Oh myy goood, I'm sitting on my chair with eyes fixed on the blank screen at least two hours but still can't think of what to write in this chapter... Geez! I can't think of anything! What to doooo?! Maybe a flashback? Or I should stay in present? Or whaaat?! Anyway, I hope I will be able to make it in time...

Chapter 10: Those Words

Black rabbit's P.O.V.

"KYAAAH!" I howled. "I-I-IZAYOI-SAN?!" I screamed as I noticed the boy on floor.

I just wanted to go to the restroom, but when I opened the door, this boy popped in my eyes. He was leaning on toilet bowl with his head hung over it. I didn't even need to see what was happening, the sounds were enough for me to know he was throwing up.

"Izayoi-san!" I ran toward him and rubbed his backs. His face was kind of green and white, he looked like a zombie.

His stomach went on rampage for about five more minutes. When he finally stopped, he sat down and I gave him a glass of water so he would rinse his mouth. While gasping, the boy wiped his teared eyes and then closed them.

"Ano, Izayoi-san, let's go back to your room" I said while pulling him up and hanging his arm around my neck.

"Put me down" he commanded, covering his mouth with the free hand.

"But you shloud-" I didn't get to finish what I wanted to say because of the teen's sudden collapse.

"Izayoi-san!" I shouted a little startled and went down. "You can't walk?" I asked.

"I can" he laughed. "But I have a feeling that I'm still not done yet" and he puffed his cheeks. I got scared he would vomit again and started panicking.

"I'm so sorry! I know it's my fault that you are feeling so unwell and-" I was interrupted by the blond teen.

He gestured at me to come near and I did so. And of course, I regretted it. He grabbed my ears and screamed into them: "STUUPIIIID!".

But right after Izaoyi yelled, he covered his mouth and looked like another dose was on its way out.

"I-I should bring you a- no, no, I will go and find- no... that won't do! I-I'm gonna take a-"

"Restrain yourself, stupid rabbit" he scolded me and leaned his backs on the wall. "I'm fine, just need some time to calm down" and again, he closed his eyes.

"B-but..." I didn't know what to do so I just sat down like him and waited.

I left his room just a while ago and went to throw out the poisonous porridge I made (and also very likely a reason for Izayoi-san to be found here). Then I returned to his place to take care of the boy. And to my surprise, he wasn't there. I looked for him everywhere and that's when I found him in the restroom.

For some reason, I was nervous and started to play with my fingers. My mouth, like it had its own will, begin a converation.

"Izayoi-san, have you ever been ill?" and before listening to his reply, I just answered myself. "Of course not, you are always so strong" and laughed at my absurd question.

"You are always so energetic and strong, so I thought it was impossible for you to get a cold or anything" I smiled and still stared at my hands.

"I even believed that I wouldn't live enough to see you lying on the bed so cutely with such a high fever" I meant it, no one would think that he would be so vulnerable. But wait... did I just say cute?

"Ah, I don't-Not cute, I mean, it was a shocked to see you in that pathetic state and-" Oh my, this stupid mouth of mine slipped! He hates being pathetic and how did I call him again?

"No-no, I didn't mean you are pathetic nor cute, I just-" did I just insult him by that 'Not cute'

"Kyaah, no! I didn't want to say you aren't cute! You are cute, very cute and handsome!" I started panicking, what the hell did I told him?!

"Bu-but, ehm, eto! I said you are handsome but I don't like you so don't get the wrong ide-"

"Ah waaiiiit! Don't listen to me! I do like you, but not in that way so-"

"But I just told you not to listen-!" Right now my view-point was going up and down and right and left, I was so confused and startled that I didn't know what I was saying anymore. I was completely lost in every word I said...

"Black rabbit? What are you doing...here?" Suddenly, a girl's voice interrupted my attempts to express my thoughts.

It was Asuka-san, she was standing in front of the opened door with Yo-san by her side.

"Asuka-san, Yo-san! You are back!" I said taken aback.

"Yeah, more importantly, what are you doing here? And who were you talking to?" she asked with a little amusement in her tone.

"Well... Izayoi-san threw up, and was still feeling unwell so he wanted to have a break before going back to his room." I answered.

"And who were you talking with?" Yo-san questioned curiously.

"Ah, I was talking to Izayoi-san" why did she have to ask? It was obvious that I was talking with the blond, who else?

"He is sleeping" Asuka-san pointed her finger at the boy.

He was peacefully sleeping, breath perfectly calmed and head fallen on his right shoulder.

"Eh?" I blinked to confirm that my eyes weren't playing dirty. So I was saying it all just for myself? Soliloquy?

"EEEEEEEEEEEHHHHHHH?!"

Izayoi's P.O.V.

"I wanna go out" I demanded, piercing my friends by a single gaze.

"39 degrees Celsius (102.2 degrees Fahrenheit)" Ojou-sama informed me after measuring the temperature. "You can forget about it"

"I'm feeling as healthy as ever" I argued. The brunette just stared at me.

"Liar" Kasukabe-san said and came toward me. "If you are okay, then you won't mind this" and she blew on my neck. "Right?" that girl chuckled.

SO COLD!

I couldn't help myself and shuddered from a sudden breeze. But immediately restrained myself to follow what I just declared.

"I saw it" Ojou announced out of blue.

"What?" I asked a little confused.

"You shivered" she remarked. "I saw it"

"Yeah, me too" the animal girl joined. "You definitely aren't alright yet"

"I admit I'm still cold, but at least I'm feeling better" I talked back while attempting to stand up. However, those stubborns forced me back to the bed.

"Lie down," both of them commanded with cruelly strict eyes.

