Okay... Heiji's accent is getting to me. I can't tell what's wrong anymore ^_^;
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Chapter 2: To Have The Chance

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Good night, sleep tight,

Wake up bright

In the morning light

To do what's right

With all your might.

- Good Night, Sleep Tight (nursery rhyme)

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I couldn't get the things that damned woman said out of my thoughts. They haunted me like some freakin' ghost hell-bent on revenge. I mean... sure the law was flawed. Humans, in their nature, are flawed creatures. That's what makes life interestin'.

But... what if we were wrong? I could'a done so much damage if I never met Kudo. An' those thoughts didn't help either. The little guy noticed when I would stare at him too long, thinkin' about that. Tokyo was safe with him here. The police force here was a good one. I'd seen enough of it first hand, but what 'bout everywhere else? Were there officers out there that weren't as good as they said they were? Sure. Did that bother me as much as it was now? Nah. An' these delusions that the lady said we had. I was seein' them everywhere now. Even with Kudo.

We were all lyin' to ourselves... That didn't sound right, but everywhere I turned, I kept seein' it. Kudo was only makin' that part of my dilemma worse. All three of 'em were lyin' to themselves 'bout one thing or another.

An' what about me? 'Cause of Kudo, I was lyin' to the Mouri girl practically every time I saw her. 'Course, that was for the best... wasn't it?

I never agreed with the guy on that point. These bastards that were out there, after him, would kill her anyway if they ever found out 'bout him. The little guy's been livin' with them for ages now. They wouldn't want ta leave potential witnesses. The funny thing about that is, I think I'm safer than Kudo's girl, an' I know. It ain't only knowledge that his demons are after, it's the threat of knowledge. I can't understand why he can't see that. If it were me, I'd rather have Kazuha know an' get somewhere as far away from me as she could. Yet he keeps spurtin' that not tellin' her nothin' is the best way to go about it. That's the biggest load of crock I ever heard. But I'm not gonna tell him that... 'cause I want Kudo to feel as safe as he can. Have to admit, I worry about the guy too much.

An' here I was keepin' my opinions to myself ta save him some piece of mind. This, in the end, could get the guy killed. He's very good at ignorin' stuff close to home.

I picked at the food in front of me, but none of it tasted right. Tokyo sure had some odd cookin'.

"How is it, Hattori-kun?"

I was sure my eyes were a little confused when I looked at her. I couldn't help it. Kudo's girl had a way of speakin' ta me so nice... not that I was attracted to her or anythin', it was just somethin' different that had a way of takin' me by surprise

"Ah, it's great." I put a hand behind my head and smiled, tryin' not to mention the strange taste... what kinda seasonin' did she use? ehh...

"Heiji..." Kazuha elbowed me hard in the side. I winced, glarin' over at her.

"What?" I whispered fiercely back.

"How come you never tell me my cookin' is good when I make lunch?"

I didn't even wanna answer that. After eatin' the same thing day in a day out like a one-trick pony, it got kinda borin'. Not that it was Kazuha's fault. I just didn't like eatin' the same thing all the time. If she learned ta mix it up a little, maybe I'd say somethin'. Maybe that somethin' would get me on her bad side an' she'd smack me again. She always found some type of double-meanin' in anythin' I said. If I say, 'hey, this tastes great!' she'd take it as meanin' that anythin' I ate of her's before that tasted bad.

"I can't believe it's so late." Kudo's girl looked at the small hands on some watch 'a hers. I never saw it before. Must 'a been new. It didn't really interest me, I was just bored an' happen ta notice.

An' she had a point. It'd already been dark out when Kudo an' I had figggerd out how the poor stiff bit it. If my mind weren't runnin' in circles, I probably would'a been more tired than I was. Kazuha still looked mad at me so I couldn't tell if she was. That girl always has energy when she's got it out fer me.

"Time for the kiddies to go to bed," the old man said over the sound of his small TV.

I got up, makin' for the room. Ya, maybe I just needed some sleep.

Some noise behind me got my attention an' Kazuha was at my side, kinda outta breath… and lookin' kinda cute.

"Heiji! You could at least put yer dishes away!"

"Sorry." I shrugged. What was the big deal? They were just some dishes.

But she punched me in the arm for it anyway. "Heiji! This isn't yer house! Ran-chan was nice an' made the food! The least ya can do is put yer own dirty plates away!"

Oh, right. I fergot ta thank her fer makin' the food. Ah well, I'd thank her tomorrow. It wasn't like I was goin' anywhere fer the next few days.

