Author: hi and thanks to whoever reads.
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Slowly heading back to base Itachi's was in his own hellish pandemonium. It wasn't important why Hidan acted the way he did. When had it ever mattered to Itachi? Never. And it really wasn't important. His own life had been decided long ago, it couldn't be changed...couldn't.
Then why all of a sudden he was so damn bitter...unhappy.
Hidan was what Itachi would call bright, the man laughed and expressed emotions clearly. Didn't matter if they were those of deep annoyance.
But Itachi? What was he supposed to do. Here's an annoyance for him as well.
"Thinking so hard Itachi... is it really that complicated for you?"
Itachi flinched but looking at Hidan walking beside him he understood he had been watched for a while now.
"I'm... confused" saying that the confusion only got bitter, why was it so easy to tell this brash man things he could never get outside to anyone else.
"What confuses you?"
Itachi looked at the horizon, the blurry lines, the shapes of trees far away, the blue patch of a stream.
"You came too late..." he whispered fastening up his pace, his face turning into a cold mask of indifference.
Hidan didn't try to catch up with him which was a good thing, the bitterness inside of him was so much it was about to overflow. And what would he do then? Scream, cry, fall down and hope to die?
There's was nothing to be done.
Hidan was too late in his life now when it was almost over.
Tired heart...still beating.
Xxx
"Did you notice them?"
"Long ago."
Five men were on their tracks, keeping away but obviously surrounding them. They had left the place without anyone seeing them except the monster so they couldn't guess who the trackers were but it was clear they were ninja.
"Guards at the mansion weren't ninja, they were all amateurs." Itachi mumbled just stating a fact, trying to get his brain on the problem and away from his raging thoughts. It was so much to look at a mission with clear mind, whole other thing was his emotions.
"They might have been decoy...it might have been all to get us like this. Tired and stupefied by what we saw...then again they might just be after the scroll we stole."
"Hn." Hidan was right, anyhow whoever the men were they had to be eliminated if they wanted to keep the mission going by rules and orders.
"Itachi...do you remember us talking about Pein?"
"Yes."
"Are you by any chance in Pein's way?"
It was ridiculous. Itachi stopped by a tree leaning on it as he took a deep breath.
"I am in the way of many, Hidan. But not many would want to confront me. I doubt Pein would want it."
He saw Hidan smirk looking him over.
"Then why are you following him?"
Hidan...
Itachi took another breath, no one ever asked, no one cared to ask cause they all thought all was clear with Itachi. Obviously a deranged psychopath looking for power only and what reason did they have not to believe it?
But looking in Hidan's violet eyes words refused him...to tell another occasional lie, why it seemed so hard.
"It was what I wanted."
True... it was what Itachi wanted.
"For what reasons?"
Hidan...
Leaning his head back on the tree bark Itachi glued his eyes to Hidan's gem-like ones. It hardly gave him any expression, not curiosity, then what was it?
"Many and just one."
"I see." Hidan stepped closer to him then giving a little smirk-like smile. "I'd like to say I understand you but I don't cause you want me not to. And its fine Itachi, I'm not here to know your reasons or to judge them. All I see is you're not happy and like this you will never will be. You Itachi, smell of sacrifice."
Also true...
"We should take care of those ninja or we can let them come closer to save our own strength."
"We let them come... you sure you don't want me to handle it...you look a bit too pale. You look like it's too much for you."
"I-It's natural."
"I noticed but still...a bit too pale and I don't mean the mission."
Itachi turned away. "There is no sacrifice that can't be made."
Hidan grabbing him by his shoulder made him flinch, the man turned him around roughly, violet eyes searching his like he could be seen through.
To Itachi's grief the man actually seemed finding something in his ruby eyes Hidan shivered. "Condemned by choice."
Shocked Itachi pulled himself away.
Just like that the mysteriousness of Hidan hit him on the head. Or...was it that obvious? Was his pain seeping out clear to seeing eyes?
"I'm not condemned...my choice was the right one!" he announced almost angry, after all Hidan knew nothing, will never know a thing.
"I did this once already Itachi, don't become that prissy bitch you were then! I'm just luring them close." Hidan gave him a small smile.
Itachi blanked for a moment it seemed getting even angrier would be deserved but at the same time he didn't quite believe Hidan, it might be an act but those words...those words.
Catching himself he swung his arm at Hidan. "Don't call me a bitch!" he snarled and then growled when Hidan caught his hand smiling at him.
"You're just so beautiful like this!" Hidan laughed and for a moment Itachi felt hot lips on his, gasping he didn't have time to think of a reaction Hidan pulled away and jumped off towards the people hiding in bushes.
Itachi stood frozen for a while then realising he was the decoy he turned around taking his hair away from his face.
His eyes flared with crimson flames as he beckoned for the strangers to show themselves, the plan of his was they would turn around right then and fall into Hidan's hands. Not that the plan was affirmed but it seemed logical.
However it turned different and the attackers seemingly wanted to deal with Itachi first, silly of them.
Hearing a soft footstep behind him he sensed danger, something stung in his neck and then he saw all going black.
Itachi wasn't worried he could move and fight with his eyes closed after all he was aware he is slowly loosing the light in his eyes. But what was done to him? Why did he feel so heavy and disoriented all of a sudden.