"Am I a dog?" I started to be irritated. I was fine enough to go out, so why couldn't they just let me go?!

"Do you want to be one?" this wonderful suggestion couldn't belong to anyone else than the rich girl... "You want to be treated as one?"

"Can I go out then?" I provocatively smiled and noticed her surprised face.

"Why does Izayoi-san want to go out so desperately?" That stupid rabbit finally caught up with our conversation.

"Yeah, I just wanted to ask that too, my dog" Ojou-sama asked curiously.

"Eh? If I had to be your dog, I would rather become stray" I said sarcastically and laughed.

"You wouldn't even live enough to run away" she stated, obviously insulted by what I said before. And again, I laughed, her annoyed face was priceless.

"Well? The reason?" she returned to the question.

"It's boring! I hate being on one place for such a long time!" I declared.

"Are you aware of your present condition?"

"Yeah, pretty well. But I'm alive and kicking so let me out"

"I-I think going out for a while won't do any harm..." Ah! Finally someone supported me! And surprisingly, it was Black rabbit.

"That's right! Just for a while won't be a problem, right?" and triumphantly grinned.

The brunette sighed and turned at Kasukabe. They did some kind of girl black magic to communicate without words and then directed their attention at me.

"Fine" she allowed and I stared in amusement at her funny face tasting lost.

Yo-san's P.O.V.

"Are you really ok?" I reassured while viewing the boy.

He was wearing a very thick scarf and a cotton sweater. In spring, on a sunny and warm day. And he was still lightly trembling. Maybe we should have made him stay home?

"Ok" he simply snapped and continued on walking. Asuka and Black rabbit were already more than five meters before us. Izayoi was walking kind of slowly so I thought that maybe, maybe he was tired...

"Can you walk on?" I asked a little worried.

"Of course," he answered. "We didn't go too far from community"

"But you seem a little tired" I remarked and looked at the blond who flinched.

"I'm not" he denied.

Seriously, if he was then why didn't he just say it? Because he was embarrassed? Lately he was lying a lot about his feelings...

"Asuka, Black rabbit! Wait!" I shouted at the two before us.

"Eh? What are you doing there? Come on, speed up!" Black rabbit said back, waiting for us.

Our destination was the center of city. Izayoi wanted to have a look at the place with people since he was isolated in that room. The festival ended yesterday so today there were only few attractions and people in comparison with two days before.

"It's kind of empty here" he said while looking around.

"Hey, kid! Are you cold?" suddenly a random man called and started laughing. Apparently he was talking about Izayoi's outfit.

The blond 'tsked' and looked like he was about to go and beat him up, but to my surprise he just ignored that guy.

"embarrassed, right?" Asuka noted with an entertained chuckle.

"Shut up" he retorted and quickened his pace. My girl friend just smiled.

"L-L-Loook, everyone!" Black rabbit screamed enthusiastically and ran somewhere.

"Wait, Black rabbit! Where are you going!" Asuka called her but didn't get a respond. That's when both of us went after her.

"Are you going?" I remembered the blond teen.

"Nope, don't wanna" he refused a little reluctantly.

Ah, I see. He was tired, right? He didn't have enough strength to run, am I wrong?

"But I can't let you here on your one, can I?"

"I can take care of myself" Izayoi sighed. I wasn't really sure about it...

"I will stay with you after all" I offered.

He frowned a little and then said: "Go after that stupid rabbit and rich girl, I wanna be alone" Was he annoyed by my overly worried behaviour?

"Well, be carefull" I commanded with a pretty sharp voice.

"I will," he absent-mindedly answered.

I guess I won't get anything better as a response... And I ran toward the two retreating figures.

Izayoi's P.O.V.

Really, why were they making such a fuss out of it? Yeah, I maybe had a cold, so what? It didn't matter at all. I hate when someone worry too much, it makes me feel like a burden. Because the only one who ever worried for me ended up like that...

Forget about it, moron!

I should really stop relating every word or behaviour of my friends to her since I'm still not able to cope with past... With my memories of her, the painful words... I still wasn't ready. I will never be.

I was spacing out, not looking where I am going and not listening to anything from my surroundings. It may have been because of that fever, those dulled senses were wierd... I was still feeling a little feeble but I didn't intent to show that. Not to those stubborn worry-warts.

I hate you

I already said to forget it, why was this sentence still in my mind? Rubbing into my every though and cruelly reminding me. I want to forget... I don't want to remember... I just can't face it yet.

And how could I even face it? Face those words from lips of someone I loved so much, who provided me home and love? The one I was secretly saying 'I love you'? Was it even possible? Was it wrong not to want to remember? Remember the blood? Her lifeless body? My stained hands shaking with her and calling 'Wake up!"?

I wanted to die

A bad thing to say? But isn't it the easiest way to throw out all of these things? To be freed from this guilt and pain? Isn't it?!

Stop thinking about these things! Stop thinking! I increased the volume of my headphones and pushed them more at my ears until I couldn't hear anything. I stood still at one place, forcing my eyes to close so that nothing would remind me of... Aiharu

I hate you

Stop...!

Suddenly, someone pulled my sleeve and made me look who did it. It was an old woman, she was saying something.

I took down the headphones and asked her to repeat it.

"She didn't say that" escaped from her lips.

What?

"Excuse me?" I politely demanded an answer.

"She didn't say those words" the woman told me again, grabbing my hand with a suprising strength.

"Aiharu didn't say that" she stared at me with serious eyes.

Wha- How did she know?

How did she know Aiharu's name?

Why did she told me that Aiharu didn't say those words?

Why was everything around spinning...?

Kyaaaaaaah, I managed to write it! Yes, finally! I hope you liked it. Please, review! :)