Kazuha shook her head angrily at me, stormin' into the bathroom ta get ready fer bed. I didn't really feel dirty an' my teeth ain't gonna fall out from one night 'a not brushin' 'em. I pushed old man Mouri's door open, getting' all the stuff I needed out. What with Kudo being so small, I had ta get more sheets outta the closet. It was usually fun sleepin' with him like that, kinda like I got a new little brother fer a few days that didn't annoy the hell outta me like most kids did.

'Course, Kudo came in lookin' like he was about ta eat lead.

"Hattori, what's been going on?" he asked me, all serious and closin' the door in a dramatic fashion. 'Course, anyone could'a heard of if they cared to try, but a closed door gave the impression that yer converstation was private, and it did take some work to listen in well.

"Nothin'. I told ya that."

"I don't believe you. You've been acting really strange. At first I thought someone was following you because you were looking around all afternoon, but then you were too out of it for that. So, what's really going on?"

"I've had a lot ta think about, that's all. Nothin' ta worry about. If I were in any kinda trouble, I'd warn ya before commin' over ta yer house, wouldn't I?"

"I guess." Kudo didn't look like he believed me. It was the truth. There wasn't any danger.

"Lighten up, man. Sometimes I think you've been in this game too long. Ya gotta stop actin' all paranoid all the time. Danger doesn't lurk around ever corner."

"Maybe not with you," Kudo sighed in a agreement. "I know. Maybe I am getting to old for this."

We both laughed at that. I didn't think about it before but laughin' with him was the first time I felt normal all day. Maybe my head really was in the clouds too much. Nothin' was gonna happen. The world was gonna go on just the way it has been for hundreds 'a years and I'm gonna do my best to make it the kinda world I wanna live in. I had ta forget about politics and all that garbage about the legal system. All the flaws in society had been there before I was thinkin' about them an' they'd be there after. Some things ya just hadda learn ta live with.

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I yawned, rubbin' my eyes. Why was it every time I showed up at Kudo's we got dragged into freakin' murder case after murder case an' when that didn't happen it was a kidnappin'. Really, the guy needed a holiday worse than the tooth fairy.

"Kudo, really man" I sighed to myself, leanin' up against the beach house an' starin' at the water. This wasn't the first time I'd been around him an' someone had drowned. 'Course, it wasn't the second time either. Both times the killer had used the ocean tides ta wipe away their presence. This time the victim was drowned in the bathtub, but his lungs were filled with ocean water. It was the forensics guys that saved us this time around. Never would'a figgered it out if not for that critical piece 'a info. Had ta thank they guys in blue. They knew what they were doin'.

It was easy enough ta find the killer after that. The woman wasn't as good at hidin' her trail once we had the correct place an' time 'a death. She folded when Kudo and I told everyone what had really happened. She filled us in on why. Some tragic story 'bout how she and the guy she killed had been lovers before he found this new girlfriend. They'd all been working together an' she couldn't stand seein' him happy with someone else. I'd heard the story before. I wasn't interested.

"Kudo?"

"Hm?" The little guy walked out the door. I'd heard 'im commin' an' it was pretty easy to tell the kid's footsteps from Ran's slower ones or Mouri's uneven thumps of either anger or triumph. In this case, he was off gloatin' somewhere thanks ta Kudo.

"I think there's somethin' wrong with me."

"And what else is new?" But Kudo seemed interested. He went over to the edge of the deck an' sat down. I followed 'im.

"I think I'm gettin' tired of all this."

"All this what?" Kudo looked at me, unfazed at what had just happened. I could tell it was different fer him, because he'd seen it too much. This was just another murder than he'd gotten involved with because he had to, 'cause if he didn't solve it, who would? An' why wait when he was right there ta have at it? Well, I could do that to, but I ain't no police officer. I don't like my days filled with the same death scene over and over, just different faces.

"We gotta go out an' do somethin' tomorrow. Somethin' normal. No death or nothin' 'cause I think Kazuha's gonna start avoidin' commin' with me if all we keep doin' is lookin' at corpses."

"It wasn't as if I could help it. The man on the beach was suspicious. I thought he was up to something. I didn't think he was going to be killed."

"I know man, I know. It's just... nevermind. I can't change who ya are." I winked at him. "How 'bout a quiet day at the apartment then? Nothin' bad can happen there."

Oh how wrong I was.

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The next day I woke up to sirens blarin', makin' me jump outta bed. Who knows, the house could 'a been on fire or somethin'. It was a reaction that most people get when they're faced with a noise that's tryin' ta blow their eardrums out.

Turns out, yes, there was a fire. In the house, not a chance. I could smell the smoke, so maybe that's why my mind went there first. Turns out the building next door was up in flames, takin' a married couple with it.

