~I don't know what it is, but I love you, I love you, I love you
I don't know what you do but I love you ooooh baby
Baby, I don't know what it is but you drive me crazy.
Everytime I'm around you girl it feels amazing.
And I'm on my best behavior when I'm with my baby cuz I can't lose my baby oooh
I done met a lot of girls in my life but they not like you noooo!
I done been with the best and baby you the best of the best you the greatest oooh!
I don't know what it is, but I love you, I love you, I love you
I don't know what you do but I love you, I love you, I love you
I don't know what it is, but I love you, I love you, I love you
I don't know what you do but I love you ooooh baby~
Camila's P.O.V.
We both made our way back outside, taking a seat around the table. I must've been gone for some time because when I looked around, Luke and Blake were seated at the table, but no Lauren to be found anywhere, NO GREEN EYES ANYWHERE.
WHERE IS SHE?
"Where's Lauren?" Blake asked looking around.
FUCK YOU BLAKE! But thanks for asking…kind of.
"Um," Ally looked at her phone, "I guess she wasn't feeling well, she just shot me a text, she's headed to bed."
Someone should check on her…I SHOULD CHECK ON HER, SHIT! I NEED TO TALK TO HER! JUST GET UP AND CHECK ON HER.
I was just about to open my mouth…
"You know what," Blake stood up…I had an urge to tell him to sit the fuck back down, "I'm going to check on her, I just want to make sure she's okay."
"Oooo," Ally beamed, "that's a great idea! She's the fourth room on the west wing," she winked at him and I think I threw up in my mouth just a little bit.
It had been some time and Blake never came back. I was starting to sweat and my heart wanted to jump out of my chest. Everyone around me kept chitchatting but all I could think about was HER. Normani would shoot looks at me every now and then every time Cece would kiss me or something of the sort, but what was I suppose to do? This is us; this has always been expected! Cece and I, our families, this shit doesn't even matter to me right now all I can think about is him being with her, comforting her, holding her, it made me sick and all I wanted to do was go to her, but I couldn't…not with Cece here, SHIT and I REALLY wanted Blake out of here, it makes me sick, the thought of them together, why isn't he back yet…ugh! I need to go to bed before I do anything stupid.
~Lately when you're gone all I do is think about my baby
I'm so gone off your loving I don't know why
Maybe its the way you love me, hold me, kiss me cuz baby I
I done met a lot of girls in my life but they not like you noooo!
I done been with the best and baby you the best of the best you the greatest oooh!
I don't know what it is, but I love you, I love you, I love you
I don't know what you do but I love you, I love you, I love you
I don't know what it is, but I love you, I love you, I love you
I don't know what you do but I love you ooooh baby~
"Okay beautiful people," I raised my champagne, "thank you all for coming, but it's getting late, we have an early day tomorrow, cheers," everyone raised their glass and I chugged my champagne down…I needed it, "good night."
I made my way to the east wing of the house upstairs towards my room when I was interrupted on my way, she pushed me up against the wall, "sleeping already?" her eyebrows perked, a mischievous look on her face, she kissed my lips, "maybe we can have some fun tonight, huh, what do you say?"
"Look Cece, I've had a long drive and long night," I stepped to the side, "you just flew in, I just want to call it a night." I really did…I needed to regroup and get my shit together, which wasn't at all together!
She let out a puff of air, "you know what Camila, I don't know what the fuck is going on with you but you need to get you're shit together," she crossed her arms, "you and me, we're the same and we had an understanding, MY father and YOUR father will be here at the end of the week," SHIT, can't forget that now can we, "we need to look our best," she smiled her wicked half smile, "you and me, we belong together, you know that, I know that, everyone else is just…" she ran her index finger down my chest, "collateral damage."
COLLATERAL DAMAGE.
"I'm just lagging today," I lied, "tomorrow, I'll be better tomorrow."
She leaned in, kissed my lips…nothing, I felt nothing, like always and the physical had always been enough for me, "don't forget who you are," she whispered in my ear before making her way to her room.
