~Yellow diamonds in the light
Now we're standing side by side
As your shadow crosses mine
What it takes to come alive
It's the way I'm feeling I just can't deny
But I've gotta let it go
We found love in a hopeless place
We found love in a hopeless place
We found love in a hopeless place
We found love in a hopeless place~
Lauren's P.O.V.
This time felt different; everything about being with her was different. I looked up into her twinkling brown eyes and I could have sworn her chocolate orbs were revealing something I've never seen before. Her walls were completely diminished and you know those moments that people always long for, the kind that NEVER happens in real life; the one where you lock eyes with someone and you don't even have to say a word, NOT ONE and you know…you just KNOW that they love you. That's how I feel looking in her eyes right now…THIS MOMENT.
She lowered herself, her nude body against my own as I ran my fingers down her back, digging into her flesh, her lips crashing into mine passionately, her kiss so dominant, but her lips were so tender to the touch, completely defenseless.
She tugged on my lip before pulling up, her beautiful, chocolate orbs holding me, "are you okay?" she breathed out, barley audible and I was at a lost for words, simply nodding as she lowered her lips onto mine, kissing me once again.
Tonight was different, yes and I closed my eyes to the most beautiful sight I'd ever looked at…HER.
A slight, cold breezed touched over my body, her scent filling the room and it slowly woke me from my sleep. My eyes fluttered open as I reached over for a warm body, I wanted and needed but all I felt were empty sheets. I propped myself up, my eyes following where the breeze was coming from, the door to the terrace was open. I made my way towards the door, stopping at the dresser, pulling out a oversized plain white tee to wear, and stood by the doorway, leaning against the frame, my eyes zooming in on the petite brunette I was quickly falling for.
My eyes observed her for a few seconds. I lose myself in her every time, her love, whatever THIS was we were doing, it was intoxicating and I needed the abuse. I found myself fighting with my confidence; maybe I should give myself a chance and so many questions entered my mind, does she know I'm REALLY here, does she actually FEEL something for me, does she know that I LOVE her…I LOVE HER.
I continued to watch her, sitting on a chair, a glass of water on the side table as her eyes looked up at the sky towards the moon, "ahhemm," I cleared my throat to grab her attention, her bright chocolate eyes locking with mine, a half smile pulling to her eyes, "nice shirt,"
I squirmed a bit as I tugged on the white shirt I was wearing, which was of course hers and maybe a part of me wanted something of hers to keep, "yeah, sorry, I got cold."
"Don't be," she tiled her head, her lips pulling to her eyes even more, revealing her smile, "it looks MUCH better on you than it ever did on me," she extended an arm towards me, calling me over to her.
I made my way towards her, taking her hand in mine as she pulled me onto her lap; I wrapped my arms around her neck as she wrapped an arm around my waist, "what are you doing out here?" I brushed some strays off her face, "it's late."
~Shine a light through an open door
Love a life I will defy
Turn away 'cause I need you more
Feel the heartbeat in my mind
It's the way I'm feeling I just can't deny
But I've gotta let it go
We found love in a hopeless place
We found love in a hopeless place
We found love in a hopeless place
We found love in a hopeless place~
She leaned her body back on the chair, taking me with her, my body against hers as she held me, even tighter this time, "it'll be eight years next week," her eyes narrowing towards the moon, her face softening.
"Eight years?" I cupped her face; I needed to look into her eyes.
"Since my mom passed away," she exhaled, her eyes turning upward towards the moon once again, "whenever I can't sleep I come outside," her voice faint, eyes narrowing, "I um," she hesitated.
My heart was completely overwhelmed by the vision in front of me, I've NEVER seen her like THIS before, no walls, her heart completely open and it's wounded, I could tell, by the look on her face, the hurt in her eyes…she's been hurt, "you can tell me anything," I looked into her eyes…searching.
"At night when I can't sleep, I talk to the moon, hoping that my mom's listening, that she can hear me," she shook her head, her eyes watering, "I know," she shook her head some more breaking eye contact, "it's crazy, talking to the moon, trying to get to someone who's gone."
I lifted her gaze back to mine, "it's not crazy," I wiped a tear running down her face, "it's not crazy and I know she's listening."
She sniffled as I wiped some more tears with my thumbs, "how do you know…how?"
