~Hey babe if you havin' doubts Maybe you forgot what it's all about Let me tell you it Don't you know that I got your back It's written in my face, baby that's a fact Baby that's a fact
Ups and downs, lost and founds Just let go
We gonna be fine (Yeah yeah, yeah yeah) When you make up up up your mind (Yeah yeah, yeah yeah) Whenever you got got got the time (Yeah yeah, yeah yeah) Call me up and say you're mine, mine, mine~
Camila's P.O.V.
It was Saturday night and I finally felt rested. All those sleepless nights had finally got the best of me and I spent most of my Friday night sleeping, straight through to Saturday afternoon. I haven't heard from Lauren, which sucked, but there was nothing I could really do. I gave her MY number and left the ball in her court. That part didn't bother me so much, I said what I had to, I told her how I felt about us and that I felt something for her, whether she feels the same way-AND I HOPE SHE DOES-that's up to her, I couldn't help, but glance at my phone.
COME ON…CALL ME! TEXT ME! SEND ME AN OWL WITH A MESSAGE; I DON'T CARE! JUST SOMETHING!
Pull yourself together Cabello! If she wants to get a hold of you, SHE WILL. That's how things work right? If you want to be with someone, you'll find a way, it's just how it is. If it's worth something to you, you make it happen-NO EXCUSES, so pull yourself together!
~KNOCK-KNOCK-KNOCK~
I ran down the stairs two steps at a time. I was so excited to have the girls sleep over tonight and I didn't mind the distraction one bit. I missed them so much.
I opened the door, "Dinah!" I pulled her into a gigantic hug, "ahhh so happy you're here."
"ughh, Mila, you're I can't breathe," she squeaked out.
"Sorry," I chuckled at my best friend, "I just REALLY missed you." I said as we both made our way to my room.
She sat on my bed as I sat on the chair near my desk, "Normani and Ally on their way too?"
"Yeah, they should be here within the hour," she said nodding her head, "SOOOOO," is Dinah being weird? I know her like the back of my hand…she's definitely being weird, "what's new?"
I furrowed my eyebrows, "nothing, just school and well…"
"ANNNNDDDD..." Her eyes wide, waiting for me to finish.
Here it comes, THE SHOCKING news of the night.
"I'm breaking up with Austin."
"Oooohhhh." She simply nodded.
WHAT. THE. HECK. Nothing? No WHAT! WHY!
"Did you not hear me?" I perked an eyebrow.
"I heard you Mila, I knew this was coming, you never LOVED him," she stood up walking around my room, looking around, "you were NEVER in-love with him," she turned to face me, hand on her hip, "to be honest, I'm surprised you didn't break up with him before our senior year."
My eyes were wide staring at my best friend, "why didn't you say anything?"
"Mila," she walked closer, "you're my best friend, and I'm here to support YOU and YOUR decisions." Her eyes intense, nodding up and down, "WHATEVER it is, WHOEVER it is, I LOOOVVVEE YOU, that's enough for me and I will ALWAYS support you." She said extending her hand, grabbing my shoulder.
Why is she being…WEIRD? Yes, weird and why are all her words emphasized?
~Take a walk on the sunny side No it's never too late for you to feel alright Running away with me can't be wrong Here's another simple tune, just sing along
Ups and downs, lost and founds Just let go
We gonna be fine (Yeah yeah, yeah yeah) When you make up up up your mind (Yeah yeah, yeah yeah) Whenever you got got got the time (Yeah yeah, yeah yeah) Call me up and say you're mine, mine, mine~
"Thanks…I know; I love you too." I smiled squeezing her arm.
"Camila…are sure there's nothing you want to tell me? Nothing new?"
Why do I feel lost right now? What is she trying to get at?
"ahhhh," I was drawing a blank, "no." I shook my head.
She turned around in frustration, "I SAW you Mila! Gosh! We've known each other our entire lives and you can't even be honest with me!"
SAW ME? SAW ME WHAT?
"Dinah what are you talkkk-"
"With your teacher! I saw you!"
OH SHIT.
"Yeah," she nodded up and down, pointing at me, "SHIT is right."
How did she know I was thinking that…she is my best friend, duh.
"Oh my gosh Dinah," I put my head in my hands, "I-I-I" damn I'm stuttering, "I'm still figuring things out," my breathing picked up, "please don't hate me, please don't hate me, please don't hate me." I kept whispering in my hands.
I didn't want my best friend to hate me.
I felt two arms wrap around my body, "Mila, what are you talking about," she let go, lifting my head out of my hands as tears flowed from my eyes, I was so overwhelmed I couldn't stop them, "I could never hate you."
I sniffled, "then why did you sound so angry a second ago?"
My best friend's eyes and face softened, "because you didn't tell me you were in-love."
WHAT. THE. FAHHHHHKKK…IN-LOVE-NO, Nooooo, no? Maybe? Oh geez.
I scrunched my eyebrows, "Nooo, I know I FEEL something for Lauren, but in love, NO, not possible, it's been like two weeks," I rolled my eyes.
Is it possible?
"Oh Lauren…is that her name?" she wiggled her eyebrows making me laugh.
I slapped her shoulder, "I love you and I'm sorry I didn't say anything, I've been kind of confused with everything happening so fast, and her being a HER and on top of that she's my teacher." I flashed her a look.
"It's alright, I could never STAY mad at you," she chuckled, "and it doesn't matter to me who you love," I shot her a look as she said the word 'love', she rolled her eyes, "so…you LIKE, this Lauren?"
I nodded, flashing her a full-blown smile, "yes."