"What's goin' on?" Kazuha asked, commin' up next ta me. I watched her wipe sleep from her eye as we both started ta wake up. The noises an' burnin' smell already took most of the sleep from me. She must 'a been more focused on me than on what was goin' on. "Heiji?"

I grinned at her. I coudlnt' help it if Kudo an' I were more alike than I would 'a liked. After all, with two people havin' so much in common, it made it hard to beat him at anythin'. Right now though, that wasn't my concern. "I'll be right back. Call the fire station."

I tapped Kazuha on the shoulder and ran out the door, forgoin' my shoes and forgettin' I was still in my night clothes.

Okay, buildin' was on fire. First thing first, I had ta get myself wet. There was nothin' ta do that with. Okay, forget that. There wasn't time to be runnin' 'round lookin' fer water.

I rushed inta the building without thinkin' more on the matter. Someone probably called the cops already but the least I could do was make sure there wasn't anyone trapped inside that couldn't get out.

Damn apartment buildings. I didn't see anyone on the first floor. There wasn't much ta see even if there was someone there. The space looked like it was bein' rented out but no on had bought it yet. That was the funny thing. I could see. There really wasn't any smoke down here, let alone fire. That meant it started higher up an' I really shouldn't risk going in when I had no idea of the layout an' no way to protect myself.

People have called me stupid, quick ta act. Hey, I can't help it. I may not 'a liked havin' ta see dead people all the time, but when I was given the chance to protect them, that was a different matter. If I could save someone, I certainly was gonna try.

Bustin' in the door an' rushin' up a flight of stairs that zigzagged the same way Mouri's did, I had ta throw open the door on the second floor, bangin' up my shoulder pretty bad. Okay, this was someone's house now.

"Hello!" I screamed inside. "Is anyone there?"

No answer. I went further inside, just ta check. The smoke was really bad. It looked like it started in the kitchen an' I didn't see any foul play as I was goin' through the place. A kid's room on my right was empty an', after breaking down the door on the left an' findin' the parents room empty, I left, fellin' the smoke burn my lungs.

Fire wasn't the easiest thing ta see in an' my eyes were so dry that I could hardly see where I was goin'. Half the place was already burned so bad that the flames had gone upstairs without much resistance.

I couldn't make it ta the third floor. Just the heat was enough to push me back an' I had ta practically run down the stairs so I was able to breath again.

"Heiji!" Kazuha came outta nowhere before I'd even gotten five feet from the building. I pushed her back.

"What are ya, some kinda idiot! We gotta get away from here first!"

"Was there anyone inside?" Kudo was at my heels. I didn't even see the guy at first.

"Nah, at least, not that I saw. I couldn't make it to the top. The smoke was bad. I think it got to the higher floor as well, but the stairs weren't blocked. If anyone was in there, they should have been able to get out."

But, like I said before, that fire took a couple with them in the blaze. I don't know why they weren't able ta get away, maybe they were sleepin' an' got trapped - it was still early. Either way, I had let two people die. If I'd have tired harder, if I hadn't been afraid ta climb to the third floor... maybe I could 'a gotten 'em out.

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"Hattori?"

"Hm? Yeah?" I rubbed my eye, feelin' the soot an' knowin' I still smelled like smoke since I hadn't changed outta my clothes yet. The green tank top was fine but my pants hand gotten filthy an' there were soot marks on my skin.

"You know, it wasn't your fault."

"I know. Just wish I could 'a done somethin' more. You know."

"I know." Kudo sat down next to me. The fire had been put out hours ago. Just the one buildin' had suffered, aside from the fact that Kudo's girl couldn't see out of her window 'cause of the smoke damage. "Ran was putting out the idea that we should go out to eat today. Ojisan's too busy watching some T.V. program about all the top stars, so it would just be the four of us."

"I ain't that hungry." I stretched.

"Hattori, it's past two and none of us have eaten anything all day. If you don't go with us then Kazuha isn't going to either and both of you staying here and starving won't do anyone any good."

"It's not like that, Kudo. I really ain't all that hungry right now."

"Humor me."

I sighed. Man, even without tryin', the little guy was good at makin' ya do exactly what he wanted. It was no wonder he got all the cops followin' his puppet strings. One day that face of his ain't gonna win someone over an' then he's really gonna be in trouble.

I got up, runnin' a hand through my hair. "Give me a minute. I gotta get dressed."

Kudo nodded, leavin' the room.