I walked into my room flopping on my bed; it was the biggest room, of course, with the double doors that opened to my own personal deck that overlooked the yard and the waterfront. I always slept with the doors open; something about the sky, the moonlight and the breeze, the combination just seemed to sooth me right to sleep.
I propped myself up, walking out towards the deck and leaned on the wooden rails, my eyes scanning the view in front of me, it was a beautiful night, like most nights here…
LAUREN.
My eyes halted at the porcelain skin beauty in the distance, she was sitting on the dock, feet dangling; what is she doing out there? I quickly made my way outside.
I slowly walked down the dock, towards her, "nice shirt," she was wearing my shirt, plain white tee.
She stood up, not one word, walking down the dock past me, "Lauren," I gently grabbed her hand, turning her to face me, "please don't just walk away."
Her watery green eyes meeting mine, "what do you want from me Camila?" tears began to fall from her eyes as she shook her head.
I held onto her hand a little tighter, "I-I, I don't know…" I shook my head and I could feel the ache flowing through me, it wasn't because of how I felt but because I knew I was the reason for her tears…I'm the reason she's crying.
She abruptly tugged her hand form mine, "well if you don't fucking know, then I can't fucking help you," she spat as she began to walk.
OUCH. I DESERVED THAT!
I bolted, stopping in front of her, holding her hips, "Lauren, I just," tears began to flow from my own eyes and I couldn't stop them.
"You kissed her!" she tried to push me off of her and that just made me wrap my arms around her, holding her as tight as I could, "you kissed her," she said in between sobs, laying her head on my shoulder, almost surrendering, "…you kissed her," her voice cracking, barely audible.
I could feel her tears on my shoulder, "I didn't want her to, I don't want her…" I said in between my on tears and heavy breaths.
But YOU let her! YOU'RE SO WEAK! YOU DON'T DESERVE SOMEONE LIKE LAUREN!
She pulled her head up, her watery eyes looking into mine and it broke my heart, her eyes, they broke me, "Camila…" she sniffled as I cupped her face, wiping the tears running down her eyes, "I-I," she took a deep breath, "I love you,"
SHE LOVES ME.
I could barely hear her through her sobs, "Camila…I'm in love with you."
SHE'S IN LOVE WITH ME…and I lost it.
~Whatever it is I'm satisfied, I don't want you to ever change
Cuz baby you got me, and that's no lie
I'ma stay right here with my baby and I don't know Why!
I don't know what it is, but I love you, I love you, I love you
I don't know what you do but I love you, I love you, I love you
I don't know what it is, but I love you, I love you, I love you
I don't know what you do but I love you ooooh baby~
Next thing I knew we were in her room standing in front of the bed as I pulled the oversized white tee over her head, tossing it on the floor. My eyes scanning her fair skin, so smooth, so delicate, I placed my lips on her collarbone, kissing her up to her neck, sucking her warm skin gently, making my way up to her jawline, leaving a trail of kisses as she let out a faint whimper. I laid her on the bed gently, looking into her flickering emerald eyes, I remember the first time I locked stares with these same eyes, maybe a part of me knew, I had to know her, I just had to. I propped my body up, pulling my own top off, as I ran my hands down her nude body, stopping at her thigh; I brushed her hair off her face to get a better view, my eyes looking her over, her button nose, her lashes that would bat every now and then, the crinkles near her eyes that were barely visible, the freckles I could barely make out in the moonlight, but all of it defined her facial expression so much. I leaned in to kiss the corner of her mouth softly, pulling up once again, looking at her lips, red-pinkish, so full, so inviting, so alluring. I leaned in crashing my lips onto hers and all I wanted in this moment was her, to be lost in her entirely. I don't know EXACTLY what it is, maybe it's a whole bunch of little things, I've been with countless amounts of people, none even close to HER and with her it's DIFFERENT, maybe it's the way she loves me, the way she holds me, the way she kisses me, the way she looks at me as if I'm the only person that exists in this world, whatever IT is, she's got me, ALL of me. I knew I was undeniably in love and the consequences would have to wait 'til the morning; I knew they would come, but they would have to wait.
I love her; I'M IN LOVE WITH LAUREN JAUREGUI.