"I could tell, the way you looked at her with your eyes all dreamy," she batted her lashes, teasing me.
"Wait…where?"
"The back of the gymnasium, you were taking so long I decided to go find you and well…yeah," she chuckled, "So…Ms. Jauregui?"
I nodded.
"She's a looker and on that bike, well done Mila, well done." She nodded up and down as we both began to laugh.
Gosh I love my best friend!
I spent the minutes we had together filling her in on every detail before the other girls came, I wanted to keep it just between us.
~No more sad songs No tears, life it ain't that long No more sad songs One life, one shot One love, I'll give you all I got One love, one shot, one shot
We gonna be fine (Yeah yeah, yeah yeah) When you make up up up your mind (Oh oh, oh oh) Whenever you got got got the time (Yeah yeah, yeah yeah) Call me up and say you're mine, mine, mine~
~BUZZ-BUZZ-BUZZ~
What the heck, I glanced at the clock…2AM. Who the heck is calling me at 2AM!
~BUZZ-BUZZ-BUZZ~
"Mila, I swear to God if you don't make that thing stop I'm throwing it out the window," Dinah said sleepily.
"Dinah, don't swear to God." I whispered as she groaned placing a pillow over her ears.
I grabbed my phone…UNKNOWN NUMBER.
I hopped over Ally and Normani and made my way into the hallway, closing the door behind me, "hello?" I whispered and waited a few seconds.
"Camz," a husky voice let out on the other end, making my knees weak.
"Lauren?"
"I'm outside."
OUTSIDE!
"Outside my house?" I whispered a little shocked.
'"Yes."
"I'll be right out." I hung up the phone and took a deep breath.
I closed the front door behind me, my brown orbs looking down the driveway and there she was, straddling her bike, hands crossed on the handlebars, her long brown hair draped down her back, the light above surrounding her body, she's beautiful.
BREATHE…JUST BREATHE.
I slowly approached her as she got off her bike, standing in front of it, we were just inches apart "hey," I was so tired, but I couldn't help but smile at the sight in front of me, I hadn't heard from her and now she's HERE, in my driveway. "What are you doing here?" I placed my hands in my sweater pockets, her shimmering green eyes in full view; they were all I could see.
"I couldn't sleep," she confessed, her voice soft.
"I can tell," I let out sarcastically, flashing her a half smile."
She playfully rolled her eyes, her lips pulled to a half smile, "the last twenty-four hours I've been doing everything I could do NOT to think about you," she paused and I was taken aback by the words that jus left her lips, "this is crazy," she shook her head, letting out a little laugh, "it's been two weeks, this is crazy," she repeated, her eyes wide, "I noticed you from across the auditorium, the first day you walked into my class…late may I add." She let out a chuckle.
I could feel my lips pull to my eyes, "you did?"
She nodded, "I swear…there was something about you, I didn't know what, but then you finished my quote." She shook her head, almost in disbelief, "the one by Van Gogh, do you know how many times I've mentioned that quote in class or in conversation and no one has ever been able to finish it, but you," she gestured with her hands, "but you..." her voice soft, completely vulnerable, "you finished my favorite quote," she smiled as she reached towards me, my eyes locked on her face as she tucked a stray hair behind my ear, "and you completely blew me away." She smiled, her eyes bright as they locked with mine, I could feel my heart pounding in my chest and I had to remind myself to breathe again, "It was 1AM and then the six was on the second hand," she grabbed both of my hands from my pockets, closing the gap between us, intertwining our fingers, "and I couldn't get you off my mind, there was just no question on what I needed to do and now I'm here." she bit her bottom lip, her green eyes holding me, "I found myself in a straight line, running back to you," her lips pulled to a half smile, my heart beating so fast, it might bust out of my chest, "all this time," she shook her head slightly, "maybe I've been waiting for you."
She grabbed my face, pulling me in for a kiss, her lips were cold at first, but it warmed up quickly and danced with mine. Moving perfectly with each other, there was a hint of sweetness that came along with her soft, tender lips. My arms slowly made their way around her neck as we continued to kiss and I could feel her arms wrap around my waist, we finally parted when it was necessary.
"I like you Camila, in case that wasn't clear enough." She breathed out with a smile.
SHE LIKES ME.
I bit my bottom lip, staring into the most beautiful green eyes as I nodded.
"There is one thing Camz…"
"What," her expression turned serious, "what is it?"
"Are you still with your boyfriend?"
EHHH, WHAAAA? WHAAATTT?
"Ahhh, well NO and YES…"
Her green eyes narrowed, as they turned a shade darker, "NO…YES, it's one or the other."
I swallowed the nervousness in m throat, "well yeah, but-"
She waved me off, turning around, grabbing her helmet, hopping on the bike.
"Lauren." I grabbed her arm, as she was about to put her helmet on, "I want to be with you, I want to try this." I looked into her eyes.
"Me too Camz, but I'm NOT okay with being the OTHER person, figure it out, make up your mind." She put her helmet on and took off.
BUT I'VE MADE UP MY MIND!
I watched her disappear down the road, into the darkness and all I could think about were her words, everything she said to me; she felt it too. SHE FEELS THE SAME WAY. I need to fix this…FAST.
We're going to be fine, I'm going to fix this.
~We gonna be fine (Yeah yeah, yeah yeah) When you make up up up your mind (Yeah yeah, yeah yeah) Whenever you got got got the time (Yeah yeah, yeah yeah) Call me up and say you're mine, mine, mine
We gonna be fine When you make up up up your mind~