Oh my gooooood! This is the worst feeling! I have already finished this chapter before BUUUT! T.T I wanted to save it and then publish but It's pretty stormy here so the internet fell and I LOST IT AAALL! Urgh! Unbelievable! I'm so, so, SOOO ANGRY AND SAD! Oh gosh!

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Chapter 5: Lost

Yo's P.O.V.

I was wandering in streets and looking for something interesting. Asuka wanted to try some attractions so we ended up separated and now I was alone with Calico. There were lots of shops here selling souvenirs, toys and food. I looked at the appealing deserts and deliciously smelling meals and started drooling over them.

I tried to ignore those appealing things and continue on walking, but! The fluffy cream on flans, those beautiful chocolate decorations on cakes and the people eating them while saying "This is wonderful" or "So sweet! I love it" made me yearn for it. In the end, I couldn't resist anymore and bought one strawberry flavored Crêpe.

So good! I thought and took another bite.

„Hey! I want to try it too, Miss!" Calico suddenly demanded.

I gave him a little part of the sweet and heard Calico's flattering words about the it.

And once again, I was going somewhere unknown. This place was very big and full of people enjoying the festival. It would be almost impossible for me to find Black rabbit or Asuka or Izayoi here since it was so crowded.

"How am I supposed to find him here?" I sighed.

"You talking about that boy?" Calico questioned.

The only thing he got as respond was a simple nod.

I was kind of bored. What would I be able to do since I'm all alone? I envied Asuka and Izayoi their ability to always find something entertaining. Maybe I should follow their example? No, no, no, and NO! If I were to follow Asuka's example... well, that would be really unimaginable because I lack authority and confidence. And being like Izayoi was even more out of question! I could never think of myself with that cheeky smile and rebellious behaviour. Nor would I be able to pick and win a fight with anyone who irritated me.

That freedom, strength and independence those two possess is really admirable. They are so strong-willed and confident that even I believe that nothing is impossible for them!

"Calico!" I shouted as I realized that the cat jumped down from my shoulders and started running somewhere. "Calico! Where are you going?!"

"I think I just saw him" he said. "Follow me!"

"Him? Who- Izayoi?!" I asked confused.

"I think I saw him while looking around. You said that you have to find him, right?"

I didn't respond because of being too busy with squeezing through people. We didn't get too far from our original positions and stopped in a secluded place with almost no one there. It looked like a path to park. My eyes spotted a figure siting on a bench.

"Izayoi!" I called out and ran toward him. That's when I realized something wasn't right.

He was trembling

"Izayoi?" This time I lowered my voice and slowed down. "Are you alright? Izayoi?" no response.

I laid my hand on his shoulder and once again said his name: "Izayoi?"

Finally, he reacted. The boy stood up and turned his backs on me.

"Izayoi, are you feeling unwell?" I asked concerned.

"I'm fine" he whispered that quietly that I almost didn't hear it.

"Are you sure? Do you want to go-"

"I'm perfectly FINE!" he snapped and then covered his face. "Sorry"

Something was definitely wrong! Really, really wrong! I stepped in front of him and looked at him face-in-face what catched off guard.

His eyes... they were teary?

"Izayoi?" a shock was heard from my tone. He flinched and then put on his usual provocative smile.

"What? Haven't ever seen someone with allergy?" he said sarcastically.

"Allergy?" I repeated. Was it really just allergy? But just before he was shaking and looking like a lost or frightened child.

"Yeah, can't you see? I was rubbing my eyes this whole time that's why they are so swollen. Geez, what did you think?" His voice was back to normal too... could it really be just allergic reaction? Then why did he tried to hide his face? I questioned him about that.

"Pff, are you really stupid? Do you think I would like anyone to see me like this? With eyes like mosquito?"

So... just an embarrassment? Allergy? Swollen eyes from rubbing them? It was convincing and... really, I could NOT imagine that Sakamaki Izayoi crying.

"What are you allergic to?" A curiosity made me ask this question. I never knew that he had any health problems because... well, It was Izayoi. That super strong, energetic and tough boy with an ability to make anyone angry. Even me...

"Hm? To pollen" he sounded a little unfocused... like he was thinking about something else.

"Pollen? Well, this season is just about pollen" a pity was left in that sentence. "Why are you here? Alone..." a question escaped from my mouth when I decided not to think about it anymore.