"Because of this," I placed my hand on her heart, her heart beat pulsating through my skin as we locked eyes, "tell me about her Camila…"
Her lips pulled to her glossy brown eyes, "when I was younger, I used to fly," she nodded, "didn't believe in gravity," she chuckled and it was the cutest thing I'd ever seen or hear, her chuckle.
"Oh really?" I smiled perking an eyebrow.
She nodded, "so Mani and I," her eyes wide, "well, one spring afternoon we were playing and I convinced her to fly with me."
"Of course you did," I began to giggle.
"Well lets just say during our flying lessons, I," her eyes wide, a smile plastered on her face, "I jumped off my balcony that overlooked our backyard," my eyes went wide, "no, no, no it was a first floor balcony type thing, still stupid, but yeah and I broke my arm, Mani came running down screaming and my mom came running outside to us," she shook her head, "I was so scared, I thought she'd be mad and that'd she'd never let me fly, but she wasn't, she looked into my eyes and said, 'Camz, you can still fly,'" sadness running over her face, I could tell, "'but I have to be there,'" she looked towards the moon, "I guess I haven't left the ground since then, since my mom passed away."
"She seemed beautiful," her eyes still locked on the moon and I leaned in, placing a soft kiss on the side of her face, "'Camz' huh?" I whispered in her ear, "that's cute."
Her brown eyes turned towards mine, lips pulling to her yes, "you think so?" I brushed my nose against hers and nodded, "She was beautiful," her gaze intense, "she would've liked you."
"How do you know?" I smiled at her adoringly.
She placed her hand on my heart, "this," she smiled, the silence taking over as she slowly cupped my face, pulling me to her lips, meshing together, so intimate, I had ALL of her.
***Two Days Later, Brunch, Dinah's Apartment 10AM***
Camila's P.O.V.
Dinah, Mani and I sat around the table outside on the terrace, it was the perfect weather for brunch outside and the view of the buildings and central park was just perfect.
Ally walked in through the door, taking a seat, "bout time!" I said, "I'm starving!"
They all began to giggle, "relax Mila, you'll be fed soon enough," Ally teased.
SOON ENOUGH, "what, I can't eat NOW?"
"No!" she hit my hand that was trying to grab a cinnamon roll.
"Ouch!" they all chuckled as I made a sad face, "why do I have to wait?"
"Lauren's joining us, she's just inside the house, she'll be out in a couple of minutes, so you can wait."
I felt my lips pull to my eyes, OH GOSH. Oh, well yeah, maybe I can wait a couple of minutes for the green-eyed girl…sure. I felt my heart do something, just thinking about her a couple nights ago…I've never had that before.
"What's she doing?" Dinah asked curious.
"She on my phone with Blake," Ally took a sip of orange juice.
Blake? The numbers guy…I hate that guy, WHY? Someone ask WHY! Ahhh Stop! You don't care! I don't care…I think.
"Why?" Mani asked…THANK YOU MANI! WOW Cabello, pull it together!
"Well Lauren left him a couple weeks ago at your restaurant's launch party," Ally perked an eyebrow, just disappeared on the poor guy."
She let out as I was drinking my water and I spat some of it out, yup, she was with me that night, DAMN…I still remember that night, the way she looked when the elevator doors were closing, how smooth her skin felt as I ran my hand up her thighs…I shook my head to snap out of my thoughts.
"Geez Mila, choking on your drink too," Dinah giggled.
I rolled my eyes teasingly.
Normani shook her head, "wait," a confused look plastered on her face, "WHAT?"
"Yeah," Ally continued, "so he's been wanting to get together with her again," she beamed.
EWWW…NO! Not happening! So you don't WANT Lauren, but you don't want anyone else to have her, you're selfish. SHUT UP! You want her and you know it…I don't know what I want so shut up!
"But I thought…." Normani looked like she was thinking hard…really hard and then she turned her attention to me, eyes intense, "um, Camila," she stood up, "can you help me out with something?" she gestured towards the house.
"Why," I flashed a confused look, "I'm hunnggrrryyyyyy," I whined.
"Mila please," she walked inside towards the kitchen as I followed her.
Gosh she's being weird, "Mani, what's your deal?"
She turned around her eyes wide, "you," she slapped my arm, what the heck! "You slept with Lauren!" she yelled, but in a whisper.
