business and you worry about being seventeen, okay?"
Whoa, whoa, whoa! NOT GOING TO HAPPEN?!
"The merger is not going to happen?"
"No, I would never allow it and your father's heart didn't feel right about it. We've worked too hard to share this company." She kissed my forehead, "Now, clean yourself up, dinner is in an hour."
I watched my mom walk towards the door, "Mom," she turned to face me, "do you love dad?"
She began to chuckle at my question, "I know your father says many things in the heat of the moment and he's a stubborn man at times, but it's part of who he is and I love him very much. Don't let his exterior fool you Lauren, you should know this already." She smiled at me.
My eyebrows furrowed at the last part, a bit confused, "I should know this already?"
"You're just like your father, hard exterior, but on the inside, well you're both just big softies." She smiled as she crossed her arms, leaning on the doorframe, "you know, he worries about you, maybe a little too much, only because he wants what's best for you. Do you know WHY I never worry about you as much, WHY I tell your father not to worry so much about you?"
"Why?" I could finally feel my body relax.
"I tell your father, that you're just like him. That he need not worry, because at the end of the day his daughter will do the right thing, she'll FOLLOW her HEART, just like her father."
I ran to my mom and hugged her as tight as I could, "I love you mom."
"I love you too sweetie."
~The story of my life I take her home
I drive all night to keep her warm and time...
Is frozen (the story of, the story of)
The story of my life I give her hope
I spend her love until she's broke inside
The story of my life (the story of, the story of)~
Camila's P.O.V.
Today has just been one of those days! I am so glad it's finally over and I can go home. I headed to my locker to grab a book I needed for one of my assignments tonight, or else I could've just headed straight home.
"Hi Camz." Her voice was different; it was warm, which is something I haven't heard in weeks; it would be a complete lie if I said it DIDN'T make me just want to push her into the janitorial closet and pepper her with kisses.
No Camila! STOP IT.
I put some books I didn't need into my locker and pulled the one I needed out; I quickly glanced at her, her eyes bright, emerald gems shimmering, as if I were seeing them for the first time. It certainly felt that way. I had to do a mental double take to make sure I wasn't dreaming. I mentally exhaled, because I couldn't let her see me exhale. I've been weak in front of her too many times; I couldn't be weak.
"What do you want Lauren?" My eyes returned to my locker; I could see her become timid from the corner of my eye.
"Alright," she breathed out; is she nervous? "I was thinking that maybe we should get together and work on our assignment for poetry class?"
My eyebrows furrowed as a reflex and I closed my locker to look into green, anxious eyes. She was shimmying back and forth; why is she shimmying back and forth?
"I don't think that's really necessary." My tone harsh and I could see the ache spread across her face. "Besides, that would require spending time together and well, we all no you don't have that now don't we?" I shot her the most condescending look I could muster up.
Her body sagged in defeat; she looks hurt. Why is she hurt? Oh gosh, I need to get out of here before my heart takes control of my body.
"I'll gotta go," was all I said, without much emotion before I walked away.
~Written on these walls are the colours that I can't change
Leave my heart open but it stays right here in its cage~
Lauren's P.O.V
OUCH! That hurt; that REALLY hurt!
Did she mean it when she said she 'didn't want me anymore?'
I looked on the floor and Camila must've dropped one of her assignments.
"Math?" Looks important.
I bolted down the hall and past the double doors, my eyes scanning the front of the school as I held one of the doors open.
I felt the agony spread through my body quickly causing me to fall to the floor, back against the door. I watched her; I watched her get in the car with HIM. I could feel my eyes burn, the tears, I couldn't stop them from streaking down.
I remained on the ground with my eyes closed, trying to regain my breathing and overall composure.
She's REALLY with him...she actually MOVED on; was it that easy?
~I know that in the morning now, I'll see us in the light upon a hill
Although I am broken my heart is untamed still~
***Poetry Class, First Period***
I looked up at the clock, YESSS, just about fifteen more minutes and I'm out of this hellhole. The last thing I need is to be around Camila, my heart it hurts and I just can't, seeing her with someone else, her being so cold yesterday...it kills me.
I NEED to get out of here!
"Okay, it looks like we have time for one more group to go..."
Please don't pick us; please don't pick us! For the love of Goooo-
"Cabello, Jauregui you're up!"
SHIT!