"Like I said, I don't want anyone to see me like this" he repeated with an apparent irritation in his voice. "And you? Though you would be with Ojou"

"Asuka and I parted a while ago" I answered him.

There was an awkward silence between us. I wanted to say something but Izayoi was faster: "Well then, I'm going"

I remembered the task we, Asuka and me, were given by Black rabbit before inviting the blond here. And that's why I stopped him: "Wait!"

"What?" he demanded an explanation why I prevented him from running away.

"Could you please stay with me? I don't like being here alone" Half of it was lie. But only half of that was truth. I didn't want to be alone, but his presence also wasn't something I desired this much. Not that I didn't like him it's just that I didn't know how to deal with him. This teen was unbounded and free. He was also very often influenced by emotions and easily got hotheaded, no he was hotheaded. I liked these characteristics but I didn't know how to speak with him.

"Oh? Did you by any chance fall for me?" he smirked.

"No!" I denied. "I just hate being alone. And I can't find Asuka"

"Miss, you are blushing" Calico suddenly spoke up as he returned to my shoulder.

I felt the blood rushing to my face as he said it. But then I composed myself and focused on Izayoi: "Well?"

"Fine, don't mind at all" he accepted my request and headed back to me. His eyes were reverting back to normal. "Where do you wanna go?"

I looked at him and then on a ground. Where, indeed. "Anywhere is fine" I responded optimistically.

And so we headed back to the crowd and looked for something fun.

Izayoi was quiet whole time so I started a conversation: "Do you like festivals?"

It took a while for him to answer. "I don't dislike them." And fell silent again.

"Izayoi?" I called his name but he didn't seem to hear me. Wait... headphones. "Izayoi!" I shouted this time so he would hear me. He finally paid me enough attention and I took advantage of it: "Take of your headphones, you don't listen to me at all!"

"Sorry, I will turn them off" he obeyed and then continued: "Well? Satisfied?"

"Can I ask you something?" a question popped in my head and I wanted to know the answer.

"Huh? Yeah"

"Why do you always wear headphones?" I noticed that this startled him a bit, but his calm face immediately hid it.

"Why? Well..." he paused. It seemed he was thinking about how to answer me. "They calm me down" he admitted.

"Are they precious to you?" this slipped through my lips automatically.

"...They are"

And then silence, again. I really didn't know what to say. And it surprised me even more that the blond teen was also this reticent. Suddenly a wonderful smell drew my attention.

"It smells great" I pointed at the shop with barbecue. "I'm gonna buy some" and ran off. Izayoi just stood there and watched me as I bought the delicious food. Then I came back and gave him some: "Here"

"The same as before..." he mumbled.

"Excuse me?" I didn't get his statement.

"Just before, that stupid rabbit bought me the same." he informed me and looked at me with a cheeky smile: "I know what you three intended to do from the start" he declared and I just listened. And then realized it: We were revealed.

"How did you know?" I demanded an answer.

"It happened to me many times before" he said. "But you guys were also very obvious"

"Then eat it if you are aware of our aim" I commanded him. "You yourself have know that you should eat more. That's why made an effort to take you here and had you eat more."

That guy just chuckled and I was sure that something bad was in his mind now.

"I will do so, if you feed me" he tried to negotiate.

"Stupid pervert, just eat it!" I scolded him. And again, he laughed.

"Fine, fine. I was getting hungry anyway" and took his part.

From now it was easier to talk to him. Somehow the ice between us broke and we were able to speak with each other freely. Maybe it was because he didn't think about anything anymore so he was relaxed or his teasing made me feel more lively. Or maybe it was both. I noticed that he actually is cute when he smiles, much more cuter then when he sleeps.

"Miss, I'm still here. Stop daydreaming"

Izayoi's P.O.V.

"Where are my headphones?!" I yelled as I entered the dinning room. Just a while ago I was taking a shower and when I finished and started dressing up, I realized that those silver listening devices were missing. I looked for them, but the only thing I found was a letter saying:

Dear Izayoi-san.

Do you want them back? Come to the dinning room, please. If you don't, something bad will happen to them.

Love, Black rabbit.

"Ara, Izayoi-san. You came quickly" it was that stupid rabbit.

"Where are they?" I repeated and started looking around the room. I found Jin hiding in a corner... he was holding them.

"Hey pipsqueak" I called him. "Could you please return them?"