Once he was gone I took the shirt off an' got out a brown one and slipped it on over my head, grabbin' my light-weight green jacket outta my bag, switchin' my burnt pants for some dark blue jeans. I grabbed my hat from beside the bed where I left it last night an' put it on backwards so that I didn't have ta worry about fixin' my hair.

Walkin' outta the room, I was kinda surprised to see Kazuha there an' not Kudo. She had her hands behind her back an' it kinda looked like she was blushin'.

"Heiji?"

"Yeah?"

"Are you... alright? You didn't get hurt, did you?" She looked at my face, somethin' that seemed like it was hard fer her to do. Yep, she was definitely blushin'. That got me goin' too.

"No, I- I'm fine."

She took my hand from my side, runnin' her finger over the side of it. I had the urge ta pull away from her but when I twitched, her grip tightened. The small mark was still there. I'd have the scar for years before it went away an' Kazuha had already seen it months ago.

"Good. I'm happy you're not hurt."

"Come on," I pulled my hand away this time. "It wasn't a big deal. I wasn't in there long."

I wasn't ready for it when she hugged me. Her arms around we were warm even through my jacket an' I was too shocked ta do anythin', be it hug her back or push her away. The moment my mind was back in workin' order, Kazuha had let me go an' turned away. I wasn't sure but there might have been tears in her eyes. "It doesn't matter. I'm still glad you're okay."

She ran off into the other room.

"Gessh. I'll never understand girls." I put my hands in my pocket, hidin' the scar. It wasn't her fault. She had been scared an' she didn't want me ta get hurt. Not that I would have let her go. I never would have let her go. Even if we had to fall together. It wasn't as if I could explain my reasons for that. Even I was confused a bit. I mean, I would do it if it were Kudo too, or Ran... wouldn't I? I clenched my hand into a fist. And it seemed she knew that.

Walkin' into the room after her, Kazuha had gotten herself back together. Kudo's girl was off in the corner fixin' his clothes an' I had a small laugh at that. Kudo looked evilly back at me as she finished fixin' his collar.

"Are we all ready to go?" Ran looked around at all of us an' I shrugged my shoulder.

"Where are we goin'?"

"Well, because someone's doing what ever it is that they want to do, my mom said she'd pick us up and take us out. She' hasn't meant you or Kazuha-chan yet, so I thought this might be fun."

"Yer mom?" Well, as long as the woman wasn't anythin' like her husband, we'd get along.

Kazuha seemed excited about it. I didn't really care. I wasn't hungry an' now I was about ta be treated ta a meal but someone I didn't know. Kudo's girl cookin' for us was one thing but I didn't like people payin' fer me. Heck, I didn't even like gettin' paid for what I did. My dad had the money an' I had no trouble spendin' it.

The woman pulled up in a white car that looked a awful lot like one of the ones Mouri always rented.

"Hello there." The woman parked, commin' out the door and greetin' us. "Hello, sweetie."

"Hi mom!" Kudo's girl was happy ta see her mom, happier than I would 'a been ta see mine. I didn't know squat about her but Ran was livin' with her dad so it was obvious she would have been seein' less of her mom. Of the two choices, I had ta wonder why she picked to stay with that idiot.

"Now you two must be Kazuha-chan and Hattori-kun. I've heard so much about you." She reached out her hand an' shook ours. I couldn't say the same about her. It wasn't often that I talked ta Kudo's girl an' the kid didn't like talkin' about personal stuff. I didn't even think about it before now but he knew so much about me an' I knew close ta nothin' about 'im.

Well, besides what everyone else didn't know. Kinda weird when I thought about it that way. The only things I really know are his secrets.

"It's nice ta meet you." Kazuha nodded ta the lady. The way her eyes were shinin' made me think that she at least had heard of this woman. Lookin' at her, she didn't really like like her daughter. Mouri didn't either. Kudo's girl must have gotten a mix of some other generations' genes or somethin' then.

It was nice. She took us out ta lunch an' everythin' like Ran said she was gonna. The only problem I really had with her was somethin' I couldn't describe in words. She just made me feel uneasy.

Not ta say she wasn't a nice person. A little stuck up fer my tastes an' more formal than I would like, but hey, there ain't that many people out there that aren't. Even Kudo gets on my nerves fer the same reasons. There was somethin' this woman didn't have though, that he did. I gave up tryin' ta figure out what it was.

Maybe it was just that she looked so much more... threatenin'? Kudo couldn't really pull off 'intimidating' with that face of his. She could. Made me feel like I was lookin' at a copy of my own mom. Didn't like mine, couldn't say I liked Ran's. Didn't mean they were bad people, just not my type.

