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A week later – Sera's POV

I didn't know what to expect. I didn't know how to say everything to my parents. I just wanted for the time to fly and it would be over… just fast forward things… I didn't want to hurt their feelings… I didn't want to make them face everything, because deep down, I knew it wasn't their fault… circumstances made them like that…

I stared outside John's office. I wondered… The sky is an endless space, making to a one whole revolution till it reached the whole of the circle. I didn't know how and what makes this endlessness so special… however whatever the mystery was behind it, it managed to beguile me. I loved the beauty and peacefulness it exerted. /'I wish I am able to go as far as that and get of all this… leave everything behind… and simply be free and happy…'/ I thought to myself.

I placed my hand to the glass and let myself wonder on all possibilities. Few years ago I wondered and dreamed that by this time, I'll be in school with my friends. Having the time of my life… maybe have a boyfriend… and do mistakes normal teenagers do… learn from them… fall in love with the wrong guy… have a bad break-up where my parents have to be there picking up the broken pieces and dad telling me that there would be no guy messing up with me… normal thoughts on what I should wear for prom, or who my date will be… Maybe I'll even have some sleep overs where with Nat, I end staying awake laughing at our past tantrums… or maybe even break the rules in the funny kind of way… even throw huge pranks… maybe even join a band in school? I don't know… get my licence and start driving… dad had to teach me how to drive and get my permits… but we've been too busy that I missed many of the things… instead I'm here trying to pick up my mess… but I'm afraid to let go of all this… what's going to happen afterwards? I know where I am right now… I don't know how I'll be later… but then… I want to get all better… just forget everything and never dealing with this ever again. /'Damn! I'm not even making sense to myself!'/ I grumbled with myself.

Usually during this time of the year I used to beg my parents to let me go swimming in the pool… or spend a day on The Grace, and when we sail, I used to have a small swim… or even sunbath… I realised… was I comfortable enough to do those stuff? Am I comfortable enough to be that exposed? I prefer these warm clothes… not to mention… I'm cold all the time… I used to be so looking forward to wear a bikini or something a bit revealing yet still into dad's code… He always grumbled when a girl passed by with too revealing clothing. Even to my mother he grumbled ones for a bit of 'too cleavage dress'. Mum had to convince him to let me wear a bikini. I guess he wouldn't have to worry this year… I won't be looking at any kinds of swimsuits.

John's POV

I finished re-arranging my office for the session. I had to see how their family dynamics works, and maybe for once get in the clearance about how Sera feels about everything. I looked towards her and she was isolated. I moved forward and touched her shoulders lightly.

'Don't be nervous…' I encouraged as I saw her all enclosed to herself with her arms crossed and tensed up.

'I… I'm not nervous.' She stuttered.

'You're scratching your fingers Sera…' I noted as I guided her to my desk and took out a small box of adhesive bandages. 'I have to tape your fingers…' I instructed as I started doing each finger.

'I can do it…'

'You don't have to be independent Sera… I'm here to help you…' I cut her off while she let me bandage all the damage she had done.

'Do I have to go home today?' She asked me gently.

'Do you want to go home?' I asked her as I looked straight into her eyes.

'I don't know… part of me does…'

'…and the other part?'

'Does it make me a bad person if I don't want to go back home for now?' She asked me with glittery clear eyes, yet clouded with thoughts.

'No… it doesn't Sera…' I replied gently as I took her other hand and started working on it. 'Sera… you need to stay were you are comfortable… now and always…'

'…but… my place is with my parents… I mean… they brought me up and everything…'

'Honey…' I started as I stopped her from her aloud thought and made her look at me. 'Calm down… yes your parents brought you up… but right now you need to be in a safe environment. Don't get me wrong… your parents love you… but they need some time to work on their things and you need some time to get back on your feet…'

'…but I do have to go home sometime!' She reasoned.

'We'll do the hurdle when the time comes ladybug!' I replied as I kissed her forehead.

'Do I have to do this John?' she asked me gently and in doubt.

'We have to do this someday honey...' I smiled again. 'Don't worry... I'll be beside you all the time... I won't leave you alone...'

'Dr Flynn, Mr. And Mrs. Grey are here...' Julia notified us.

'Tell them to come in please...' I smiled at her, while I saw Sera tensing up again.

'Christian... Ana...' I smiled while they entered and Sera stood up.

'Hi mum... Dad..' she smiled weakly while they moved forward and hugged her. She returned the hug softly.

'How are you peanut?' Christian started. As he let her go from his embrace and searched for her eyes while still holding her from her arms.

'We missed you honey...' Ana continued.