"I'll enjoy killing you." Came Hidan's low voice filled with such malice Itachi shivered, the sounds of a fight was what he heard next it all seemed to sound in Hidan's favour.
Meanwhile Itachi tried to figure out his own problem while the noises stopped completely surely proving Hidan's victory yet Itachi remained in the dark.
"Hidan..."
"Yea I know stay there."
He heard Hidan hastily walking doing something, it unnerved him so much...
"Come." Hidan whispered and he felt strong arms picking him up just to put him down on a different patch of grass.
"What happened, what you're doing?"
"I'll get it out of you."
"Get out what?" Itachi mumbled feeling Hidan fix his hair as he was laid back on his back.
"The poison Itachi... the beast we fought... there was something more there I don't understand it yet but I know you are targeted seems the needle in your neck was aimed to trigger it."
"But..." "
"Shut up we finish it fast so I can pray."
Itachi surprised himself by chuckling... Dear gods was those drugs put in him?
He didn't want to lose consciousness but the blackness was pulling him in or was it Hidan's hand on his chest and why did it smell like blood around him. Why the last thing he heard was Hidan speaking words he could not understand.
Xxx
Waking up Itachi felt odd, not like one should after rough mission in some sort of swamp after going blind and-...
With a jerk Itachi opened his eyes hoping to see.
It was midday it seemed the trees around him bright green, he could see...he could see clearly. Closing his eyes he took a deep breath, calming himself.
Slowly he opened his eyes again squinting at the bright sunlight.
He could see...everything.
"Hidan..." turning his head he found the man crouched looking at weapons, most likely sorting them for finishing the mission and to return home alive.
Turning the man grinned at him. "It took longer than I thought, much more poison in you Itachi than you know."
Itachi nodded dumbly looking at the violet eyes from five feet he felt his blood leaving his face. "Your eyes ... they have deeper purple sparks in them." He slowly mumbled.
Hidan looked at him oddly. "Um...I'm aware?"
"I... I can...see them!"
Hidan then looked at him long and inquiring till finally the man stood up and came to him crouching again to take his chin and push his head upwards looking into his eyes seriously."
"You couldn't!" it was statement not a question, it seemed Hidan caught on.
Itachi pulled back standing up, his eyes searching objects in distance his hands were shaking by his sides and his heart was beating strong and hard in his chest. "What did you do to me?"
"Don't tell me you were actually blind?!"
"I was...getting there."
Hidan looked at him long Itachi could see it with the corner of his eye, the world, the way he saw it now was already forgotten. Getting closer to darkness he learned to feel at home there, learned to despise it.
"It is not in my power to cure it Itachi. Don't get your hopes up." Itachi snorted, It didn't matter, even if Hidan could it would only give him clearer vision of the end.
"No Hidan...my hopes are nearly fulfilled as is the only thing I get of this is..."
Turning he looked at the man, his expression dead. "Memory of purple."
Crouching by the long gone fireplace Itachi put kunais in his pouch strangely alerted by the fact Hidan hadn't moved yet.
"We need to change our route...Hidan where are the bodies?"
"I ate them."
Itachi froze and turned to face Hidan. "You?...Idiot."
Barking a laugh Hidan came to his side sitting on the grass. "Lighten up Uchiha, they are resting in bushes somewhere."
"I lighten up when all is done here."
"Impatient?"
"Very."
Hidan was advancing and he knew he should pull away and maybe retreat even further but he didn't.
Hidan took hold of his chin again and pulled his face upwards, the violet eyes looking at him deep, just deep enough to give Itachi another memory that won't let him sleep.
"Tell me Itachi, if you are so impatient, why you kept calling my name while you were unconscious?!"
Itachi stared in the purplish pools lost in himself...did he really, was his mind that weak. He had heard from Kisame he was calling Sasuke sometimes in his sleep but...
"To fasten you up." He retorted pulling his face away and inspecting a kunai...it was very simple and usual kunai indeed.
"Oh but I wasn't doing anything at the time...just laying beside you." The delightfulness in the words made Itachi swallow hard, part of him wanted to slap, hit, maim the man...other part wished he would have been conscious.
"We are moving out."
Short and strict, at least he hoped he was, getting up and fastening the pouch to his leg he straightened up just to find Hidan too close.
He was pulling back but Hidan was putting both hands around his neck pulling him close, so close he felt Hidan's breath on his lips. "Why are you so scared... is it so hard to admit you like me? I'm not asking anything of you Itachi. Your secrets are yours to keep, but is it really that hard?!"
It was hard, it was so hard to resist Hidan now... he wasn't strong enough and even tough he was still trying to pull away he was waiting.
Hidan looking in his eyes gave him another trademark smirk before he felt the man once again...soft and lazy-like was the touch, why it scared him so much. Such gentleness was unknown, even more so coming from another criminal. Did not Hidan try to kill his emotions? Didn't Hidan know it is easier that way? Why was Hidan so...happy to get involved?
"Hidan." He whispered quietly when he had the chance but really it just made him feel Hidan's lips on his better.
"For all its worth...let go."
How could he...he couldn't.
Hidan pulled him close, against the man he heard his heart racing, he heard Hidan's heart racing, maybe that was why he relaxed his lips now moulding with the pair against him.
It was just a kiss, yet Itachi couldn't deny it tasted like salvation, like a secret place...where he...was...happy.