WHAT THE FUCK…how does she know…oh shit, I am so dead.
"Whaaa-whaa," ahh crap, "what, how did you know?"
She shook her head, "it's all coming together, you leaving early that night, you never leave early and her at the elevator,"
Damn! It's true; I never leave the club early.
"Ahh, you can't blame me for that!" I whisper yelled back, "I didn't know she was Ally's cousin at the club that's now even my faullll-"
"Whoa, whoa whoa…THE CLUB?" her eyes even wider as she slapped my arm again, OUCH! "I saw her coming out the elevator of my hotel, I'm guessing coming from YOUR penthouse."
SHIT! Wrong night!
She slapped my arm, OUCH! She was giving me THE look, "ahh, it's just after the night of the food and clothing drive she stayed and helped me and the next thing I knew-"
She began waving her hands around gesturing for me to stop, eyes even wider, nostrils flaring, WHAT DID I SAY NOW, "I saw Lauren," she smacked my arm, OUCH! "At the elevator the morning after the launch party!" she whispered yelled and kept smacking my arm.
FUCK! Stop sticking your foot in your DAMN MOUTH!
"Would you stop slapping my arm," I rubbed my arm.
"Are you CRAZY Mila!" Ally's gonna KILL you if she finds out you slept with-" she paused, her face softening as she observed me.
"What?" I asked a bit confused.
"You were with Lauren three times Mila…" her eyes narrowing at me, "OMG! YOU LIKE HER!" and that was NOT a whisper yell, just a regular yell from my best friend, yup.
~Yellow diamonds in the light
Now we're standing side by side
As your shadow crosses mine
We found love in a hopeless place
We found love in a hopeless place
We found love in a hopeless place
We found love in a hopeless place
We found love in a hopeless place
We found love in a hopeless place
We found love in a hopeless place
We found love in a hopeless place~
I grabbed her arm, "would you sush!" I peaked the few feet towards the outside terrace, three pairs of curious eyes locked on us, green ones piercing me, "and NO!" I whispered, "I don't." I don't think I was convincing.
A smile creeping on her face, "sure," she rolled her eyes a smile on her face, "sure you don't," she winked at me, "oh Mila," she hugged me, "I can't believe it!," she whispered yelled, "I'm so happy."
Ahhhh CRAP!
"Look Mani," I gestured with my hands, "wipe that cheesy smile off your face, I don't know, I'm figuring things out."
She just smiled at me cheesily, "seriously, can you not smile at me like that, you're freaking me out!"
"I'll try," she grabbed my shoulders, "but I'm soooo happy you feel something," FEEL SOMETHING? Ehhhh, ahhh, SHIT! "Normally I would say take your time…blah blah blah, but this is Ally's cousin, If it's not love Mila, let her down…sooner than later," she nodded, no more cheesy smile and I knew she was right.
"Am I interrupting something," her raspy voice said playfully as we both turned our attention towards her, her green eyes locking with mine, is this love, NO, is this love, NO, IS THIS LOVE…MAYBE; I'm not suppose to feel this way! "They're hungry, they sent me in here to get you guys."
Mani let me go walking towards the door, stopping at Lauren, looking her over with a cheesy smile, OH DEEAAAARRR LAAAWWWDDD, why Mani why! "So good to see you Lauren," she pulled her in for a REALLLLLY long hug…why Mani…WHY!
Normani made her way out to the terrace, "boy is she really happy this morning," she said to me with a smile plastered across her face.
"Yeah," I nodded, my eyes locking with bright, emerald gems, why am I nervous, "I think she has a secret crush on you," I wiggled my eyebrows, my tone sarcastic.
She rolled her eyes playfully, "yeah, SUUUURRREEE."
"That's now so hard to believe now is it?" she tilted her head, her eyes narrowing at me as my lips pulled to my eyes, "someone falling for you."
WHAT AM I DOING? WHAT IS GOING ON…she's just so, I don't know, she makes me feel ALIVE, it's been a long time since I've felt alive.
"COME ON! WE'RE STAVING!" Dinah yelled.
"After you," I gestured with my hand and we made our way out on the terrace.
I felt the nervousness take over, DO I FIGURE THIS OUT? HAVE I FIGURED THIS OUT…DO I LET THIS GO, SHOULD I? CRAP!