"Heiji!" Kazuha elbowed me hard in the ribs before we were leavin'. "What's that matter with ya? You barely said a word!"

"What am I supposed ta say? I was listenin', ain't that enough?" I had heard more than my fair share of all of Mouri's faults. Not that I didn't already know 'em, but it seemed almost natural to hear 'im set on a spit when he'd full-out refused ta come with us. The rest had been Ran an' her mom catchin' up while I tried to sneak a few more interestin' conversations between Kudo. That woman had eyes like a hawk an' I had ta make sure not ta talk when she wasn't or she'd hear me.

"Gez, Heiji. You could at least try ta make conversation. It's like all ya can do now it talk ta little kids."

"And what's wrong with that?"

"Nothin' if yer five!"

"Who are ya callin' five?"

"Alright, already." Ran put a hand on each of our shoulders an' started leadin' us out. "You're causing a scene."

"So what?" I griped, but I let her have her way. I didn't like the eyes on me anymore than she did, at least, not just 'cause I was bein' loud. For any other reason, sure.

Ran's mom bid us goodbye after droppin' us back off at Mouri's. She shook Kazuha's hand an' I offered mine.

Even through glasses the woman manage to stare me down. "I heard that you and Kudo-kun were a lot alike. I'm sorry but I just don't see it."

I couldn't help it if my hand may have tightened around her's. I also couldn't help it if I may or may not 'ave growled at her under my breath in response.

The woman laughed an' let go of my head. "Well, maybe not all that much anyway. Be sure to take care."

Then she got back in her all-too-white car an' drove off. I didn't know if she'd been insultin' me or complimentin' me. With what I've seen Kudo do, I couldn't tell. Next to me, sometimes the guy was a real nutcase.

'Course, right when all the turmoil was finally slowin' down, we had ta go back.

Kazuha an' I still had school an' I couldn't go missin' it just 'cause I didn't wanna be there. Kudo was fun. I didn't have anythin' else to say about that. If there was a murder, I could count on him. If not, the guys still knew how ta keep things interestin'. 'Course, most of the time that had the girl's thinkin' I was some kinda pervert an' warpin' the kid's head or somethin'. Kudo's just as bad as I am, there's nothin' there ta warp.

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Yay. School. Not the best thing ta look forward to.

That damned woman at the school gates my first day back made it all the worse. Guess I wasn't goin' ta be gettin' home today.

I sighed an' let my bag rest against my leg. "What do ya want now? I've already done everythin' ya asked. If yer still feelin' so bad about yer job, go somewhere else. I'm busy."

"I've got a question for you, Hattori-kun, and I would like an honest answer."

If I thought Ran's mom had a stare on her, this woman could melt steal. It was all in the glare. I knew my own wasn't as intimidatin', though I did try an' throw it back at her.

"Yeah, what is it?"

"If you were able to save someone, no matter what the cost, would you do it?"

My glare wasn't so powerful when I was usin' most of my face ta frown at her. "Save someone in what way? And what do ya mean, no matter the cost?"

"I mean, if you were given the chance to save someone, would you do it? Would you do it if no one was hurt by your actions?"

"Sure, I mean. I think I would. Depends what we're talkin' about."

"Come with me. I'll show you."

She held out her hand ta me an' I got one of those ominous feelin's around me that I've gotten before. I felt this when after that nightmare I had with Kudo bittin' it. I had it again a few times when the kid was in danger. I never felt it retainin' ta me before.

"I can't. I'm busy."

"If you say so." She took her hand back an' smiled at me somethin' sad an' far less threatenin'. "But remember, life doesn't like to give second chances. I need your help and so do others. You could always turn back if you don't want to assist me, or you can walk away as you are, and the let the weight of what you're passing up haunt you."

"An' just what is it I'm passin' up?

"I told you, the chance to help people, to make a difference. I can't offer it to you again. I'm only going to get this one chance"

"Yer gonna have-"

"I'll explain later. I've never had something like this come up so quickly before. Have you ever had the chance to save someone, and you've passed it up? I've done it before, I'm not going to do it again, whether or not you agree to help."

I winced, thinkin' back on that couple. I could 'a gotten them out. The fire wasn't that bad. Maybe the smoke was, but I couldn't... What was wrong with me? I would 'a gone up there before. I went all out ta help Kazuha and Kudo several times now... Why did I stop?

"Fine." I held my hand out ta her this time. "I'll help ya, but my way. I don't know what's goin' on an' I'm gonna leave if I think yer messin' with me or somethin'."

"Deal."

That handshake felt so final. I could always walk away from this, it wasn't like she could stop me. There was always the chance of turnin' back, right?