"I'm sorry, Izayoi-san" he apologized and then added. "Not until-"

A sound of door opening interrupted the boy and made me turn back to see who it is. The ones who came in were Ojou, Kasukabe and the loli vampire.

"Izayoi-kun, your hair is still wet. Were you that startled?" the long-haired brunette was clearly making fun of me.

"So you guys too?" I facepalmed and then gazed at the blue-haired girl. "Well? What did you want? Luring me here like this..."

She just put on that stupid smile and pointed her hand at the table.

"What the hell is this?" until now I didn't notice how arranged the table was. There was a lot of food on it, I could see all kinds of meat, from grilled meat to chicken, pork and veal.

"Dinner, of course" Black rabbit answered. "It's already evening, time to eat. All together" she emphasized the last word and I gulped. They carried on hunting me with that anemia thing. Geez, how persistent!

"Not hungry yet" I tried to excuse myself and averted eyes. I didn't want to eat anything right now and even more not anything from this. It was way too similar to meals she used to cook when she found out about that absurd disease. I didn't want to...

"Does that mean you don't want your headphones back?" I flinched. They were so damn stubborn.

"Jin, give me them back to me" I started to be serious. I felt cornered.

"I'm sorry, Izayoi-san. But not until you do what we say. It's just for your sake" he said apologetically.

"I already said it before! That lack of iron crap is just a nonsense! Why don't you just comprehend my words?! NON-sense" I rose my voice.

"We just want to have a proper dinner, together" Ojou snapped and forced me to sit down with everyone else.

I sighed... nothing could be done except one variant, but that contained a little violence. I sat in the corner of table and that stupid bluenette took a place on my right. "I hate you guys" I mumbled.

"But we like you, Izayoi-san" she just responsed with a sweet voice. "Well then, Itadakimasu!"

"Itadakimasu" everyone repeated and dig in the meal.

I looked at my plate and reluctantly started eating too. The taste reminded me of her but I continued.

About ten minutes have passed and I finished relieved that I managed to suppress those memories: "Thanks for foo-"

"Izayoi-san! Sit down! You have barely touched anything" that annoying rabbit stopped me.

"I-kun! You have to eat more! Sit down!"

Dammit! It's here, again!

"I'm full" I tried to convince her, but it was no good. She pulled my sleeve and made me sit down to the chair.

"You are not done yet" she stated and looked at me with a little threatening eyes.

"You won't leave until you finish it all"

Get out of my head! Stop speaking! Shut up!

The food, the taste, even those words! It's just like back then! It's just like before with her!

"Izayoi-kun?" I heard Asuka calling me with a sign of concern in voice.

"I-kun? Why are you looking at me like that?"

I leaned my head forward and covered mouth. I felt sick, near to vomiting.

"Izayoi-san?!" Black rabbit started panicking.

But I didn't care, nothing mattered to me right now. I was lost, lost in my memories of her.

Blood, there was a lot of blood. The scent of fresh blood was making me sick. It frightened me... she was lying on the floor. Unconscious. Bleeding. Without a sign of life.

Help me... please!

"Izayoi-san! Izayoi-san! Please calm down! What's wrong!" I registered a voice.

I couldn't breathe, every inhale and exhale started to speed up and I found myself hyperventilating. My eyesight was blurring and those despair cries of my friends were starting to be dull.

Why isn't she waking up? Why doesn't she wake up and smile at me like she always did?! Why isn't she comforting me like when I had nightmares? Please, answer!

I'm scared...

"St-stop it" I cried out, begging for all of those memories to disappear. "St..op!" I gasped.

"Izayoi!" another voice made its way into my ears. "Calm down! Izayoi! Everything is fine, calm down!"

I violently stood up and searched for a way to get out.

Get out!

I dizzily went to a window and opened it. Then I found myself jumping from it and running to a forest. Running away. I didn't know what I was doing nor why did I do it. It wasn't me now.. I have been lost inside that painful, fearful time loop. Again and again... I saw it. I felt it. Again and again.

"You aren't scared of me?"

"Why should I? You are my beloved son after all"

"Why do you care for me?"

"Because I like you "

"Do you really love me?"

"More than anything else"

"You won't leave me?"

"Never ever"

"Do you promise?"

"Yes, I promise"

"Why don't you wake up?!"

"You promised you won't leave me!"

"So... why?"

Why?