Her mesmerizing brown eyes quickly grabbed my attention; same effect, still melts my heart.
I walked up the isle towards the front as Camila did the same.
We both reached the front, side by side, "I have your math homework." I said in a whisper only she could hear.
~And I'll be gone gone tonight
The fire beneath my feet is burning bright
The way that I been holdin' on so tight
With nothing in between~
Camila's P.O.V.
"What?" I whispered to whatever Lauren just said to me.
"You dropped your math homework, I have it."
"Are you two done whispering? Come on we don't have all day." Mrs. Tanner said authoritatively as she took a seat, all eyes on us.
I turned my attention towards the class and I could see Lauren from the corner of my eye, her eyes looking at the ground, she looks so fragile. All I wanted to do was pull her into my arms and make sure she was okay, and if she wasn't I wanted to MAKE her okay
I swallowed the lump that formed in my throat, "well my favorite type of poems are those written in sonnets. A sonnet, to put it into simple terms is a poem made up of fourteen lines that rhyme in a fixed pattern." I gave Mrs. Tanner a small smile.
Her head finally lifted, green gaze turning towards me for a split second before facing the ground once again.
"Very nice Camila, Lauren?"
Why isn't she answering our teacher? Gosh what's wrong? I just want to hold her and kiss her, is she okay?
~The story of my life I take her home
I drive all night to keep her warm and time...
Is frozen (the story of, the story of)
The story of my life I give her hope
I spend her love until she's broke inside
The story of my life (the story of, the story of)~
Lauren's P.O.V.
"Lauren?" I heard the teacher call my name again, I should probably answer.
"I don't really have a favorite type of poem." I said meeting Coach's eyes.
"Really Lauren? The assignment was pretty simple and you couldn't just pickkk-" I better cut her off before she starts flailing all over the place in anger.
"I wrote something!" I said a little loudly so she would stop yelling and I could feel brown orbs staring at me; well all eyes were on me, but the only ones that mattered were HERS.
"I uh, yeah I wrote something," my voice a little quieter.
"That works," Mrs. Tanner's posture softened, "go on Lauren."
I'm doing this; I'm REALLY doing this.
I took a quick glance towards the younger brunette next to me, her frame rigid, her eyes still towards the class.
I scanned her body, letting all of her sink in and give me encourage, because I needed it; I NEEDED her.
I finally turned my gaze towards the class, took a deep breath and exhaled...
"I never understood
What love was really like, but
I felt it for the first time
Looking in your eyes
But now when I see you with him
My whole world falls part"
No need to write this down, this was from my heart and I knew it from memory. I could feel my heart pulsate faster as the heartache built within me.
SCREW IT!
I turned my entire body to face HER. My green eyes looking at the side of her face, I wish she would turn towards me so I can look into her beautiful brown eyes. I don't care who's watching and if she was questioning who this is FOR, well now she knows; EVERYONE KNOWS.
I swallowed the nervousness in my throat...
"If you're pretending from the start, like this
With a tight grip, then my kiss
Can mend your broken heart
I might miss everything you said to me"
Camila's P.O.V.
~And I been waiting for this time to come around
But baby running after you is like chasing the clouds~
Is this for ME? This IS for me; she's looking right at me...in front of the entire class, her teammates, CECE!
My heart began to race and my breathing picked up. If I turn to meet her eyes, her green eyes I might just break down right here, right now.
It means letting my guard down.
I inhaled as I slowly turned to meet her emerald eyes; they were vulnerable, innocent and pure.
They held me, ALL of me.
"And I can lend you broken parts
That might fit, like this
And I will give you all my heart
So we can start it all over again"
She said as her voice cracked.
I watched as tears slowly fell from her glossy green eyes and she continued...
"I think I'll miss you forever
Like the stars miss the sun in the morning sky
Later's better than never
Even if you're gone, I'm gonna drive"
I watched as her tears fell from her eyes and it broke my heart and I slowly reached for her hand as she finished but she bolted out of the classroom as the bell rung, leaving me standing alone.
My heart was beating so fast I thought it was going to jump out of my chest. I ran out to the hallway after her but she was gone.
I NEED TO FIND HER.
~The story of my life I take her home
I drive all night to keep her warm and time...
Is frozen
The story of my life I give her hope (give her hope)
I spend her love until she's broke inside (until she's broke inside)
The story of my life (the story of, the story of)
The story of my life~