'Yeah... I did too...' she replied slowly.

'Please sit...' I instructed while Sera stayed on the lonely far end chair.

'Does it matter where we sit?' Christian asked. He knew I take everything to heart.

'Probably…' I replied while Christian and Ana took the usual spot on the couch.. 'Well… I wanted us to all meet today, because I want to see how you react into a familiar environment.' I continued. 'Christian… how do you think she looks?'

'Well… I… I think she looks good…'

'Christian… holding back won't help… I want to see how you all deal with each other…' I explained gently. 'Ana… you haven't said anything… What's on your mind?'

'Well… I don't understand this… we were always close… and I missed this… and now… she's closer to her father!'

'Ana… just because she comes to talk to me doesn't mean she doesn't love you…'

'Well unfortunately that is not how I feel…'

'Ana, Sera has enough love in her heart to love us both the same… she just wanted to talk to me a bit…'

'How do you think she looks Ana? I asked her cutting her off. I wanted to know how both saw her in their eyes.

'She still looks very sick...' she replied again.

'...and what do you both want?'

'We want our daughter back... Our life back... I miss the old Sera I knew...' Christian admitted.

'I don't know what this is… she was always little Ms perfect, until she started starving…' Ana replied.

'…What do you mean Ana?' I asked her as I saw she let her head drop down.

'I want her to be able to talk to me and open up to me... She's closer to Christian... It's like I don't exist to her...' she replied again.

'Ana... For the millionth time we had this talk… Sera doesn't have any preferences to any of us... She only opened up to me!' he reasoned with her.

'...ohh and that makes it all better Christian?' she asked again while I realised that Sera had just stood up and moved towards the window lost into her own confines.

'No it doesn't...but that doesn't mean she doesn't love you Ana!'

'Is this how you usually get along?' I asked gently

'Yes… it is…' Christian replied back sternly. 'This is it John… the way it always is…'

'What about Sera? Where does she fit in?' I asked them gently.

'That's what drives me crazy…' Ana replied.

'She never gives us a minute's trouble…' Christian continued. '…up until all this happened, you hardly ever knew she was around…' He reasoned.

'You see… it's interesting to put it that way Christian… Look where she is right now, all alone to herself…' I replied as I motioned him to her. 'Sera… do you always go by yourself when the fighting starts?' I asked her grabbing her attention.

'What do you mean?'

'I mean… when things get noisy… do you go away by yourself not getting any kind of attention?'

'I don't want that kind of attention…'

'Uh…' I replied back. 'What kind of attention do you want?'

'I… I don't know…'

'I think you're pushing Sera too far John… She's not well…' Ana interjected.

'Ana, this is part of the problem… you two fight, Sera withdraw and you place your attention to yourselves…'

'Who wants that kind of attention?'

'Christian, please! Open your eyes! When Sera was a good sensible girl, you ignored her… now that she's sick, she gets more attention that she had gotten into her whole life… What's the point of getting better if she's going to lose all that attention?'

'Are you trying to say… that I'm the cause of all this…'

'I'm trying to get all of you to start paying more attention to Sera as a family. You must encourage her to depend upon you emotionally; otherwise, she is going to remain as helpless and isolated as she is right now…' I replied while I saw Christian tearing apart slowly.

'Christian… what's wrong?' Ana asked gently.

'I can't stand to see my baby like this… we did this to her…' He admitted. 'I love you peanut…' He replied back while I saw Sera's face twinge in pain and looking away from her parents.

'How do you feel about all of this Sera?' I asked her.

'I don't know… I don't want to know… I don't want it… and I hate it…'

'What do you hate?'

'My family… I hate them… that I want them… and I hate wanting them…' She cried.

'Why do you hate it?'

'I hate wanting … wanting something means that you'll never get it…'

'Honey, we've always given you what you wanted!' Ana replied. 'Everything you've asked for…'

'Tell me… one damned thing that I ever asked for… What did I ever ask for? I ask for nothing… and that's what I got… You both got everything… dad you got women all over you wherever you go… you've got mum adoring you and falling for you every second of the day. You both cheated on each other and hated yourselves for it and sort of fixed it all up… you argue everyday… and I got nothing for being good… nothing from you… and nothing from daddy…'

'That is not true! I love you… I wanted you to have everything!' Ana replied back.

'Everything that you wanted me to have! You don't let me chose my own clothes… you both never like my friends though I don't have any friends except for Natalie… you don't let me go anywhere without some security on my tail… I can't do anything without having you dad track my every move…and I can't take this pressure…'

'Don't talk to us like that!' Christian scolded.

'Daddy, for once in my life, I'm telling how I feel! I… I just want you to love me no matter what I do!'

'Sera!' Christian got up and went forward to cradle his daughter to his chest. 'We love you!' He stated again while Ana joined them.

'Honey… we both love you!'

'I… I just don't feel that way… Since Jason died… you've pushed me away… you both fought a lot… and I can't take it anymore. Dad you threaten to spank me every time… you didn't want to talk to me… You didn't want to have anything to do with me when I was raped…' She replied again while she crumbled to the ground while Christian held her tighter. 'Dad I heard you tell mum that I lost my title as your daughter… I heard you telling mum that you wouldn't be able to stop yourself from hurting me… that you wanted me to feel the pain your were feeling…'

'Shh… I always loved you peanut… I didn't mean that… I was angry… and worried… but I always loved you…'

'We're sorry honey!' Ana replied as she rubbed her back gently.

'Mum… you both always say that… and you both end up doing the same thing over and over and over and over again…' She replied. 'I… I don't think I believe the word sorry today… because it is just a word… and it takes more of that to fix everything.'

'What do you want from us Sera?' Christian asked chokingly.

'I want you to love me… no matter what happens… or what I do…' She replied as she looked straight into their eyes.

After all of them calmed down, and I saw that Sera was in better state, I decided to talk to both Christian and Ana alone. I paged for Julia so that she'll stay with Sera while I talked to them. After making sure that the door was closed, I decided to talk the adults as adults.

'How do you feel… both of you?' I asked them.

'Overwhelmed…' Christian simply replied as he passed his hand through his hair.

'How did we do this?' Ana asked more to her than to me.

'Ana, it's no use trying to put blame in these times, let alone ask questions like these…' I replied. 'However… my theory is that you were too confined into yourselves that you forgot the ones around you. Both of you are adults today, and you have a daughter to take care of. It's no use acting your as teenagers, because it won't get you nowhere… nowhere with Sera, and nowhere with your daughter! She's already lost a lot… what's it going to take you to realise that she wants you to accept her as she is? She's already killing herself slowly and slowly, and she still has suicidal thoughts. It's up to you both to make her feel wanted… and she wants you both… not only you Christian… not only you Ana! Both! And I'm emphasising this because your childish arguments about who she prefers is emotionally draining and honestly… it's stupid! You are both her parents!' I explained. 'So… what are you going to do? Are you going to approach this maturely or are you going to keep going back to square one?'

'We have to make some major changes.' Christian admitted.

'Yeah… we do...' Ana admitted. 'John, I only have one concern… actually two…'

'What is it Ana?'

'Sera's taken up self-harm and punishing herself for everything that happens to her… what is going to guarantee us that she won't relapse or anything?'

'She will never be cured of anorexia… she will have relapses… and it is expected… because things in life only get harder, and it's the only way she knows… but hopefully, we'll all be here for her to catch her when she falls and won't let her get this bad… she may need some therapy sessions when that time comes… but we would have to be cautious…'

'So this is a life time thing?' Christian asked.

'It can be… and it can be not… she'll always remain anorexic… she'll still have the consuming thoughts, but hopefully she'll learn to control them instead of letting them control her. She wants to get better Christian… She does… but she's afraid of letting go… she's afraid that if she does let go, then she'd have to deal with pain like we all do…'

'So it is a coping mechanism…' Christian stated.

'Christian, Ana, you are her parents, and I cannot tell you or impose on you how to raise her. You obviously did a great job because she's mature, sensible and knows how to clearly make right decisions.'

'I sense a 'but' coming…' Ana stated.

'…but… you need to be better… for her… I know Jason's loss wasn't easy on any of you… and I know that you haven't dealt with it… but you need to realise that you have another kid that is willing to give you unconditional love. It is your choice if you want to let Sera in… but remember… if you both are NOT going to be there for her… there are other people that love her… and that includes me and Rhian, our mother and father Christian and even Elliot…'

'What do you mean by that?' Ana retorted.

'Ana, the kid needs love and support. She's young… and she can go far in life! She wants her parents…but if you won't be there for her… we are going to be there for her… she's not a patient for me… she's family… and I don't turn my back on family…'

'I'm not letting any of you take her away from us!' Christian replied sternly.

'Prove to me that you can be what she needs Christian… Prove to her most of all that you want her! You have no idea how much she wants a family! You should thank your lucky stars that she didn't give up on you… and that she still wants you… don't throw this chance away… many parents lost their kids and never managed to get them back… don't be one of them…'

'We won't…' Ana replied.

'Not this time… not ever…' Christian added.

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